A Gathering of Strays

 

 

I’m dying. Slowly. From the inside out. My internal organs are shattering into tiny shards and bleeding me. My extremities are numb. As is my mind. But worse than the pain is the guilt. I’ve screwed up. Traded Heaven for Hell. I’ve gone from warmth and light to cold darkness and I hate it. I’m going to die here eventually. If they don’t save me. But after the things I’ve done, I’m not sure if I actually want salvation. I think when Death knocks on the walls of my icy prison I shall greet her with open arms. Even if she takes the form of My Alpha. I still think of her that way. My Alpha. She no longer claims me as one of the pard, but I will always be of the Blood Drinkers Clan. It’s part of who I am. The only part of me that I can remember.

 

 

Jeff was sitting on the back patio watching a light dusting of snowfall on the already white ground. The beauty wrapped itself around his creative brain and brought pretty words to the surface. His easy concentration was broken when Rob poked his head out the door. His breath misted in the frosty air. “Hey man, you know where Ash is?”

 

“Down at the new club. Why?”

 

He shrugged. “Just got a small problem I wanted to ask her about.”

 

“Rob, I’m an Alpha too. I can help.”

 

“Nah, it’s cool. I’ll just wait until she gets home.”

 

Jeff rolled his eyes and turned back to the wonderland before him. He was interrupted again by Heather. “Hey Jeff. Where’s Ash?”

 

Jeff tried not to grind his teeth. “Club.”

 

“Oh. How ‘bout Trish?”

 

“I don’t know. What’s wrong?”

 

“Uh, nothing much. Something I need their help with.”

 

Jeff stood. “Well, you’re shit outta luck then. Unless you ask me. The other fucking Alpha.”

 

Heather eyed him warily. “No, it’s fine. I’ll wait until one of them come home.”

 

He threw his hands up. “I don’t care. Wait then.”

 

Heather hastily stepped out of his way. He was headed for his room when Chris stopped him. “Someone is here to see the Alpha. But since she’s not here, I got you.” He grinned like he’d made a big joke, but Jeff snarled at him. Chris backed away slowly. “Just a joke, man. Chill out.”

 

“Go somewhere else, Chris. Now.” Jeff didn’t wait to see if he’d been obeyed. He smelled a human in the kitchen and went there. A short Mexican man stood by the table. “Can I help you?”

 

“I was told I need to speak to Ash.”

 

“She’s not here. But I’m Alpha Male. What do you want?”

 

The man shook his head. “The message I have is for Ash.”

 

Jeff pinched the bridge of his nose and tried to take calming breaths. “Are you deaf or just stupid? She’s not here. You can either talk to me or go away.”

 

“I’ll wait for the Alpha.”

 

“Fine. Wait in here all damn night.” Jeff stalked out to the living room and grabbed the cordless phone. Ash picked up her cell on the third ring. “Come home, please.”

 

“What’s wrong, Jeff?”

 

“Oh, nothing much. Rob’s got a problem that only the Alpha can handle. As does Heather, but Trish will do if she can’t talk to you.”

 

“Why don’t you handle them?”

 

“I’ve tried. They want you. And I forgot to mention the little human bastard in the kitchen who’s refusing to speak to me too.”

 

“Human? What’s a human doing at the house?”

 

“I don’t have a fucking clue, Ash. It won’t tell me.”

 

“It?”

 

“It didn’t tell me its name.”

 

“Did you ask?”

 

“No.”

 

“Jeff, do I really need to come home?”

 

“I don’t know, Ash. But no one seems to think I’m capable of solving problems.”

 

Ash sighed heavily. “I’ll be there soon. I’ll deal with Rob, Heather, and the human. Then we’re going to talk about this.” She hung up.

 

Ash stomped into the house almost thirty minutes later. She went straight for the kitchen and the waiting human. “Who the hell are you?”

 

“My name is Rey.”

 

“Uh-huh. And what the hell is so damned important that you just had to see me?”

 

“I got a message for you.”

 

“What?” Ash was starting to lose her patience.

 

Rey stood and pulled his shirt up to his neck. His chest was decorated with several tattoos, but that wasn’t what he was showing her. The letter ‘S’ was carved into his flesh. It started just below his throat and ended below his navel. Ash stepped closer and inspected the wound. The jagged edges were starting to scab over, but a few deeper places still looked fresh. “How’d you get this?”

 

“A wereleopard.”

 

Ash shook her head. “This alone is probably not enough to transmit. Wereleopard lycanthropy is one of the harder ones to contract.”

 

“Swell. Except the bastard cut up my back and legs too.”

 

“Shit.” Ash sat down and motioned for him to as well. “Nothing to do now but wait. The full moon is still a week away. I’d suggest you come back here that morning so we can keep an eye on you.”

 

Rey nodded and stood. “Who did this?”

 

“I was hoping you could tell me that.”

 

“I didn’t see his face. But he had claws. He wasn’t a cat.”

 

Ash blinked in surprise. As far as she’d known, she was the only one with that ability. “But you didn’t see his face?”

 

“All I saw was long blond hair.”

 

Ash’s eyes narrowed. “And he told you to come see me?”

 

“Yeah.”

 

“Okay. Thank you.” She started to leave, but stopped in the doorway. “Are you a praying man?”

 

“Yes. Why?”

 

“If you shift you won’t have any marks from your human life. You won’t have that ‘S’ on your body. Pray you have to live with the scars.” She left him with that cryptic message and went in search of Rob. She found him in Kane’s room playing chess. “What did you need to see me about?”

 

Rob continued to study the pieces. “Uh, I figured it out. I’m fine.”

 

Ash rolled her eyes and lightly flicked his ear. “Next time go to Jeff. He can take care of stuff the same as I can.”

 

“Yeah, sure Ash.”

 

Ash closed the door and went to Heather’s room. She wasn’t there so she went to find Jeff. He was also nowhere to be found. With a sigh she headed for her bedroom. Clothes were strewn around the room. Heather and Trish were steadily chunking things over their shoulders. Ash spotted Jeff on the balcony. “Problems ladies?”

 

Trish shrugged. “Heather’s looking for a shirt.”

 

“And between the four of us girls she can’t find even one?”

 

Heather shook her head.

 

“Then go shopping.” Ash pointed her thumb out of the room.

 

“Trying to get rid of us?”

 

“Uh-huh. So get. Both of you.”

 

They left without another word. Ash opened one of the French doors and smiled at her brooding Alpha. “Hey sugar.”

 

Jeff only grunted.

 

She seated herself in his lap and curled up with her face in his neck. “Don’t be grumpy. That’s an order.”

 

“I’ll get right on that.”

 

“Why don’t I believe you?”

 

He shrugged.

 

“Please don’t be grumpy? Is that better?”

 

“Little bit.”

 

Ash raised her head to meet his gaze. “You’re so cute when you’re mad.”

 

He rolled his eyes. “Leave it to you to make a joke about no body respecting me.”

 

“They respect you, Jeff. They’re just used to coming to me with their problems. Even before I became Alpha.”

 

“Well, I’m Alpha too.”

 

“I know sugar. And we’ll have to make sure everyone knows you can handle issues as well.”

 

“What about that little human bastard?”

 

“He’s a different story.” Ash told him what Rey had said.

 

He gave a low whistle. “Sounds like our ex-enforcer.”

 

“That was my first thought.”

 

“Do you understand the ‘S’ though?”

 

“Not a clue.”

 

“So should we take extra precautions? Just in case Adam decides to strike closer to home?”

 

“How? We don’t have enough people to post a 24 hour watch.”

 

“Isn’t there some mystical shit you could do?”

 

“Not me. But I know someone who’ll tell me who can.”

 

“Mark?”

 

Ash snorted. “Not bloody likely.”

 

“You need to make a few calls?”

 

She gave him a wicked grin and slipped off his lap. She came to rest between his spread legs. “Later. You’re still grumpy. Let’s see if I can’t change that.”

 

Jeff bit his lip in anticipation and helped her unbuckle his belt.

 

 

 

A while later they walked downstairs to find Kevin carrying boxes into the house. Shawn followed him with a much lighter load. He gave his Alphas a bright smile when he noticed them. “Hey guys.”

 

“What’s going on?” Ash gave them a puzzled look.

 

“Kevin’s moving in. Is that okay?”

 

“Now he asks us.”

 

Kevin shook his head. “Don’t feel too bad. He didn’t really ask me either.”

 

Shawn just shrugged and went up the stairs past Ash and Jeff. He disappeared into his room. Ash turned to Jeff and they shrugged. “Guess it’s okay with us.”

 

Kevin nodded and followed Shawn. Ash continued on her way to the living room. She didn’t see Micha, but Nicky was on the couch. “Hey, sugar. You know where Micha is?”

 

Nicky patted at his clothes as if looking for something. “Sorry, it seems I left my Micha radar in my other pants.”

 

Ash gaped at the blond. “When did you get a sense of humor?”

 

“Just kinda popped up one day.”

 

Ash rolled his eyes. “Well stop it. That was a nasty surprise.”

 

Nicky only smiled and Ash saw Micha come from the kitchen. “I’m right here, Ash. What’cha need?”

 

“I need you to find someone for me. Illyana Grey. I need to speak to her.”

 

“Do you know what city she’s in?”

 

“She owns a shop in New Orleans. But I don’t remember the name of it.”

 

“That shouldn’t be too hard. Give me a few minutes and I’ll have a phone number for you.”

 

“Thanks, Micha.” Ash turned around and jumped when she saw Kane standing behind her. “Damn! You scared me.”

 

“Why are you looking for her?”

 

“We need someone to ward the house. She has more fey contacts than we do. She’ll know someone around here who can do it.”

 

Kane nodded but still seemed unsure of her intentions. “Fine.” He walked away.

 

Ash stared after him, but let him go. Jeff looked confused. “What was that about?”

 

“Illyana Grey is his mother.”

 

Jeff’s eyes widened. “Oh.”

 

“Yeah.”

 

Micha came back and handed her a piece of paper. “Here ya go.”

 

“Thanks, doll.” She went back upstairs to the office.

 

“So what’s going on?” Micha flopped down half on top of Nicky.

 

“Extra precautions against Adam.”

 

“Ah. Of the fey persuasion? Sounds like fun.”

 

Nicky gave his lover a baleful stare. “Not fey enough for you, dear?”

 

Micha gave him a loud kiss on the cheek. “I wuv you, Nicky.”

 

“Uh-huh.”

 

Jeff rolled his eyes at the two. Just then the front door burst open. Jeff turned, ready to fight, but ended up laughing. Drew had the trunk of a very large Christmas tree on his shoulder. Eventually Shannon emerged holding the pointed top as high over his head as he could. He sent Jeff an impish grin as he passed him. Amy ran around in front of them and set a large red tree stand on the floor. Drew lowered the massive evergreen into the plastic container. After Amy and Shannon secured it, they stepped back to admire their handiwork.

Ash came down to see what all the commotion was and received a face full of silver tinsel. She swiped a hand across her eyes and glared at the offending decorations. “What’s all this?”

 

Trish giggled and threw her arms around Ash. “It’s almost Christmas! And it’s been forever since we’ve been able to celebrate it. Gabrielle being all pagan and shit.”

 

Ash’s eyebrow shot up. “Something wrong with being pagan and shit?”

 

Trish kissed her cheek. “Nope. Only if you’re Gabrielle.”

 

“So that’s why that monstrous tree is taking up space in the living room.”

 

“Uh-huh.”

 

Ash rolled her eyes and changed the subject. “Jeff, someone will come by to ward the house tomorrow or the next day.”

 

“Cool. Do you know what they’ll need?”

 

“Nope.”

 

“Blood.” Nicky piped in. “Wards work best if blood is used to draw the runes.”

 

Shannon stomped his foot. “Enough! I’m tired of all this depressing bull shit. Think happy fucking thoughts!”

 

Drew lightly petted Shannon’s blond head. “Calm down, Tinker Bell. Go get the ornaments and we’ll start decorating the tree.”

 

Shannon ran to Heather and yanked the Wal-Mart bags from her hands. He whipped back around to Drew. “Got ‘em.” He plopped down on the floor and started pulling boxes out. Ash sat down on the couch with a tolerantly amused smile. Trish took the Santa hat off her own head and put it on Ash’s. She kissed her surprised Alpha’s nose and went to help decorate.

 

Eventually Shawn drifted down and joined in, leaving Kevin to finish moving his stuff. When the tree was fully covered, Shannon looked around the room. “Who gets to put the angel on top? I think our esteemed Alpha should do the honors.”

 

Ash looked up with startled eyes. “Huh?”

 

Jeff gave her arm a pat. “It’s the most important ornament, dear.”

 

“I can’t reach. Darn. Guess you’ll have to pick someone taller.”

 

Jeff got up and pulled her to her feet. “I’ll lift you.”

 

“That’s okay. Really. I don’t like my feet dangling.”

 

Shannon handed her the angel and Jeff wrapped his hands around her small hips. He easily lifted her up enough so she could impale the holy symbol on the pointed top of the tree. Once the angel was secure he lowered her back down. “See, that wasn’t so bad.”

 

Ash gave a mock shudder. “I’m gonna have nightmares for weeks.”

 

Jeff laughed and smacked her butt. “You’re so cute when you’re trying not to give a shit.”

 

Ash tried to growl, but ended up laughing. “I have work to do. You heathens be good.”

 

Micha raised his head from Nicky’s chest. “Need help?”

 

“Nah. You look comfortable. Stay where you are.”

 

Nicky wrapped his arms more securely around Micha. “He was planning on it. You’ve been stealing him away enough lately.”

 

Ash just shook her head and headed for the office.

 

She was in there the next day when Shawn tapped on the open door. “Hot blond guy at the door.”

 

“And you’re up here?”

 

“He’s asking for you.” Shawn shrugged. “Maybe he’s straight.”

 

“Or maybe he’s not here for sex. Ever thing of that?”

 

“I try not to.”

 

Ash laughed and went downstairs. A tall man with short bleach blond hair and dark sunglasses was standing in the foyer. “Hi. I’m Chester.”

 

“Like the cheetah?” Ash immediately lost her smile. That was a very Adam thing to say. And those dark sunglasses were just like the ones Adam had always worn. She had to shake off a sudden sadness. She missed her friend, but he was dead. He just didn’t know it yet.

 

Chester was still smiling. “Cheetah, huh? No. But I get that joke a lot. Actually, I’m here to do some wards for you.”

 

“Oh.” Ash noticed his high cheekbones and pointed ears. “You’re the fey.”

 

“Yes, I’m The Fey. There’s only one.”

 

“Oh great. Another comedian. Just stay away from Nicky. I don’t want you rubbing off on him.”

 

“Sure thing. So, mind telling me a little about what’s going on?”

 

Ash explained about Adam. “We just want to make sure he’s not going to sneak up on us in the middle of the night.”

 

“Good idea. Show me where all the openings to the house are.”

 

“Even windows?”

 

“Yep.”

 

“That’s gonna take a while.”

 

“Then I hope you plan to feed me.”

 

Ash had to smile. “I think we could manage a meal or two.”

 

Several hours later Ash made the slightly drained Chester a sandwich. He looked at the plate and she grinned. “Typical boy. I’ll make more. That one’s just for starters.”

 

“Cool.” He inhaled the food and patiently waited for more.

 

Ash had just handed him a large stack of sandwiches when she heard the front door click. She put her finger to her lips, indicating Chester to be quiet. She crept out of the kitchen and peeked around the corner. Rob was very slowly opening the heavy oak door, trying to keep it from squeaking.

 

What’cha doin’.”

 

Rob yelped and turned around. He put on his best innocent face. “I, uh, just thought I’d get some fresh air.”

 

“Try the back door then, sugar.”

 

“Ash, I’m bored. I didn’t think I was still under house arrest.”

 

“Did you think I was just kidding? You’re not going anywhere until we find out for sure who attacked you.”

 

“But I’m BORED!” He wailed.

 

“So go have Kane entertain you.”

 

“He’s sleeping.”

 

Ash shook her head. “I’m sorry, Rob. No. You’re not leaving.”

 

Chester walked up, still munching. “Why don’t you just send someone out with him. It’s a crime to keep someone locked up when they’re innocent.”

 

“Funny. The U.S. Government does it all the time.”

 

Rob’s face lit up. “He has a point, Ash. You can send someone out with me. That way I could burn off some energy.”

 

As if on cue Nicky and Micha rounded the corner. Ash smiled. “Hey. You headed to the club?”

 

Nicky didn’t answer. He suddenly seemed very interested in the floor. Micha gave him a strange look. “Yeah. You coming?”

 

“No, but I do have a volunteer for extra labor.”

 

“Oh yeah?” Micha swept Chester in an appreciative gaze.

 

“No dear. Rob’s bored. And I’ll feel much safer letting him out with Nicky around.”

 

“Ah. Well come on then.” Micha herded Rob out the door. Nicky hurried after them.

 

“That was strange. I thought Nicky would react to having another fey around.”

 

“Oh,” Chester too had a strange look on his face. “He reacted alright.”

 

“Excuse me?”

 

“If you hadn’t guessed, I’m Unseelie Court.”

 

Ash blinked at him.

 

“Do you live with a fey and not know about the courts?”

 

“Nicky doesn’t talk about his past.”

 

“No, I guess he wouldn’t. And far be it from me to divulge his secrets.”

 

“Tell me more about the courts.”

 

Chester headed back toward the kitchen as he talked. “There are two. Seelie and Unseelie. Light and dark. One palace is all gold and bronze and the other glossy black marble. And the fey are just as different. For all its glitter, the Seelie Court is made up of dull fey. Don’t get me wrong they’re beautiful. If you go for that kind of thing. They don’t have much variety. Mostly golden perfection. But if you ask me, beauty is in the flaws. Take the Unseelie Court for example. We have fey of every shape and size, literally. If you’re not welcome at the Seelie Court we have our arms wide open.”

 

“Then why did Nicky come to such abuse at your hands?”

 

“You say ‘your hands’ like I was personally responsible.”

 

“For all I know, you were.”

 

“Too true. But fair Nickilaos is a vastly different story. He’s an anomaly. A genetic oops. Only a quarter Unseelie fey, but he looks Seelie. All that pretty blond hair. So he was a toy to the Queen.”

 

“Queen?”

 

“The Queen of Air and Darkness. I am one of her royal guards.”

 

“Does the Seelie Court have a queen?”

 

“King actually. The King of Light and Illusion. They are siblings.”

 

Ash snorted. “And I thought my family had issues. So anyone with mixed blood isn’t welcome at either court?”

 

“Not necessarily. We just don’t like human blood much.”

 

“Do fey from different courts ever have children?”

 

A dark look crossed Chester’s features. “Not often. That is a thin line for the fey to walk. To light to be dark. To dark to be light. To be a walking paradox is a painful thing. I know only one fey with mixed court blood.”

 

“Sounds like a close personal friend.”

 

“Hardly. The Queen has all her guards under a strict geas. Her bed or no ones.”

 

That struck a nerve in Ash. “Why?”

 

“We don’t question our Queen. Only obey.”

 

“Then far be it from me to question her. Once you finish eating, we’ll get back to work.”

 

“Anxious to get me out of here now? Want me gone before Nickilaos comes back?”

 

“Why do you call him that?”

 

“It is his fey name. He must’ve shortened it after he left.”

 

“Oh. And yes. I’d like you gone before he gets back. We’ve just recently started healing Nicky’s wounds.”

 

“I’m going to tell you just one little secret. Nothing was done to Nickilaos that wasn’t done to other fey. The only difference is that he was too human to enjoy it.”

 

“That doesn’t make it any more right.”

 

“From your stand point. He was never in mortal danger. And he bears no scars from our fun.”

 

“You know, Chester. I’m liking you less and less.”

 

“Then let’s not discuss Faerie politics. I’m a great guy once you get past the sadistic parts.”

 

“If you only knew how much you were asking.”

 

After Chester finished the wardings, Ash did rush him out of the house. And just in time, too. Not even a minute after he was gone, Nicky pulled up with Rob. “Hey boys. Where’s Micha?”

 

“Still at the club. He wanted to finish up a few more things. Rob was whining about wanting to come home. So I brought him.”

 

Ash smiled at Rob as he wearily brushed past her. She waited for Nicky to catch up with her before entering the house. “How’s Micha getting home if you brought the car?”

“He said he’d take a cab.”

 

Ash shrugged. “I’ll run down there and get him.”

 

“You sure?”

 

“Yeah. I left some papers I need anyway.”

 

“Want some company?”

 

“Sure.” They got in Ash’s Mustang and headed back toward the club. As they walked up, they both paused. The door appeared to have been forced open. Nicky shoved Ash behind him and cautiously entered the building. Ash hadn’t seen him reach for a weapon but when he turned around there was a wicked blade in his hand. “Micha’s here, but he’s in distress. I don’t feel anyone else though.”

 

“Let’s find him.”

 

Nicky shot for the stairs, so Ash searched the first floor. Before she covered half, Nicky thundered back down with Micha in his arms. “He’s been bitten.”

 

Ash rushed over to them. There was a small trail of blood coming from two tiny puncture marks on his neck. “Vampire. We need to get him home so I can cleanse that.”

 

Nicky nodded, his face pale with worry. He carried Micha to the car and climbed into the backseat with him. “One quick stop and we’ll go home. Was there a lot of blood around him?”

 

“No. I think he passed out from fear, not blood loss.” Nicky’s voice was thick with tears.

 

Ash glanced in the rearview mirror. Nicky was tenderly stroking Micha’s cheek. “He’s going to be okay, Nicky. This was a warning attack from someone. A healthy vampire could’ve overtaken him.”

 

“I know. And I left him.”

 

Ash knew nothing she could say would lessen Nicky’s guilt, so she stayed quiet. She drove as fast as she dared to the occult shop nearest the club. “Stay here. I’ll be back in a second.”

 

A few minutes later she returned and set a large brown bag on the passenger seat.

 

“What’s that?”

 

“Holy water.”

 

“Is that what you cleanse the bite with?”

 

“Yeah. And a cross.”

 

“Will it hurt him bad?”

 

Ash didn’t say anything.

 

“I won’t leave him. He never left me.”

 

“I know. But you can’t try to stop me, no matter what. If the bite isn’t purified, the vampire that bit him will be able to call him.”

 

“What’s that mean?”

 

“Micha will be in his complete control.”

 

“I won’t stop you.”

 

Ash nodded and got them home. Once at the house, Nicky carried him into Ash’s bathroom. Ash followed with the bag. Jeff looked worried as he caught up to her. “What the hell happened?”

 

“Micha got bit by a vamp. I’ve got to clean the wound. Keep everyone out of here until I come out.”

 

“Will you need help?”

 

“Nicky’s going to be in there with me.”

 

“Is that a good idea?”

 

“You wanna tell him he has to leave?”

 

“Good point.”

 

“I thought so too.”

 

Jeff gave her a reassuring pat on the shoulder and closed the bedroom door behind him. Ash entered the bathroom with grim determination. Nicky had seated himself in the large tub with Micha’s back braced against his chest. Nicky’s legs hugged Micha’s and helped hold him in place.

 

Ash silently set the bag down and pulled a small clear bottle from it. She unscrewed the cap and sat on the edge of the tub. Micha blinked and then opened his eyes. “Ash? Ash, I got hurt.”

 

Ash tried to keep the worry from her face and voice. “I know, sugar. But we’re going to fix you right up.”

 

“A vampire bit me, Ash.”

 

“I know. We have to cleanse it.”

 

He nodded and swallowed hard. “It’s going to hurt, isn’t it?”

 

“Yeah. A lot.”

 

Nicky softly ran a hand through Micha’s hair. “I’m here, baby. I’m here for you.”

 

Micha swallowed again and closed his eyes. “I’m ready.”

 

Ash had to wonder if she could do this. The water would feel like acid on an unholy wound. She steeled her resolve and tipped the bottle toward his neck. The moment the blessed liquid hit his flesh, Micha’s whole body bowed up and he let out a hideous scream. “Hold him, Nicky.”

 

Micha thrashed as if trying to get away as more water poured over him. His screams slowly abated until he was only breathing raggedly. “Did you make him pass out?”

 

Nicky nodded. “He doesn’t have to remember all of this.”

 

Ash wished she didn’t either.

 

Jeff was pacing the living room when Ash finally came down. She was pale and fatigue was written all over her face.

 

“How is he?”

 

Ash shook her head. “It’s not over yet. I need some one with Christian beliefs.” She looked around at the puzzled faces.

 

“Heather, do you still believe in God and all that?”

 

“Yeah, why?”

 

“Come with me.”

 

The two went back upstairs to the bathroom. Micha was drifting in and out of consciousness and mumbling under his breath. Nicky’s face was devoid of emotion as he held the other man tightly.

 

Heather shifted from foot to foot uncomfortably. Ash held out a small gold cross on a chain. “I need you to place this against the wound.”

 

“Why can’t you do it?”

 

“I have no faith in the Christian God. It won’t do any good.”

 

Heather slowly took the cross and squatted down. “I don’t know, Ash. I don’t think I can do it.”

 

Ash rubbed her eyes and let out a heavy sigh. “Well then, I hope this works.” She grabbed Heather’s wrist and forced her to touch the metal to Micha’s neck. The skin bubbled under the symbol and smoke rose from the burning flesh. Micha’s screaming started anew. Heather cried out and tried to jerk away but Ash kept her in place. After a minute the skin stopped bubbling.

 

Ash released her and stepped back. “Stop crying. You had the easy part.”

 

Heather stood up shakily and dropped the cross. She wiped her eyes and cheeks. “I wasn’t crying for myself.”

 

Ash nodded. “If you’re going to shed tears at least make sure they’re for the right reason. Now go tell everyone that Micha’s going to be fine.”

 

Ash spent the next several days in Nicky and Micha’s room. She wanted to keep an eye on Micha but part of her was more worried about Nicky. She could see the self-hatred in his eyes. He hadn’t been able to protect the most important person in his life, and it was killing him.

 

Jeff was making sure pard stuff ran smoothly while Ash was with them. When she finally came downstairs on the day of the full moon a strange sight greeted her. Rey was seated on the love seat next to a man she didn’t recognize. The stranger had shoulder length brown hair and an easy going smile. “Who the hell are you?”

 

“Billy.”

 

“Oh, that answers everything. What the hell are you doing here?”

 

“Jeff told me to come back on the full moon.”

 

“Oh shit. Please tell me you don’t have a letter carved into your chest.”

 

“A big ole ‘T’”

 

“And please don’t tell me a blond man did it.”

 

“Yup.”

 

“You don’t take orders very well. That will have to change if you shift.” Ash turned to the hall. “JEFF!”

 

He came strolling in from the kitchen. “You bellowed, dear.”

 

“Why wasn’t I informed of our new arrival?"

 

“I took care of it. You had more important things to deal with.”

 

“I guess you’re right.” Ash sighed and flopped down onto the other couch.

 

Rey spoke in his soft accent, “So when will all this stuff happen.”

 

“IF it happens it’ll happen tonight. We’ll gather at dusk and wait. If you don’t shift by the time the moon is up then you get to go home and never see us again.”

 

It was Billy’s turn to ask a question. “And if we do shift?”

 

“Welcome to the family.”

 

The moon was almost up by the time they gathered. Ash gave the boys the same speech she’d given Heather. If they shifted, Rob and Drew were going to hunt with them. Ash looked at the two faces and tried to study them in the failing light. Rey looked calm for the most part. But there were tight lines around his eyes. Billy’s gaze darted around, looking at the different people changing into their other forms. “You won’t remember the shift. It’ll be like you blacked out and went unconscious.”

 

“How will we know what to do?” There was a slight tremor to Rey’s voice.

 

“Instinct will take over. Besides, that’s why two cats are going to stick with you.”

 

“But we might not shift at all, right? I mean, we could just walk away from this whole situation?”

 

“It’s possible, Billy.” But Ash just didn’t think that was the case. Even though they were still human she could almost feel the extra energy coming from them. It must have been how Mark had known she would shift before she did.

 

The power was getting stronger. “When it comes, don’t fight it.”

 

Rey finally opened his brown eyes and she could see the knowledge in them. He knew what was about to happen. He’d apparently seen someone shift before. And he feared it. “Look at me, Rey.” When he met her eyes, she tried to calm him. “It’s only painful this fist time. After that it’s a piece of cake. You’ll be shifting like an old pro.”

 

Beside him, Billy sank to his knees with a groan. Thick fur was already beginning to glide up his hands and arms. Rey looked like he would hyperventilate. Ash could tell when the first wave of pain went through him. He clenched his teeth until his jaw hurt.

 

“Don’t fight it, sugar. Ride it out.”

 

He took a deep breath and Ash could feel when he gave in to the changes wracking his body. Once he stopped resisting he shifted almost immediately. Ash was impressed. She hadn’t seen someone hold off the first shift in a long time. In fact she knew of only one other person who had.

 

Ash woke up on the afternoon after the last hunt to the sound of splitting wood. She rolled out of bed and flung the balcony doors open. Down in the yard Jeff was hacking through small logs and piling them into a wide pit. “JEFF! What in the hell are you doing?”

 

He looked up at her with a bright smile. “It’s a surprise, love.”

 

“I hate surprises.” She grumbled as she shut the doors. She stumbled out into the hall and found Drew just coming from his own room. “What the fuck is Jeff up to?”

 

“Won’t say. But he’s been at it all morning.”

 

Ash rubbed her still blurry eyes. “I need coffee.”

 

“Then allow me to make you some.”

 

Ash let Drew pour her a steaming cup then sat at the bar. She was surprised to see Micha walk in a few minutes later. “Hey, sugar. Feeling better?”

 

“Yeah. The moon cycle helped.”

 

“I just didn’t expect to see you up and about yet.”

 

“If Nicky had his way I wouldn’t be. He still thinks I’m so fragile.”

 

“To him you are.”

 

“I know.” Micha poured a cup of coffee and sat next to Ash. “And I hate that he’s blaming himself. It wasn’t his fault.”

 

Ash remained quiet.

 

“You don’t blame him, do you?”

 

“No.”

 

“Ash?”

 

“Forget it, sugar.”

 

“Don’t blame yourself.”

 

She gave him a faint smile. “You know me to well.”

 

“You can’t keep everyone safe all the time.”

 

“I’m Alpha, Micha. That’s part of my job. Mine and Jeff’s. We not only failed you, but Nicky as well. Don’t say anything else, though. ‘Cause you can’t change it.”

 

“Ash…”

 

“I mean it, Micha.”

 

“Alright.” Micha and Drew drifted out after that.

 

“It’s not, you know.”

 

Ash set her mug down and shrugged at the new voice behind her. “Not now, Nicky.”

 

“Ash, you can’t expect to look out for all of us at the same time. It’s not your fault Micha got hurt.”

 

“I know.”

 

“Excuse me?”

 

Ash stood and faced him. “It’s no more my fault than it is yours. So if I don’t get to be sulky and blame myself than neither do you.”

 

Nicky tried not to smile. “You’re a manipulative little thing, aren’t you?”

 

“When I want to be.”

 

“So whose fault is it?”

 

“The vampire that bit him. And I’m going to see about fixing that very soon.”

 

 

 

 

 

At nightfall Jeff herded everyone outside to a large bonfire. Ash glared at him while stomping her feet to keep warm. “This was your surprise? Dragging us out in the winter?”

 

“Get closer to the fire. You’ll warm up. Might even melt some of that ice off you heart.”

 

“Watch it, Jeff. Or you’ll see how cold blooded I can be to insubordinate cats.”

 

“Speaking of, I have some quick business to take care of.”

 

Ash gave him a questioning look but he flashed her another bright smile and walked over to Rey. “You questioned my authority and blatantly disrespected my position in this pard. And as a new member you will be held accountable for your actions. Do you understand?”

 

“I’m gonna get the shit kicked out of me, huh?”

 

“Probably.” Jeff extended his hand.

 

Rey nodded and they shook. When they parted both were all business. Rey crouched low in a fighter’s stance, while Jeff held himself loosely upright. He slowly stalked around the smaller man until Rey got jumpy and lunged. As soon as he was within reach, Jeff grabbed his shirt and threw him to the ground. He kicked him in the ribs and backed off. Rey got up slowly wiping a trickle of blood from his mouth. He shook his head and resumed his stance. “You’re quick.”

 

“Yes, I am.”

 

“Can I just let you smack me around and be done with it?”

 

“You could.”

 

Rey grinned and rushed him again. This time Jeff absorbed the blow with his body and let their momentum carry them to the ground. Just before they hit there was a blur of movement. When it stopped, Jeff was standing beside the prone man. Rey was bleeding from his nose and a shallow cut over his eyebrow.

 

“Enough.” Jeff once again held out a hand. “Consider the wrong righted.”

 

“So we’re cool now?”

 

“Almost.”

 

Rey looked at the offered help and took it. Jeff pulled him to his feet and clapped him on the back. “Welcome home.”

 

“Great. Testosterone has once again been balanced. Can we go back inside now?” Ash grumbled.

 

“No. I have marshmallows for roasting. And we could tell campfire stories and stuff.”

 

“Campfire stories?” Trish looked at Ash gleefully.

 

Ash glared and shook her head. “No, Trish.”

 

“But…”

 

“No.”

 

“No what?” Jeff was looking back and forth between the girls.

 

“Nothing. Drop it.”

 

Trish sighed. “Fine. But you’re no fun.” She grabbed one of the blankets Jeff had brought out and wrapped it around herself.

 

Jeff passed around straightened out coat hangers and bags of marshmallows. Shawn and Shannon immediately began sword fighting with them. Ash smiled at the antics of her cats, but noticed one person staying to the shadows more than usual. She made her way over to Kane. “Feeling antisocial tonight?”

 

“Aren’t I always?”

 

“You’ve been getting better.”

 

“I’ve got a lot on my mind right now, Ash.”

 

“Rob?”

 

“Partly.”

 

“Illyana?”

 

“Partly.”

 

“Don’t want to talk?”

 

“Not really. I think I’m going back inside.”

 

“Okay, sugar. I’ll see you later.”

 

“Yeah.”

 

Rob stared at his retreating back. “He gets that way sometimes.”

 

He nodded.

 

“Don’t let it bother you, sugar.”

 

“Yeah. You’re right. That’s just Kane.”

 

“Damn straight. He’s confusing as hell.”

 

“Yeah. Oh and Ash?”

 

“Huh?”

 

“I’m not straight.”

 

“It’ll be our little secret.”

 

The fire was starting to die. Everyone was settled around in little groups. Heated whispering from Trish and Ash caught everyone’s attention. Ash finally stood up. “Fine. If it’ll get you to stop pestering me.”

 

Trish nodded excitedly. “I promise.”

 

Ash sighed and knelt down close to the dying flames. She scooped up some dirt and muttered a few words in Gaelic. She tossed the earth onto the fire and it shot up and blazed anew.

 

“HOLY SHIT!” she heard Kevin say.

 

Shhh!” That from Trish.

 

“You wanted a campfire story? I’ll tell you a real one.” She looked around and saw she had everyone’s undivided attention. “A very long time ago, the only beings who could harness the power of magic were the fey. Humans were jealous and greedy and sought to steal it from them. So they took to mounds in the Earth, hidden from mortal eyes. It was a dark time for the world. It was almost as if the fey took all happiness and light with them when they fled.”

 

When Ash stopped for a minute and stared into the fire, she heard people gasping. The flames had taken on a life of their own. In them was pictured a barren gray land. People trudged dirt paths as if through a fog.

 

“This went on for many years. Until someone took pity on the unhappy race.”

 

A winding dirt road cut through the scene. A small figure appeared at the end. As Ash described her, details became more obvious. “A bent old woman came into the world one dawn. She was an odd sight to behold. Her robes were the whitest white that no dust would dirty. Her skin was the brownest brown that no sun would burn. Her hair was the greenest green that no wind would blow. And her eyes the bluest blue and wisdom fairly shown from them.”

 

The flames rose up above their heads until the old woman was clearly pictured.

 

“As she walked the land people ran from her, startled by her strange appearance, though she made no threatening moves. She finally came to a young farmer. She asked him for a drink of water, and was surprised when he led her to his tiny shack. ‘I don’t have much to offer, wise one. But you’re welcome to what I can give.’”

 

The two were pictured in a rundown cabin eating a sparse meal on the dirty floor.

 

“ ‘Why do you help me, Young Farmer?’ ‘Because you are less fortunate than even myself. I can grow more food and carry up more water from they stream. You cannot. Therefore you need my help.’ The old woman smiled and laid a gnarled, knobby hand on his forehead. ‘I have searched the world over for someone like you. The world of man is a dark place without the light of magic. To you and all of your descendants I bestow the power held deep within the Earth.’ The man glowed from within and when the light dimmed he asked in amazement, ‘Who are you?’ ‘You may call me Mother for I am from the Earth.’”

 

The man on his knees before the woman faded and the fire died. The entire pard was silent for a moment then questions broke over Ash. “It’s a child’s trick, really. Nothing special.”

 

“That was damn cool.” Rob said.

 

Ash shrugged. “It’s really nothing. All Druid children learn to tell the story of the first Druid in a fire.”

 

“It’s still neat.”

 

“Well, I’m tired now, so I’m going inside.” The cold was beginning to sneak up on them so they all agreed it was time to head back to the house. Ash popped a movie in the VCR as everyone filed in. Almost everyone flopped down to watch. Drew grabbed his car keys from the coffee table. “I need to hit the grocery store. We’re down to the bare necessities. Anyone wanna join?”

 

“I will.” Shannon scrambled up.

 

“Speaking of bare necessities.” Kevin growled. “This bear needs sleep.”

 

Shawn watched him go with a predatory gleam.

 

After about 30 minutes he followed him upstairs. Kevin was laying in bed reading when Shawn entered the room and locked the door. Kevin immediately recognized the look on his face. “You’ve got mischief on your mind. So where is he? And what’s with the Santa hat?”

 

“Where’s who?”

 

“Whoever’s planning to join us tonight.

 

Shawn turned in a full circle. “Looks like it’s just you and me.”

 

“Really?” Kevin put the book on the nightstand.

 

“Suddenly he’s interested. And as for the hat, I’m Santa’s helper tonight.”

 

“Gonna ask me what I want for Christmas?”

 

“Maybe. But my real mission is to find out if you’re on the naughty or nice list.”

 

“That sounds promising. What do I have to do?”

 

“Whatever you want.”

 

“Come here.”

 

Shawn obediently walked to the edge of the bed. “Take off everything but the Santa hat.”

 

“Keep the hat? I like the way you think.” Shawn did as requested and waited.

 

“Lay down next to me on top of the blankets.”

 

Once again Shawn did exactly as requested.

 

“I could get used to you listening to me for a change.”

 

“Too bad Christmas is only once a year.”

 

“Damn that,” Kevin’s words were muffled against Shawn’s neck. The smaller man gasped and squirmed as Kevin bit down.

 

“Too rough?”

 

“Uh-uh.”

 

“Good, cause it’s gonna get a whole lot rougher.”

 

And it did. Kevin practically attacked him with stinging love bites all over his upper body; except for the one place Shawn wanted him to focus his attention on.

 

“You want it, don’t you?” Kevin’s voice had deepened considerably.

 

Shawn only nodded.

 

“Beg me.”

 

“What?”

 

“Beg me, Shawn. I wanna hear the promiscuous Shawn Michaels beg to get fucked.”

 

“Please?”

 

“Come on now. I know you can do better than that. I’m sure you’ve heard enough pleading for release.”

 

“Jesus, you’re brutal.”

 

Kevin rubbed his scratchy chin against Shawn’s lower belly.

 

“Ah, okay. Please Kevin. I feel like I’m fucking dying here. You got to do something. I don’t care what.”

 

“You sure about that?”

 

“YES!”

 

Kevin rolled over on his back.

 

“What’re you doing?”

 

“I’m not doing anything. You on the other hand are going to suck my dick.”

 

Shawn eagerly scrambled to straddle Kevin’s legs. Kevin grabbed a fistful of his hair. “Go slowly.”

 

“You’re killing me here, Kevin.”

 

“I’ve opted for naughty. I’ve never liked being nice.” He slowly guided Shawn’s mouth to his erection. “No hands. Just lick it.”

 

Shawn whimpered in frustration but did as he was told. Kevin took deep breaths in through his nose as Shawn’s eager tongue took small licks of his flesh. “More?”

 

Shawn nodded as much as Kevin’s grip would allow. “You can use your mouth.”

 

Shawn wrapped his lips around the head and tried to take more but Kevin stopped him. His voice was starting to sound strained. “Work with what’cha got.”

 

Shawn again whimpered, sending vibrations through Kevin’s cock. He really hoped his control would last through this.

 

He let Shawn take a little more at a time. When he was about half buried in the other man’s mouth, he let go of his hair. “All of it, Shawn. Now.”

 

Shawn took a deep breath and swallowed the rest of the big man. Kevin threw his head back for a second and just enjoyed a mind-blowing blowjob. Then he remembered that he was supposed to be naughty. He swept Shawn’s hair to the side and held it in a loose fist. “Do you want me to come?”

 

Shawn made an affirmative sound.

 

“You wanna taste it?”

 

Shawn moaned.

 

Kevin slowly tightened his fist until Shawn realized he was supposed to stop. He stared at Kevin with desire glazed eyes. Using his free hand Kevin reached down to stroke himself. He backed Shawn’s head up to the right distance. “Open your mouth.”

 

Shawn licked his lips and obeyed.

 

“Let’s see how good my aim is. And how good you look covered in cum.”

 

Kevin felt his balls tighten and aimed his cock at Shawn’s waiting mouth. The first spurt smacked him on the cheek. More got on his face than in his mouth. But Shawn didn’t seem to notice. He looked ready to cum without even being touched. Kevin groaned as the spasms stopped. He pulled Shawn up to him by the hair and licked his face clean. A steady stream of wordless noises came from Shawn. “Did you get a taste?”

 

Shawn shook his head.

 

“Poor baby. I guess I can be a little nice, too.” Kevin kissed him hard and deep. Shawn eagerly sucked the cream from the other man’s tongue. “Is that what you wanted?”

 

“Mm-huh.”

 

“You never begged to get fucked.”

 

Shawn suddenly found his voice. “Oh God please, Kevin. Please. I need you to fuck me.”

 

“That’s not bad. But you could do better. So you’ll have to get yourself ready.” Kevin grabbed a bottle of lube from the night stand and handed it to the other man. Shawn looked lost.

“Want me to explain? Get your fingers nice and slick and then stick them up your ass.”

 

“Kevin, I’ve never…”

 

Kevin popped the top of the bottle and poured it over Shawn’s hand. He rubbed the other man’s hands together. “Now just do what I usually do. But don’t make yourself cum.”

 

Shawn nodded and laid on his side facing Kevin.

 

“Uh-uh. Turn around.”

 

Shawn’s eyes widened a bit but he rolled onto his other side. It was then that he realized there was a mirror on that side of the bed. Kevin could watch from both angles. He could also see Kevin’s reactions. Right now he was staring intently at Shawn’s reflection in the glass. Shawn closed his eyes and reached behind him. Kevin guided his hand, pointer finger extended, to the right spot. Shawn slowly slipped the finger inside himself. He felt Kevin move closer and felt gentle lips at his neck. “Let go of what inhibitions you do have, Shawn. Just feel. You know exactly what feels good. And when to do more. You know when you’re ready.”

 

A pink flush was creeping up his body as he added another finger. Kevin moved away and Shawn watched him coat his erection with lube. When his cock glistened he laid back down. Shawn had added another finger and was panting harshly. Kevin pulled Shawn’s hand away by the wrist and replaced the fingers with his dick. Shawn held his breath until he was all the way in. “You okay.”

 

“Oh shit yes. I think I’m more turned on than I’ve ever been.”

 

Kevin kept his eyes locked on the reflection of Shawn’s while he pumped into him. “Stroke yourself.”

 

Shawn readily obeyed. “Kevin, I’m so fucking close.”

 

“Do it. I want to watch you come.”

 

Shawn let go with a wail and came in a rush. Kevin waited until he was done before letting go himself. He grabbed Shawn’s hip hard enough to bruise and slammed into him several more times, each stab hitting Shawn’s prostate. Shawn gasped as he felt himself starting to come again. Kevin let out a hoarse shout and flooded Shawn’s insides and Shawn once again cried out. When he calmed down, Kevin brushed his damp hair back from his face. “So which list am I on?”

 

“I’m going for both.”

 

 

 

 

Shannon hopped onto the counter to watch Drew put the groceries away. “Lazy.”

 

“I’m supervising. Like I did at the store. If you start to put something in the wrong place, I’ll tell you.”

 

“Uh-huh.” Drew tossed a bag of pretzels at him.

 

“Oh, thanks. All this work was making me hungry.”

 

Drew snorted. A few minutes later he said, “Hey Shan. Can I ask you something?”

 

“Sure.”

 

“What’s up with you never staying with me?”

 

Shannon was suddenly very interested in the pretzel bag. “I don’t know what you mean.”

 

“Yes you do. You always have to leave before you go to sleep. You go back to Ash’s room.”

 

“I dunno. I guess I’m just used to sleeping in there with them.”

 

“Okay Shannon. Whatever you say.”

 

 

 

Much later, in the wee hours of the morning, only one person was still awake. Kane lay on his side in bed, staring at the most perfect thing in his life. He traced every line of Rob’s face with his eyes. Then did it again. He’d never let himself get close to someone. But Rob was different. He couldn’t help but feel when Rob was around. He reached up to brush a stray hair off Rob’s forehead. He stopped when he caught sight of his swollen scarred flesh against Rob’s perfection. The contrast made him cringe. He turned away and got out of bed. He couldn’t do it anymore. He quickly dressed and stalked quietly up to Ash’s room. The four people in bed were a mass of tangled arms and legs, but he innately knew which was Ash. He shook her shoulder until she blinked at him. “Get up.”

 

“Why? What’s wrong?” She sat up in bed.

 

“We’re going to New Orleans.”

 

“Now? Can’t it wait ‘till morning?”

 

“No.”

 

Jeff groaned and looked at Ash. “Take someone with you if you’re going.”

 

Trish rolled out of bed. “I’ll go. That way no one else gets woken up.”

 

“Fine. Throw some clothes in a bag and we’ll meet you downstairs.”

 

“Hurry,” was all Kane said before leaving the room.

 

Shannon rolled on his side. “What’s going on?”

 

Ash kissed his forehead. “Kane wants to go to New Orleans. We’ll be back as soon as we can.”

 

“Okay.”

 

Ash followed Kane down to the garage. “So what’s the sudden rush to see her?”

 

“Its just time, Ash. Way past time.”

 

Trish came out with an armload of blankets and pillows. Ash took some from her and threw them in the back of the van. They quickly removed the last bench seat and were on their way. Trish made a bed and laid down. Ash had woken up so she sat next to Kane. “So what’s the game plan?”

 

“You drop me off at Illyana’s when we get there and then go somewhere else. You’ll know when I’m ready.”

 

“I don’t get it, Kane.”

 

“You don’t have to get it.”

 

“It’s just…she’s not even…”

 

“I know.” He gestured to the back.

 

“She’s sleeping.”

 

“Just in case. Don’t say anything you shouldn’t.”

 

“Do I usually have a problem with that?”

 

“Not so far. But you’ve been pretty relaxed this time.”

 

“It’s been a rough go around.”

 

“Isn’t it always?”

 

“Maybe this one seems worse ‘cause there’s so many of them.”

 

Kane snorted. “Once a martyr.”

 

“And what about you? Since when do the scars bother you this much? How many lifetimes have you had them?”

 

“Do I really need to explain it?”

 

“No. But I knew you and Rob were a bad idea.”

 

“I know. But then, so were you and Jeff.”

 

“I guess it’s no different. If going to see her makes you happy, so be it.”

 

Kane reached over and patted her knee. “Thanks Ash.”

 

Trish lay in the back wondering why they seemed to be talking in code. She heard the words, but he real meaning was lost on her. They were talking about so much more than she was hearing. Or maybe she was just tired.

 

Ash still had reservations about the whole situation when they reached Illyana’s shop. “I’ll be fine, Ash.”

 

“I know.” She kissed Kane’s masked cheek. “But I can’t help but worry about you.”

 

He shook his head at her. “You should know better. Are you going to your parents?”

 

“Hell no. I figured we’d stay at Viggo’s. If he’ll let us.”

 

Kane nodded and walked into the building.

 

“Is Viggo the hermit?”

 

Ash laughed. “Yeah, but he’s safe. You’ll like him.”

 

“Are we going now?”

 

“I figured we would. Why? Is that a problem?”

 

“I guess not.”

 

“Baby, just spill it.”

 

“I’ve never been to New Orleans. And you used to live here.”

 

“What’s your point, sugar?”

 

“You could show me around.”

 

“Oh. Well, sure. I guess. What do you want to see?”

 

“Everything.”

 

Ash laughed. “Baby, that’d take lifetimes. But I’ll do the best I can.”

 

Sometime later the two girls sat at an outdoor café, absorbing the Cajun music that poured over them. Ash had forgotten how much she loved the city. Trish sat her empty coffee cup down with a clank and jarred Ash out of her thoughts. “So, got any ideas for Christmas?”

 

“A few. Since you Holiday Nazis insist that we exchange gifts.”

 

“Care to let me in on them?”

 

“Nope. And don’t even try, cause I’m a master at keeping secrets.”

 

“Don’t I know it.

 

Ash smiled at her beautiful companion and stood. “Let’s go. It’s starting to get colder.”

 

Trish nodded and they walked hand in hand to the car.

 

Ash drove out to Viggo’s cabin in the swamp. When she pulled to a stop, Trish sat still and stared out the window. “Are we going to get eaten out here?”

 

“If we’re lucky.”

 

Trish’s face turned bright red. “I didn’t mean it like that.”

 

“I know. But you will be tomorrow morning.”

 

“Is this okay, though? I mean he’s not pard, Ash.”

 

“And?”

 

Ash saw movement by the house and a small smile spread over her face. She winked at Trish and got out of the car. “Hey there stranger.”

 

Viggo stopped and stared for a second. “Need a hotel for the night?”

 

“You think that’s the only reason I came here? Can’t I just visit a friend?”

 

“Who’s the blond?”

 

Ash looked over her shoulder and gestured at her companion. “That’s Trish. She’s a bit shy at times.”

 

“Well, if you can coax her into the house, you two are welcome to crash here. But I’m sure you knew that.”

 

Viggo walked inside ahead of them to start some coffee. The pot had just finished brewing when he heard the front door open. “How’d you convince her to come in?”

 

“I told her a gator would get her.” They rounded the corner and Viggo smiled warmly at them both. He poured Ash some coffee and looked at Trish. “Would you like a cup?”

 

She shook her head.

 

“Cat got your tongue?”

 

“She’s never been with anyone outside the pard since she shifted. She’s a bit nervous.” Ash patted Trish’s leg under the table.

 

“Ash!”

 

“What?”

 

“You’re so…so…Never mind.”

 

Viggo looked confused. “Is it a problem that I’m not part of your pard?”

 

Trish finally looked at him. “We have an understanding that within the pard anything goes. But not outside of it.”

 

“Doesn’t your Alpha set the standards though?”

 

“I guess. But both of them need to agree on decisions.”

 

Trish heard Ash fumbling in her pocket beside her. Then she heard a cell phone dialing. “Oh my God! You’re calling Jeff aren’t you?”

 

“I won’t hear the end of it if I don’t. Hello? Shan, let me talk to Jeff.” Pause. “Well wake him up, sugar. This is important Alpha business.” Ash covered the phone. “Apparently Jeff’s been getting along fine without me.”

 

“Ash, hang up. This is not necessary.”

 

Ash started to say something to Trish but stopped and spoke into the phone. “Hey, sugar, do you mind if Trish and I have sex with Viggo?” Another pause. “I didn’t think so. I’ll see you when I get home. Love you, too.” Ash hung up. “Done. Feel better?”

 

Viggo had to laugh. “You just called your boyfriend and asked him if you and your girlfriend could have sex with me. Not to mention you woke him up after he had sex with his boyfriend.”

 

“That about sums it up. So, Trish, what’s it going to be?”

 

“Ash, it’s not that I’m totally opposed to the idea. It’s just kind of strange.”

 

“Don’t make me say it. You know I only use it when you want to do something buy your inhibitions tell you it’s wrong.”

 

“Ash…”

 

“Come on, baby. Be a rebel.”

 

Trish sighed heavily and stood. “Damn you when you’re right, Ash.”

 

“Baby, I was damned long before I met you.”

 

Trish stuck her tongue out at the girl and walked over to Viggo. He stood with his arms crossed, hips leaned against the counter. She brushed some of his shaggy hair back and stood on tiptoes to kiss him. Just a light touch of the lips at first then with increasing passion. Trish was panting by the time she pulled away.

 

“What a change three words brought out in you.”

 

Trish smiled. “She knows how to play me.”

 

“And when you want to be played.”

 

“Exactly. So how would you like to play?”

 

“Intense.” His hand shot to the back of her head and pulled her close again. Ash could see his tongue plunging into Trish’s mouth repeatedly until Trish was moaning and clinging to him. He abruptly released her and spun her to face Ash. Their bodies were pressed firmly together and she could feel his arousal against her backside. “You can ask your Alpha about how intense I can be. Which is probably why she came back for more.

 

Ash gave a feral grin in response. “Are you playing the dominate again?”

 

“Of course. At least until I find someone who can dominate me.” Viggo brushed Trish’s hair aside and whispered something in her ear.

 

Trish’s face burned scarlet and she opened her mouth to say something, but no sound came out. Viggo nibbled lightly at her ear in encouragement. She finally cleared her throat and looked at Ash. “Take your clothes off and get on the table.”

 

Ash smiled at Trish’s breathless command and obeyed. She climbed onto the end of the rectangular surface.

 

Viggo kept his mouth close to her ear, but spoke loud enough that Ash could hear him. “What an inviting picture that makes, huh? Especially for you. I’d guess it’s always been that way.”

 

Trish nodded in agreement.

 

“And you’re not used to giving orders to her. Even before she became your Alpha.” He once again spoke low in her ear.

 

Trish once again turned red, but spoke to Ash. “Lay flat on your back.”

 

Ash scooted down until her legs dangled over the end of the table.

 

Viggo unsnapped Trish’s jeans and pushed them down her hips. “Last time Ash was here I showed her that just because you’re in a dominant position doesn’t mean you’re in control. But this time I think you will be.” He pushed her panties down as well and set her away from him. He walked around in front of her to pick her up and set her on the counter. He removed her tennis shoes and the rest of her clothes, and then set her back on her feet. “What’s the first thing coming to your mind right now?”

 

“Your floor’s cold.”

 

Viggo gave a short laugh. “Okay. Try the second. Look at Ash. What do you want to do?”

 

Trish’s whole body blushed.

 

“Do it.”

 

“But…”

 

“No. No buts. Don’t rationalize it. Don’t apologize for it. Just do it.”

 

Trish seemed hesitant but walked over to the end of the table. She bent at the waist and buried her face in Ash’s pussy. Ash inhaled deeply and closed her eyes. She reached a hand down and softly caressed the side of Trish’s face.

 

Viggo shook his head and unzipped his pants. He slipped his fully erect cock out and stepped behind Trish. He pushed inside her and just waited. It didn’t take long for Trish to start whimpering into Ash’s flesh. Viggo shifted ever so slightly sending tingles through her. He ran his hands along her back and hips. “This wasn’t what you wanted to do at first. You were appalled by the first thought that came to your mind. So you went for something less shameful. Not that this isn’t a beautiful picture. But I want you to do what made your whole body break out in a flush.” He grasped her shoulder and pulled her to a standing position, still inside of her. “Brace your arms on the table.” Once she did, Viggo began thrusting heavily, forcing small squeaks from her. Trish locked eyes with Ash and gave her a small smile. She reached back with one hand and grabbed a fistful of Viggo’s hair. Sooner than Ash had expected she saw Viggo stiffen up. Trish cried out as he flooded her insides. His voice was breathless when he said, “Now you’re gonna do what you originally wanted to do.”

 

Trish’s eyes went round. “What? I can’t! Not with…”

 

“Yes you can. And you will.” Viggo pulled away from her and once again picked her up. He sat her down on her knees over Ash’s head. She tried to move away, but he kept his hands on her shoulders. Ash grabbed her hips and pulled her down. Trish gasped when she felt her tongue spear up inside her and scoop out some of the wetness there. Her already sensitive flesh was made even more so by Viggo’s fucking. Trish grabbed his forearms and held on for dear life. Viggo removed her hands and moved to the other side of the table. Without warning he shoved two fingers inside Ash. She jerked up and moaned, her hips arching toward him. Viggo pumped his hand fast and hard until he felt her clenching on him. Trish’s moans got progressively louder and he looked up to see her grounding herself down on Ash’s face. Both girls exploded within seconds of each other. Trish moved off of Ash and nearly fell off the table. Viggo helped steady her before she collapsed. Ash sat up with a grin and wiped a hand down her face. “Who’s up for round two?”

 

Trish gave a breathy laugh and looked at Viggo. He, too, smiled and cocked his head toward the bedroom.

 

 

 

Kane shifted restlessly from one foot to the other. Something he almost never did. He felt out of place. Too large in the small room. He cast a glance at the petite woman sitting in the corner. She hadn’t said a word to him yet. He was on the verge of leaving when she finally spoke. “Why do you hide behind that hideous mask?”

 

“Because I was burned as a child. What’s underneath is more hideous.”

 

“Please remove it while we speak. I’d like to see my child.”

 

Kane hesitated but did take the mask off. He let his hair fall into his face. He felt completely exposed, standing unmasked, before a mother he didn’t know.

 

“Come sit beside me.”

 

He slowly walked to her and squatted before her chair.

 

“Look at me.”

 

He raised his face letting the hair fall back.

 

She gasped. “There you are. The one I named Radiant One. I knew you had to be hiding under there somewhere. But where are the scars you speak of? I see only smooth flesh and bright eyes.”

 

“Is it possible that you and one other are blind to them?”

 

“No, child. The whole world sees you as we do. It’s only you that still sees still smoldering flesh.”

 

With those words, Kane laid his head down in his mothers lap and sobbed. And Illyana did what any mother would do. She softly petted his head and whispered words of comfort and love. “I know of your childhood. And it’s no wonder you see yourself as a monster. For you were once. But you changed. Almost as if a miracle happened. You were born from the fire as a new person. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes of hatred.”

 

“How do you know all this?”

 

“A mother knows many things, my child.”

 

“Can you fix it?”

 

“No. But you can.” Illyana stood and showed him a mirror. “Look once at your reflection and it will be as you see yourself. Look twice and see how others see you. Look harder to see your true reflection.”

 

Kane took a deep breath and looked in the mirror. What he saw made him cringe. The sight was what made him smash mirrors and hide in shadows. Raw festering blisters spotted his melted features. He turned away quickly.

 

“Now look again. That is not you.”

 

Kane reluctantly raised his head again. This time his reflection showed no scars. No old wounds. What he saw was smooth tanned flesh. A strong elven nose and high cheekbones. His eyes were the fey tri-colors. Blue, green, and aqua in rings.

 

Kane stared a moment longer and his reflection blurred at the edges. Golden light began to emanate around him. He quickly looked away. “I have seen enough.”

 

“Then you are healed.”

 

“May I sit and talk to you for awhile?”

 

“Of course. We have much to talk about.”

 

 

 

 

Jeff stepped back to look at his finished work. He nodded with a satisfied smile and began packing up his supplies. He’d just tossed the last paint can in a box when Shannon came down the hall. “Uh, Jeff, we’ve got a problem.”

 

“What’s that?”

 

“Someone’s here to see Ash.”

 

“Is it a human?”

 

Shannon shook his head.

 

Jeff sighed. “Would you mind dragging this stuff upstairs, please?”

 

“Sure Jeff.”

 

“Thanks.”

 

Jeff found the person waiting in the living room. He did indeed smell like a wereleopard. Jeff extended a paint stained hand. “Hey man. I’m Jeff.”

 

The shorter blond man shook his hand. “Brian. Nice to meet you. You in charge around here?”

 

“Less than half the time. But right now, yes. Ash is taking care of some personal business. What can I do for you?”

 

“Well, I was wondering if you could tell me why I was attacked and had an ‘R’ carved on my chest.”

 

Jeff sighed. “Walk with me to the kitchen so I can wash up.” Brian followed him to the sink were Jeff poured dish soap over his hands and began scrubbing. “I can’t tell you everything you’ll want to know, because I don’t have all the answers. It seems that a rogue wereleopard has gone a bit psycho and vindictive. He’s spelling out some kind of message to us. But why does he choose the victims he does? That I just don’t know, man. I’m sorry.” Jeff’s hands were pink, but mostly clean when he shut off the water.

 

Brian handed him a dishtowel. “So what comes next?”

 

“I hate to make it sound like you don’t have any choices, but there are really no good ones. Either you join the pard or you don’t and you’re rogue.”

 

“If I join you guys, will I get a chance for revenge?”

 

“When we find him, yes. But you’ll have to get in line. He’s pissed a lot of people off.”

 

Brian smiled at that. “Alright, it’s a deal then.”

 

They once again shook hands. “Looks like I’m going to have to do some rearranging just so you can have your own room.”

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

Jeff shrugged. “It’s fine.” He and Trish had already vacated their rooms into the master bedroom for Rey and Billy. “I’ll just ask Shannon if he minds moving his stuff.”

 

“He won’t mind?”

 

“Nah. He never sleeps in there anyway.” Jeff went in search for the little blond and found him already tossing his clothes out of the closet. Jeff leaned against the doorframe. “You’re a mind reader, Shan.”

 

Shannon grinned. “Always happy to oblige my Alphas.”

 

“Yeah yeah. Want some help?”

 

“No, that’s okay. Drew’s gonna help me. You go do the leadership thing.”

 

“Okay, but holler if you need me.”

 

“I will, but I don’t think I’ll need you with Drew around.”

 

“Yeah. I’m figuring that out.”

 

“Jeff?”

 

Jeff smiled but the gesture had a hint of sadness to it. “Nothing Shan. Just let me know if you need help.”

 

“Sure Jeff. You alright?”

 

“Yeah. I’ll see you later.”

 

 

Ash woke the next afternoon to a strange smell. Trish sat up beside her coughing. Ash bolted out of bed and saw that the walls were smoking. “Viggo! Trish! We’ve got to get out of here.”

 

Trish yanked her clothes on as Ash had. But Viggo still lay motionless. “Viggo! Get up.” No movement. Ash leaned over him. “Viggo?” She could barely see his chest rise and fall.

“Ash! We’ve got to hurry.” The smoke was getting thicker and flames were starting to creep up the walls.

 

“Help me get him to the car.”

 

Together they carried the unresponsive man to the car. “Put him in the back.” Trish crawled in beside him. “Wrap him in a blanket and keep him warm.” Ash slammed the car in gear and drove as fast as she dared. She was almost to Illyana’s when her cell phone went off, nearly scaring the shit out of her.

 

“What?”

 

“Dear God, Ash! Are you okay?”

 

“Jeff? Yeah, I’m fine. But…”

 

“Get home, Ash. Shit’s going down in New Orleans.” His voice sounded scared.

 

“What the hell are you talking about?”

 

“Shit’s burning. It’s all over the news. And they’re saying the local pard has something to do with it. But their house is on fire too.”

 

“Yeah. So was Viggo’s. I don’t know what the fuck’s going on, but we’re getting Kane and coming home.”

 

“Just be safe.”

 

“You too. Never know how far this shit will spread.”

 

“I’ll hold down the fort until you get here.”

 

“That’s all I ask, sugar. Just keep everyone breathing. I’ll get there as soon as I can.”

 

Kane and Illyana were waiting outside the small shop when they pulled up. Ash jumped out of the car. “You drive. I have to help Viggo.”

 

“What’s wrong with him?”

 

“I don’t know yet.”

 

“Perhaps you should have Mother take a look.”

 

Ash shot Kane a strange look. The word mother sounded foreign on his lips. With no explanation, Ash’s mistrust for the woman deepened.

 

“I can take care of my own.”

 

The pale elf stepped forward. “But that one is not one of your cats.”

 

“He is now.” Though she didn’t say the words, “Back off” was written all over her face.

 

“I only offer you my help.”

 

“And I thank you, but it is neither wanted or needed. As I said, I take care of those under my protection.”

 

“As do I, child.”

 

“And you’re Kane’s mother, Illyana. Not mine. I don’t need your help.”

 

“Not now. But you will. There are hard times coming. And you will need more help than you can imagine. And all the allies you can muster. Don’t burn bridges you may yet have to cross again.”

 

“I was wondering when you’d go all cryptic on me. And since you have that’s our cue to leave.”

 

Ash crawled in the back with Viggo and Trish. Kane got in the driver’s seat and gave Illyana an apologetic smile. After they got on the highway, Ash moved to the passenger seat. “His beast is broken.”

 

“Excuse me?”

 

“I don’t know how else to say it. It’s as if there isn’t enough left for me to call. Like something shredded it inside him.”

 

“You should’ve let Illyana look at him.”

 

“No.”

 

“Why don’t you trust her? She knows a lot.”

 

“I know. Maybe that’s the problem. She knows too much. As if her eyes see straight into your heart. It’s creepy.”

 

Kane was quiet for a moment. “You haven’t said anything about the scars.”

 

Ash rolled her head to the side and studied him. Illyana’s high Elven cheekbones were prominent. His skin tone was an even creamy color. But it was the tri-colored eyes that drew her attention. “You look like you always have to me. I told you. You’re beautiful.”

 

He smiled then, showing just a hint of slightly pointed canines. “Illyana wanted me to give you something.”

 

“What?”

 

He handed her something heavy wrapped in silk the color of thunderclouds. Calling the material gray or silver would’ve been an insult. It seemed to shift against her hands of it’s own accord. She reluctantly slid it away and just stared for a moment at what was revealed. It was a metal emblem. The kind warriors of old had worn against battle roughened armor proudly proclaiming their faith. Who they fought for. And who they died for. Ash traced they symbols with a trembling fingertip. A short sword, ornately decorated at the hilt. The hand guard was the paw of some great cat. A human heart lay behind the blade and when her skin touched it, Ash felt the cold metal beat as with life. She gasped and dropped it on the floor.

 

“What?”

 

Her head snapped to Trish, who’d crawled up between the seats. “Nothing.” She hurriedly wrapped the emblem in the silk without touching the metal. “It’s nothing. Don’t worry about it.” She was moodily quiet for the rest of the trip.

 

When they finally got home, Jeff and Rob met them at the door. Ash jumped out. “Kane, grab Viggo and lets get him in the house.”

 

Jeff went to Ash’s side. “After you get him settled we have something to talk about.”

 

“Not another cat…”

 

He nodded.

 

Ash took a deep breath. “Fine. Trish and Rob, you guys get the bags. There’s nothing we can do for Viggo at the moment anyway.” She stared hard at Jeff’s second when he hadn’t moved. “Rob.”

 

He didn’t even look at her. His eyes were all for Kane. Without a word he spun and slammed back into the house.

 

“What’s with him?”

 

Jeff answered. “He’s a little miffed that Kane left like he did.”

 

“Ah well. I’ll worry about bruised egos later.” They, too, entered the house.

 

“So, why’d you bring home yet another cat, Ash? I’m starting to think this is the humane society.”

 

Ash’s blood ran cold as the words bounced in her head. Humane Society. “Was there a letter on this one?”

 

“An ‘R’”

 

“Oh God. Strays.”

 

“What?”

 

“We take in strays. That’s what he’s spelling. And that means…” Ash’s eyes hardened with a cold deadly look.

 

“What? It means what, Ash?”

 

“Mark. Adam’s working with Mark. He said I take in too many strays. But I also make people stray from him.”

 

“So we can expect three more victims?”

 

“That would be my guess.”

 

“How do we stop this shit?”

 

“We kill the source.”

 

“Adam?”

 

“Mark.” Kane loomed over both of them. “You want to kill Mark. That could be suicide.”

 

“No.” Ash’s face was colder than the wind outside. “No, it won’t be. He’s sending me power. With every new cat I get more power. As my pard grows in strength so do I.”

 

“Ash, he’s got abilities that neither of us are prepared for. He could slaughter us all while we sleep.”

 

“Not if we get to him first. But he won’t attack yet. Not until his game has been played out. Not until we’ve gotten all of his message.”

 

“So what do we do?”

 

“We wait.” Ash glanced around. “And we keep this to ourselves for now.”

 

“Don’t you think the pard should know?” Jeff asked.

 

“Let’s come up with a plan first. Then we’ll tell them.”

 

The men nodded in agreement.

 

“For now let’s concentrate on the everyday issues that come up.”

 

Kane nodded again. “I left Viggo in the communal bedroom since there were no more open rooms.”

 

Ash looked puzzled. “We should have one more left.”

 

Jeff shook his head. “Brian needed a room. And I had to move people around just for that. Our pard has grown more than we ever expected, Ash.”

 

“That’s fine then. At least he’ll be kept warm until I can figure some way to fix him.”

 

Kane took his leave while they were talking. He went in search of Rob. He paused in front of his bedroom door with a small smile. Someone had painted the wood with black, red and orange leopard print from top to bottom. He opened the door and stepped inside the pitch black. He immediately saw Rob sitting in a chair by the chess table. “Since when do you like the dark so much?”

 

“Where’s your mask?”

 

“I left it in New Orleans along with the scars I thought I had. Since when is it so important to you? I thought you wanted to see what was underneath.”

 

“The mask itself was never what mattered to me. It was the symbol. The way you hid yourself from everything. And everyone. Including me. You didn’t even trust me to see the real you.”

 

“This is the real me, Rob. And it has been for a very long time. It just took a wise woman to show me that.”

 

“Exactly. You traveled twelve hours to have a virtual stranger show you what I could’ve right here.”

 

Kane let out a frustrated sigh. “Rob, I’m honestly not understanding why you’re so upset.”

 

Rob stood. “Because you didn’t trust me. When you thought you looked like a monster you didn’t trust me not to only see the superficial. You just didn’t trust me. And now we’ll never get the chance to find out.”

 

“Rob…” The smaller man brushed past him and out the open door. Kane turned, but found only Ash standing there. She held a pint of vanilla ice cream in one hand and two spoons in the other.

 

“Want some company?”

 

He nodded and turned the bedside light on. “Any suggestions?”

 

“Are you asking for my help?”

 

“Don’t rub it in.”

 

“I’ll sure try.”

 

He nodded. “Then come sit and bring the ice cream.”

 

Ash climbed onto the bed and opened the carton. “I don’t know how much help I’ll be Kane. I don’t understand Rob. At least not enough to help you. But I do know more about you than anyone else. I could try to fix this, Kane. And I will if you ask me to. But I want you to think about it first. You don’t have the same life span we do. You’ll go on living long after we’ve died. Can you handle that?”

 

“I’ll never know unless I try.”

 

“Awful hard way to find out.”

 

“Maybe I’m more like you than I thought.”

 

“Wow. That’s kind of scary. You’ve always been the patient one.”

 

“I know. We can’t have two hotheaded people like us. The world as we know it would disintegrate.”

 

The two laughed together for a moment then dug into the ice cream. Ash finally said, “Let’s not talk about the important shit for awhile. There’ll be time for that later.”

 

Kane reached for a book and opened it while Ash made herself comfortable.

 

 

 

In the living room a few people lingered, still watching TV. Jeff and Trish got up at the same time and looked at the couple laying on the couch. “Night guys.”

 

Drew waved slightly so as not to disturb the sleeping Shannon. Once they were alone, Drew looked down at him. Drew lay on his back with the smaller man sprawled across his chest. He brushed some stray blond hair back and smiled. He inhaled deeply the scent that was all Shannon. He ran a hand lightly up and down his arm while Shannon blinked sleepily. “Hey you.”

 

“Hey. Movie over?”

 

“Yeah. Time for bed.”

 

“’Kay.” Shannon pushed himself up and started to walk away but Drew grabbed his hand.

 

“Hey. I figured we’d try something different tonight. Why don’t you come back to my room?”

 

Shannon’s eyes lit up. “And then what?”

 

“We sleep.”

 

“Oh. Well, Drew. I don’t know.”

 

Drew let him go. “Yeah. Never mind, Shan. Forget I mentioned it at all.”

 

“You’re mad now.”

 

Drew threw an arm over his eyes. “Yeah. A little.”

 

“Please don’t be mad at me, Drew. Please.”

 

“Fine. I’m not mad.”

 

“Yes you are.”

 

“Drop it, Shannon.”

 

The smaller man looked down at his fidgeting fingers. “Does this change anything between us?”

 

Drew sat up. “No. Heaven forbid anything at all change around poor little Shannon. ‘Cause he just can’t fucking handle it.”

 

Shannon sat down on the floor and pulled his knees tight against his chest. “Go away, Drew.”

 

“Aw. You wanna make all the bad things go away? Why don’t you run to Ash? Cry on her shoulder about the big bad man who’s hurting you. While you’re at it, tell her that I actually want some kind of relationship with you. She’d hate that I’m so abusive. I’ll probably be gutted by morning.”

 

Shannon shot to his feet. “GO AWAY DREW!”

 

Drew just shook his head. “Timid little Shannon finally stood up for himself. Too bad it’s for the wrong reasons.” Still shaking his head, Drew went away. He slammed his bedroom door hard enough to rattle the frame. He yanked his clothes off and flopped back on the bed. A few minutes later he heard the door squeak open. Half hoping it was Shannon he lifted his head. Shawn gave him a small smile.

 

“Not a good time, Shawn.”

 

“I’m not here for sex. I thought you could use a friend. Especially one who’s been around here for awhile.”

 

“Come on in then.”

 

Shawn, who was actually wearing boxers, sat on the bed next to him. “I thought it might make things easier if I explained something to you.”

 

“I’ve heard the speech before. About how bad things used to be for you guys. And for Shannon. But I’ve never given him a reason to fear me.”

 

“You don’t have to. And he doesn’t need a reason to be afraid. Yeah, Shannon had it rough. But we all did. I’m one of the few people who know how he used to be. Jeff remembers but he chooses to block it out. Gabrielle didn’t break Shannon. He broke himself. And the truth is, he doesn’t want to be fixed. And the one person who can help him, doesn’t want to.”

 

“Jeff?”

 

Shawn shook his head. “Ash. Jeff and Trish don’t need her like Shannon does. And I don’t think it’s a conscious thought but she needs him to stay like he is. Forever playing the child dependent on his powerful Alpha. They’ve both played the roles so long that I don’t think they know any other way to be.”

 

“I can’t play that role for him. I can’t protect him from boogey men that aren’t there. So where does that leave me?”

 

“In a very difficult place, my friend.”

 

“You’re more observant than most people give you credit for.”

 

“We all have our roles here. I chose mine a long time ago.”

 

“You sound bitter about that.”

 

“No. Not really. When Gabrielle was Alpha it was easiest to be the jester. Kept me out of the politics.”

 

“What about now?”

 

“A lot’s changed, Drew. Even since you came into the pard. Now I’m allowed to be more complex. I’m allowed to entertain thoughts of calming down some. We all have our defenses. Some were easier to let go of than others. My only advice is to be patient.”

 

Drew sighed heavily. “I’ll try.”

 

Shawn nodded. “You want some company tonight?”

 

“You’re offering to sleep in here without having sex first?”

 

“I’ve been known to have a few acts of kindness.”

 

“That’d be great, Shawn. Thanks.”

 

Shannon finally got up from the living room floor about dawn. He had to make things okay with Drew. He just had to. Maybe it was a silly notion that he had to stay with Ash and Jeff every night. They’d understand. His mind made up, he went to Drew’s room. When he opened the door he stopped dead. Drew lay on his back with Shawn’s head on his chest. Shawn’s hand rested on Drew’s stomach. That was Shannon’s place. Where Shannon laid.

 

“Shan?”

 

The small blonds eyes snapped to Drew’s. His voice was a croaky whisper. “Guess I wasn’t that hard to replace, huh?”

 

“What’re you talking about?”

 

“I’m talking about your speech earlier. You want a more grown up me? How’s this for starters? Eat shit, Drew. And don’t ever fuck with me again or we’ll see if I’m as physically weak as everyone thinks I am.” Shannon very quietly shut the door behind him. He went to the master bedroom in search of Ash. Only Jeff and Trish were in the bed. Shannon shrugged. Drew was right about one thing. Ash wouldn’t always be able to protect him. At least not from this kind of stuff. He slid down the wall and laid his head back. It was time to do something about himself. He was tired of cowering behind the smoke and mirrors act that he’d perfected.

 

Trish rolled over with a yawn as she woke up. Jeff was already getting dressed. “Did Ash ever come to bed?”

 

He shook his head and pointed by the door. Shannon was propped with his head against the wall asleep. Jeff shrugged and carefully stepped around him to leave. Trish had always thought he was a little weird so she didn’t disturb him either. Where he slept was no business of hers. Without giving him a second thought she went to take a shower. After she was clean she wrapped a towel around herself and opened the bathroom door. She came to an abrupt halt when she nearly ran into Shannon’s chest. “Jesus! You scared the shit out of me, Shannon!”

 

Faster than she could blink he yanked the towel away from her. His eyes raked up and down her still damp curves. Trish didn’t react for a moment because she was too shocked. This wasn’t the Shannon she knew. “What’s gotten into you?”

 

He only gave her a feral grin and pulled her closer to him. She collided with his chest and gasped. Under his jeans he was very happy. She looked up at him with just a touch of fear. “Shannon?”

 

He spun her around and put pressure between her shoulder blades until she bent her upper body over the bathroom counter. She heard metal give way as he unzipped his jeans and pushed them down. Without any preparations he began pushing inside her. Trish moaned at the hot friction of her only partially wet flesh sliding against his. When he was all the way inside of her he stopped and ran his hands along her ass. He squeezed hard enough to make her squeak then began pumping into her hard. Trish rested her forehead against the counter and panted. She raised up enough to get the leverage she needed to push back against him. He leaned over her and bit along the curve of her shoulder up to her neck. Trish groaned, her nails clawing at the mirror as she came. She felt rather than heard Shannon’s harsh breaths. A few vicious stabs later he flooded her with cum. He kept his arms braced on either side of her for a few moments then almost tenderly kissed her head. He pulled away so she could stand up. She caught sight of his face before he went into the separate shower area. His expression was closed. He didn’t want to be asked any questions. Trish smiled to herself and rubbed her sore shoulder. A girl deserved a little rough treatment every now and then. Especially when it sneaks up on her.

 

Ash woke from a light doze and looked up at Kane. “What time is it?”

 

“Mid morning I think.”

 

“I didn’t mean to fall asleep.”

 

“It’s okay. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking.”

 

“And what’d you come up with?”

 

“I’ll take whatever happiness the White Mother allows and deal with the consequences later.”

 

Ash rolled her eyes. “Don’t tell me you’re still putting faith in long dead gods.”

 

“I recently started again.”

 

“Whatever you gotta do, I guess. So, you want me to go talk to Rob?”

 

“If you would.”

 

“Anything for you, dear.” Ash got up and headed toward her room. Once inside, her mouth dropped open in shock.

 

Shannon was leaning against one of the bedposts. His closed eyes had thick black eyeliner across the lids. His full lips were traced in black as well and his light blond hair now held chunks of black. His torso was bare and loose black leather pants rode low on his hips. He opened one eye and looked at her. “What?”

 

“When I have more time you’re going to explain this to me.”

 

“Why do I have to explain anything to you?”

 

“I’m going to let that one go if you leave right now.”

 

“Fine.” He slowly straightened up and left.

 

Ash shook her head and changed into shorts and a tank top. She figured Rob would be in the gym burning off energy. Sure enough, she was right. His brown hair was matted to his face with sweat as he mercilessly kicked the punching bag.

 

“You might as well go back upstairs cause I don’t wanna talk.”

 

“Who said anything about talking?” Ash sat down on one of the machines and adjusted the weight. “I came down here to work.”

 

Before she could finish her first repetition, Rob asked, “Have you talked to Kane?”

 

“Yep.”

 

He let a few minutes go by before asking, “Is he mad?”

 

“Nope.”

 

“Jesus!” Rob roundhouse kicked the bag hard enough to tear it out of the ceiling. “It fucking figures. I haven’t been able to think about anything but him since he left. But he just doesn’t fucking care. I don’t even think he has any fucking feelings.”

 

Ash came at him quicker than his eyes could follow. Once she had him on the ground she straddled his chest. “Now that I have your undivided fucking attention. I want you to listen very carefully to me. This little temper tantrum you’re throwing is only making a very touchy situation even worse. It took a lot of guts for Kane to do what he did. He’s been carrying that burden on his shoulders for lifetimes. And you’re one selfish bastard for telling him he’s wrong to get rid of it.”

 

“So this is all my fault?”

 

Ash slapped him in the forehead. “You’re not listening. You were the catalyst. The reason he wanted to get better. That’s something special if you ask me. He did what he thought was best for him. And after all the shit he’s been through I think he deserves to be a little bit selfish. You accuse him of having no feelings? If you cared at all about him, you would at the very least try to understand his position. You would not be bitching to me about him not feeling anything.” Ash stood up and took a few steps back. “I personally couldn’t care less what you decide to do, but Kane seems to wanna be with you. Right now I can’t understand why. I was all for you two being together but I think I’ve changed my mind.” Ash turned and stomped up the stairs with a smile. That should do the trick. Once in the kitchen she grabbed a cup of coffee and sat down next to Jeff.

 

“Morning.” Ash stole his fork and took a large bite out of his pancake stack.

 

“Morning to you too. You’ve been a busy girl already.”

 

“The usual. Throwing cats around before breakfast. By the way, have you seen Shannon this morning?”

 

“He was asleep on the floor when I got up. Why?”

 

“He’s apparently adopted a new image. Lot’s of eyeliner and black leather. And I think he got into your hair dye.”

 

Jeff almost choked and grabbed for his glass of milk.

 

“I know. I was pretty shocked too.”

 

“Ash, this isn’t good.”

 

“Well the make over looked fine. It’s the new attitude I might have a problem with. Do you know what he said to me?”

 

Without warning everything went black. Ash shot to her feet, knocking her chair back into the wall.

 

“What the fuck?”

 

Shh.” Ash strained her supernatural hearing as much as she could. “Magic.”

 

“It could be a power outage.”

 

“The refrigerator is still running. And it’s only ten a.m.

 

“Can you hear anyone?”

 

“No. And I can’t smell anyone either. Adam’s good, but he’s not that good.”

 

“Mark?”

 

“Maybe.”

 

The darkness lifted so abruptly they both staggered against the wall. Jeff’s hand shot out to steady Ash. “Let’s get a head count.”

 

“Agreed.”

 

Jeff ran to the bottom of the stairs. “EVERYONE IN THE LIVING ROOM NOW!”

 

“I’m going to check on Viggo.”

 

“Be careful.”

 

Ash ran up the stairs and into the communal bedroom. Viggo lay just as lifeless as he had since she’d woken up in his burning cabin. By the time she made it back down everyone was gathered. Ash took a quick head count in her mind. “Where’s Chris?”

 

Everyone started talking at once.

 

“Quiet! Has anyone seen Chris?”

 

“I have.”

 

All heads turned to Shannon.

 

“When?”

 

“Just before the lights went out.”

 

“What was he doing?”

 

“Trying to catch his breath.”

 

Christian grabbed a fistful of Shannon’s hair. “What the hell did you do to him?”

 

Shannon smiled cruelly. “Gave him a good hard fucking. One he’s been wanting for a while, but couldn’t get.”

 

Ash slapped him across the face. “Now is not the time to play games.”

 

“Blessed Mother save us. I thought she was dead.” Kane’s voice was laced with something close to fear.

 

“What?” Ash looked around Kane to the open front door. Chris was on his knees on the front lawn. A petite woman was behind him. She had his head pulled back by the hair with her nails at his throat.

 

“If you stay calm he’ll walk out of this alive.”

 

Ash held her hands out to the sides. “You’ve got my attention.”

 

“Glad to know it. But I’ve had your attention for awhile now.” She smiled, showing very pointed fangs.

 

“You can’t be a vampire. It’s daylight.”

 

“Mixed blood. It’s annoying, but not deadly. My human blood allows me to stand it.”

 

“What are you?”

 

“An experiment. Half drow, quarter vampire, and a quarter human.”

 

“My brothers child.” Kane whispered.

 

Ash’s eyes blazed. “You’re Mark’s child?”

 

“Technically. I work for him. I lead all of his other cast offs. We do the dirty work no one else will do. As you can see, I’m very good at my job. Except I haven’t been following orders where you’re concerned.”

 

“You attacked Rob and Micha.”

 

“Correct. But I was sent to kill them. And this one.”

 

“Why haven’t you?”

 

“You’ll need all the help you can get. You are planning to attack the compound, aren’t you?”

 

“We’d given it some thought.”

 

“Give it all your thought. And move soon. Before Mark is done playing his games. And I might be able to insure the experiments won’t be there.”

 

“What’s in it for you?”

 

“Protection. Survival is the key. I’ll help you if you can insure my safety after you kill Mark. After he’s dead, I’ll kill those under me.”

 

“Threats and ultimatums have never worked well with me.”

 

“Then how about if I swear an oath to you?”

 

“Take the word of a drow vampire spawn of Mark?”

 

“What do you have to lose? Besides this pretty blond kitty cat.” She ran a hand through his soft hair. “I do make a much better friend than enemy.”

 

“Swear an oath in front of my whole pard and we have a deal.”

 

The woman smiled and released Chris. “My loyalty will be to you alone. Not your pard. But I will honor that oath until one of us dies.”

 

Ash gestured to Chris and he quickly went to her. “Are you hurt?”

 

“No.”

 

“Then go in the house.” When he was gone Ash looked at the woman. “Let’s get one thing straight. I don’t trust you. And I will be keeping a very close eye on you. If I even think you’re doing anything to hurt us, I will kill you. Is that crystal fucking clear?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Then go into the house.”

 

Ash pulled a pack of cigarettes from her pocket and lit one.

 

“I thought you quit,” Kane said.

 

“Huh. Not like it’s going to kill me. But this pard might.” Ash sat down on the porch steps. “When did everything get all fucked up?”

 

“Creation of man. The gods couldn’t resist playing with mortals.”

 

Ash snorted and smiled up at Kane. “How right you are.” She threw away the half smoked cigarette and stood. “Better not keep them waiting too long.”

 

Kane grabbed her arm. “Are you sure you know what you’re doing?”

 

“Honestly? I don’t have a damn clue.” Ash walked back into the house and found Harley standing well away from the pard. Or the pard was standing well away from her. “Alright, let’s get this over with. Guys, this is Harley, but I’m sure all of you were listening.”

 

Nicky stepped forward. “As enforcer, I’d like to point out how unwise this is.”

 

“Dually noted. Thank you. But I’ve already agreed to this. Would you have me be a liar?”

 

“I suppose not. But Mark is the one who is playing these sick games with us.”

 

Ash gave him a hard stare. “How’d you find that out?”

 

“Give us some credit, Dear Alpha. We can draw our own conclusions.”

 

Harley gave a sarcastic laugh. “Am I about to see a civil war?”

 

Nicky shot her a deadly look. “Not by a long shot, Demon.”

 

Ash held up a silencing hand. “Nicky. I was wrong to keep information from you guys, but we’ll have to discuss it later.”

 

“Don’t let my presence deter you.” Harley leaned against a wall and crossed her arms.

 

“Shut up. You’re not a part of this pard yet.”

 

“But I will be as soon as you take care of this little coup.”

 

“There is no coup and I’ll only say this once more. Shut up or I will shut you up.”

 

The other woman stepped away from the wall. “Should we lock up once before I align myself with you? Just for fun?”

 

Nicky pointed an accusing finger at Harley. “You see what I mean? How can I keep us safe when the attack comes from within while we’re sleeping.

 

Harley walked straight up to Nicky and pulled her sunglasses off, revealing blood red eyes. “You might have fey ancestry, but listen to me very closely, child. I know more about honor than you could hope to learn. Once I take an oath I will die before breaking it.”

 

“What about the oath to your sire?”

 

“I never swore one. He is too arrogant to demand oaths. He thinks we follow him out of respect.”

 

“You have still invaded our home, armed to your pointed teeth. What else would you expect us to think?”

 

Harley smiled, showing the fangs in question, and backed up with her arms raised out to her sides. “Take my weapons then. Protect your Alphas from the tainted one.”

 

Ash nodded her approval and Nicky began relieving Harley of her weapons. From a holster under her trench coat he pulled three guns loaded with silver ammo. Seven knives were in special made sheaths on her upper body and two in each boot. He tossed the last one on the coffee table and stepped away from her.

 

Ash stared in amazement. “Why are you armed so heavily?”

 

“I’m an assassin. Tools of the trade. And your enforcer missed some.” From the braids in her hair she pulled three cylindrical objects.

 

“What are those?”

 

It was Nicky that answered. “They have many uses. Their most common one is lock picking. But those are high content silver. And they’re flimsy enough that you could break it off in someone after stabbing them. Lethal for someone allergic to silver.”

 

“Anything else, Harley?”

 

She lifted her leg and touched a spot on her left boot. A three inch blade shot out the front. “Both boots. Handy in a fight.”

 

Ash sighed and shook her head. “Anything else?”

 

“That’s all.”

 

“Alright, put your hands down.”

 

“Can I have my weapons back?”

 

“Yes.” Ash held up her hand again when Nicky started to protest. “There’s no point in keeping them from her now.”

 

Before she reclaimed her weapons Harley swept her hair to the side, revealing her neck. She grabbed a knife, blade first, and knelt in front of Ash. She extended the knife toward her. “What would you have me swear?”

 

“Loyalty, honesty, and obedience.”

 

“I notice you didn’t mention respect.”

 

“Respect can’t be demanded. It has to be earned.”

 

“How right you are. On my honor, at pain of death, I will show you loyalty, honesty, and obedience until my services are no longer required or I am unable to perform them.”

 

“Rise then and do not make me regret this.”

 

Harley tipped her head and rearmed herself. “I shall leave you now, but I’ll be back after Mark has been taken care of.” She left after that and Ash turned to her pard.

 

“I don’t suppose I could postpone this little talk, huh?”

 

Jeff shook his head. “We need to tell them what we figured out. And what plans we do have.”

 

Ash nodded and sat down heavily in a chair. “Here’s the deal. Adam’s more than likely working for Mark. I don’t even have to say what that means for him. Mark’s little game is sending us power that we’ll end up using against him. We should attack hard and fast. I’m thinking dawn will be a good time. He’ll be weaker. Not much, but every little bit will help.”

 

Micha stared at her in disbelief. “We’re really gonna do this? We’re going to war?”

 

“Yeah, I guess we are.”

 

Everyone began talking at once. No matter what Ash or Jeff said they wouldn’t be calmed down. Finally, Kane stood up. “Listen to me. Right now.” His voice was quiet but everyone shut up immediately. “There’s no other choice. Mark has tricks up his sleeve that none in this room could hope to battle. But if we don’t give him time to prepare it’ll be safer for all of us.”

 

“Then why don’t we just go now?”

 

“We’re not ready, Rob. We don’t even have a real plan of action. It’d be suicide to go in now. But we’ll come up with one. Together.”

 

Rob looked away at the last word. Kane continued as if he hadn’t noticed. “This will not be the source of our demise. My brother will not wipe out the Blood Drinkers Clan. Trust in my wisdom, and that of your Alphas. We will not lead you astray.”

 

Ash felt the ache of age in her bones as she listened to her old friend speak. He’d always had a way with words when he chose to use them. She gave him a smile to say thank you as he sat back down. Ash once again spoke to the pard. “Now, I think we’ve all had quite a bit of excitement today. So let’s try to get back to our lives for the time being. But, as always, Jeff and I are here to answer any of your questions or hear your concerns. Don’t be afraid to come talk to us. That’s one of the reasons for Alphas.”

 

They kind of shuffled off after that. Some had a sort of shell-shocked look and Ash feared it would just get worse as the days went by.

 

Heather stopped before she left the room. “What about Christmas?”

 

Ash had to laugh. In spite of everything Heather wanted to know about Christmas. “I don’t see why anything should be postponed for it. You guys have put too much hard work into the damn holiday.”

 

A collective cheer went up through the non-pagans in the group. And Ash even caught Nicky smiling.

 

Shannon knocked softly on Brian’s door and entered without waiting for permission. “Thought I’d come check on you.”

 

Brian tossed the remote down and gave Shannon a small smile. “Check on me?”

 

“Strange happenings. You’ve only been here a few days.”

 

“I am a little shook up.”

 

Shannon sat on the bed beside the other man. “Want me to take your mind off of it?”

 

Brian’s smile turned wary. “I’m not sure. Depends on what you’ve got planned.”

 

Shannon reclined back against the headboard. “Fucking’s pretty mindless.”

 

“Excuse me?”

 

“You heard me. Fucking. My dick in your ass. How ‘bout it?”

 

Brian opened and closed his mouth several times without answering.

 

“Since you didn’t object out right I know you’re thinking about it. How about a blowjob while you consider?”

 

“A what?”

 

“Blowjob. Do I need to explain that one too?”

 

“I know the mechanics.”

 

“Prove it.”

 

“So you think I’m just going to rise to the challenge, huh?”

 

Shannon pointedly shifted his gaze to his leather-clad lap. “I did. Why not you?”

 

“You’re trying to bully me.”

 

“No. I’m trying to fuck you. Is it working?”

 

“I’m not sure yet.”

 

“Why don’t you think about that too while you’re practicing your blowjob skills?”

 

“What makes you think I need practice?”

 

“It’s fairly obvious that you do. You’re stammering and blushing like a damn virgin.”

 

Brian’s eyes narrowed and he leaned over to undo Shannon’s pants. His gaze never left the other man’s as he found Shannon’s hot flesh and pulled it out.

 

Shannon’s nostrils flared when he felt Brian’s almost tentative touch. “You gonna stare at me or suck my dick?”

 

“I should make you leave.”

 

“Scared of me?”

 

“A little.”

 

“Good. But I’m not here to harm you. In fact, you may even enjoy this immensely.”

 

Brian wasn’t sure what to say next, so he lowered his head and engulfed Shannon’s cock in his mouth. Shannon breathed deep and grabbed a fistful of the other man’s hair. He guided Brian’s head into a rhythm that pleased him. He allowed Brian a few minutes of this before yanking him back by the hair. “Are you hard yet?”

 

Brian nodded as much as he could in the tight grip.

 

“Do you want me to fuck you?”

 

Again he nodded.

 

“Get on your stomach.”

 

Brian obeyed, scrambling onto the bed beside Shannon. “Got any lube?”

 

“Um, no.”

 

“We can either use good ole fashioned spit or I can find some lube.”

 

“Do you know where some is?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“I’ll wait.”

 

Shannon grumbled as he got up. He didn’t bother to fix his pants as he left the room in search of something useful. Knowing where the party supplies were kept, he headed for the living room.

 

Drew stared at him with wide eyes as he casually walked to the coffee table and opened the little door. He grabbed a bottle of oil and gave Drew a wicked smile and wink when he straightened back up. “Who the hell are you trying to impress?”

 

Shannon stroked his erection lewdly. “Brian seems pretty impressed with me right now.”

 

“Brian?”

 

“Don’t sound so surprised. He’s not the first one to fall under me. Now if you’ll excuse me. I have some business to attend to.”

 

Drew watched him go with mixed feelings. Part disgust, but mostly pity.

 

“Was that Shannon that just left outta here?”

 

Drew looked up at Jeff. “Yeah. Yeah it was. Or at least I think it was him.”

 

Jeff sat down and let his head drop into his hands. “I don’t get it. He hasn’t done this shit in years. Why now?”

 

“We had a fight. He freaked out on me. I guess I said some pretty rough things. But that’ s no reason to run off and fuck Brian. Does he think he’s getting back at me?”

 

“What? He’s fucking Brian?”

 

“Yeah.”

 

“Brian’s still young. Shannon can’t control someone else’s beast.”

 

“Then you might want to go save them both.” Drew’s voice was sarcastically bored.

 

Jeff hurried upstairs and heard passionate cries from behind Brian’s half open door. He poked his head in, scared about what he’d find. Shannon half reclined on the bed with Brian bouncing on him. Shannon’s gaze met Jeff’s and he shot him a cruel smirk. “The Alpha makes special visits now, Jeff?”

 

Brian’s head wiped around and Jeff was surprised to see his eyes were normal. Shannon was indeed controlling the other man’s beast. “I need to talk to you when you get through, Shannon.”

 

“No problem, Jeff. Bye now.”

 

Jeff closed the door, not liking the dismissed feeling he was left with. He closed himself in his bedroom to wait. When 45 minutes passed with no Shannon, rage started to build inside him. He calmly went back to Brian’s room but found it empty. He walked downstairs and stood just inside the living room surveying the scene before him. Ash was there with Trish doing a crossword puzzle. She laughed and marked on Trish with the pen. Brian and Billy sat on the couch engrossed in conversation. Shannon sat by himself, staring at Billy.

“I told you I needed to talk to you.”

 

“I got distracted by something.”

 

“Allow me to get your mind back on track.” Jeff stalked toward the smaller man and grabbed him by the back of the head. “Never disregard an order from me again.”

 

Shannon glared at his Alpha defiantly so Jeff yanked harder than necessary on his hair as he pulled him up the stairs.

 

Brian looked at Ash with wide startled eyes.

 

Ash smiled reassuringly. “Sometimes people forget that not only are we friends, but we’re mommy and daddy too. When we tell you or ask you to do something, we expect you to do it. You never know when it’s a life or death matter. If you can’t follow simple instructions on the small stuff, why should we trust that you would in a more serious situation? It doesn’t happen very often, but occasionally a cat needs to be forcefully reminded of their place. And ours. Ask Rey about his reminder.”

 

Billy snorted and nodded in agreement. All four people looked to the stairs when they heard yelling. The words were muffled and the voices, already so much alike, were hard to identify.

 

Trish leaned toward Ash. “Aren’t you gonna go referee?”

 

“Nope. This is their fight.”

 

But when the yells turned into screams and things crashed on the floor, Trish threw down the puzzle. “Ash, do something.”

 

“Fine.” Ash jogged up the stairs and stood in the open bedroom doorway. The dresser and nightstands had been knocked over. Shannon and Jeff were both breathing hard but looked uninjured. She started to say something when Jeff spoke.

 

“So everything is my fault, huh Shannon?”

 

“I didn’t say that. All I said was you should’ve helped me. Then it wouldn’t have been safer to play that stupid role for the last few years. I could’ve been me.”

 

“You? You think this whore routine is you? I remember a little different. I remember someone who found a reason to stop hiding behind the leather and sex. Until now.”

 

“You’re right, Jeff. I did stop hiding. And it was because of you. But you let me down.” For a moment Ash caught a glimpse of the Shannon she knew. “You let them hurt me.”

 

Pain and helplessness flashed across her mate’s features. “What could I have done, Shannon? I was stripped naked and chained to a wall, too. I was cut up and tortured, too. I was raped, too. Hell, Shannon you should remember. Probably better than I can. It was your idea to go to that damn party anyway.”

 

“So now this is all my fault?”

 

“Not all of it. But damn, Shannon, grow up and take some of the blame. You’ve been laying it on my shoulders for too long now. It’s your turn.”

 

Shannon spat cruelly in Jeff’s face. “Fuck you.”

 

Jeff wiped his face off. “You should not push me, Shannon. I will push back.”

 

“What? Like you did with Rey? Power’s gone to your head, Jeff. You’re not an invincible, almighty Alpha.”

 

“To you, I might as well be.”

 

Shannon glared daggers at the taller man. Then he did what Ash never would’ve expected out of him. He punched Jeff right in the face. Caught off guard, Jeff stumbled back, but quickly retaliated. His fist caught Shannon in the ribs. Ash heard bones break with both blows so she rushed between them. Shannon tried to get around her so she shoved him hard enough that he fell on his butt. “I suggest you go somewhere to cool down. And don’t think there won’t be repercussions for this. I knew Adam for several years before you and look what happened to him. Think about it while you cool off.” Pleased to see the fear cross his face before he left, she turned to Jeff. “Let me look at your cheek.”

 

He batted her hands away from his face.

 

“Don’t push me away, Jeff. I’m on your side here.”

 

He sat down heavily on the bed and allowed her to examine him.

 

“Looks like he cracked your cheekbone but it’ll heal in a few minutes.” She sat down next to him. “Wanna talk about it?”

 

“What’s to talk about? You probably heard most of it.”

 

“Gabrielle hosted the party you two went to. That’s how she got you?”

 

He nodded. “I told him I got a bad vibe from the place. Not to mention one of his ex doms told him about it.”

 

“Dom’s? As in dominance and submission.”

 

“Yeah. When we first met he was heavy into it. Mostly because he felt he couldn’t get out. He used sex as a shield. If people were only hurting him physically, they couldn’t hurt him any deeper than that. I convinced him to give it up. For me. So when they started to hurt him he forgot how to handle it. He was never the same once they took him down from that wall. Hell, who would be?”

 

“So why is he acting so dominate now?”

 

Jeff shrugged. “Drew hurt him somehow. And not the way Gabrielle or Clayton did. This is his way of dealing. It scares me. Shannon is dangerous to himself when he gets like this.”

 

“Think he’ll snap out of it?”

 

“I hope so. For his sake, I hope so. I don’t want to do what he’s pushing me towards. But he’s not giving me any options. He’s making me be the bad guy.”

 

“No, he’s making you be Alpha.”

 

Jeff nodded tiredly and let Ash pull him backwards toward the head of the bed. He laid his head on her stomach and arched it into her petting fingers. “We’ve come a long way, haven’t we?”

 

Ash smiled somewhat ironically. “We sure have, Jeff.”

 

“No one told me this Alpha thing would be so damn hard.”

 

“It’s a bit of a nasty shock, isn’t it?”

 

He nodded and nuzzled his nose against her stomach. “But somehow we always seem to manage, don’t we?”

 

“Yeah. Somehow we always do.”

 

“So as long as we’re together then we’ll be fine.”

 

Ash took a deep breath. “Yeah. I guess we will.” She was a little unsettled by this side of her mate. He’d never seemed so insecure before. Thankfully, he fell silent after that. It was a few hours before they ventured downstairs again. Ash happened to look back when they reached the bottom. Rob stood nervously outside Kane’s door. She walked up to him, ignoring the wary look in his eyes, and pulled his head down to her. She kissed him softly on the lips. “Go talk to him. You’ll feel better once you do.”

 

“And you’ll stop beating me up?”

 

“I dunno ‘bout that one, sugar. I might do it just for fun.”

 

He smiled a little and nodded. He waited until she and Jeff walked away before opening the door slowly. Kane sat in a chair staring at a spot on the wall. The small bedside lamp was the only illumination in the room. Rob closed the door and leaned against it. He studied Kane for a moment. Without the mask, and his face devoid of the pretenses he also hid behind, the man was truly breathtaking.

 

“Did you come to get your things?”

 

Rob jumped at the barely concealed pain in Kane’s voice.

 

“My what?”

 

Kane pointed to the clothes thrown over the dresser. “Your things.”

 

Rob cleared his throat and shook his head. “Actually, I was hoping they’d still have a place in your new life.”

 

“Nothing’s changed, Rob. I don’t want to have a new life. I rather liked my old one. Especially after you were in it.”

 

Rob sat down across the little table from Kane. The chessboard was set up, ready for another game. He picked up his king and stared at the marble before setting it back down in the center of the board. Strictly speaking, it was an illegal move, but he was hoping Kane would understand. Tri-colored eyes watched him draw his hand back and wait.

 

“What are you suggesting?”

 

“A compromise.”

 

Kane drew in a deep breath to calm his racing heart. His hand was steady, though, as he moved his own king to join Rob’s.

 

Ash and Jeff were in the living room when Shannon came in through the back door. His face was bright red and snowflakes dotted his hair. He knelt in front of his Alphas in silence. “I guess you’re ready to receive your punishment?” Ash glared down at him.

He nodded.

 

“Well, you’re just gonna have to wait. I’m not ready to give it to you. But in the meantime, you are to be shunned for your actions. No one in this house is to acknowledge your existence. You will not be allowed to feel even the touch of another cat’s skin. Completely alone. That’s what you wanted, isn’t it? To prove that you don’t need anyone? I’ll let you know when you’ll receive your actual punishment. Now be gone from my sight before I’m sick.”

 

Shannon’s eyes darted to Jeff before standing up.

 

“Don’t look to me to save you. It’s time you finally learned about action and consequence.”

 

Shannon let his hair fall in his face before slinking from the room.

 

Jeff sighed and leaned back. “Think this’ll work?”

 

“Let’s hope so.”

 

Ash was in her office several days later when someone knocked on the door. “Yeah?”

 

Kevin came in and sat down heavily in the chair across from her. “How long have we known each other, Ash?”

 

“I dunno. Several years now. Why?”

 

“I have something I need to discuss with you and I just hope you understand.”

 

Ash turned the computer monitor off and gave him her full attention.

 

“I’ve lived in St. Louis pretty much all my life. My friends are here. My family is here. My life is here.”

 

“Yeah.”

 

“It was hard to fit anywhere after I shifted. But I’ve managed to get along with all the lycanthrope groups. I don’t let myself get drawn in too deep to any one group.”

 

Ash leaned back and laced her fingers over her stomach. “Go on.”

 

“I think you know where I’m going with this. If I side with you and fight by your side, I’ll always be lumped in with the pard. In most instances that wouldn’t be a bad thing. But you know as well as I do, The Blooddrinkers Clan is usually in some turmoil or another. I’d make myself a target.”

 

“I understand.” Ash turned her monitor back on.

 

“That’s it?”

 

“There’s nothing else to say, Kevin. If you want me to be honest, I’ll tell you I’m disappointed. We could use your strength. But I understand your hesitancy to completely chooses sides.”

 

“Then you’re not angry.”

 

“Not at you.”

 

“I think I’m going to stay with some family for a little while.”

 

“Do whatever you’ve got to do, Kevin. You’ll be welcome here anytime, you know that.”

 

Kevin flinched and nodded. “This would’ve been easier if you’d yelled and screamed at me.”

 

Ash stared at him calmly. “I’m sorry, Kevin. I have too many other lives to worry about. Lives that will be put on the line. Did that help?”

 

His eyes looked sad. “Yeah. I guess it did.”

 

As Kevin was leaving, Drew passed him into the room. “Busy?”

 

What’cha need?”

 

“I’m worried about Shannon.”

 

“Why?”

 

“I think he’s getting depressed. I’ve been watching him.”

 

“So have I, Drew. I had to do something drastic with him.”

 

“I know. I’m not saying you were harsh. And I’ve never doubted or disputed you. I’m just wondering how much longer this is gonna go on.”

 

“The rest of the week. He can tough it out two more days.”

 

“I just want him to be happy again. I miss him.”

 

“You really care about him, don’t you?”

 

Drew shrugged. “It’s not the all consuming love that people write songs about, but yeah. We made each other happy for a while. And even if we don’t get that back, I still want him to be happy again.”

 

“Me too. And I’m hoping this will shock him into realizing he can’t do everything on his own. He went from one extreme to the other. And he punched Jeff. That’s something that couldn’t be taken lightly.”

 

Drew nodded and stood back up.

 

Trish slammed into the room. “Two new ones. One’s human and damn near dead.”

 

“What?” Ash hurried to the foyer where the scene in front of her was grisly. A well built blond man stood just inside the open door covered in blood. He smelled like a lycanthrope but the man in his arms was very human. And very hurt. Jeff was taking the injured human from the other man. He turned panicked eyes to Ash.

 

“Ash, I know him.”

 

Kane rounded the corner. “Put him down so I can look at him.”

 

Jeff obeyed and stepped back to join Ash. “He, that’s, um. His name is Shane. Him and I and Shan. We used to…”

 

Shh,” Ash tried to sooth him. “Go see to the other one, Jeff. See if he’s injured.”

 

The new leopard shook his curly head. “I’m not. They gave him to me and told me to come here. He’s a special present for you. That’s what I was told to say.”

 

“You’re not hurt then?”

 

“No.”

 

“Jeff, show him where he can clean up then.”

 

When they were gone, Ash knelt down beside Kane. “How bad is it?”

 

“Bad. Several wounds. But he’ll shift at the next moon. I’m positive of it. If we can just keep him alive until then. I’m almost afraid they might’ve broken his mind though.”

 

“We’ll worry about his mind later. Let’s concentrate on what we can fix for now.”

 

“I’ll have to heal him slower than I would a lycan. His human system could shut down if I force too much of my energy in at once.”

 

“We don’t have any empty rooms left though.”

 

“Make a bed in my room. I’ll need to be close to him so I can keep an eye on his wounds.”

 

Trish left to gather extra blankets. When she’d made a sufficient palate she came back. “It’s ready.”

 

Rob helped him gently carry the unconscious man to the make shift bed. When Ash turned to leave she found Shannon blocking the door. “Please,” was all he whispered.

 

She tried to ignore the pain in that one word. She tried to harden her heart, but she just couldn’t. “Please what, Shannon?”

 

“Please let me stay with him. He needs someone if he wakes up. He’ll be confused and scared and he’s been through so much already. If he has someone he knows. If I had…” He let the sentence trail off. “Please.”

 

“Fine.”

 

His face lit up a little. “And I wanted to tell you something.”

 

“What?”

 

“I understand why you did this to me. And whatever punishment you decide on, it can’t be worse than what you’ve already done.”

 

“I know. There is no other punishment, Shan. This is it. And I see it worked, so I’ll lift it. But just know, that was your one chance. Don’t repeat your mistakes again.”

 

“I’ll ask for help when I need it. And be strong enough to make you proud.” He kissed her cheek and went to curl around Shane. Ash left them to gather everyone else together.

 

“Where’s the new guy?”

 

Jeff answered. “Still scrubbing off the blood.”

 

Ash nodded. “Did you catch his name?”

 

“Matt.”

 

“Okay. I think now is a good time to do some real planning. Matt and Shane had an ‘A’ and a ‘Y’ on them. We’ve got the message. There may be one more but I say we attack. Hard and fast and soon.”

 

“When?”

 

“Tomorrow. Tomorrow we go to war.”

 

And after what they’d all just witnessed, no one argued.