from my mouth to your earz. i wish your mother would let me watch u both grow up!!!
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here is eden and lisa
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awwwwwwwwwz eden lookz so adorable seepinnn.. |
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awwwwwwz lisa lookz so adorable, all seeping
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i have had my share of broken heartz in my time. over the yearz i have had some big onez and i have had some small onez. i would have had no inclination or idea to the extent my next broken heart would be like.u think in ur trialz and tribulationz in life that u will overkome anything.well that is easier said than done.missing ur kidz is a heartbreak all of its own design.there is no explanation in trying to explain how bad it urz or how bad u truly do miss your kidz.even the fact that u knowing your not there biological father would not put a damper on ur heart ache hoping maybe that would take away some of the pain ur indearing becuase of the loss of your 2 beautiful princesses in your day to day life.nothing will take away the pain but to see them and to have there armz around u and to hear them say * i love you daddie * no werdz in my opnion kould ever ring as klear and beautiful as thoughz werdz i used to hear it from my 4 year old. my youngest was not old enough yet only being 1 she kould not say i love u daddie and as it seemz to go know and i sit here and sobb ill never hear that phrase kome out of her mouth and that is a pain werse then death to me.the thought that ill never hear my 2 angelz say i love u again OR for the first time for that matter is something that bie far is the werst heart break anyone kould endure.i dont know what a parent would be feeling or thinking for that matter to take a parent away from 2 young kidz, that in itself is assanine seeing as how these 2 beautiful kidz of mine only know me as there dad both there real fatherz dont seem to want anything to do with them.in my own opnion there fatherz are fucking skum. for me to look into one of the beautiful facez and to see and hear them say i love you daddie is THE MOST in fucking crecible feeling any one man kould ever dream of hearing..there is nothing in this werld better then my 2 angelz.i resent and hate and hold so much bottled up anger tawardz there mother becuase of this it is nutz. i have never fealt this way about someone.i have never been this angry about one person in my whole entire life But i trully am sadend by the fact there mom is doing this to me and MORE importantly doin this to them.u know it sux when u have 1 picture of both and that is all u have to hug and hope to hear i love u kome from it but knowing u wont get eaither from it.what am i to do this heart ache is to sevire i dont know how to deal with this other then kry and that is not going to do anything for me.all a daddie wantz is his angelz, to beable to kiss um on the cheack and give um hugz and tell them i love u hunnie and hear in return i love you daddie ** kryz **..just the thought of hearing them say i love u in my hed is to painfull. sometimez i just want to go on a rampage and i dont know just something to make me feel better BUT i know nothing is going to make me feel any better. other then to see and hear my angelz once again.. |
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