Seishuku Skuld 
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Series: Final Fantasy X
Pairing: implied
Braska + Auron
Warnings: More writing experimentation, swearing, spoilers,
shounen-ai
Another Auron POV courtesy of Angry!Skuld. Part of this is me,
and part of this is Auron. I can't tell the parts apart. This actually meant to
be read out loud...
I don't care if you're whispering or if you're shouting,
or if your mind is screaming the words.
Read it fast.
Read it
furious.
But most of all, read it hard.
And in the end, tell me if you
felt anything.Echoes of Providence
Ha!
Another battle
Another
life
Another eon gone by
and I sit in the grass here
the wind
blowing
over my face and
racing into my hair.
Another
gust
Another flower
Another breath that blows through my body
And I
wonder if I'm even there.
If anybody in this damned world
hears or cares
and
I'm lying here
Buried in grass
Buried in the roar
the rush of
sound
jubilant voices
booming fireworks
celebration
the
praise
the song
the dance
the hope
the life
that is
Spira
rejoicing.
I breathe another deep breath
and gather air into
my
lungs
and hold it there
...
I count
slowly
at
first
and
faster
and faster
one two three
one two three
one
two
three
four
as I feel the fire
in my chest
exploding
forcing its way
its
running flames
through my body
and making me think
making me
remember
the way things were
the way things could have been
and it
speaks of pain
as my chest opens up
and I gasp again
and my throat is
raw
I start it all over
and all over
and over
over
over
over
again
because
GODAMMIT
it never stops
because
people
have hope
and people try
and GODAMMIT
its people
and people
and
god its people
it's your friends who die
And yeah
I remember
that day
you first smiled at me
with your pretty face
and your kind
eyes
and the grin that bound me to you
in what I thought would be
forever.
And I never left your side after that
I followed you
around
like a lost puppy dog
like a boy that was
looking for
love
and chasing it around
and around
and you set me up for it
all
you
with your smile
kind words
blue hair
and even in the
darkest
hardest
most painful of moments
when the priests said
I had
to marry a girl
God, you held me close
and told me things
because I had
just asked you
Can I kiss you yet?
and even though you said
no
I
knew
you meant
yes
We
fell
flying
floating
drifting
life rushing into us
and out
and
in
and out
and in
and out
until we couldn't hold it any more
and
we went to paradise together
the promised land
and we were both sticky
with
sweat and
cum
but hell that never mattered
because
we were
falling
flying
floating
drifting
full of laughter
full of
life
full of love
full of each other
And who knew
that I'd see
you first
with that girl on your arm
and soon after another
and you
smiled
like you did at me that first day
and that sent me
spinning
around and around
and I couldn't stop myself
because the world
was a flash of color
and it was pleasure
and pain
and hurt
and
tears
glass tinkling
flesh
ripping
screams
cries
pants
tears
screams
cries
and
wetness
and tears
all in one night
And I curse you now
yeah
I
curse you now
cause everything is gone
you took
everything
I
had
my life
my love
my friend
my hope
my world
and now its all
shattered
in shiny little bits
in tiny little bits
that glow
and
mock me
and prick me like a thousand daggers
and I know
that was
supposed to be
me there
the one you called
the one you kissed
the
one you killed
with dripping red blood
with a howl of anguish
yeah, I
know
you never meant it to be
me there
but I was there
and I
saw
and I felt
and though
I'd found
and held
and hoped
and
cried
and loved
and screamed
nothing came of it all
you
disappeared
and he's dead too
killed
by both of us
who never
moved
who never knew
who never questioned
who just believed
And
now I wonder as I'm sitting here
and staring here
and lying here
and
crying here
and making my peace here
because the world is a mess
is a
lie
and all the people here
don't know
what's creeping on them
the
shadow that covers
and they lie
and they cheat
and they love
and
they die
and they don't know
they don't know
what it's all for
they
don't think
they don't live
they just
lie
cheat
love
and
die
and hell
I did that too
and now I know
I know what
I know
what
you want me to do
and I drag myself up
from the grass
and the
wind
and I think
and close my eyes
and I know
I know what I
want
and I don't care
don't care anymore
because everybody
they
lie
cheat
love
and die
and in the end that's all there
is
that's all that it amounts to
and hell,
it was true love
but if
it wasn't for providence
or whatever they believe
that took you away from
me
and now
I'm coming
I'm going
I'm moving
my legs
my
arms
my head
my mind
and I'm going
to see you again
in the land
of
lights
flowers
waters
and trees
cause I don't
want
anything more
to do with this place
because I've
lied
cheated
and
loved
and hell, there's only one more
thing I that I have to
do.
and I stride down the path
and mutter to myself
and I count the
ways,
one two three
one two three
you, Jecht and me
and I catch you
and you in turn catch me
and we three
are falling
and flying
and
not
caring
not seeing
not believing
just living
and lying
and
crying
and dying
That's all there is in the world
just living,
lying, crying and dying.
And God you know,
that's the way it's going to
be.
Ani DiFranco: Providence
who knew
at this
party that I
would walk in and I'd see you.
I guess now
we could just
get drunk
yeah, that could be our excuse
you could slip
from out of
nowhere
i could be there to catch your fall
we could laugh
at
ourselves
and the writing that's on the wall
it's a narrow
margin
just room enough for regret
in the inch and a half between
hey,
how ya been?
and
can I kiss you yet?
so we talk, like
nervous
neighbors over a tall fence
true love, but for the lack of
providence
but I just got one more
thing to tell you
'cuz words
are vitamins
and life is short
and I know when we get up
to the front
office
We're gonna have to fill out
a full report
and the first
question will be
what were you thinking?
and the next question will
be
what did you say?
then they're gonna check to see
if the answers to
one and two
matched up much
along the way
in the interest of
poetry
and the cowboy movie
that's you and me
I'm back on the horse
now
and I am riding
I am striding so effortlessly
what I mean
is
it's late
much to late for us
and I'm fixing to go home
with just
my conscious
and a bitter sense of irony
as my chaperone
true love,
but for the lack of providence...
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