The Journal

January 13, 2003

Well, I went to Matt's funeral today, it was hard for both Jonathan and I...but we had each other to hang on to. Things just doesn't seem right, I guess they won't for a while. Everytime I see Ashley, I want to see Matt next to him, thats just the way it's always been. Ashley gave Matt the keys to his truck, just hearing of it brought tears to my eyes. I guess everyone wishes there was one last thing they could do for someone when they can't seem to do it anymore. RIP Matt

January 12, 2003

I found out tonight that one of Jonathan and my friend got killed in a car accident Friday night. Said he hit a tree trying to make a turn and the impact made his head hit the steering wheel pushing his nose bone into his brain killing him. I can't believe I'm loseing my friends. I've done lost enough, it looks like God would slow down for a little while, maybe a few years? Is that too much to ask for?

January 10, 2003

Today we got our Report Cards back, I had a miss-calculation with it, and thought that I had made A/B Honor roll, I was pretty upset, because I had tried all semester to make A honor roll. But what I didn't know, was that I had A honor roll, I looked at the wrong set of grades. Got home, and Robert had sent me a webcam. I'm gonna miss you when you leave me Robert, I won't have anyone to talk to anymore :(

January 4, 2003

Today wasn't the best day of my life. Jonathan and I got into an arguement, so we broke up, and an hour later we were back together. But I still love him, I don't care how much we fight, I will always love him.

January 3, 2003

Today mom and I went to Wal-Mart (lol, mom's favirote place in the world to do her shopping). But she didn't go for shopping, she went to get her eyes checked. So when she got done, we walked around the store, and we bought the movie "E.T." (the limited edition) Mom likes that movie, and she hasn't seen it in so long...so instead of renting it, we bought it :P

December/January 31/1, 2002/2003

Well, it's New Years Eve! I'm fixing to start a new year, and a good year at that! It's my graduation year! YAY! Finally I reach 2003! Well Jonathan had to work tonight. So while I waited on him to come over, I brought in the New Year with my friend Robert. New Years from one state to another. I hope he has a good "new" year! Jonathan came over and we stayed up with mom and dad talking, and watching movies. Jonathan had New Years Day off of work, so he came back over later on today, and we messed around the house, didn't really go anywhere because to many drunk people on the road!

December 29, 2002

Before we left today from Savannah we stopped by the Savannah Mall, the old one and walked around seeing if there was anything there we liked. Amy got me a American Eagle shirt that I said that I liked the day before, she even got Crystal the same one. Then Jonathan bought me an Angel doll with a porcelian face. She is so cute! I'm gonna get a glass case and put her in so hear wings don't get dust on them. :)

December 28, 2002

Today Jonathan, Amy, and me went to Savannah. Crystal is to arrive at the airport at 3:45 from Atlanta. Well, she was suppose to call at about 1:25 and tell Amy she was leaving from Atlanta, but she never called, we all kinda got worried about her. But we went on to Riverstreet and checked us a room out at the Best Western. Unloaded our stuff, then we went to the mall, and then Ryan showed up. So we decided to head on to the airport, on the way there Crystal called and said she had just got into Atlanta, and that she missed the flight to Savannah, so she would have to wait until like one in the morning. So we loaded up and headed out for Atlanta. Got there, and found her, got her in the car, and headed back to Savannah. Boy what a night we had!

December 25, 2002

Well, I've had a pretty good Christmas. I got a lot of different things, I wanted a Playstation 2, and I didn't get it, but thats alright, I know my parents don't have as much money as I wished they had. But I love them, and I rather just have their love in return of anything. But I got me a CD Burner, that didn't work because it was for an upgraded computer, so I have to take it back. I got me a Candy light (black light with neon rings on it), I also got me some more little things, like angels. Not only that, Jonathan bought me an Angel to go in my car, and an Eeyore clock. His sisters got me an Eeyore picture holder, it's so adorable! His mom and Vern got me a nice warm coat, which I've needed for a while, them windbreaks don't break the cold from hittin' the skin.

December 15, 2002

Well, Jonathan went to Jacksonville Florida to his Grandmothers funeral! I couldn't go because I got nine-weeks exams, I wish I could have went and been there with him. I mean he was there for me when my Grandfather died, and I wish I could return the favor.

December 12, 2002

Jonathan's Grandmother passed away today. So we are going to have to go to Jacksonville Florida this weekend.

December 9, 2002

Today Will and I got to school, and Brittany and Casey had not arrived yet. Well, after first period got over with, I found out in Second period that Brittany had got into a four car pile up right outside of the school. I was really upset, because I didn't know if you was alright or not. But by the time lunch had come, Brittany was at school, and she told me what happened, and she said that she hurt her back. I feel for her! But atleast she didn't get more injured than that.

December 7, 2002

Well, I got up at 5:00 this morning to get ready to go to Statesboro for my SAT's. I got there, and had to wait, and when I finally got the SAT I wish I hadn't come...that thing was hard! After I took the SAT's I went to Jonathan's, and we spent from 2:00 till 6:30 at his Uncle's house in Guyton. He's little cousin was having his birthday party, and we were invited.

December 6, 2002

Amy and I spent from 4:50 till 10:30 at night in Statesboro at Georgia Southern University hunting for the Williams Center. Everyone I asked to show me where it was, didn't know where it was, and to top that off, they went to school there...what a shame! Anyways, I've got to take my SAT's there tomorrow. Hope it's not to bad!

November 20, 2002

Well I went to the funeral home tonight, it was pretty hard on me, I had Amy go with me. Randy looked the same as he always had. I just hated to have to see him in that situation. RIP Randy

November 18, 2002

I found out today that my ex-boyfriend Randy killed himself Friday night. They claimed it was from an overdose. I still can't believe it, that just doesn't seem like the person I knew.

November 2, 2002

We went over to Kerry and Linda's house and boiled peanuts. Furman had come down! I was really glad to see him! After a few hours over there, Jonathan and I went to Statesboro and watched "Ghost Ship", it was pretty good, although I must say "The Ring" was much more scarey!

Ocbober 28, 2002

Today was Pajama Day at the high school. I wore my Eeyore PJ's...gotta love my Eeyore!

October 27, 2002

Jonathan finished lowering his old Chev. C/10 1969 truck today. I can't say I like it to much, I think it's a little too low! And everytime we go over a bridge it's really really bumpy, it would be nice to have some good springs on it :P

October 24, 2002

Melissa invited me over to eat with her and Brittany. I went, and had a blast, we watched movies, and Jay was there also. It was nice to spend sometime with Brittany away from school!

September 29, 2002

I spent Saturday night over at Jonathan's house. After he got off work, we went to Savannah to go visit his dad. He had come down from Florida to come visit Jonathan and the girls. So we went and ate at Logan's Roadhouse. And then we went to the mall together. And then we came back home.

Brittany and me got together after Jonathan and I got back from Savannah, we had to get our photo's together for the yearbook!

September 24, 2002

Well, Jonathan and I have set a date for the wedding! June 21, 2002 is what we have agreed on. I can't wait, I love him so so so so so much!!!! He is the light of my life!

September 21, 2002

Today was my mom's birthday. We had a huge party at the house, well actually more like a cookout. I talked to my Uncle Adam on the phone today. It was good to talk to him, I haven't talked to him since he moved away from G-ville.

September 3, 2002

Well, they buried my Uncle Gene today right next to my Aunt Pat. I miss him already. I wish there was a way I could see him one last time, but I know I can't. I'll meet him again someday.

August 30, 2002

My Uncle Gene died today :( He died of a massive heart attack. It's not even been a year since Aunt Pat died. I reckon some people are really meant to be together.

August 5, 2002

School started today! It wasn't that much fun. I miss the summer already! Now I can't see Jonathan until the weekends. School is just going to have to come first for right now. I've gotta graduate this year, and I want to do it with good grades!

July 9, 2002

Well, tonight I had to take mom to the emergency room. She had her kidney stones again, so she asked me to take her, and I did. I called Jonathan before I left, and he wanted me to go take him with us, he said he was going to be getting off of work, and that he would meet us there, so I said okay. I met up with him when we got to Claxton, he was all dressed up, you guys should have seen him, he was as cute as could be. Later after getting to the emergency room, he asked me to go to the car with him, said he had to get something, so I said alright. We went out there, and I had to get something out as well. After I shut the front door he wanted me to go to the back door of my car. So I walked back there to see what was so important, and he had this little box wrapped up sitting on his knee, and said he wanted me to open it. So I did, and inside was the most beautifulest ring! He proposed to me! I couldn't believe it. I love him so much, he means the world to me.

April 16, 2002

Welp, I guess the day has finally come. My tonsils have to go bye bye. After coming out of surgery, I woke up shakeing real bad, and found myself crying for no reason, I didn't even want to cry, I just woke up crying. My mom and dad was the first to see me. And then Jonathan came in and took Dad's place. I am glad that I wasn't at the hospital getting it done, I wouldn't have wanted to spent the night just for some tonsils to be removed. Jonathan took me home from the clinic, and then he went to work, I was pretty much doped up all night, so I really don't remember him coming back over later after he got off work.

Mar. 25, 2002

Well...today is my birthday! I'm 17 years old today! Finally, I never thought I'd actually reach being seventeen. Nothing GREAT is happening for my birthday. But I guess 17 years old isn't the best age....18 will be better!

Mar. 17, 2002

Today Jonathan's dad, Alex, Jonathan, and me went to the drag races. It was really neat, and REALLY loud. We had the best seats in the house...right behind the cars in a room filled with cool air, refreshments, and not only that....but cold drinks! It was really nice. I'd love to do it again. The cars I wanted to see they didn't bring out until we were done out the gates and going home.

Mar. 16, 2002

Well, Jonathan's dad got us tickets to the Florida National Gator Drag Races. So we are in Florida spending the weekend with his father and stepmother, and his little stepbrother, Alex. He is so adorable. He is nothing like Jonathan in my opinion, he doesn't even have the same hair colour. But he is just as cute as can be!

Mar. 5, 2002

I moved home today!!!! Sonna's daughter came home, so I decided that I should be going home. My parents were glad to have me, and so was I glad to be there. Jonathan does not know what kind of drive he will be having to make now....a very LONG drive from Claxton to come see me.

Feb. 14, 2002

Early this morning before I went to school, I talked to Jonathan. He asked me if I would be his girlfriend. I could have freaked! What a wonderful Valentines Gift! I have the boy of my dreams in the palm of my hand...what else can a girl ask for? It took him over a month to figure out he wanted to be with me....hehe.....that is so sweet. But I'm glad he wanted like that, because I didn't want anything to be rushed, and then us both regretting everything later.

Today at school I was wondering if I was going to even get anything that had to do with Valentine Day. I did, my mom and dad sent me three red roses. I am not living with them, so I was pretty surprised to see that come for me. My mother and me do not get along as well as I'd like for us to. Sonna was nice enough to take me into her home, since both of her daugthers had left and went to California, and had left her with her three sons. Not only that...I had Nikki for my roomate.

Mom and dad came down to Claxton to meet us on Jonathan's break, and we went and ate out. They totally approved of Jonathan. And said that he was WAY better than the last one I had. I totally agree, he treats me WAY better than the last one did. It's nice to feel the love of another.

Feb. 1, 2002

Tonight Jonathan came and picked me up. We went to W.D. and picked up some Donuts for Sonna and the kids. After dropping them off we went back up town and set in his truck talking. (It seems as if we always have SOMETHING to talk about. The conversation never seems to have an ending point with us.) While we was sitting there he stopped talking to me and just stared at me. I thought I had said something wrong. But I didn't say anything to him, but watched him back in return. He then said "Can I ask you something?", and I said "yeah". But then he turned around and said it was to soon to ask, and he would not tell me what he was going to ask me. I was kind of upset because I was wanting to know what was on his mind.

Jan. 4, 2002

Jonathan came by the house after he got off work. I was beginning to think he wasn't going to come by, I mean I hadn't heard from him all day. But he had promised to come by once he got off work. I went with him up town to meet some of his friends, and they all three took me out to eat. I'm so loved :) I'm just kidding, but I did have a great time with him!

Jan. 23, 2002

To my surprise, Jonathan is still talking to me. I never believed he would talk to me for this long of time! He is so sweet I must admit. He is like a prince out of a fairy tale book. He has been nothing but good to me. We are still going out and hanging out together. I'm even going over to his house and visiting just the same as he is me. But since I'm going to school, I don't get to see him as much, other than on his breaks for about thirty minutes to an hour. He works from 2:00-11:00p.m. so I don't have much time to spend with him.

Jan. 3, 2002

Well, Amy came by Sonna's house to hang out, and I told her that I was going to be leaving to go to meet Racheal, and that I was having second thoughts about the whole blind date thing. But she said that it would be good for me to get out and get to know someone new. So I decided that she was right. So I left and went up town. I rode around to see if I seen Racheal, but I didn't, so I figured I would just pull into the Welcome Center and wait on her. Not even a minute after pulling into the Welcome Center, a Green Chev. S-10 pulled into the parkingspot next to me. I had never seen the truck before, so I figured it was someone just pulling in to sit...like me!
But the window began to roll down...so I decided to roll mine down to, and come to find out it was Racheal's cousin "Jonathan". He got out of his truck and came next to my car and talked to me until Racheal got there. We all talked and decided to leave at about 6:30p.m. So she left us there together, and he asked if I would like to go riding with him, since we didn't have nothing to do until six thirty. So I did. He seemed to be a really nice person.
When six thirty rolled around.....Racheal decided not to go to the movies....but Jonathan insisted on taking me. So we went to the movies and watched "Black Hawk Down", and then he took me out to eat. I have to say I had the best night of my life. I didn't get in until about two o'clock that morning. And to top off the great night, he walked me to the door....but no smootching went on. I decided that if anything was to come of this, I was going to take it slowly.

Dec. 29, 2001

Racheal has decided for us to meet up on January third and go to the movies in Statesboro together. We are suppose to meet up on Saturday at the Welcome Center in Claxton at 2:00p.m. to figure out what time we will be leaving and everything.

Dec. 27, 2001

My friend Racheal of Claxton wants me to go and meet her cousin. She came to my work place tonight and said that he was outside and thought I was cute and wanted to meet me. So she said she wanted her, Jay, her cousin, and me to go on a blind date together. I told her I had to think about it since I haven't really been "dateing" anyone in a while.