The darkness is closing in.

And I feel fear…..a fear so deep and intense….for I am alone….Sono le’ feci dal signore.

And I dare not walk out side.

The curtains is covering this light…..this painful light…that scars my eyes…again and again.

And I find no rest……no sleep……no peace.

And I envie those that has left me behind.

I wish I could leave my self behind too….

Death.

The ultimate happiness....liberation….Sono la salva.

And I fear them….oh how I fear them…their eyes....and their minds.

Will this pain never stop?

I crawl into my corner…..and press against the wall.

Press hard…..try so hard to become part of this wall….to glide inside…dwell…rest.

Death…come now!

Death...I call upon thee!

Kiss me oh kind Lover……save me from the light.

And he comes……at night….he wispers into my ears…seduces me…leads me towards the edge….shows me the way………."It’s easy.."……

Yet……..morning comes.

And light comes.

And as light enters the room…..anxiety enters whit it.

Creeping up to floor….towards my bed….and I shiver…..as the ray of light creeps up the end of my bed…..like acid….and I lye there….stiff…frozen…..as light burns me…melts me…and I become nothing..

Now…..I am nothing.

And for hours…I will lay like this…dead…yet not….and that it self is the true pain.

On the edge.. but light will never bring me over-……it teases me…shows me the way…but …will never open the doors for me.

Not like darkness will.

And when darkness comes….I sigh……

Soft caresses…soft like velvet…and yet…blood is revealed…..and I fall….and fall…..and fall………..

His long nails…caressing my skin…cutting it open…and yet. …..all I feel is intence pleasure.

I moan….dont let it end…..…..I beg thee!

And as I am bout to burst……he leaves me….glides back into the shadows….I can see his face…..as he becomes one whit his darkness…..

And than…..again …I am alone…..

And I weep.

I weep until sleep saves me .

Saves me …from pain…saves me from pain……