Notes: 3+2, 3x4x3
NC-17
I loved writing this, I don't know why but I did. I love Trowa and Quatre together. C&C is greatly appreciated.

Watching him Sleep

I remember him sleeping. His blond hair covering his eyes. His chest rising and falling as traces of air rushed in and out of him. He was so beautiful, so comfortable. He seemed fragile, like freshly made glass of the thinnest kind. I remember wanting to touch him, stroke his back, but I was scared he would awaken and the peace would end.

Now, I sit watching Duo frantically search for something. His hair tie, I think. He's holding his braid with one hand and searching with the other. "Just go ask Wufei if you can borrow one of his. He's just down the hall," I suggest to him.

"No, I've been using that tie for a while now and I've grown quite fond of it. Ah, here it is," Duo finally found it hidden under a pile of his black button-up shirts.

Quatre and I broke up about six months ago, after he found out I had slept with Duo. Things weren't going well anyway and I needed an escape for a while. I was out, sulking after a huge argument over something so stupid, I can't even remember what it was. Duo found me outside in the garden. He tried comforting me but things got carried away. We ended up having sex. Afterwards, I thought I was in love. I thought Duo had everything I was looking for. Turns out he's just good at cheering people up.

"Ready to go?" I hear Duo ask as I snap out of a daydream and into reality.

"Yeah, I'm ready," I answer him

We're going to Heero's birthday party, he's 17 today. Heero and Duo split up a while back. They realized the only reason they were together was the sex. Heero somehow ended up with Treize. I would have never thought those two would hook up.

"You need to stop doing that, Trowa," Duo says as we walk out of our apartment.

"Doing what?!"

"Wandering off into deep space, daydreaming. It could really lead to something serious in your later years. That's probably why those old kooks made the gundams, they daydreamed too much," Duo chuckled at his statement.

"Oh yeah, sorry about doing that. It's just another one of my bad habits."

"What other bad habits?! Me?" Duo asks.

I laugh. Duo's always been good at getting people to laugh. I guess that's another reason I fell for him, but now... I don't feel much between us. Even the sex has gotten boring. I don't ever remember it being boring with Quatre. His soft skin against mine. I can still feel it if I try really hard.

I've tried imagining Duo as Quatre. It's not the same. The sex is still boring, rougher than what it would be with Quatre. Quatre was so gentle with me. His touches were soft. Duo's touches are more sincere, less passionate.

'I wonder who Quatre's with now?' I ponder the question as Duo and I enter Heero and Treize's mansion. 'I heard he was with Zechs but that doesn't seem likely.'

Duo nudges me before we greet Heero, "You're doing it again," he warns me.

"I'll try not to do it any more tonight," I tell him and quickly kiss him before approaching the birthday boy.

"Hey man! Happy b-day!," Duo says to Heero as if they never had more than a friendship.

Heero was wrapped in Treize's arms. Duo didn't seem hurt to see them together. I guess it's because no one really dumped anybody, they just broke up. Or he was really good at hiding his feelings.

"Sorry we didn't get you a present, but Duo here spent our last bit of cash on about fifty bags of gummy worms," I apologize.

"They were on sale, and hey you have to admit they are good. We put 'em to good use didn't we?" Duo brought back the memory of the sex about two nights ago, it was boring.

"Don't worry about it. He's going to get a good present tonight," Treize said more to Heero than anyone else.

My heart skipped a beat when I looked up from the conversation. I saw Quatre. He was watching me, and I swear he had a smile on his face. I then see someone walk up behind him and kiss his neck. It's Zechs. I gasp in surprise. It's been so long since I've seen Quatre. The last time was when I got my stuff to move into Duo's place. As I left him, a single tear fell from his eyes, I'm sure more followed. I wanted to hold him and kiss his tears away but I couldn't. I waited until I was alone to cry. And cry I did, for nearly three hours.

Duo turns to me then the direction I'm looking in," Whatcha lookin' at?"

"Nothing," I look away and kiss Duo again.

"I need to talk to you," Duo grabs my hand and takes me around a few corners, down a couple of hallways and finally into a room.

"What is it?" I ask, pretty much knowing what he is going to say.

"Is there something I should know about?"

I shake my head.

"Are you sure?! This daydreaming and stuff is really starting to worry me. Do you still like Quatre?"

I stand there, scared to answer. 'Yes' I want to scream out, announce to the whole world. But by saying 'no' I wouldn't hurt Duo.

"I see," he says, watching me," Do you love him?"

I nod. I couldn't help but answer yes. "I'm sorry Duo, but I do. I can't explain it. It..."

"I know he loves you too. I saw him watching you. I've heard from Zechs that he talks about you in his sleep. Sexually. Now if that isn't love then... I don't know. Thank you for telling me the truth," Duo gets up from the bed he was sitting on and leaves.

I follow him out but instead of going to look for Quatre, I leave the house. I guess I'm a scaredy cat, but I don't think I could have confronted him tonight or maybe I could...

I headed toward Quatre's apartment, not knowing quite why. I just drove there with Quatre on my mind. I reach his apartment and ring the doorbell. To my surprise, Quatre answers.

"I expected you to show up," he says with a smile. The same smile I saw when I first fell in love with him.

"I've missed you," I say before cupping his face in my hands and kissing him. Kissing him with passion. The passion I've been deprived of for so long.

He pulls away long enough to bring me inside and close the door. Then plunges back into my mouth. Our tongues meeting, trespassing each other's mouth. I am already hard, but I want to take it slow. I know he likes it that way.

He takes me to the bedroom and I lie on the bed. As I continue to kiss his lips my hands work to unbutton his shirt. (The white one he almost always wears.) I then pull away from the kisses and brush his hair out of his eyes. I run a hand over his cheek and over his lips. He kisses my fingers, each one individually.

I kiss his lips again then his neck. Sucking on it. He whimpers as he feels the suction. I rub my hand down his chest, over his stomach and into his pants. Another whimper is released as I touch him. I kiss his collar bone as I continue to rub him. His pants seem too tight for me to work so I pull my hand out and sit up. I then remove his pants. I kiss his cock once then kiss his lips. My hand continues to work his length. He moans into my mouth as he thrusts into me. I touch his sacs, which I can tell he likes. I kiss one of his nipples and tease it with my tongue, suck on it, gently bite it. I squeeze his cock gently and kiss it again.

"Trowa," he yells," Don't stop!"

I put him into my mouth and suck the head. I pull his cock in and out of my mouth, waiting for him to come. It isn't long before I feel him shake under me as his orgasm takes him.

He pulls my shirt off of me and turns me on my back. He unzips my jeans and removes them along with my boxers. I settle down, preparing for what Quatre's going to do.

'He always gives the best b.j.'s,' I think to myself as he puts my cock into his mouth.

He puts a majority of it into his mouth and pulls it all the way back out. He licks the tip then the underside. I moan as he works. He gently blows cool air onto the opening then moves his tongue over it. He does it again and nearly puts me over the edge. He puts my cock back in his mouth and starts to suck on it. But before he gets too far into it, my seed is released into his mouth. He takes it in, then kisses my stomach, then my lips. I kiss him back, tasting me on his lips.

"I love you," Quatre says, breathless.

"I love you, too," I reply and he kisses my forehead.

He turns away for a second to get the lubrication and turns back. He turns me over and lubricates his fingers. He rubs his hand over my buttocks and finds my entrance. He inserts two fingers into me. I jump at his touch.

"Calm yourself," he whispers into my ear.

He uses a bit more lubrication on me and puts himself inside me. He settles for a second then starts to move in and out of me. Over and over. Quatre reaches for my cock and holds it. I start to feel it get hard again. He begins to rub me as he continues to thrust into me.

I suddenly scream when I feel him hit my prostate. Damn it feels so good. He continues to thrust into me until we both come a second time. Quatre collapses on top of me and moves when the position got uncomfortable. I hold him in my arms.

"I'm never letting go of you again," I say as I kiss his forehead.

"Trowa, I want to be with you forever," he replies.

"Where's Zechs, anyway?!" I ask, not really wanting to know the answer.

"Aww, hell if I know! He's probably fucking Wufei right now. I don't care though, you're mine."

I kiss his forehead again before watching him sleep.

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