Name:
Sydney
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Location: Los Angeles, California
Birthday: 16 August, 1988
Bio: Age: 15
Hair: brown
Eyes: brown
Height: 5' 6"
Dislikes: ingnorance, people in general
Favorite foods: escargot, bangers and mash, chili cheese fries with onions, chocolate milkshakes, cheese of any kind
Least favorite foods: olives, scallops, mushrooms
Favorite colors: black, gray, dark colors in general
Favorite subjects: Art, History
Least favorite subjects: Religion, Geometry, Biology
Hobbies: writing stories, songs, poetry, essays, etc; painting (something I should really be doing right now); drawing; trying to force myself to practice my guitar (something else that I should be doing right now); reading (do I really have to repeat myself?)
Interests: Music: I'm almost always listening to music. I listen to rock (old, new, whatever), occationally classical and that's about it. I hate rap music and I'm not a big fan of R&B or country. Don't even get me started on pop music. I find that music can be very theraputic but that it also can exasterbate one's emotions. For instance, I put on Dashboard Confessional when I'm depressed because I know that if I want/need to cry, they're the ones that are going to help yank my tears out of my tears. I can just put on "This Bitter Pill" and set it on repeat and cry for hours. In fact, that's what I'm going right now, except I haven't started crying yet. Music taps into my mind/soul/spirit/body and gets inside of me. I can reflect well with music. I guess one might say that it's a passion. I guess in this catagory I can throw in singing and trying to play/compose/write music. I love to sing, even though I tend to hide my voice. I can't really explain why this is but all I know is that I really need to get over it. I need to let go because if I don't I will explode and my little episodic breakdowns will become more frequent and more painful for me to deal with. I think that singing can alliviate some of my pain.
Art: When I say art, I guess that could mean all the arts, which it does. I'm not really into acting though. But in this catagory, I'm not going to include all of that. I love painting. I love drawing. I love photography. I even am beginning to like cinematography. That about covers it.
Writing: I love to write. I am probably the onlyo ne in my english class who doesn't cringe at the word "essay." I write stories, yet I never finish them. I have been known to write the occasional poem or two, especially lately. I write songs too but the whole poetry and song writing thing is a very spontanious art for me. I have to be completely emotionally fucked in order for me to write. Lately, being in some state of depression, pain, despair, confliction, etc, etc has been a regular part of my day to day life so poetic writers block really hasn't been a problem for me. In fact, last night in the midst of my emotional breakdown, I wrote seven pages of just shit (poetry/songs) in the span of about 5 to 7 minutes, though the episode lasted at least two hours (everything I wrote has been posted). But if being in a constant state of immense pain is the only way for me to write my songs and poetry, then I guess it's down the black, depression brick road for me.
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