Frens, tink tis few days have being e most difficult days i have went thru.. i knw many will say that we have had a great time wif Dr John Avanzini.. i had too but in e midst of it, i have to go thru something that i thought it won't happen to me..
Since that day, i have being asking myself alot of questions.. a lot of ppl oso talked to me but i really didn't mean it, why won't someone understand and knw that i went back e second time for that purpose.. it really affects me alot, in my studies, in my serving and my strength to go thru all tis.. it is not e physical strength i'm talkin abt but e mental stress and strength to go thru everything and come out strong and not tink abt it..
Last few days, i'm really askin myself if i wanna be out of all tis but i always tell myself i wanna be here cos i love God and i won't be affected by tis.. i kept on telling myself i can go thru and i won't be affected but how many or u knw that e mental part is so hard to bear.. i'm really tired, God.. how can i be happy when everyday i'm goin thru meetin after meetin and to serve or attend svc as if nothing happen.. God i really pray u allow me to go thru tis stronger.. My heart will trust in u..
Frens, i really feel tired and wear-out from all tis so really do encourage me if u can cos i dun wanna throw in e towel and quit cos i really love God so much to let go..
i knw i won't let go of God and leave even if everything had being removed from me cos nothing will separate Him from me..
Pls do pray for me, i knw i will go thru it..