 | I'm tired. Tired, frustrated, I think I'm losing it. I wouldn't be surprised if my parents checked me into an asylum in the next week. My head is poundding right now with too many worries and so much stupid sshit that I can't help it. I feel like throwing up. I wish I could vomit out all the probblems so I wouldn't have to deal with them...No...No I can't do that. That would be running away. I'm a fighter. I have to fight. I won't let anything bring me down. Especially you. You cursed me. Ever since you I have had bad luck. But not all was bad now that I recall it all. And you...where have you been? See can't you tell??? I'm losing it. I mean it. I have nothing to write at this time.... 6.29.03 I have fallen out of love with a man, fallen in love with a woman, and had sex with another man just two days ago. I'm in a hell of a shit brick. Woe is me. Well not really. I see relationships and sex as just a type of hunger for the human body and spirit. Sex is natural. It's a way of life. So why is it when ever we humans satisfy our hunger with sex (without being in a relationship) we are seen as eight sluts or whores for girls and pimps or playas for guys? And why are the women being called the nasty things while the men aare praised??? |