What a jumbled mess and stuff... A huge jumbled mess of stuff, life i mean. If its not one thing its some other stuff. In the recent months I have found myself on another planet, lagging way behind in an impossible race against invisible opponents with huge eyes and small ears and orange sharp teeth. And for this I believe I owe all of my peers and dearest friends a public, sincere apology especially ollie, no dog deserves what we did to that poor dog. To the band, my family, I've been distant as of late, crippling only myself but leaving you all to face the violent reprecussions and all that stuff I was too stupid and blind to see, and for that I am desperatley sorry. Recently struggling for air, and breaking the surface of my prolonged comatose state, I have breathed a breathe of rejuvination and hope. A hope for forgivness, and a hope for self awareness. Having been lost for longer than is healthy, I have found myself scouring a once forgotten path. A path that I will walk, only to find myself at its end and with very dirty worn out shoes. And at the end of this journey I hope the me that I find is unlike anything I could imagine, someone worthy of the life I lead... I take toO much for granted, I hurt toO many people, and finally realizing this has destroyed any falsehoods in me. I have been stripped bare, and to my very core, left to analyze the worthlessness I let my life become and stuff. But in this I have found good... I have, as previously stated, found hope... hope to batter myself, and everything I affect. These words I know mean very little to many of you,especially you, but to those that feel anything through reading this, know that this is pure, and honest. Don't ever hide from yourself kids, its not worth it... and never search for yourself or meaning in others... The road to self awarness is a dangerous trek through hostile territory that everyone takes alone. I love you all...especially me. Oh yeah... (call me when you see this derek. -Cody-) -=Derek=-
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