Warning!!! This is a lemon yaoi fanfiction, starring Kain Highwind and Cecil Harvey from Final Fantasy IV. If rated, it should be NC-17. If the idea of male homosexuality bothers you, or if you are under the age of 18, please do not read this story. I'm almost positive you will be scarred for life in doing so. But if you like yaoi, and are curious as how I'm going to get everybody's two favorite knights together, please read on.... Just so you know, this story will be told from Kain Dragoon's point of view. :)

Knightfall

I don't even completely understand why I had decided to visit Cecil and Rosa.

Perhaps it was sometime after my trip to Mt. Ordeals. Maybe I wished to atone for my sins.

Or maybe I wanted to see how Cecil was doing.

I sighed as I tied my long golden hair behind me, realizing my thoughts had once again wandered to my former best friend. I looked into the mirror, assuring myself I was presentable.

I had decided to pay the royal couple a visit in my leathers, not in my armor. I felt naked without my Dragoon armor, and disliked showing my face. But both knew me well, and it would be disrespect to appear as a Dragoon Knight, when I had fallen from the order.

It was odd... When I was at Mt. Ordeals, I had asked the mirror to show me where my happiness lay, upon defeat of my eldritch reflection. To show me where I could find love and acceptance.

The mirrored wall had shown me Cecil, dancing with his bride, Rosa.

I headed out to my mount, a fine black chocobo of good breeding, and headed towards Baram, where Cecil and his wife Rosa ruled.

Rosa.

After Mt. Ordeals, I hardly thought of her. Before, I had thought I loved her above all else. But I was mistaken. She was merely the creature I centered my affections on.... So I wouldn't have to dream about impossible love.

Again, Cecil came unbidden into my mind, but I pushed the thought away, before it could begin to whisper unthought of desires.

I soon reached Baram, and dismounted from my Chocobo, checking him into the stables and headed towards the castle. Most people here knew me, but only in my armor. So I walked amongst them now as a stranger.

I entered the castle and dithered with the Chancellor, trying to gain an audience with the king and queen.

"I'm sorry, good sir, but you must make an appointment!" the Chancellor said, in his nasal voice.

I sighed. I never cared for Chancellors. "Tell his majesty that an old friend has come to see him... a Dragoon Knight," I said, sounding imperious.

The Chancellor sighed. "Very well, sir, I will tell him. But I doubt his majesty will spare the time to see you," he said as he headed towards the throne room.

I sighed, sitting down to wait. There was a significant chance Cecil would not wish to see me. Why should he? After all I had done, and after all the betrayals... He had every right to hate me.

But he didn't hate me... Maybe that made it worse.

The Chancellor returned, looking surprised. "I... His majesty said he would see you now, Lord Kain...." the chancellor said, bowing before me.

I raised an eyebrow, not expecting to be treated with respect. I headed towards the throne room, walking past the Chancellor without giving him leave to stop bowing.

I truly dislike Chancellors.

When I entered the throne room, I found Cecil, as glorious as ever, sitting upon his throne. His snowy white hair was tumbling past his shoulders, and he wore fine garments of white, gold, silver, and blue. His perfectly sculpted face regarded me coolly, his ice blue eyes studying my own deep blue ones.

I know my breath must have caught at the sight of his beauty, even as did my words. However, Rosa broke the awkward silence between myself and Cecil.

"Kain! How lovely to see you! You're looking well! Would you join us for dinner?" Rosa dribbled, clasping her hands.

I managed to tear my gaze from Cecil's glory and looked at her evenly. How plain and dreary she seemed next to him, where once I had found her lovely. How irritating and pathetic she seemed, now that my eyes had been been cleared. I wondered how green my gaze became when I looked upon her.

"Of course, Queen Rosa. I would be honored to join you and your husband for dinner," I said mechanically, covering my envy with courtly manners.

Rosa smiled, clapping her hands together and getting up. "Excellent! I will alert the cooks to cook a fine meal for us! It will be like the old days, Kain! You, me, and Cecil!" she bubbled before dashing out to prepare for the evening.

I looked at Cecil, who was gracefully standing up, still watching me. "Yes..." he finally said, in his sweet dulcet. "Just the three of us... Do you love her still, Kain?"

I swallowed, my stomach churning in jealously. How lucky she was to this man's wife. To be loved and cared for by him. "No," I said honestly, for I indeed did not love Rosa.

Cecil merely nodded, his face unreadable. What I would give to know how this man felt about me, what he was thinking at this moment.

"It has been awhile, Kain... I wished you had come to our wedding... But you never came..." Cecil said after a moment of silence.

"I apologize, Cecil. I needed to... be alone for awhile..." I sighed.

Cecil nodded again. "Perhaps we can ride the countryside while waiting for dinner.... As we use to... long ago..." he offered, standing up.

I tried not to seem to overly joyous at the prospect of being alone with the Paladin King. "I would like that, Cecil... Immensely..." I said, managing not to look overly eager.

Cecil smiled softly at me, his seeming to almost glow with beauty when graced with such an expression. He stood up and walked over to me, the picture of grace without effeminance. "Then let us ride, Kain..." he said, heading towards the chocobo stables.

Within twenty minutes, we were both outside the city. I was upon my black chocobo, and he upon a white chocobo. It amazed me that this man had actually tamed such a creature, convincing it to bear him, as well as restore his magical strength. But if anyone could tame a white chocobo, Cecil could.

We rode quite some distance away from Baram, enjoying the quiet beauty of its surrounding forests. Our ride was silent, and just enjoyed each other's company, riding side by side. It was blissful to ride beside my childhood friend, as if nothing had ever happened that would damage us... seperate us...

Yet the thoughts running across my mind were not those I held in our childhood. I felt shameful and exhilirated at the same time. How I wanted to touch him... in a way I never had before.

Our ride grew to a close and Cecil called a halt as the clouds raced by, looking as if to storm. "We should head back, Kain. Rosa will have our dinner ready.... And the weather bodes ill...." he said.

I nodded my head, having not noticed the weather while I was staring at Cecil. The sky was quickly darkening... As if nightfall was upon us...

We spurred our mounts forward, back to the castle. But we had been riding for quite some time, and were far away from Baram. The winds began to howl, and sky turned black, and nature unleashed her fury upon us.

We got lost in the downpour. It was extremely dark... So dark that not even Cecil's light magic helped us. It was snuffed out. The rain was hard enough to leave bruises upon our backs and shoulders. The wind was so hard, that not even our chocobos, as strong as they were, could move.

Cecil called us to a halt and opened a satchel he had brought with him. He threw a small wooden box, which hit the ground near us, exploding into a full-sized cabin. I grabbed his mount by the reins as he did this, forcing both our mounts to the magical cabin. It had brought us rest and health on the moon, and I could only pray that it would do the same now.

We soon reached the sturdy wooden cabin, and I got off to open the door, barely able to stand against the wind. I reached the door and yanked it open, reaching for Cecil. Both our mounts were tame, so he was pulling on both to come in. I grabbed Cecil around his slender waist, adding my strength to his. Together we managed to pull our chocbos in, and ourselves, and I closed the door. We both stood, dripping wet, and worse for the wear, listening to the winds howl outside.

"It is good that you brought a cabin with you... I do not think we could have made it back to Baram..." I panted, leaning over a little, wrinkling my nose at the smell of wet chocobo.

"Yes... I always like to be prepared..." Cecil breathed, heading to fireplace, and starting a much needed fire. Our chocobos quickly huddled together near the fire. We both attended to the tired mounts, removing our saddles and reins, and trying to dry them off as best we could. Cecil's bag of feed was actually edible, and we fed both chocobos from the bag.

The chocobos seemed settled, despite the winds outside. "We should stay here until the storm stops... I had not expected a hurricane to come this early in the year... I hope Baram is alright..." Cecil sighed.

"I'm sure everyone is fine, old friend. Other than Rosa, who is probably worrying herself to death about you..." I told him, stripping my soaked attire off and placing it before the crackling fire to dry.

Cecil nodded, peeling his own wet clothes off. I know my breath must have caught at the site of his naked beauty. How lovely he looked in the firelight, his glossy white hair hanging down his beautiful face, his toned, yet slender body glistening with water as he sat by the fire, pulling one of the blankets off the bed to cover himself with.

I blinked and tried to recover my wits, pulling another blanket off to cover my shame, not wanting him to see my arousal at his beauty. I raised an eyebrow as I finally looked around the cabin. Unlike the other cabins we had used, it only had one large bed, with many blankets and pillows.

"Cecil...? What manner of cabin is this?" I asked, noticing how much more sturdy and furnished this cabin was.

Cecil looked up from his reverie by the fire. "Oh... it was designed by Cid... for Rosa and myself... A wedding present..." he sighed.

I boldly reached out and put a hand on his slim arm. I thrilled at the feel of his smooth skin, but ignored it. "I'm sure Rosa is fine, Cecil..." I said, trying to comfort him.

Cecil looked at me sharply. "I wasn't worried about Rosa... I'm worried about my kingdom...." he said.

I blinked at his abruptness. "Of course you would be... You are the King.... I apologize, I meant no slight to your honor as their liege...." I said.

Cecil sighed again, turning to me. "No... I apologize... I was... I just... It's nothing..." he babbled, turning his face.

I leaned closer, wondering what ailed Cecil. "Cecil... What's wrong? You can tell me...." I said.

Cecil looked back at me, his face a mask of sadness. "I... I... don't love her Kain.... I thought I did... But it was merely the afterglow of adventure and childhood romances... I married her because I felt obligated...." he admitted, hanging his head in shame.

I remained silent, too shocked too speak. Cecil had discovered his love for Rosa was as false as my own?

The paladin looked up at me. "I'm sorry... I know how you felt about her, Kain... I know how you must despise me for how I've mistreated her... But I am kind to her... I've given her every freedom and luxury she deserves... It is my shame that I could not love such a wonderful woman..." Cecil said, placing a gentle hand on my shoulder.

I continued to blink silently at Cecil. This was too much. If Cecil did not love Rosa... perhaps he could learn to love someone else...

"I... am so sorry, Kain.... She is untouched... still a virgin... I never came to her as a husband... I cannot dishonor her like that. But if you love her still... Become her lover... I would welcome you back into the Dragoon Knights... And honor any children you sire upon her as my own heirs... I will not prevent you from being with Rosa, since I was selfish and married her without love..." Cecil said, looking earnest.

What he was saying, was making my head spin with giddiness. Never in my wildest dreams had I ever supposed that Cecil did not love Rosa... He hadn't even entered his marriage bed with her! And to offer her back to me...

"Kain. Please speak. Forgive me...." Cecil begged.

"I... do not love Rosa, Cecil. I never did. My love was misplaced...." I babbled, still collecting my wits.

"What?" Cecil asked, blinking in confusion.

"I love you, Cecil... I always had... And it took a trip to Mt. Ordeals to realize that it was you I had always desired to be with... Not Rosa..." I confessed, hanging my own head in shame.

It was now Cecil's turn to look shocked. "B-but... Me...?" he asked weakly.

I looked up, into his powder blue eyes, and gently stroked his soft white hair. "Yes, Cecil. You," I whispered.

The paladin king stared at me, his perfect face slack in surprise. He did not resist my touch, merely watching my face, my every move...

"Kain... I... never thought... I love you, too..." Cecil said, reaching a hand up to wrap his long, tapered fingers around my hand.

I felt elated. Never had I felt so happy as when Cecil said the three words I wanted to hear from him my whole life. Everything seemed sharper, more real. My stomach felt queasy, and my head felt light. I think perhaps a tear escaped my eye.

Cecil smiled, a wry smile. "All this time... We both thought the other loved Rosa.... And we loved each other...." he said, squeezing my hand.

I leaned over, feeling bold now. I let my lips hungrily take his in, pulling his slender body against mine, our blankets slipping to the floor. Cecil moaned, matching my passionate kisses with his own. I was surprised at his passion, the feel of his exquisite lips against my own, the taste of his tongue sliding against mine.

I lifted my old friend up in my arms, carrying him to the bed, laying him gently against the pillows and blankets there. I paused, gazing down at his pale form. The curve of his sinewy muscles, the provocative way he lay, the sultry look he gave me, his pale blue eyes seeming to brighten with passion. I smiled some at his beauty, my breath growing short when my eyes feasted on the vision of his aroused manhood.

He was gazing back, a mutual pause to admire each other. "Kain... gods... You're so beautiful...." Cecil whispered, reaching up to stroke my long golden hair.

I blushed, never expecting such a compliment from one as glorious as Cecil. Adonis himself could not compare to his beauty, or the paladin's virtue. "Cecil... My beauty is plain beside yours.... You are the moon itself in its beauty... I love you like no human could ever love...." I breathed, leaning down to rain kisses on his white throat.

"Kain... You should have been a poet... Not a knight...." Cecil whispered back, leaning back against the pillows as I kissed him. I continued to kiss him, moving down his lovely body. I kissed my way to one of his nipples, flicking my tongue against the light pink flesh, tasting it.

Cecil moaned ever so softly, running his long fingers through my hair, sliding them down my back, gently massaging my muscles there. I rewarded him by suckling gently on his nipple, eliciting a slightly louder moan as he pressed against me. I blowed softly on the wet flesh when I was done, causing him to shiver.

I sat up a little to roll him over on his stomach, causing Cecil to look at me with curiousity, allowing me to do what I pleased. I smiled seductively at him, placing my hands on his smooth thighs, and spread them apart. I lowered my head to the swell of his buttocks, kissing the perfectly formed globes. Cecil lay his head against a pillow, breathing deeply. I slipped my tongue out, snaking it out to lick against his tight opening, causing him to gasp and shudder.

I pursued my endeavor, pushing my tongue inside, sliding it around inside him. Cecil cried out very loudly, shuddering and spasming, much to my gratification. His muscles clamped tightly around my tongue in reflex, and I pulled my tongue out, only to push it in again when he relaxed.

"Kain... I.....it feels wonderful..." Cecil whimpered, his body shuddering. I smiled, having wanted Cecil to cry my name in pleasure for quite some time. I moved downwards, lavishing the spot between his scrotum and his buttocks with my tongue, which made the paladin squirm in pleasure.

I sat back up when I was done, rolling Cecil back onto his back again. Cecil sat up, on his knees as I was, to kiss me again, his hands massaging my back as we embraced. I tried to suck on his tongue, but he escaped me, kissing his way down my neck and chest, causing me to sigh.

I gasped when his kisses reached my hardening erection, surprised that Cecil would be bold enough to kiss me there. I arched slightly as his lips met my tip. His tongue slipped out, gently encircling and licking my sensitive spot, causing me to moan loudly. Cecil proved to be gifted in this area, as he began to engulf my erection in his mouth, sucking gently.

"Ohhh... Cecil.... Harder..." I panted, running my fingers through his silky white hair. The paladin eagerly complied, sucking hard enough to cause me to pull on his hair in pleasure. I felt warm, happy, and not just from the physical sensations...

Cecil pulled up abruptly, returning to kissing my lips. I arched my hips up, wanting his mouth to return to it's activities, but kissed back, wrapping my arms around him. Cecil slid his hands through my hair, kissing me with more passion than I had ever dreamed.

"Take me, Kain... I want you...." Cecil whispered huskily, stroking my back. I looked at him adoringly, trying to convey through expression how I felt....

Cecil smiled at me, and then kissed me again, pulling me down on top of him. I shuddered, kissing back, running my hands along his chest, then reaching down to wrap his legs around my waist. Cecil was kneading the muscles of my back, arching his hips upwards to, brushing his erection past mine. I gasped, moving his hips further upwards, and pushing my erection against his opening.

Cecil shuddered, looking up at me, his powder blue eyes flushed with passion. "Kain...." he moaned, pushing against me, bringing me into him.

I moaned as well, but then pulled back, teasing him by just allowing my tip in. Cecil squirmed and whimpered, trying to push me all the way in. I smiled at him, and gave him what he wanted, pushing all the way inside him, pushing against his prostate and causing him to cry out in pleasure, tightening his thighs around my waist.

I closed my eyes as I moaned, feeling how tight Cecil was around me. I pulled back, almost all the way out, but not quite, my tip still inside him, before I reversed and thrust back inside him. I touched his prostate each time, thrusting deeply into my childhood friend.

"Kain... gods.... ahh-ahhhh!!" Cecil cried, every sound of pleasure he made to my actions like music to my ears. How I loved hearing him, trying everything possible to keep him moaning and gasping. I pushed my stomach against the underside of his shaft, and his scrotum, rubbing them as I thrusted, keeping my hands around him. I returned to kissing him, and he to me, our tongues playing with each other even as our bodies rocked together.

I could feel him drip on my stomach, and his kisses grow more urgent with each thrust. I went to kissing his throat, wanting to hear him cry out again.

"Gods!!! Kain!!!" Cecil thundered as he came, his body spasming against my own. At the feeling of his orgasm, I released into him, crying his name into his ear, clutching him tightly.

We both lay against each other, panting hard. I was about to withdraw before he stopped me. "No... I... want you inside me...." Cecil breathed, drawing me closer to him. I felt flushed, and happier than I ever thought possible, and when he snuggled against me was almost orgasmic in of itself.

"I love you, Cecil... I always have... Even when I thought I loved Rosa, it was you I actually loved...." I admitted, pressing my face to his snow white hair, breathing in his lovely scent.

"It is the same for me, Kain...." Cecil whispered back, his finger gently tracing the lines of my chest.

"So what now, your majesty?" I asked wryly.

"Now? Ahhh.... We return to Baram, and make sure my kingdom is well, an repair what needs repairing... Then you become my Captain of the Guard.... and my lover...." Cecil said, calmly, as if it was all pre-planned.

"Given this some thought, love?" I chuckled, stroking his hair, as we snuggled close in the bed.

"In my dreams.... In my dreams, Kain...." the paladin smiled up at me.

We fell silent, enjoying the other's company with looks, soft kisses, and caresses. I noticed that outside the storm had fallen silent, and true nightfall was upon us.

How glorious my love looked in the moonlight. He will forever be immortalized in my mind as he was now, shining in the moonlight, love and happiness shining in his eyes as he looked upon me.

Love is a thing best expressed in the night, I've always thought...

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