I quickly packed all of my stuff up and brought it down to the front desk and checked out.
Then I got a cab and they took me to the airport. It was around 1:30pm, and the flight back to Tampa didn't leave till 6:45pm. I always carried a journal with me, so I figured I should write in it to kill some time. Dear Man in the Moon ~ Hey, It's me again. Confused with life even more. I know that what I am doing right now is for the better for everyone, or should I say myself? Nick and I fell in love so quickly. I mean, it was like we 'clicked' immediately. And now, since we have been away for a few weeks and I was diagnosed with cancer, his feelings suddenly change for me? It never mattered to anyone else, why should it to him? I am truly thinking that if I leave, maybe, just maybe he'll realize what he really wants out of life. I can understand that right now life isn't to easy for him. But he has no idea how much it hurts me to see him act like this. I just hope he doesn't realize that I am leaving and come and try to stop me. Cause nothing will this time. Not even Brian. Well, g2g, till next time ~ Jayme Lyn. After I wrote that, I went and got something to eat to keep me occupied. I started talking to some guy and his girlfriend and soon I heard this over the intercom, "Flight 190 to Tampa Florida, USA, has been cancelled due to poor weather conditions." 'great!' I thought. So, I went up and asked the front desk when it would be leaving and they said not till tomorrow at 12:30pm. I had no idea where I was going to spend the night, so I figured I would just stay at the airport overnight. Hoping that Nick wouldn't come. I killed as much time as possible and around 10pm, I fell asleep. I woke up at 6am to a very busy airport. I got up and stretched and I saw all 5 of the guys searching around frantically. I quickly ran into the bathroom leaving all of my stuff at my seat. "Nick, isn't that Jayme's bag?," Aj asked nick as he picked the bag up. "yeah, it says Jayme Perry on it, so where is she?," he said looking around and just then I came out prepared with a plan. "Jayme! Oh my god!," Nick said running to me and he hugged me tight. "nick, what are you doing?," I asked him. "I was worried. Why did you leave last night? Why don't you want to stay with me?," he asked. "nick. I'm not feeling to well. I just wanted to go back home and rest, I'm sorry," I said. It wasn't the whole truth. I mean, I wasn't feeling well anyways, but I didn't want to go home. "why didn't you tell me? I would have done something," he said to me. "because I can't always rely on you nick. Your not always there. I like to fend for myself sometimes," I said as I sat down with everyone surrounding me. Just then about 25 screaming girls came over running to them. "Jayme, are you still going?," Kevin asked me. "yes, I'll see you when I get back ok?," I said and I stood up and watched them sign autographs. "Jayme," nick turned around and looked at me, "I love you." That's where I lost it. I started crying. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you,' he said to me again. "no, you didn't. I love you too," I said. "we've got to go, I will see you when I get back, I love you," nick said to me and he hugged me and kissed me deeply. "okay," I said choking back tears, "love you too." Then I watched them leave. Soon my flight was called and I got on the plane and left Germany, for good.A month went by, and I had taken a turn for the worse. I started getting sick a lot. I was very weak, and tired all of the time. I went to the hospital 2 times everyday. I got so sick of doctors and hospitals and them telling me that I didn't have much time left. One day I drove back to Georgia and visited Katelyn's grave. I sat there for 4 hours alone talking to her. I began crying and asked her if the lord had plans to bring me up there anytime soon, and if he didn't, to give me a sign.
Just then, a white dove flew down, out of no where and I knew he didn't. I planted fresh flowers before her grave, and then I left. "Jayme! Some one is here to see you!," My mom screamed down to me. I had just gotten back from the hospital and I was extremely exhausted but I went down to see who it was anyways. When I came into the Living room, to my surprise, Brian was sitting there. "Brian!," I screamed and I ran over and hugged him. "hey Jayme, how are you doing?," he asked me. "not good…what are you doing here?," I asked quickly trying to avoid the subject of my health. "well, Nick would've come, but his bags kinda got lost at the airport, so he's there finding them. I came to see if you wanted to go out tonight with us. We are going to a party with our management company," he asked me. "I can't. I just can't do it," I said right out. "ok. Its alright. Would you like to do something else then?," he asked. "well. I really miss those movie nights," I said slightly laughing. "great. We'll do that then," he said smiling. "what about your party?," I asked. "we didn't have to go. Its alright. I'll pick you up at 7pm okay?," he asked me. "yeah. Thanks Brian," I said. "anytime," he said and he lightly hugged me and left. I went into the kitchen and sat down to have dinner with my parents. "jaym, you ok? You don't look so good right now," my mom said to me. "yea, I'm ok. They gave me some kinda treatment today that is new to my system. It'll wear off," I said as I ate mashed potatoes. When I was done, I went and took a shower and finished in time for Brian to come get me. But when I answered the door, Nick was standing there. And those feelings that I thought I had gotten over, came rushing back. I just stood there staring at him for what seemed like an hour, but was only a few seconds. "Hi," Nick said laughing at how I was staring at him. "uh, hey…," I said kinda embarrassed. "how are you? You look so different," he said and he hugged me. "yeah, I am different. A lot of things have happened nick," I said as I walked outside. "whats wrong?," he asked. "my cancer came back. Harder and stronger. I've been told that I don't have much time left…80 billion times, but I know I'll live. I know it," I said confidently. He just stood there in awe, like he didn't know what to say and was in shock. Then he got in his car and I got into the passenger side. "I'm sorry. I…..I don't know what to say. I really think we need to talk though," he said. "about what?," I asked. "lets do it when we get to my house," he said and then we drove over to his house and went in and I sat down on the couch. "after you left back in Germany, I was completely lost. Every show, I screwed up. Every interview I never paid attention to. I was a wreck. And I still am," he said. To say the least, I was surprised. "what do you expect me to s-," "I need you back in my life. I was such a fool for treating you the way I did. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I need you jaym," he said to me and looked me straight in the eyes. "it hasn't exactly been easy for me either. I'm dying, and I felt like no one cared. I had no one by my side like you used to be. I missed the rocks every morning. I missed the parties, the movie nights…and most of all, I missed you nick," I said and I began crying a little. "you did? I thought that I would come back and find you in love with some one else, and totally over me. I thought that I was the only one with feelings still there, I'm glad I was wrong," he said and he hugged me. We sat there hugging for over 15 minutes. "jayme, can we pick up again?," he quietly asked me as we hugged. "yes, please," was all I said and he squeezed me a little tighter to kinda let me know that he was happy."Nick, there is a problem," Brian said to him. Nick flew to LA to see his family for a week.
"what Brian?," Nick asked him. "Jayme was admitted into the Hospital this morning. She stopped breathing, and the doctors don't think that she will make it through the night," Brian said all upset. Nick just sat there in silence. "Nick? Hello? Are you there?," he asked again. "brian! You've got to do everything you can to keep her here. I'm taking the next flight out…please brian! Keep her here," nick said in a panic and hung the phone up. Then Brian came back into Jayme's room. Jayme's mom and dad were in there silent as could be. "I just called Nick, he's taking the next flight out," Brian said calmly. Her parents said nothing, they just sat there and watched Jayme. The next day, at 11am, Nick arrived at the Tampa Airport and Brian went and picked him up. "Hurry up Brian!, every second counts," Nick said all upset. "nick! You have got to calm down. Her parents don't need the panic. They are already a wreck," Brian said sternly as he drove. "I don't know what to do. I can't lose her now. I had plans," nick said and he pulled a small box out and showed Brian the ring that was in it. "that's not what I think its for is it?," Brian asked him. "yes. I was going to propose to her as soon as I got back," Nick said very sadly. "She'll pull through. I know she will. She told me about how she visited her sister's grave while we were overseas. And she asked her if she wasn't going to die, to give her a sign. And then she told me how a white dove flew down out of no where. That's an omen, she won't die," Brian said as he parked the car. Nick just got out and ran into the hospital. "Mrs. Perry!," Nick screamed as soon as he saw her walking down the hall. "hello nick," she said. "how is she? Is she ok? I have to go see her!," he screamed frantically. "no! nick. Calm down. The doctors asked that everyone stay out of her room for 2 days. She caught neumonia, and if anything travels into her room, it will k-…kill her," she said and she began crying and nick hugged her. "So I can't come see her for 2 days?," he asked shocked. "2 days at least, they'll let us know, we're going home now, good bye," she said and then her and her husband left. Nick just stood there with his arms hanging freely like he had no strength to move. "I'm going in there!," Nick screamed as loud as he could crying. "NICK! No!," Mrs. Perry yelled and stopped him. "you go in there, and there's a chance you will kill my daughter!," she screamed to him face to face. "I have to see her! Now…," he said crying. "you will have to wait, Nurse! I do not want him let in this hospital, until we get a phone call first!" Jayme's mom said to a nurse, then a security guard came and took nick, who was a mess, away. "Brian, I need to see her. I don't want to lose her," Nick said crying as Brian helped him in the house. "Nick, she'll be ok. But you just blew it with her mom and dad ya know. You'll be lucky if you see her again," Brian said to him as he got him a drink. "I didn't mean to act that way. It's just that, we just got back together, and we got really close, I know that I love her more than anything in this world. I don't want that taken away from me," he said as he laid back and began crying, again. "Nick. Talk positive, I know she will pull through this," Brian said, "but hey, I have to go, ok? I'll see ya tonight, later Frack," he said and he left. After Brian left, Nick got a bunch of paper and colored pencils and then he took his boat out on the canal. He sat there drawing pictures of the sun, and doves flying over the horizon, almost like the scenery him and Jayme last shared. "lord, I know that I ask a lot of you everyday, but I need her here, her family needs her here. Her parents can't lose her, she's all they have left. I had major plans for when I got back. I love her so much," Nick said as he studied the ring he bought her. 5 days went by, and finally the doctors called Jayme's parents. "she is breathing on her own now, and she is up and lively," they told her mother. "oh! Thank you so much!," she said and she hung up and immediately got ready to go see her."jayme! How are you feeling hunny?," her mom asked as she ran over to her in the hospital room.
"hi mom, I'm ok. Where's Nick?," jayme immediately asked. "I don't know dear, I'm so glad your ok," she said again as she hugged her tight. "what do you mean you don't know?," Jayme asked her. "I think he's home. I had him banned from the hospital till it was ok to see you. He went nuts and I didn't want him in here causing more problems," she said. "he did? The doctors said I could leave today. I want to go see him," jayme said to her mother. "no. that's out of the question. You are going home to rest," her mother said. "no! I am going to see nick. And that's final," Jayme said very plainly and sternly.I got out of the hospital that day around 2pm. My body was still yet very weak, so the doctors gave me crutches to walk on. My mom brought me home, and I immediately walked over to Nick's house, slowly that is.
The door wasn't locked, and no one came after knocking for 2 minutes, so I went inside. I couldn't find nick anywhere, so I quietly walked out to the back door, and there I saw him sitting on a lawn chair by the pool talking to himself, and holding something in his hand. Apparently, he didn't know I was there, so I just stood there and listened to him."Jayme, this ring was meant for you. I can't slide it on your finger, like I always dreamed of doing, but I'll give it to you one day when we meet again. You were the love of my life. I know we had some rough times, but that's what made us stronger. I never meant to hurt you in all those rough times. And I can't believe I went balistic in the hospital. I hope one day you can forgive me," he said and he kissed what he was holding, a ring.
I stood there in shock that he thought I had died. But then I remembered my mom banned him from the hospital, so how could he have known at all how I was? I finally got the courage to say something, hoping he wouldn't flip. "Nick, I forgive you ya know," I said. He immediately turned around and stood up. "Jayme!," he screamed to me and ran over to me. "oh my god! You're here…alive…whats going on?," he asked. "I'm fine Nick. I pulled through it all. I don't understand what you were just talking about though," I said confused, standing so close to him for the first time in a while. Then he got down on one knee, and looked up at me. "Jayme will you marry me?," he asked with tears in his eyes, and holding a beautiful ring in his fingers. I stood there and tears began falling as I said, "yes." He quickly put the ring on my ring finger and hugged me. "I love you, more than anything in this world, and to think I almost lost you, kills deep down," he said. And that brought even more tears to my eyes. "Katelyn pushed me away. She wasn't ready for me to come up there yet. She heard your prayers Nick," I said as I hugged him and burried my face in his neck. "thanks Katelyn," nick said and he looked up to the sky.