Dizzy

Rating: PG-13, Dan pov
Disclaimer: "Dizzy" belongs to the Goo Goo Dolls. Don't sue. Imitation is the highest form of compliment.
Note: Sequel to "If I Were Brave"


DIZZY

You’re cynical and beautiful
You always make a scene

You're gaping at me. It's not nice to stare, Dazza. I can't believe how much you've changed, it's only been two years. Two endless years...and I can't believe I didn't come back before that. Look at you. You look...old. But still perfect. Always perfect.

You’re monochrome delirious
You're nothing that you seem

You're stammering now. Trying to pretend that you didn't miss me, that you didn't miss me as much as I missed you. That you didn't love me. I know you love me, Daz. I love you too. Don't you have a show to do? That's why I'm here.

I’m drowning in your vanity
Your laugh is a disease

You're so beautiful, all done up for the show. Your hair is spikey, flying in every direction. I remember you trying to tame it for hours, and finally you just let it fly, like your soul. You just finally let it free. Good for you. I can hear the crowd getting restless, Darren.

You’re dirty and you’re sweet
You know you’re everything I need

Your lips fall on mine, christ, I missed that. They burn me through, they make me pure again. Your kisses are like electroshock therapy.

Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you want

I swear love, I'm not going anywear. Your eyes...oh god, they haven't changed. They're pure blue, like the brightest sky, where the atmosphere is thin. And they express everything, all of your crackling emotion, all the hate and rage and love and sorrow that you know. Did I cause that?

I wanna kick at the machine
That made you piss away your dreams

I've heard that this is your last concert. I know you wouldn't let anyone know if you were going to pull something like this, but I just have a feeling. I've come to help. To make it special. To make it special like it should be, like it was when we were Savage Garden, not just two names on a playbill. Let's be that again, Darren.

And tear at your defenses
Till there’s nothing there but me

You didn't want my love two years ago. You didn't want any of this. Should I remind you of it? Should I remind you of all the pain you caused me, what you did you make me pack up my things and go?

You’re angry when you’re beautiful
Your love is such a tease

How could I have hated you so much? How could we have caused each other so much pain? I was so selfish in leaving...It was horrible of me. Can you forgive me, Darren? Leonie. She's looking for you. The show must go on, Darren.

I’m drowning in your dizzy noise
I wanna feel you scream

Shh, don't cry. I won't leave again, I swear. You look so tiny when you cry. Let's go do the concert, Dazza, so you can go out with a bang. Can you imagine how the crowds will freak when I go out there with you? Like a fucking beatles reunion? Let's be real again, Darren. Let's do this together.

Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you want

We walk out on stage, and a hush falls over the whole crowd. You don't even introduce me. And what are we doing? Tears of pearls? How cliche, Darren. How odd. How perfect. How can we do this, act like nothing's happened? Is it because we're together again? Is it because I missed you? You're my angel. I love you.

END.