"Well don't be, I'm fine," I said as I splashed water on my face.
"what is your problem? Does it bother you that I care about you?," nick asked me in a very high tone. "just never mind. I am really tired, and I am not in a very good mood. I am sorry. So what'd ya want?," I said calmly sitting on my bed. "well. First of all. How come your not staying with me?," nick asked me. "because I don't know. I just thought it would be better this way," I said. "whoa, lets calm down. Jayme, we just wanted to know if you wanted to go to the gym with us," Brian said. "yea sure I'll go," I said and I quickly got a pair of green and white Adidas shorts and a sports bra and a white tank top and went into the bathroom and changed. When I came back out, brian was the only one there. "where did nick go?," I asked him as I put my sneakers on. "to the gym. He is kinda buggin right now. I'm sorry about it," brian said and he sat down next to me. "why? I don't understand what I did, I mean, we haven't seen each other in 3 weeks, and I wanted to surprise him, and it seems like I'm bothering him instead!," I said all frustrated and I began to cry. "hey, its ok. It's Mandy. She just showed up, and it got to him. Don't cry, its ok," brian said and he hugged me. And it felt kinda weird to, cause its not everyday you hug your boyfriend's best friend. "I know…oohh. Lets go," I said wiping my tears and then we went to the gym. When we walked in the weight room, nick was there bench pressing. "I'm going to go on the tread mill, see ya in 15 minutes," I said and I went over to a separate room. When I finished, I went over to the sana, which was co-ed. When I walked in, I saw nick sitting there with his head down in his hands, like he was almost crying. "nick? Are you ok?," I asked as I walked over to him. "yeah….i'm ok," he said and he wiped his eyes. "come on. You can tell me anything," I said as I sat down next to him. "I'm just so confused!, I don't know what to do," he said and he looked up to me straight in the eyes. "What do you mean?," I asked. "Mandy is here, you are here. We are on tour, photo shoots. All of this at once, it's just not easy. I'm so stressed out," he said. And it was there and then that I knew that I had to go back home, and that we were through for a while. When I got back to my room, I called the airport and they told me that the flight back to Tampa was leaving at 5:30am tomorrow morning. I didn't want to tell anyone, I knew that they wouldn't want me to go, but I also knew that I had too. "Jayme, we're going to go shopping want to come?," Brian asked me. "sure!, I'd love to," I said and I grabbed my purse and Brian and I went to nick's room. We walked in and found him laying on the bed with Mandy giving him a massage. I just stood there in awe. "brian! Jayme! What are you doing here? Why didn't you knock?," nick asked in shock. "sorry frack, we didn't know we would be interrupting anything," Brian said. "sorry…you didn't. I'm just really stressing right now, I'm ok Mandy," nick said and he stood up, "so what did you want?." "nothing, nothing at all," I said and I walked out of his room and ran down the hall as fast as I could. "Jayme! Wait! Please! Just stop!," nick screamed to me as he ran after me. I ran into the elevator and I was hoping that the doors would close before he got to me but they didn't and he ran into it with me. "Jayme, please just listen to me," nick said all out of breath and all I did was turn away from him. "Jayme, I know that what you just saw did not look so good. But trust me, there is nothing going on between us. I am really stressed out right now, I just needed to relax and she came in my room, that's all," he said. "look nick, you don't have to explain anything to me. I just want to get the hell away from here," I said. "why do you want to leave? I thought you were here for 2 weeks?," nick asked me. "I changed my mind, I'm leaving tomorrow morning at 5:30am, and there is nothing you can say to sto-," "no! you can't go! You show up un-expected, and now your leaving! Why?!?!," nick screamed at me. "because I want to! It's my choice! And its your damn choice to choose who you wanna be with! And obviously its not me!," I screamed back at him. And just as I finished, the elevator stopped at my floor and I walked off and headed to my room, and nick followed me. "wait a second!," nick said and he pulled my arm to stop me, "who said I didn't want you?." "nobody did! But-," "but what Jayme? You know its not true," nick said in a calm voice as he watched me unlock my door. "then why is she with you every time I see you? And why can't you just admit it that you want her more?," I said as I walked in and threw my purse on my bed. "I can't admit something that's not true. Why can't you believe me?," he asked me as he shut my door and sat next to me on my bed. "want to know why? Ok, here's why ~ I see you crying in the sana and you won't tell me why you are crying. I walk in on you and your ex-girlfriend giving you a massage, when I'm here with you for the first time in 3 weeks! What do you expect me to think?," I asked as I stood up and faced him. He just sat there like he didn't know what to say to make things right because he knew that I was right. "see! You don't even know what to say to that! Excuse me, but I really have to pack my stuff up," I said as I picked up a picture of me and him together that I had sitting on the stand next to my bed like I did at home. "is that the picture brian took of us at your house?," nick asked me in a quiet voice. "yeah…I had a blast that day," I said as I sat down on the bed next to him and stared at the picture. All of the boys were over at my house and we were in the kitchen eating veggies and I was sitting on the counter and nick was standing in front of me feeding them to me and brian took a picture of us. "me too. Brian kicked my ass in basketball that day, I can remember cause you and him double teamed me and you jumped on my back and we both fell down and I fell on top of you. And you thought you sprained your ankle," nick said laughing. "yeah I remember that. Well, I have to get going, its 7pm and I still have to pack and eat," I said and I went to stand up but nick pulled me back down. "please, stay," he said and he kissed me deeply. "nick, I can't. I feel to uncomfortable," I said as I looked him straight in the eyes. "why? What's here that makes you so uncomfortable?," he asked me. "I don't know…Mandy, I guess," I said shyly. "well. I can't tell her to leave, she's with us to promote her career, that's management's work," he said. "I'm not asking you to tell her to leave, I'm no boss. But I can't be here," I said and I stood up and slowly walking away. "then at least lets go to dinner together before you leave," nick said and he stood up and walked over to me. "ok, just the two of us?," I asked. "just the two of us," he said and he took my hand and led me out of the room."Brian, Jayme and I are going to dinner. We'll be back soon," nick said to brian as he got his wallet out of his room.
"ok, have fun," brian said as he sat there playing nintendo. "May I take your order please?," the waiter asked us both. "umm, we will have the special for tonight thank you, and a bottle of champagne," nick said. "be right back," the waiter said and he left. "why champagne?, what are we celebrating?," I asked him. "I am going to do everything in my power to convince you to stay," nick said as he held my hand. "nick, I can't just forget everything that I saw today and have you expect that all's well ya know," I said. "I know you can't. but I also know that if you leave, all your going to think about when you get back is how you think that Mandy and I are thousands of miles away, together. Tell me that's the truth," nick said. And I sat there thinking about it cause that probably would happen. "your right, but it doesn't matter anymore," I said. "what do you mean it doesn't matter, we're still a couple," nick said. "I think that we should just pick things back up when you get back," I said quietly. "What are you serious? How can you say that and expect me to feel good about it?," nick screamed to me and the whole restaurant stopped talking and stared at us. "nick! Calm down! My god, everyone is staring at us!," I said to him. "I don't care! Jayme! Your so damn selfish!," he screamed to me and threw his napkin down and stormed out of the restaurant and left. I just sat there like a jackass with everyone staring at me. I felt the tears dwelling in my eyes so I too ran out of there and started walking back to the hotel. As I was walking back, I thought about how much I would hate myself for breaking up with him and going back to Florida mad at each other. That's the last thing that I wanted, so I set out to find him. I figured that he wouldn't roam the streets with out a bodyguard so he must have gone back to the hotel. So that's where I went, and I searched all over the hotel and didn't see him anywhere. So after about an hour of looking for him, I just went back to my room. To my surprise, nick was in my room laying on my bed staring at the ceiling. "what are you doing in here?," I asked him as I went over to my dresser and got a pair of baby blue Nike shorts and a white tank top and then I went into the bathroom to change out of my clothes. The whole time I was changing, nick didn't say anything at all. When I came out, he looked over to me. "are you going to even talk to me? Or am I to selfish to speak to?," I asked him as I put noxema on my face. "I don't understand you anymore Jayme, your so different, almost like your not the same person I fell in love with 2 months ago. What happened?," nick asked me. I just stood there in surprise. "a lot has happened nick! I was told that I had cancer! Do you think that that wouldn't change me? Now who's being selfish!," I said and then I began crying. "I'm not being selfish. I just don't understand why you think we should call it quits for a while. Its not fair," he said. "ok. I thought that maybe if we did, that I wouldn't have to worry about you and Mandy and you wouldn't have to worry about me and some other guy or whatever ya know?," I said as I climbed onto my bed and under the covers. "but Jayme, we have enough trust in each other that that is something we shouldn't have to worry about whatsoever. Ugh! I just don't know how to tell you how much I don't want you to go, or call it quits for that matter," nick said all frustrated as he put his hands over his face and sighed. "nick, I don't want to call it quits! But what am I supposed to think when I walk in my boyfriend's room and find his ex-girlfriend giving him a massage? Things just add up to one point, and I don't want to deal with that," I said. "I'm tired, I'll see ya in the morning, good night," he said and he got up and left. No kiss goodbye, No hug or anything! I feel asleep fast thinking about what I was going to do the next day.I woke up the next morning to my alarm going off at 5am. I decided that It was best for me to go back home. As I was walking down the hall with all of my luggage, Brian came out and stopped me.
"Jayme! Don't go. Please just stay," he said as he held my arm. "why brian? There's no one here that wants me too. Even the one person I came to see the most," I said trying to hold back the tears, and just then, nick came out in his t-shirt and boxers. "yes, that person really does," he said and he took my bags out of my hands and set them down on the floor. "please, don't leave. I want you here more than anything, I'm telling you the truth," nick said as he rested his arm on my waist. "I don't want to leave, but to me, it's the only thing that feels right," I said as tears slowly developed in my eyes. "then don't. do what your heart tells ya and stay. Please, Jayme, I'm begging you," he said and he knelt down on one knee and took my hand like he was going to propose or something. "ok….ok I'll stay," I said looking at him. "yes! Thank you so much," he said and he jumped up and hugged me. "good, now, lets all go back to bed," Brian said and he went back into his room and to sleep. "here, let me help ya," nick said and he took some of my bags and brought them to my room. It was a good thing I didn't check out yet. "we will be gone all day, and after the show, we're leaving and heading to the next city, so don't unpack. John will help you put all of your stuff on the bus. You can stay with me," nick said to me. "Really? On the bus with you? I didn't think that I would be able to. How does Mandy get around?," I asked him. "Don't worry about her. Let's have a conversation without mentioning her name please," nick said as he flopped down on my bed. "Ok…so what are you guys doing today?," I asked him. "Press Conference, Photo shoot, Rehearsal, and then the show. Leigh Ann is coming at 10am today, and she wants to go shopping and hang out. You wanna go?," nick asked me. "sure I'd love too," I said as I laid down next to him and soon, we both fell asleep. At 10:30am, I woke up to the pounding on my door so I got up and answered it. "hey Jayme, is Nick ready yet?," AJ asked me. "no…we sorta fell asleep, sorry, come in, " I said as I went over to nick. "hey, wake up, your way late," I said nudging him. "oh shit! Its 10:30!," Nick said as he jumped out of bed. "ok. Leigh Ann will come over and get you, I have got to go, bye," he said and he kissed my cheek and left with AJ. So I quickly got in the shower and got dressed and just as I was putting some makeup on, Leigh Ann knocked on my door and came in. "hey!," I said as I hugged her. "long time no see!, how are you?," she asked me. "great, ready to go?," I replied. "yep, lets go blow some major cash!," she said and then we left. At 12:45pm, Leigh Ann's cell phone rang and it was Brian. "he said to meet them at the hotel in 15 minutes," she said to me. "for what?," I asked her as I carried all 7 of my bags. "probably lunch," she said. So we made our way back to the hotel. When we got there, the guys were in the Dining Hall sitting there waiting for us so we went over to them. "whoa! Talk about a major splurge!," Kevin said to us. "what? All I got was like, 17 things!," Leigh Ann said laughing as she sat next to Brian. "have fun?," nick asked me. "lots. Wanna see what I got?," I asked him. "sure, but first, order," he said pointing to the waiter who was pretty cute standing behind me. "umm, I'll have a chicken sandwich and a sprite please," I said to him and smiled. "sure, I'll be right back,' he said and left. "look," I said as I showed him all of the things I bought. I showed him 2 pairs of shoes, 3 pairs of shorts, 2 pairs of pants, a lot of jewlery, and a hat. "those are cute shorts," he said pointing to the white ones that tie. "thanx. I bought this for you," I said and I gave him this really awesome hat and t-shirt.. "thank you," he said and he kissed my cheek. While we sat there and ate, all I could do was watch how close Leigh Ann and Brian really were. They laughed and giggled with each other and nick and I barely said 5 words to each other. "well, we have to go to rehearsal, are you coming with us?," Brian asked Leigh Ann. "of course," she said and then we all got up and stretched. Then I picked up all of my bags and began walking towards my room. "Jayme, are you coming with us?," Howie asked me. "um, I don't know," I said hesitantly. "you have to, it's a lot of fun," Howie said to me again. "ok, can I put these in my room?,' I asked them. "yeah, meet us back down here asap," he said and then they walked out into the lobby and I ran up to my room. "nick, why didn't you invite Jayme to come with us?," Howie asked nick. "I dunno. I have never performed in front of her before and it makes me nervous for some reason I guess," Nick said to Howie. "it shouldn't, she's your girlfriend, " Brian said to him. "that's exactly why it does though… I don't know. I'm not going to worry about it," he said. Then I came jogging down the hall and over to them. "ok, I'm ready," I said and then we all walked out to the limos and sat down in them. Nick and I sat across from each other. It bother me so much that he wouldn't even look at me. So, before the Limo driver took off, I told him to wait and I quickly got out and ran into the hotel. "Nick! Go get her!," brian screamed to nick. So he got out and ran after me. "Jayme! Wait!," he screamed to me and grabbed my arm to stop me. "what are you doing?," he asked me all out of breath. "I am going to my room," I said. "I meant why aren't you coming with us?," he asked me again. "I am not going to go anywhere where I don't feel welcome to be," I said and I shook his hand off of my arm. "what?!!? They want you there!," he said. "maybe they do nick! But you don't! now let me go!," I said and I ran up to my room, and he ran to the limo. "so? Why didn't she come back with you?," Brian asked nick. "I don't know," nick said and he sat down.