I don't know myself
I step into a body that is not like my own
Who have I become and why is it so unknown?
I’d like to break every piece of glass filled with sand
And let the pieces fall to the floor and do it again
Maybe than I’d feel a little piece of sanity
I’d cut it up and eat it in small amounts
Hope that it lasts make every moment count
And when I’m done with the brief false ecstasy
I’d just be back the same old bitter me
Probably worse than I ever was before
So when the time comes to consume this world
I’ll turn and run, not think, I won’t return
I’ll lock the door to my dark room
And let the sound of darkness loom
I’ll give up everything to just step into the light
And feel the worst of the worst
As I walk around and stumble than curse
I can remember the way it was supposed to feel
I’m tired of walking around in a body that’s not real
It’s turning me into someone that doesn’t care
I’m scared of never wanting to come back
Turning it around and losing it all I won’t keep track
So lost moments that will never be recalled
They’ll be erased and I’ll forget them all
So let them go and I’ll try to move on
Let every chamber of my mind be flooded with a false reality
And as someone approaches as the new me
I hope they do things differently and find some roads of hope
And not pay attention to the lost mind drowning in wake of the new one
