I call this section "My Ever Changing Belief System" because beliefs are everchanging. As you grow as a person you begin to want and need different things, your ideals, your identity, and your beliefs change.

Before I got to where I am at I went through many changes in my beliefs, some even repititious. When I was very young (age 10) I was introduced to Paganism. I began to read books and study up on it as much as I possibly could. By the age of twelve I considered myself Pagan. As time went by I learned more and more, but also foud it difficult to let go of that fear of going to hell. I had come from a very strong Christian background. And thus, I became what I like to call a bouncer. I bounced from Paganism to Christianity almost weekly. One week, I wore the cross, the next a pentacle.

The truth is that I was never really a Christian. I hated church, I disliked the distance of the God, and I disbelieved the bible. However, I loved my family and I saw their belief working well for them. So that and that alone kept me bouncing. Then one day I just quit bouncng. I realized I could blend the two faiths. For awhile that worked. You may have read my Christian Witch site above. It got me closer to my deities. It relieved that fear of hell. And somewhere along the way I learned that what is right for some people is not right for everyone. That there is no one true path to the divine. I also learned that since we are all different people, we can commune with the divine differently.

Now I hold Paganism as my religion. I realized that I as aways a Pagan. I may have been raised Christian, but I was born Pagan! The higher power I worship does not care that I consider it to be both male and female. It does not care how I worship, It does not care what my gender is or my sexual preference. It only cares what is in my heart.

Personally, I believe the divine is both male and female. I believe that they exist in all living things, me, you, animals, plants,and so on. I believe in Karma, I follow the Wiccan Rede. I believe all that matters is what is in my heart. Maybe to you I am wrong because I am different, I don't think so. It works for me, it has made me better person. I feel more alive, I want to live, I feel better about my body, my soul, and my life. I am nicer than I used to be, and my standards and morals are higher than before. So for me, I believe I am on the right path.