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Chapter 15 – choosing destiny.
But
no…
I didn’t want to be equated to Akito’s level. They all thought it was
high, but how could you rate cruelty so highly?
We would go so far for
the one we care for…
But is that true love or vindictive hate? Such a
thin line…
And I can’t see the difference anymore.
My hands became
angered fists that shook as my eyes became darker and darker. As I got up, I
ripped Yuki away from Akito. Putting my arms protectively over his chest, I gave
Akito a malicious expression as he looked back at me with eyes that equally
wanted to eat me alive. “HATSUHARU!”
Yuki’s body was shaking with fear as
I felt the sweat of his back leaning on my chest. He breathed heavily while
looking at me wearily.
No…
Yuki shouldn’t be this
way…
This was what I was fighting against, dammit!
Gravely, I
hissed, “You can’t touch him, Akito.”
I tightly held onto Yuki as he
looked at the ground trying to avoid both of our eyes as his confusion rose
within his body.
“I’m quite impressed you got this far, Hatsuharu…” Akito
laughed as he caught himself and became a bit calm with his shaking anger
protruding through his quivering body. He took a fan shakily and held it to his
face like a mysterious woman hiding her moves. He glanced at Hatori and then at
me. “But I wonder who was Yuki kissing while he was kissing me?”
Clasping
the fan with a flick of his wrist, he stood up. He took the end of the fan and
put it under my chin. Then, he backhanded it across my face, which was already
swollen from Momiji’s punch. The fan ran through my skin and I began to bleed on
Yuki’s shoulders. I clenched my teeth in pain, but I wouldn’t cry out.
I
wouldn’t let him have the satisfaction of making me suffer. It made me hold onto
Yuki tighter.
Akito then licked the blood on the tip of the fan with his
tongue. “Regardless, you pass the first test.”
I spat at his feet with
blood. He looked at me sternly, ready to hit me again.
“Now, the next is
this.” He eyed me as he said, “Whom do you choose Yuki? Tohru or
Haru?”
Smiling, Akito leaned forward to look into Yuki’s eyes.
At
this, Yuki looked at him defiantly. “I want both.”
Akito shook his head
as he gave a fake pout. “Oh, I can give you both, but I don’t want to. You must
only pick one.”
I held onto Yuki, but in the back of my mind, I didn’t
want the pain in his eyes. This was Yuki. The person who usually knew what to
do.
Why should he be ruled by a tyrant that doesn’t know why there’s
something called the human heart?!
My strength was draining. Akito knew
how to play with us…
So well, so well…
“I’d rather die than give
them up,” Yuki replied.
“That’s not an option, my dear Yuki,” Akito said
while shaking his head. “Tohru or Haru, Yuki? Tell me who lives. Tell me who
dies.”
At that moment, Yuki pushed my arms away. For the first time in
his life, he voluntarily reached out for Akito’s collar. Gently, he wrapped his
arm over him while placing his hand on his cheek. With eyes full of strength,
his voice expressed his determination. “I want both. I know you can give me
both. If you do, I’ll give myself to you.”
I opened my eyes widely as I
saw this seductive Yuki that was so unfamiliar to me. He wasn’t innocent. Yuki
was definitely confused.
But why…
Why was he looking at Akito so
clearly?
With pain. With frustration. With confidence.
A
reflection of the way Akito always wanted him.
This wasn’t the Yuki I
knew, right? This was what I was protecting...?
I didn’t know this could
hurt so much…
My tears were falling to the ground before I had known what
was happening inside of me.
“We go so far…” I glanced back at Hatori
helplessly, but he continued to look at Akito without wavering.
I closed
my eyes at the betrayal…
Yuki’s eyes wouldn’t look back at mine with his
guilt.
I knew that if he turned, he’d cry…
And it was then that I
realized that Yuki wasn’t losing himself.
He had been the Yuki I knew all
along, the one I was protecting…
For he wouldn’t do this if he didn’t
care so much…
As always, the prince…
But I cared for him more than
he knew all these years.
Akito and Yuki were dense in this
sense…
To love someone wasn’t about keeping them close. It was about
letting them grow.
I opened my eyes as my hands unclasped
themselves.
“That’s right. That’s why I’m here…” I whispered to myself as
I watched Akito.
But if you’re the prince…
I’m the knight who made
sure to not let anything happen to you…
At that moment, I shook my head
and pushed Yuki away from Akito. I knelt before Akito in defeat. Touching my
head to the ground while my fingernails pushing into the floor, I said, “I’m
sorry for defying you. I shall accept my punishment.”
Yuki then stood up
while looking at me in shock, “Haru?
With hot tears on his face, he then
shouted in back of me, “What are you doing?!”
My eyes stayed open with no
tears as my heart was breaking with him crying for me while Akito smiled
triumphantly. Now, it was Yuki saying this to me.
“Why didn’t you believe
in me?!” Yuki shouted with hurt as I heard him opening and closing his hands in
frustration.
In annoyance, I refused to glance back at him. With pain,
anger, and hurt, I stared at the ground with a grave expression on my face. I
couldn’t shout back, “I do believe in you, Yuki! If I didn’t, I wouldn’t do
this! Even if you don’t understand!!”
But if I did, then Akito would do
something worse to Yuki and the others…
The room became silent, but then
Akito said, “I told you that you should have listened to me from the beginning,
Haru. But you’re too late. Yuki now controls your fate.”
I refused to
look back at because I didn’t want to influence his judgment. With a calm face,
I waited for his answer.
You won’t be happy here with me.
I want
you to pick Tohru.
Be happy with Tohru, Yuki…
She told me she’d
take good care of you.
In resignation, Yuki’s sigh filled the room.
Though I had been prepared from the start, I felt my heart stop when he firmly
said,
“I choose Tohru.”
I sincerely smiled to myself as I looked
at the ground.
You are free.
We are both free from this horrible
life…
Finally, my dear Yuki,
you can leave this damn house.
Tsuzuku…
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author’s note: I know this particular part is
progressing slowly. Since this is the focus of the story, I wanted to bring out
the most dramatic points. I hope it is going well for those of you reading. As
for me, whenever I read the last two lines, my heart hurts.
Please don’t
hate Yuki! I love Yuki and when you read the next chapter, you’ll understand why
he did what he did. ^^v
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