I drove in my car for miles and miles thinking about how much i missed her. I found the tears dwelling up in my eyes making it unable for me to see. I knew where i was and i knew that there was a cliff on the right. so I pulled up and got out of the car and sat on the edge. all i could do was sit there and cry. i felt so empty inside. Not only was katelyn my sister, but she was my best friend. we did everything together. we were like one, like most twins were. we did everything together and looked out for each other at all times. and now, now i was all alone. maybe she wasn't sitting physically right next to me, but deep down inside i could feel her there. it just wasn't right for her to die like she did. through all of the suffering and the pain, and so suddenly. "why couldn't the doctors save her!!??!!," i screamed aloud to no one. i was all by myself, talking to no one. My parents wouldn't say much, they just wept and wept. Katelyn meant so much to so many people, and the lord had to take her away from us all.
as i sat there thinking, i heard a car pull up and someone got out and walked over to me. i didn't have the strength at the time to even look over to see who it was until they sat down next to me. "Jayme, i don't think i can live without her," Katelyn's boyfriend, Ryan said to me. that just brought more tears to my eyes. "Ry, me neither, i feel so empty inside, what am i going to do?," i said as i put my hands over my face. "we have to move on, she would have of wanted us to, before she died, she was telling me how much she loved having you as her twin, all of the good times that you both shared, and how much she didn't want to leave, and miss out on all of the good times that were soon to come. she told me that after she died, that i was to give this to you," he said and he held out his hand and opened his palm to reveal Katelyn's gold necklace that had a small cross on it that my grandmother gave her before she died. i just sat there looking at it, as if i couldn't accept. "Jayme, she said she wanted you to have this, this way, she would be with you where ever you went," he said and he put it around my neck and fastened it. i just clung onto it with my hand and cried. "I guess I'll see you at the funeral, take care," he said and he left. "Katelyn! why did you leave me?!. huh? why!!, i need you so much right now! and your not here! ohhh....," i screamed as loud as i could knowing that deep down inside she heard me, and understood how i felt. i knew that it wasn't her choice to die. The cancer spread to fast for them to cure it. there was nothing that the doctors could do, and everyone just had to accept it. but i don't think that i ever will. i sat there for an hour, just thinking and crying. finally, i got up and left, and headed back home, to a house full of family that would make it worse for me, even though they were only there to help."Jayme, please come out, you need to eat something!," My mom screamed to me from the other side of my bedroom door.
it was 1 week after the funeral, and i hadn't eaten much at all. "mom just go away, i'll be down in a while," i said as i buried my face back into my pillow. Katelyn's bed was on the other side of the room, just empty, like there was no life there, which.....there wasn't. after a while of crying again, i went back downstairs and sat down at the table with my parents. "Jayme, we have to talk to you," my father said. "yeah dad?," i asked as i nibbled on a slice of bread. "we feel that it is in your best interest, and for all of us, if we moved," he said again. "what?, where to?," i asked. "well, your grandfather lives in florida, we were thinking of moving into the house next to him," my mom said. "that big one that has been abandoned for years?, how could we afford that?," i asked. its not that we were poor or anything, but that house was huge, and had a lot to offer. "your grandfather has offered to help. he would love to see us move down there, he would love the company," my mom said to me. "but when?," i asked. "well, we are thinking around the 21st, which is in 2 weeks," my dad said. "is that alright with you honey, are you ok with this?," my mom asked me. i sat there for a while thinking about it. i would have to leave all of my friends behind, but maybe it was for the best. they would be there everyday to remind me of life without Katelyn. maybe not on purpose, but it would happen. "ok," i said. "ok? are you sure you want to?," my dad asked. "yes, maybe it is better," i said. The next 2 weeks were hectic. We packed up all of our stuff and said our goodbyes. My parents were in the car waiting for me to come down so we could leave, while i stood in the middle of my bedroom staring at Katelyn's side in deep thought. i pictured her laying there with her feet in the air singing like she always used to. then i heard the horn blow and it snapped me out of my thoughts. i turned around and slowly walked out of the room knowing that i was shutting out a million memories of a life that i had to at least try to forget. Not forget all of the good memories, but ones that i knew were wrong to dwell on and did me no good. i slowly closed the door and walked downstairs and left the house that i had spent my entire existence up until this time in. i got in the car and we drove off, and i looked back and watched my old house, disappear. i fell asleep and when i awoke, i saw the sign that said: Now leaving Georgia, Come Back Soon!I slowly got out of the car and looked at my new house. it was so big, as if it were made for a family of 10. My grandfather came out of his house and walked over to us.
"hi grandpa," i said. "hello Jayme, how are you dear?," he asked me. "i'm ok," i said. see, my grandfather and i had something in common. Katelyn and my Grandmother both died of the same cancer. although, Katelyn died at a rather younger age than my grandmother. For the next 4 days, we unpacked and got settled. It was a Thursday night around 6pm. i was the only one home, and i felt like going for a run. on my way back, i was running past the house directly across the street from mine, when 3 dogs came running at me barking like crazy. i just stopped and froze there hoping they wouldn't bite. when they approached me, they stopped barking immediately and started licking my fingers as i bent down to pet them. they each had a collar on them. one said "mikey" another said "willie" and the other said "houston" on their tags. i was petting them while a blonde guy came out of the house to get them. "come on guys!," he said as he whistled to them to go to him. none of them budged, so he came over to me and them. "i am so sorry about that," he said. "oh, its ok, their so cute!," i said as i stood up. "yea, they are....cute and a pain sometimes!," he said laughing, "are you from around here?." "yeah, i just moved in across the street a few days ago, my name is Jayme," i said and i shook his hand. "hi, i'm nick, and i see that you have met my dogs," he said and he smiled. "yep, i have!," i said. "so, you been around town at all?," he asked me. "well, my grandfather has always lived here. i was here a lot when i was young. but, it has surely changed a lot too," i said. "Mr. Perry is your grandfather?," he asked me. "yes, why?," i asked. "oh, i do yard work for him a lot, he is such a nice man. i remember when i was little he used to have these big family barbeques and he invited me and my family to them and i would play with his granddaughters-, wait! i remember you! we used to play, and you had a twin...oh what was her name?," he asked me. "Katelyn," i said. "thats right. don't you remember me?," he asked. "actually, i do. and you had 4 friends that went everywhere with you. and a cute little brother who had a twin, am i right?," i asked. "yep. they still go everywhere with me, and aaron is still cute," he said. "aaron, thats right," i said. "so, where is Katelyn?," he asked. i just stood there staring at the ground thinking about her. with moving and all, i hadn't thought about her that much. "um, Katelyn died a few weeks ago," i said trying to choke back the tears. "oh, i am so sorry, i didn't know. pardon me asking, but how?," nick asked politely and innocently as possible. "of cancer, my grandmother died of the same one," i said. "i'm sorry. would you like to go out tonight?," he asked me, "it would be fun. maybe take your mind off of things for a while." "um...i don't know," i said. " oh come on, please, i won't take no for an answer," he said smiling. "well, i guess in that case, sure, i would like that," i said. "ok, how about i come get you at 7pm?," he asked me. "ok, see ya then," i said and i went back home and took a shower and changed. at 7pm, i was just putting my hair up when nick rang the doorbell. i went downstairs and answered it, and to my surprise, nick was standing there with 4 other guys. "um, hi!, i'm jayme," i said laughing. "Jayme, these are the 4 guys that i always hung out with back then, and still do-," nick said and i cut him off. "why do you guys look so familiar?," i asked them as i studied them all. "you probably know us because we are-," "sshh, howie, see if she can tell us," brian said. "wait! I know, I just can't think of the name, hang on, come on in," i said and I let them in and I ran upstairs to get the magazine i saw them in. "the backstreet boys!," i screamed as i ran down the stairs and over to them. "thats why you look so familiar," i said as i held up a picture of them from Teen Magazine. "yep thats us....ssh, don't tell anybody," Aj said to me laughing. "don't worry, i won't. although, its my dream to become a singer and have to worry about people recognizing you and chasing after you," i said. "really?," nick asked me again. "yea of course. Katelyn and I-....oh never mind, are you ready to go?," i asked. "who's Katelyn?," Brian asked me. "i will tell you later frick, yes, lets go Jayme," nick said and we all left my house. nick, brian, and me rode in nick's car, and howie, aj, and kevin rode in aj's. "hey nick, where is mandy meeting you?," Brian asked him. "she's meeting us at the bowling alley frick. is leigh ann coming?," nick replied. and the whole time i just sat there because i had no idea who they were talking about. "she can't, she had plans. well jayme, it looks like its just us 2 going solo tonight," brian said to me. "um, ok!," i said smiling. "you have the most prettiest smile i have ever seen," Brian said. "I agree," nick said. "uh, thanx," i said blushing. "it looks like someone's face is getting kinda red!," nick said laughing at me. when we got to the bowling alley, we went in and got our shoes and went to 2 open alleys. aj's girlfriend, and howie's showed up. and kevin met a friend there. "i hate wearing these shoes, they look so gay!," Mandy said laughing. "oh i know it!," i said. "oh, Mandy, this is Jayme, Jayme, this is Mandy," nick said. "i know nick, we met in the bathroom," Mandy said. Nick just gave her a look. i could tell he was a little upset by her remark, it kinda sounded a bit snotty. we bowled for 2 hours, and afterwards, we went for ice cream. "what kind would you like Jayme?," Brian asked me. "um, chocolate chip cookie dough please," i said politely. and then he handed me a small bowl of it. "alright! finally a girl who eats some CCCD!," nick said laughing. "oh please nick! just because i don't eat ice cream cause its so fattening, doesn't mean you have to act that way," Mandy said kinda in a snotty tone. i didn't want to say anything, it looked like they had a little problem to sort out, but i can tell you one thing, it made me feel really low for eating the ice cream after she said that. at 11pm, they brought me home after they dropped mandy off. "i am sorry about the way mandy acted tonight, she is really not like that, i guess it was that time of the month for her," nick said trying not to laugh. "it's ok! i understand!," i said laughing. "well, it was nice meeting you Jayme, i will definitely see you around," Brian said and then he went back to the car. "i'll see ya later, good night," nick said and then i went into my house and went upstairs to bed.