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hey this is mere and this is my poetry, I would advise you if you're going to read to start from the bottom, those are the newer ones, the older ones, I find suck, with the exception of a small few! If you have any comments please send me an e-mail. at confused49@hotmail.com. thanks The site has been revamped, I hope you guys like it, let me know if it's to busy (the background)it might be distracting, but I really liked it! let me know! Oh and sign the guestbook please, it makes me happy!
It's the little things that kill,
Friendship is something from deep in your heart, Dedicated 2 dadHow could he have done this to me,Why can't it be easy and plain to see, A 3 year old has so much love to give, He left me with still my whole life left to live, Asking whens daddy gonna come home, Why did he leave us here all alone, I know you don't love him but can't he love me, He can't be with you mom, but he's still my daddy, That's to many feelings for a little girl to gain, There's hate,anger, fear, but most of all pain, He should have told me way back then, That after that day I'd never see him again, How could he put this all on my shoulders, Why could he not have said, I should just hold her It's hard for me to know love when it's true, For I am afraid that they'll leave me too, It was hard for him to be around mom, But that's not a good reason, for him not to come, He's a man he should be strong enough, He gave up cause seeing me was to rough, Still to this day I can't understand, Why he couldn't see what was at hand, It was easy for him, but why can't he see, That he left all the pain and struggle for me. UntitledThey don't know the pain I feel,Sometimes I don't even know, It hurts so much I cannot speak, I just want to let it all go, I wish there was a place, With no fear or pain, Where there was nothing to lose, But so much to gain, Where everybody listened, But they could also hear, Where you can be alone, But someone's always near. Untitled2Have you ever felt completely alone,Needed to talk but no one was home, Had your heart sink so far down, That it felt as if you were about to drown, Had a tear but held it back from your face, For fear of being stuck in this place, Where saddness seems to finds it's way, Right back into this dark cold day, I try so hard not to be sad, It's hard when things can seem so bad, But through the darkness shines a light, And for that happinness I'll always fight. Tomorrow
When tomorrow comes who will be there, Father and SonWhat's going on, I don't understand,I am so scared, will you hold my hand, Our clasp gets stronger with every breath, With painful, lingering thoughts of death, My heart beats like a million bands, He holds our fate within his hands, Why is all this happening to me, Why can't this young man just see, I hear a loud bang, and close my eyes And shrieks of terror start to arise, I open my eyes and look all around, There's a big pool of blood on the ground, I look into the shooters face, What is he doing inside this place, The others drop onto there knees, They pray to God, please oh please, He realizes what he has done, He's ruined his life, by killing his son, He didn't know he was there that night, His heart aches from the terrible sight, He raises his gun to his chest, Father and son lay forever to rest. AloneI could tell by the way he asked me,At least from what I could see, By the way he danced with me, That it would never be, His hands rested on my back and didn't move at all, That whole time I was happy, he stared at the wall, When the music came to an end, he stopped and walked away, I finally realized what I had known, and that was apart we'd stay. Untitled
It's such a relief that this is done, untitled for now
What the hell is wrong with me, Searching 4 my rainbow
The rainbow comes after the rain, I'm HereYou don’t need it all,And it’s okay to fall, Just know that I’m here, And don’t give in to fear, Things will be okay, Just wait another day, Give it some time, It’s like a flip of a dime, Things change so fast, And the bad times will pass, Don’t throw life away, Things will get better some day. Don't
Don’t wipe the tear from my eye,
We play on knives, Inside
One dark day I had a thought, What If
What if no one was watching, Help me understand
Why is it so hard for me, TrustHow can you expect me,To tell you how I feel, When I ask the same thing, It's like nothing is for real, I thought we had a friendship, So stop telling me these lies, I can see to your heart, Through your bloodshot eyes, Your face is like an open book, But seen through weary eyes, I try harder every time I look, But I've been there too many times. What about youI'm glad I got this off my chest,But was my decision for the best, I needed to do this for me, But I wonder if you see what I see, Now I think, what about you, What have I been putting you through, But you don't understand my pain, It feels as if I'm going insane, I'm glad you don't see the world as I do, For it would be a terrible view. Love's CryThings were said,We had our fun, But sadness called, And now it's done, One small word, And things went wrong, My poor friend, And his sad sad song, He sings it daily in my ear, I tell him he has nothing to fear, But I know I speak a lie, For love itself has got to cry. TearsLet the tears fall like rain,And wash away all your pain, Hopes have set like the sun, But happiness has just begun, So fast it tends to slip away, So hold on tight and don't you say, Those words that we all do fear, That pulls so hard on that first tear. HowThe feeling that I have inside,Is something I don't want to hide, Rather I am afraid to lose, So it's up to you to choose, I'm scared I'll grow to attached, It's going to be a rough patch, I don't know if we'll make it through, But I'm willing to give it a try for you. BreatheTake a deep breath,You’ll pull through, Don’t set your mind on death, It’s too hard to do, Know that we all love you, And we always will, Know that we all care for you, You’ve got your whole life still, Things will always get better, You’ve got to understand, Know that if you have to, You can reach for my hand. DrugsDon’t turn to drugs so quickly,They’ll fuck with your head, And leave you with false happiness, Until you realize you’re dead, You’re holding on by a string, Don’t let them win so soon, You think you’ve already lost, But you’re sidetracked by the moon, Don’t fall into their shadows, It’s not a reality, Not everyone is perfect, So don’t feel you have to be. Just beI’m not another face in the crowd,I want to live my life out loud, I don’t want to be like all of you, You have your own emotions too, Not everyone can be the same, Life is not a matching game, Don’t be afraid of who you are, If everyone was we wouldn’t get far. Girl Stay GroundedCaught between heart and mind,The answers are so hard to find, For love is pure and feels so right, But can’t be won without a fight, Girl stay grounded I tell myself, I can’t live with only my health, One’s so practical but it’s not right, He’s not the one I want tonight, But the other’s so far from me, If only this one could see. Let’s just saySay you saw me walk away,Say you saw me turn to grey, Say you wanted me with you, Say you think love is true, Do you know how’d it’d feel, Maybe love is not for real, I’ve never held on to the though, I can’t remember being caught, In this game that you call love, That’s carried on the wings of one rare dove. My StoryYou’re typical,And I’m jaded, You asked me, And I have waited, You wouldn’t show, You don’t belong, You think you fit, But I’m not wrong, It is my story, And my ending, With no more breaks, And no bending, You once had left, I thought I lost, But it was my, Fine line you crossed. OneI was one girl, one time, with one way out,And why you ask was it so hard, It was hard because I felt your false pity, I’m sorry, I don’t want your sympathy card, I find one comfort, one life, and one source of light, You don’t need to pretend to care, I know who you are, You’d rather me not share, I have on poem, one song, and one savior, I find relief in what I write, I know you find it hard to believe, But you aren’t part of this fight. Sad EyesYour sad eyes,All full of tears, Telling me all your fears, They tell a story, Of all your pain, While all the world, Is screaming in vain, Lost inside a, world so dark, Like a tree, Without it’s bark, And all I can do, Is wait and see, If one day you’ll, Come back to me. UntitledThe clouds have finally moved away,And I’ve said good-bye to the rainy day, The pain I thought would never leave, I got the help I prayed to receive, By thinking and letting it all out, By talking about what I needed to talk about, In my own little way, And letting the good things stay, I found a simple remedy, And now all I am is plain old me, Of course there’s always a bad day, But at least I have found a way, Not to forget, but to let go, And I thank God that he willed it so. CircusThere's nothing up my sleeve,This isn't magic, It's far from it, Or else I'd have it, There are no secrets, No hidden mirrors, There's nothing left, To hide my fears, I'm scared to be here, I'm scared to be gone, Why won't you listen, There is something wrong, Open your eyes, And look around, There are no stupid, Circus clowns, Nothing left, Of my mask, I don't have the answers, So don't bother to ask. ScaredI'm looking for a refuge,A place to stay warm, But I just can't find the words, And I just can't find the form, I'm chasing shadows, That don't want to be caught, The remainder of that vivid line, That terrifying spot, I'm trapped inside, A place so cold, They're tired of all the pain, And they're afraid of growing old, So I'll crawl back under the rock, From which I grew to be, Waiting for the rest of the world, To come along with me. Sweet DreamsSweet dreams to all the fighting,Sweet dreams to all the mess, Sweet dreams to having the feeling, That I am worth much less,
Sweet dreams to summer side walks,
Sweet dreams to all the saddness, StrayEndulging in the satifaction of a doubt,Someone please tell me what this is all about, Stray winners do lose, And losers do stray, But let them do it, In they're own little way, They tell me this is all, Just a big game, Then why are we the ones, Taking all the blame, You shove us up front, And aside, and behind, Why won't you all just make up your mind, We're here, we're there, We're nothing, we're gone, As long as we dont, Show up at dawn. The Beauty of YouWho do I tell,Where do I hide, Lost inside a happiness, In which I cannot confide, I've brought my walls down for you, In hopes that what, We have is true, I'm beginning to fall, In to waters so deep, As I see the beauty of your, Soul lay there as you sleep. It's okI love you so much,And friendship is fine, But I wish you'd be there, To walk me down that line, I look into your eyes, And I see the stars, I look into your heart, And I see the scars, I know that this is hard on you, You're going through what I'm going through, I'm here for you forever hun, No matter if I'm not the one, No matter if I fall to tears, Knee deep in a world of fears, Someday we'll put behind the pain, And the angels will begin to sing again. ChangeThe sun's not looking,So bright anymore, The moon's not as beautiful, As it was before, The door in which you stood, Was slammed in my face, And you are with her, While I'm stuck in the same place, The rose is wilting, The last peddle did fall, The birds have bid, A goodnight to you all. Awake and ThinkingI lay awake in bed at night,Staring at my ceiling, Thoughts of you fill my head, Are you feeling what I'm feeling, I'm lost without you by my side, You're the fire that keeps me warm, My heart you hold in your palm, My heart that has been torn, Without you I am nothing, Please don't leave so soon, I love you too much to let you go, You're my sun, you're my moon. Love?What is love,Does anyone know, If you do, Please tell me so, Does it last forever, Does it ever end, In order to get it, Must we bend, Why does it seem, To hurt so bad, The wonderful feeling, That leaves to make you sad, Is love fear, Is love lost, Will love prevail, Without a cost? Mind vs HeartRight now I feel the need,To put my pen to paper, To let out all these thoughts, To do my mind a favor, In a fight with my heart, My mind has grown much stronger, I cannot fall asleep, Will this go on much longer, My fear of losing you, Has ceased with the hope you gave, I wish I could be with you, But for you a hug I'll save. Why?Why won't the pain,In this world go away, Why must it go on, Day after day, To lose love, to lose life, To lose all that matters, To watch it all disappear, As it falls and shatters, It seems as though, The good things don't stay, Why must the world, Go on this way? DreamI wonder what comes next,As I lay awake in bed, The sounds of silent screams, Are pounding in my head, Pain fills my tired mind, Like water fills a glass, When will this sleepless state, Ever decide to pass, I rub my eyes in exhaustion, But cannot fall asleep, Like an old man climbing up a hill, Which is much to steep, Fill my mind with dreams, Of happier times than now, Put me back into that place, Someone please show me how. Meant to beIt's the last stopHere is where I get off This is my grand exit I'm ready to dance among the stars With every word in motion And everybody free This is where I am Where I'm meant be With a single word spoken But not spoken to me This is what I’ve wanted I know you all can see So love don’t judge Don’t judge me Because this is where I’m happy Where I’m meant to be I wrote this very late at nightOk well I think it’s for the best,Because my mind’s a little twisted, And I laugh because they turn away, And pretend that they all missed it, It’s funny how they act like monkeys, Swinging from side to side, Never realizing that we’re all watching, With cameras and the T.V guide, Remotes, demotes, fucking big boats, Keep em’ all in line, With a bunch of those goddam racers, All racing, for what? More time? Ok well you think I’m fucked up, Who the hell are you to say, I think you’re pretty fucked up too, Thank ya and have a great day, Hey you got my shoes all dirty, Oh did I, weird how shit happens eh, What? You don’t find it that funny? Sorry, what more do you want me to say? Yeah I may seem a little harsh, But that’s what you loved about me, Never stepping back and looking, At what they call reality, Right? So why are you so mad, Why do you care so damn much? I’m not the one you wanted here, I’m not the one that you touch, I’ve got all these unspeakable thoughts, So why do I feel that I should share, You don’t give a shit about me, and myself, And why should you pretend to care, Oh that’s right, you’re fake and perfect, Excuse me, I must have forgot, All those stupid padded rooms, Must have been filled up with pot FairytaleI’m just a fairytaleThat someone else thought up The damsel in distress with two swords in her dress, And tears that cry only to please her prince Who she never wanted to need But the truth lies in the corner of your dark room Where you found me curled up and crying, For you And in your inaudible attempts To reach for me Reach out to me Reach me You made it clear That I’m not who I am to you Or who I thought I was to you But rather a mere glimpse Of who you wanted me to be Someone I’ll never be Don’t want to be Couldn’t be In a sickening way I’m sorry I can’t be her anymore The mirror image of myself Who isn’t me at all That little girl who needs you To catch her when she falls So now here I am, This is me, As frightening as it seems The little girl who’s not so little anymore Who wants not to cry Not for you Not anymore Too badso I guess this is itI guess this is goodbye I can only hope to look upon you one last time two roads diverged in a yellow wood.. and you didn't choose mine.. But that's all we can ask for, all we really need.. a choice, an action, a decision all we need to leave.. all the reason in the world not to go It's just too bad, I guess, that it's a decision to be made.. forced to choose between solid and water.. one you can hold in your hand, the other in your arms but it's never the same, not without you Smoke and RainThe man in the smoking section,Isn't a teacher. He just likes the smell of smoke and rain He's out to get us, To steal a half hour of our time And they listen to him inside, I guess he's repected there. But here, he just likes the smell, Everyday, the same ugly jacket and cold eyes, And he probably smokes himself,...hypocrite! He doesn't care enough to know our names, Just writes them down, And passes them on, The man in the smoking section Isn't a teacher, He just likes the smell of smoke and rain 360 degreesFailed dreamsand broken hearts What more can be asked of us When the world has done a complete 360 The second we closed our eyes Where did we go wrong Maybe we went wrong when we Took a breath of air, looked around and walked away and we forgot But it's ok because air is packaged everything is nowadays That or tied in a pretty pink bow so that we remeber to forget Learn how not to care But it's not our fault it never is Because air is packaged and everything is ok as long as there's a pretty pink bow tied around it Where did we go wrong? Where didn't we BanterBooks and movies and thingsSpeak of people who slip away We'll laugh or cry or pity these people But it stops when you're done Just like everything stops after a while It makes me wonder if anyone is ever real Or do they just cry to show they have feelings Or laugh to prove their knowledge Or maybe they just have nothing better to do People speak of things like they know it all They speak of Gods like they go way back Drinking buddies in high school maybe But maybe we're the movies After all, what inspires the writer We laugh at the stupidity of a character Or yell at the screen because they're wrong But when the TV's off and the story's still on Who are the actors, and who's watching When You Go (song)(chorus)when the time comes and you're ready to go leave your key on the floor you know nothing i didn't already know take your plans as you leave and go... go on no one needs a worn out goodbye go on... go ignorance is bliss you're as blissful as they come barrell full of monkeys and broken mistletoe can you hear me screaming behind the silence clench your teeth and wait for the rain the train is coming if you're not on it you're underneath dont leave your albums songs empty in content suit you too well to forget (chorus) when the time comes and you're ready to go leave your key on the floor you know nothing i didn't already know take your plans as you leave and go... go on no one needs a worn out goodbye go on... go time is well wasted upon a first impression left your impression on my couch scent on my pillow nothing more, nothing less no one wants what to know where we fucked up in life what the rain smells like around a dying fire it's all hopeless on arrival strain to recall the sound of you leaving the song you sang under your breath (chorus) when the time comes and you're ready to go leave your key on the floor you know nothing i didn't already know take your plans as you leave and go... go on no one needs a worn out goodbye go on... go twist and turn on the cold mattress of the hotel spend your last night alone wrap your fears around the stained bedsheets leave your inhibitions on the nightstand no one cares where you're from as long as you're leaving take your tickets in style lose your faith for a memory days that never occurred words you never spoke whats the worth of it all anyhow (chorus) when the time comes and you're ready to go leave your key on the floor you know nothing i didn't already know take your plans as you leave and go... go on no one needs a worn out goodbye go on... go thoughts are wasted on you forget the card you gave i dare you to smile put down the bag you packed last month you know that silence is lethal behind broken intentions incessantly falling for the masquarade can you even remember how real felt two stamps and return to sender fall for it again... again and where did you go wrong... cage up the disaster and run
I'll add more poems later, thanks for reading!
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