Penny For Your Thoughts
Chapter 1
"WHAT?!?!?!?!??!" Jessica said nearly screaming from her living room in front of her parents. Normally Jessica took things rationally and calmly but this one totally blew her away.
"Honey we know how hard this is for you. We would have told you but he didn't want you to know. Because his career was taking off,your mother had just died. It too much stress on him and and he didn't know what to do. He knew he wouldn't make a good father and be able to provide you with the things girls need." Her father explained.
"BUT WHY did you never tell me don't you think I have the right to know?!?!?!??!?!" Jessica says a little more calmly now and taking a seat on the couch.
"He didn't want you to know. He was afraid if you found out you would go looking through files and everything. He said he would come back and tell you one day when you would be old enough to understand. And I guess now is that day. He is coming next week after they get off tour."
"So whats his name?"Jessica asked.
"He said not tell you anything, and that he would be here next week to see you." her mother stated.
Jessica ran up to her room letting out a single tear that she had been trying to hold back but could not anymore. She threw herself on the bed. Then the phone rang. She didn't feel like talking to anyone so she didn't pick up.
*****One Week Later Kevin Richardson of the Backstreet Boys shows up at Jessica's doorstep*****
"Hi," Kevin said as Jessica's mother opend the door. She let him and told him to take a seat.
"She's at school she should be home any minute now."Jessica's mother said.
"O.K. Thank you." Kevin had never felt more nervous than he had before. "She's probably just as nervous as you are so calm down" he told himseld mentally.
A few moments later they heard a door open then shut. He could hear footsteps start up the stairs.
"She's been taking this a little hard and her father and I have done our best to comfort her but she pushes us away." Her mother explains.
Kevin nodded and a moment later she said,"You can go up to see her if you wish. After all thats what your here for right?" Trying to keep the situation light.
"Thank-you. Which one is her room?"
"Last one at the end of the hall, its the only one down there you can't miss it."
Kevin got up and headed up the stairs to Jessica's room. After finding it, he nervously knocked on the door. Jessica heard the light knock on the door from her bed where she was laying down.
"Come in" She said as the man on the other side of the door walked in. Jessica looked up from her homework as he did so.
"Hello"Kevin says lightly.
"Hi" Turning she realized it was Kevin Richardson of the Backstreet Boys. She stands up gesturing to the seat beside her bed. "Would you like to sit down?" "Why thank you." Once he was seated there was a long pause.
"Im Jessica." Jessica said offering her hand.
"Im Kevin, Kevin Richardson." Kevin stated taking her hand for a shake.
"I know who you are." Jessica said smiling
"I think this is the first time I've told someone who I was and there hasn't been a thousand girls screaming afterwards." Kevin said laughing
"Well im a fan to a degree but not like obsessed." Jessica said still smiling. There was a short pause after Kevin nodded.
"So.....would you like to talk?" Kevin said lightly but quietly.
"Um" Jessica started but paused debating on her first question, "First of all I'd like to know why I was set up for adoption."
"Well this story its gonna be a long one." Jesica nodded as Kevin started to tell her this new part of her life.
"Well what happened was your mother,Trisha Sharp,was 15. We had been dating for about 3 years at the time and she wanted to take the relaionship a step further which was well.....you know. I really didn't want to but she kind of pressured me into it. I loved her so much that I did. I mean we used protection and everything but the condom broke. 3 months later I find out the shes pregnant. I stuck with her through the whole pregnancy because I didn't want it to be one of those relationship where as soon as the baby was born the father is gone forever. When you were born I was away at my aunts. They called me and told me the news and I caught the next flight back home. I had mixed emotions those of happiness, sadness, and confusement. When I got to the hospital a few hours later. Both of our family's were there when I reached them I notcied that everyone had a rather grave face on but I didn't know why." Kevin paused recalling that aweful day, "I asked what had happened my mother turned to me with a face so grave she had been dreading the one to tell me. 'Trisha's......dead. The babies fine but Trisha was too weak.' I didn't believe it at first I found it so hard to believe that my Trisha who was one of the strongest persons I knew had died. Frankly, I didn't want to believe what had happened. 'She told me to tell you that the baby is fine. And to take care of her, also to name her Jessica Marie,(Jessica after her sister who died a few years earlier due to cancer,and Marie for her mother.) A tear rolled down Kevin's cheek which he quickly wiped away." So I took care of you best I could while leaving you with my mother while i made trips to Florida for singing auditions. I had stayed with you every chance I could but also wanted to pursue my dream, never having thought I would be here today would ever happened. When I was told I was going to be in a group. I called Brian as you prbably know the rest of that story. And I couldn't handle taking care of you nor could my mom, with my career just sarting I asked my mom if she could take care of you but she said that her and my father didn't have enough time to take care of another baby. Trisha's mom wanted nothing to do with you she'd basically kicked your mother our when she heard the news but you mother named you after her anyways. So my mother and I decided to give you up for adoption,believe me that was one of the hardest desicions I ever had to make." Kevin looked at Jessica who wasn't showing any emotion in her face at all. Jessica on the other had was thinking differently, she was confused, sad, happy, and kind of angry all in one body and was almost to much for her to handle.
"But why didn't you want me to know why I was adopted? And why did you choose your career over me?" she paused before saying, "Never mind I don't want to know the answer to that last question."
"Because I was starting my career. And was afraid if you went through files trying to found out who your real parents were then you'd find out who I was if the band suceeded."
And so they sat there going on from talking about the adoption, Patrisha, and how each other kind of felt. Basically everything that popped into there heads at the moment. It was almost 10 oclock before they realized they Kevin should to go. They said there goodbyes and Jessica made Kevin promise to come back tomorrow so they could talk more. He promised and headed downstairs to his hotel.
"Oh hey Kevin." Jessica's mother said turning to face him "Coming back tomorrow I hear?"
"Hi! Is that ok?"
"Sure thats fine"
"OK Well I'll be heading off now. Bye!"
"Bye!"
Jessica was in a bit of a better mood later that night. She had alot of her unanswered questions answered and looked forward to the event's to come.
While Kevin felt as if he had gotten a load off his chest. And couldn't wait until morning.
Chapter 2
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