Why can't you leave me alone?
I think of you when I don't want to.
Thoughts so real and haunting,
It hurts to dream... to even think.
Fantasy chills my body to its depths,
Wishes ripping me to shreds.
I was fine until I knew your love.
I was numb to my every emotion.
Then my soul realized its passion,
Suddenly aware of why it was frozen,
Of all it was missing... and it ached.
Now I have lost the woman I was before you.
You came into my life, filling the void,
Then you left with my spirit trapped within you.
The black holes of my past alive once again,
To swallow me whole... to render me empty.
But I am stronger for this destruction.
I wear the hardened remains of my shattered heart
Boldly, like some indestructible suit of armor,
The scars still bleeding for those who can love to see.
The walls of my inner fortress are higher now.
But a candle burns constantly in the window,
Shining through the pain in my eyes.
I wonder who, if anyone, can tear down my guard...
- L.C. 1998
