All of this pain has made me insane
All of this strain has fucked up my brain
All I create is meaningless piss
Because it was created by this
I'm a dysfunctional chick
And I make myself sick
I get depressed and suicide baits me
Cuz I'm such a mess that everyone hates me
I can't take any more of this life that keeps going
I fuck it all up without ever knowing
And nothing can hide me
Because I am guilty of all that's inside me
And I can't wipe off this look of disgust
Because I'm the asshole that no one can trust
And I can't wipe off this look of horror
So I bash my head against the floor
I'm tired of it I can't take this shit
I will throw this fit I don't give a shit
If you don't like it cuz I'm tired of it
I'm an ungrateful bitch for hating this shit
I can't just shut up just shut the fuck up
I have never been able to shut myself up
Because I have no soul I have no self control
I have this depression this torturous oppression
No matter how much I take it never stops coming
The pain is still drumming but my emotions are numbing
And all I can do is bitch about it
And wonder what life would be like without it
I'm trapped in this cage with all of this rage
I say I'm an asshole but no one believes me
And nothing relieves me
I want out of my head I just want to be dead
Life's full of shit and I'm tired of it
- Caitlin Madison
