Paths

I watch as I follow the path
Try as I might, I cannot stop
The path leads to nowhere fast
Heading anywhere but the top
When a soul dies, it goes nowhere
So I guess I'm already dying
The path is one the soul won't share
Haunted by screaming and crying

Amber (my ex)

All I seem to do is dwell on the pain
It's like being caught in the rain
The longer I stay, the more I am stained
If I let her go, would I really be sane?
of course not...who's to blame?

So conceal your paper heart,
before it is ripped apart
Sadly, it's too late for me...
though I want a new start.

No more meeting with the hurt
That would be cheating, but I
can't help it when it's eating

But why do I want it? Why do I care?
When I know I'll never have it
Because nothing can be fair
But what the fuck do you care?
I'm running away, I don't know where
Don't try to stop me
I think you should stay there

I'll come to you if I'm needed
But don't make it a habit
Take my love if you need it
Grasp my bleeding heart and stab it

I won't even flinch as the black decay
spreads inch by inch
It hurts, but I hurt for you
It's not your fault I can never
be happy with you.

So inside I cry as I die, but you'll
never see me cry outside.
I need to be strong, so I'm sorry to say...

Goodbye.

Black Clouds

You're the right one for me
But I'm not the right one for me
Any way you look at it a tragedy
Prophetic visions, yet I am last to see
Too bad I never saw this coming
If I wasn't so fucking blind, I'd be running
Running from you, and yet I find it funny
I hate everything about you, yet you're stunning

The black clouds of conflict follows
Inflicting, silent and hollow
What a fool I was for believing you
But I don't worry, for I'm leaving you

You have no idea what happened, so oblivious
You have no idea, your inner demons are hideous
You have no idea you were loved by an idiot
You have no idea it could happen to any of us
Spare me your tears, pleae don't cry
You have no right, for I am the one who died
I left you behind to reach the other side
Follow if you want, if not, then goodbye

The black clouds of conflict haunts me
The conviction imposing cost me
What a fool I was for leaving you
What a fool I was for not keeping you

Please, forgive me...

Horrendous Masterpiece

Dead body floating time-worn and bloating
Giving the river a sick yellow coating
Lower portion missing, entrails showing
This one took a wrong turn, and death it earned
Another ending learned, something it yearned
For now I'll paint the wall, give it all the color
having a ball - and slam the body against the wall
sickly bodily fluids splattering, crooked body
rattling, rotting bones shattering - Coagulation
dissection vivisection? Horrendous complexion inner
reflection? Cranial invasion - stinging abrasion -
information for new creation - scalpel searches the
brain, surgical precision, it won't be making anymore
decisions - To finish my masterpiece, my art - Hurled
toward the wall, brain explodes apart

Dysfunctional Lover

Throw me away, that is the cost - as time passes
you'll realize what you lost - It's all a cycle,
condemned to wait for the right one to pass - When it
was your turn, you shattered my heart of glass - Just
like the others - placed along the line of
dysfunctional lovers - It's just too bad you ran out
of time, I've finally realized loving you was a crime,
If I could, I''d press rewind and erase you from my
mind - I wish I never met you, I wish I could forget
you, coz now all I do is hate and regret you - But for
forever and ever I'll remember my center of hope -
which to you was nothing but a fucking joke

Another Day

Another day
To change my ways
But I choose to stay
In peril, dismay

Reflection in the mirror
The black tear decends
Self-loathing creeping nearer
Encouraging the freak's end

But I decide to move on
Though the motivation has gone
I ask myself why to this day
I go on to see another day

A Thorn That Is Me

A thorn rises on the vine
That follows the rose to protect and bind
The rose of love is so devine
Promising love, only to never find

Another cloudy mind
Another victim blind
This time it is mine
The thorn in your spine

That thorn is me
A curs-ed tragedy

Little Man

Take a look at the little man
The very ground you tread he would kiss
This little man does all he can
Yet, it still comes to this

He's just a pawn in your game
But he's got the power to change
Anything and everything strange
Yet, you're convinced he's deranged

The question is, will you give him a chance?
To prove he is not like the others
Will you notice when he gives you the glance?
Discerning you amongst the others
All he wants is to love and be loved
But he wouldn't find it here
His undying love just wasn't enough
Nor was his pain and his tears

He's just a pawn in your game
But he's got the power to change
Anything and everything strange
Yet, you're convinced he's deranged

Little man, haunted by praying and hoping
Love is a rare thing, or so he is told
Little man destroyed, and forced in to coping
Why? All he did was treat you like gold

He's just a pawn in your game
But now he chooses to change
He chooses not to accept your pain
And realizes you are the one to blame