Disclaimer: I'm not the owner, Joss is. Just having a fantasy, nothing more.

Author's note: This is done with great thanks to Andra for reading it and liking it *g*. Also to Darcy for writing a wonderful story where, unfortauntly, Xander dies. You inspired this by making me realize how much I like Xander.

Come in and sit down. I have a story I want to tell you. This one is a true story. One of those 'boy meets girl, boy falls for girl,boy loses girl (as if he had her in the first place) boy finally wins girl.

But this story is different, it has a twist. You see, this is no ordinary girl and as it turned out, I'm no ordinary boy. And yes, it's all true.

I guess I should start at the beginning, even if I am dying to go straight to the smoochies. (Ok will power man.Will power)
So, it started back when I was a sophmore in high school, full of myself. ( Boy did I *so* not have a clue about life. ) I was on my way to school school riding my skateboard when I saw her. She was a dream- a vision.

All blonde and small and she had this golden glow around her, that later I found only I can see.
Anyway, I fell for her. Quite literally. Darn that hurt. So this vision had a name -Buffy. Buffy the Vampire Slayer. The one girl in all the world destined to kill the vampires,demons and general ooky stuff. When one girl dies the next is born. Behold the Buffster.

With her destiny came the usual 'but hey, here is a big kick in the head for you' Slayers die young, violent deaths. Ha! What a load of bunk *that* turns out to be for my Buffy.
( Again with the digression. Stay on track damnit!)
You say you dont believe in vampires? Well tough shit. I dont have the time for a detailed account to try to convince you with. But I feel sorry for you; and if you ever, late at night, see some people with *really* strange faces - no, they're not gang members on PCP and you should run like hell.

So, I find out that my Buffy is a vampire slayer. I get to watch her stake some un-dead ass and am pretty happy with life.
I become part of an elite group called the Slayerettes. We're a different bunch I'll give you that. First there is the Witch- Willow.Then, Werewolf extrodinaire-Oz, G-man the watcher guy, who likes to be called Giles. The bit- umm cheerleader, Cordelia. And Deadboy. But you better call him Angel or he might go 'grrr ' on ya.

I'll tell you about my "powers" later when it fits into the story. For now, I'm the Zeppo.

As I said earlier, I fell in love with Buffy, while she, in turn, fell in love with Angel. I told Buffy about my feelings once but she shot me down. Looking back on it, I see she was only trying to tell my what she felt, in the nicest manner she could. At the time, though, I didn't see that. So, in an attempt to heal myself, I turned my attetions to other girls, the last one being Cordelia; but my heart always remained with Buffy.

The truth tell it, Buffy slowly fell in love with me over time. At first the clues were small and unnoticable.
The first time *I* wondered and had a bit of hope was when I brought her back from death.
The master had killed her and Deadboy-ummmmm Angel and I came in after the deed was done. I gave her mouth to mouth and she opened her eyes and with this beautiful smile on her face, said " Xander " .
Yes! My name. Not Angels, mine.
But being the stubborn Buffy that she is, she kept on with Angel. I'm afraid to say that this caused me grief so I was quite cruel to her at times. At the times when she needed me the most. Luckily for me, besides being stubborn, she is also very forgiving.

Ok, now I'm getting ready really condense some years down into a few sentenses so I can get to the major stuff.
Ready? OK, here goes:
Angel+Buffy= big romance. Angel goes bad, kills some people, I lie to Buffy, Buffy kills a restored Angel.
She runs away then returns. And lo and behold Angel returns. ( What a guy huh? Strong enough to return from death.)
Life culminates up to graduation day. The mayor of good ol' Sunnydale is this big evil who was going to eat the students. Yummy huh?
So a big battle ensues (Thanks Giles for all the big words in my vocabulary) and I get to be Key Guy. I had retained my military memory so.......OOPS wait!
Hehehehe in all my condensing I forgot to tell you about the Halloween incident where we turned into what we were dressed as didn't I?
OK. I was dressed as a soldier. An old friend of Giles, wanting revenge, cast a spell that made us what we are dressed as. Giles broke spell. We kept our memory. Sorry if you want more info. but I'm in a hurry so bear with me here.
So I'm Key Guy. Angel isn't.*snicker* Anyway the whole entire Sunnydale, class of 1999 stood together, led by me ,and stopped yet another attempt of world domination.
Then Deadboy does something stupid and...well, dumb, that even I am surprised. HE Leaves!!! Just up and walks away. Poof- just like that.

Ahhhhh but now the story *really* begins. Get comfortable because now it gets long and some parts are just *weird*. Ready? Ummm you better go to the bathroom first. I'll wait. Go ahead.

OK, feel better? Good.

My story picks up in college.

Well, late in college 'cause after the first semester I decided to enroll.
Just a few classes mind you. (to be honest, I felt a little left out and wanted back on the "in" track with the gang.)

So, I found myself in a History and Demonology class with Buffy,Willow and some new guy (who just gave me the wiggin's)
named Riley. Of course Buffy *liked* him (and no, that's NOT why he gave me the creeps.).


I was actually pretty good in History. With all that research I've picked up a few things. And Demonology? Please! Do I *even* need to tell you how I rocked in that one? How we all did?

So, Buffy continued with her denial in regard to me, and was dating Riley.
(I'm telling you the guy acted just normal and on the hellmouth that is just scary! Even Giles thought something was up with the guy. Of course Buffy thought I was just jealous and Giles was paranoid after the whole Angel thing.)


Willow was acing her classes and making eyes with Oz.
Oz had a new place to stay at his time of the month. Giles had a bookstore(big shock there huh?) near the campus with a *really* strong cage in the back.
I was dating Anya out of boredom and in the hopes that Buffy would finally come to her senses and realize she was in love with me.

All in all life was pretty much as usual and back on it's strange hellmouthy track.
Which let us know that something big would be coming, soon.

So it wasn't but a couple of months later that Giles and myself got preoccupied with something- me. Some odd occurences wee going on with me at the time.Really odd.

One day I noticed that Buffy's glow was white. A very angry looking white. I mentioned this to Giles and the research was on.

No, not cause Buffy's glow was white. Turned out that I found out only I could see Buffy's glow.
Now that was a little odd.Anyway Buffy was questioned and it turned out that she had received a letter from Angel and this made her VERY ANGRY. He wrote that he had found a new love in the form of a vampire witch and they fixed his "happy" clause. (I guess she thought he should have kept it forever, or at least not quit loving her.)

So, the research was on to find out why I could see this Buffy glow. Then I started picking up vibes on the Demonology teacher. I'm talking, my ears rang, my stomach clutched and all thoughts would halt when she was in my pressence. Which made class very hard, to say the least.

On the up-side, Buffy started acting very upset over this fact. Said me seeing her glow was fine but it didn't keep me from functioning in class,so why *in the hell* did the teacher do that to me? I put off telling her that the teacher was evil and that's why I reacted that way.


(Hey! I might not be the smartest guy but I'm sure as hell not dumb.I was gonna milk it while I could.)

Ole Riley boy was clueless to all the goings on and that was fine by me. (Except there was times when he had this *look* on his face that said he knew more than we thought he did.)

Gile's research didn't pan out anything right away, so he wanted me and Buffy to spend more time together to see if anything would happen.(Did I ever tell you how much I love that guy?)
So, I started patroling with her every night. Just me and her patroling alone, together.
That's when the strange-o-meter went from 'umm - ok this is different' to 'what the *hell* is going on?' .

One night, after a week of togetherness, while in the cemetary, we came upon a large group of vamps. A very large group.Buffy said, quite sensibly, that we should run, but, unfortuantly they surrounded us before we could. All 20 of them.

Have you ever seen 20 vamps together with the same goal on their mind? Oh that's right, you don't *believe* in vamps. Well let me tell you- I about shit my pants.

Of course I obviously lived since I'm sitting here telling you this story but it wasn't easy. Well, actually- ah I'm digressing again huh?

So, there we were, surrounded by 20 vamps, wondering what the hell we was going to do now.
Later, I asked Buffy what she was thinking at that precise moment, and her answer brought tears to my eyes. Buffy, my Buffy, thought that this was it for her.That she was going to die a slayers death. And she was terrified, not because it was her time, but because I was going to die too. (No, that's NOT when she discovered she loved me like a lover. It was just when she knew, yet again, she couldn't live with the thought of my, or the others, death.)

Oh, how did we get away from the vamps? Well, give me a sec and I'll tell you already! Geesh. No patience huh?
Hey, I need something to drink, how about you? want something to drink while I'm up?
OK, I'll be right back then.


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