Friday, December 3rd 9:20pm
RITE AID TUSSIN DM
Guaifenesin, USP 100mg
Dextromethorphan HBr, USP 10mg
4 FL OZ (1/3 of a 12 oz. bottle)
ALSO:
2 Bottles of Smirnoff triple black
1 can of Monster energy drink
9:36 Today i am having mood problems. it's been going on all day. it probably has something to do with the fact that i haven't been taking my medication every day. i'm feeling good now.
9:47 i just stuck a crayon in my ear. i don't know if that means anything.
10:22 i feel like shit again. Motherfucker.
10:35 i don't know if i'm robo-tripping. i do feel a little drung. okay. i think i'm getting the movey-movement thing.
10:46 is it hard to see, or am i gettin kinda dizzy?
10:46 i think everybody's robo-trippin in the hizzy
10:53 Total fucking DXM
11:04 i like my headache.
11:14 every time i stand up i bounce around like a rubber spring, i jump a lot and i breathe hard cuz i don't get enough exercise. i need to start going out and kicking people's asses for fun.
11:54 i am very focused on coloring right now. i'm hyperfocusing like i'm on Dexedrine.
12:04 i am feeling very happy, incredibly happy. i tried to go potty but all i did was sit on the toilet and fart a lot, and it was very funny to me. oh, sweet enlightenment!
GOTTA MOVE!
12:37 This is such a crazy feeling. i love it. Everything is so beautiful, i don't know how to explain what i'm feeling. i can see the beauty in anything. The colors are so beautiful, and the light that shines through the glass, the people on the walls are all looking at me, it seems as though they're actually there. My posters are alive! i wish i could reach into the picture and pull Angelina Jolie out of there and give her a big fucking hug. God, i love that woman. There's a kind of serenity in everything, it's so peaceful.
1:14 i met myself in the mirror! it was totally awesome! it was as if there was no mirror but a hole in the wall, and i was standing right there in front of myself, holy shit. i spent so long looking in the morror and seeing it not as a morror but as a hole with a person, a person just like me, and i could almost touch her, but i didn't. By the time i actually did touch the mirror, i was barely dissillusioned by the touch of the glass because i could see me touching me, hand to hand, i was right there. i wish i could just step through the mirror and see what's over there. is it the same shit, only backwards? Or are there little goblins playing poker back there? i'm kind of beautiful, when i look at myself. i want to meet that person. But i am that person. Oh, sweet epiphany.
2:38 Louis and Arianna are both asleep so i have to be quiet now. i don't think i can sleep now but lying down and relaxing would be a welcome treat. Are you down with the P. Pants?
