not much goin' on today
there wasn't much that went on today. i worked from 6-11pm. and then tomorrow i open 8-2pm... it really sucks when you have to close and then come back the next morning to open. (you can't really go out bc you gotta get some sleep) anywhoo.... i talked to marykate earlier today online and of course Miguel came up, so natually i had to ask and she said that she doesn't like him "like that" anymore. so that's good news for me. i still think she does though. but oh well whatever... the way i see it is if he liked one of us like that, then he would have made some kind of attempt by now so show us. i mean we never made it out to be a compititon and if he likes her then great... i'm happy for him with whatever he does... he's my bestfriend.
anywhoo... i really hate this morning fec shit... it sucks i gotta go to bed soon so i can wait up at the freakin' crack of dawn!! well time for sleepy night- night! sweet dreams everyone! and hopefully things get better!

p.s. i didn't know where to put this part but he (Miguel) wants to read this and i'm not sure if i should let him. i don;t want him to read it and take something the wrong way and then things become weird between us or something. oh well... i guess i'll take the chance.

I'M FRUSTRATED
okay, My Magoo( Miguel:) )was in Puerto Rico for a month and we talk the whole time he was there, so when he came back, on the 23rd I picked him up from the air port and it was all good and everything was like he never left. Then we hung out on Friday night and went out to dinner and hung out at my house afterwards for a little bit.
and i knew him and MaryKate weren't really talking but i encouraged him to talk to her. i even told him that she missed him and i told her to talk to him when he got back home, but i didn't think that when i called him while they were hanging out that MARYKATE would be answering HIS PHONE!!! i honestly forgot that they were hanging out last night or i wouldn't have bothered them. (it's just being respectful i guess)but it REALLY REALLY REALLY BOTHERED me that she answered when the phone was RIGHT NEXT to HIM. i mean, i know that he's not my boyfriend (he's not her's either though) but for some reason it just really got to me when she answered the phone! and i don't think i realized how much i really care about him until this happened!
it's my own stupid fault though, i guess, i should have gone out with him A LONG TIME ago when i had the chance instead of wasting my time with Billie. i mean look where he is now... he's stuck in a relationship with some girl bc he got her pregnant!! his life is basically over. i'm just glad i got out when i did. i can actually say that i'm moving on and not looking back when it comes to my relationship with Billie!!
i don't know what's going on with me but i had to get that off my chest. i don;t even think Miguel wants to be with me like that anymore, but i really want a relationship with him!