Hey, this homepage is a work in progress... for those of you that know me... you know how long its going to take me to finish it ;)
Well this page is all about me and what my interest are... yes i know, its not a very interesting subject, but its my page so be quiet.
For a very long time, my one goal in life was to become one of the elite USAF Pararescue Men. They are rated by the DoD (department of defence) as one of the most difficult military occupations. A full ninty percent of those who try to become a "PJ" fail. I never let this discourage me...i knew that i could make it. I Always loved a challenge! ---Then things changed. ------I fell in love.
When you fall in love... all your plans go out the window. She had always supported my goal when we were just friends... but when we came together... i knew that I could never go off to the USAF knowing that i'd be leaving her behind. She's smart, has wisdom (what the hell is the good of being intelligent if you dont have the wisdom to use it eh?), very goal orrientated, respectfull and careing, "honorable", friendly, responsable, and a million other things.
And ontop of all those personality trates... shes beautiful... swear she takes my breath away at times.. i often cant help just to start smiling when i see her. When you see someone that pleasing to you... its kinda hard not to keep looking. Im sure she finds it rude or something... but i cant help myself!!
She's changed my life so much. She often doesnt believe the things i tell her... but im a "stubborn bastard" and don't give up :) She's pessimistic about our relationship at times...and i can understand that. It just hurts to "be real" so i tend to be on the far side of optimisitc. She's my best friend, and my girl friend...
Any how, at times she feels "crushed" because of this fact... that i decided to change my goals for her. Guess i can understand that... She's afraid that someday i'll regret it. I can't give her an answer to that... but i know without a doubt that i'll never regret becoming close with her. Even if it all ended tomorrow... i wouldnt change a thing.
When your doing something you enjoy, time goes fast; When im with her...time flies.
Any how... she says she loves me...and thinks im a great guy. At times i feel im not nearly good enough for her... i'm always afraid that one day she's going to notice that there are better guys out there... Truth be told, I know that she deserves better than me. Regardless of how i feel... im just too attached to ever let her go with out a fight. I pitty the poor guy that tries to take her away from me... he would develop some serious health problems... muwahaha.
So now that ive changed my dreams, and some of my goals, ive decided to send my butt to school and follow what my secondary plan was: Get a doctorate degree in Medicine. Shooting for Orthopedic Surgeon... takes alot of schooling... but you can really help out people doing that. Ive always wanted to help people. Anna has her doubts about me being able to do it... but as ive stated elsewhere in this page, "I love a challenge".
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