After my talk with dad I had decided what I was going to do. I just had to work up the nerve to do it, and I wasn't sure how it was going to turn out. All my life, I had wanted something that I knew would be hard to obtain. A nice, down to earth girl.... and I might end up throwing that all away! I had gone over it, over and over again, in my head. What I was going to say to her, and I had to make sure that it came out right! God, how was I going to be able to do this? How was I going to be able to tell her and not scare her, or hurt her? This was the worst anguish I'd put myself through in a long time! I decided to just do it, let her know straight out, right now............
I picked up the phone and dialed her number, gently tapping a pen on the desktop as I waited for what seemed like an eternity.
"Hello?" A voice answered.
"Yes, I'm looking for Kim." I replied.
"Oh, hold on. Can I ask who's calling?"
"Yeah, this is Zac."
"Ok, one moment." The voice said, I could hear whomever say it was a call for Kim.
'Thanks mom.' She said quietly.
"Hello?" She asked.
"Hey Kim, it's Zac."
"Oh, hi Zac." She replied. She sounded upset.
"Look, Kim, I'm sorry I haven't returned your calls. I was going through some things, something happened in Boston, and I got scared, and just...... I'm sorry." I sighed.
"Zac, if you didn't want to talk to me again, you could have told me. I'm sorry that something happened, but you didn't have to ignore me like I was the plague! I wasn't the one that did whatever it was to you, so you shouldn't have taken it out on me! Now, unless you have something else to say, I have to get ready for work." She was pissed off. I felt terrible that I had made her wait to hear from me.
"I, well, we need to talk. But if you don't want to do it today..... I can call you back. But it's important."
"I have time, what is it?" She asked.
"Well, I have thought alot about this, and I don't really know how to get this out right. So, I'm just gonna say it, and hopefully you will understand." She stayed silent on the other end, waiting for me to get out what I was going to say to her.
"Look, a girl that I used to know got into the backstage area in Boston, and she freaked me out really badly. She was going psycho on me, and I ended up getting knocked out by a door and I ended up with an almost broken nose........anyway, I thought alot about what you mean to me, and I called to let you know that, well, that I don't think that............" She cut in before I could finish what I was going to say.
"You don't think we can be friends anymore? I understand Zac, and if that's what you want, I will stand by it, because I care enough about you to let you decide what you want. I'm not going to lie and say it doesn't hurt my feelings, but if that's what you want, then fine, that's what's going to happen." She said quickly.
"Kim, shut up!" I hollered into the phone. "You didn't let me finish what I was going to say." I said getting angry.
"Now, as I was saying, I don't think that I can go through life knowing that I hurt a sweet girl like you, and I want to be your friend. Now, if you can chill out for a minute, I have something to ask you."
She breathed in and exhaled into the phone, and I smiled to myself.
"I want you to meet me in Tulsa. This is our last date except the show at home, and I want you to be there. So, if I call you back tonight after you get out of work with the flight information, will you come?" I asked.
"Zac..... you didn't have to do that. I'm so sorry that I yelled at you, I was angry. I thought that you didn't want to talk to me anymore." She replied.
"That's in the past, now answer my question." I smiled again.
"You're awfully demanding, Zachary. But yes, I will meet you in Tulsa. Call me back tonight around 7, I have to do paperwork for my dad tonight." She said happily.
"Are you smiling?" I asked her.
"Yes Zac, I am." She answered.
"Good, cause so am I. So, I'll talk to you tonight."
"You bet Zac, talk to you later." She said.
"Ok Kim, talk to you tonight. And I'll see you in a few days." I smiled.
"You got it, I gotta go Zac. I don't want to be late for work."
"Ok Kim, bye."
"Bye Zac."
I hung up the phone, and I felt as if a lead weight had been lifted off my shoulders! I couldn't have been any happier at that moment, and I had finally done what I knew was right. She was a good person, and I knew that I couldn't live without her as my friend.
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