I cannot stand to go through this cycle again,

And you do not deserve to be blamed for things he did;

But how am I to know what is the right thing to do

When I obviously didn't learn my lesson the first time?

I am not trying to be vague,

But the feelings are hard to define

And if I could understand them enough to explain them

There would be nothing to write.

For the time being, I sit and watch them swirl around me