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Disclaimer: If I owned GW, I would be happy. I am happy. But to draw
the conclusion that I own GW from those statements would be to affirm the
consequent, and would therefore be an invalid argument.
See?
Pairing: 1+2+1/1x2x1; reference to past 1xR, R+1.
Warnings: Part 20 has quite a strong lime warning (2x2 masturbation),
and an angst warning. This is an AU fic.
Notes: Guess who's had to
re-read her own fic… Man, I hate doing that! All the typos… @_@ Anyway,
I'm sorry this took so long! And this scene… man, it was originally meant
to take up half a part, and be tacked onto part 19. Heh, and it became a
whole part in itself… Lol. It's another scene that's been in my head for
ages, and I finally fitted it in. Woo! Maybe Duo'll talk to me again now!
^_^' Thanks also to the ever-present KK, for helping me without realising
it! Heehee ^^
Escaping Part 20
I showed Duo to one of the guest rooms when we got back. He said he
was going to have a shower and then sleep, even though it was already
nearly half past five. I nodded my acknowledgment and left him to it,
letting my mind wander as I went to take my own shower. What would happen,
I found myself wondering, with the end of the summit? I couldn't help but
feel quite grim about our failure to pin down the would-be criminals. I
wondered if, without a definite target such as the summit to focus on, our
attempts to solve the affair would be so much more directionless. But I
had thought about that before. I knew it would be difficult; but I had
faced bigger challenges before. Duo had reminded me of that. My thoughts
turned willingly to him again: what would it be like having to act the
same as usual around Relena, while all the time being acutely aware of
Duo's presence? Worrying about his reckless attitude to our relationship –
he had always made it clear he never really cared what people thought, and
that seemingly extended even as far as Relena…
I turned off the
shower and stepped out. I dried and dressed again: I didn't feel like
going to bed, but maybe I would rest for a while –
The beep of my
phone cut off my train of thought. A text message? Who would be sending me
a text message at 6 in the morning? Not to mention the fact that no-one
sent me text messages anyway: they were for kids who couldn't afford to
make real phone calls. Curious, I looked.
`i cant sleep'
I
suddenly felt warm. Duo, only a few rooms away… He was teasing.
There was nothing I could do but retrace my steps down the hallway
to the room I'd left him in, and open the door, and go in.
He was
naked. Sitting against the headboard, smiling right at me.
What
could I do?
I stalked silently to the bed, kneeling on it and
crawling up so I was poised on all fours over him, so close I couldn't
focus properly. We stared at each other, his lips still parted in that sly
smile, until he tilted his head back just a little and brought his mouth
to mine.
We kissed fiercely, lips moving almost as if we were
trying to catch each other out, but failing – we knew each other too well,
following each other perfectly.
I felt like I was on fire.
After hot minutes we parted, gasping, still so close we were
sharing breath. His eyes were fixed on mine, he looked… dangerous but I
couldn't look away…
"C'mon Heero…" his tone was almost pleading
and his hands feverishly fumbled with the buttons of my shirt, "we've done
enough now…" kissing me between words. "You can cut the crap about
betraying Relena" kiss, he was almost to my waist, untucking my shirt
"'cos we both know that even if she walked through that door right now
you'd be about as bothered as I would be…" My shirt slid down my
shoulders. The words rang true, I knew he was right. I couldn't claim to
care about Relena's feelings if I didn't even care whether she knew I was
having an affair…
"What is it then, Heero? Why can't you…?"
Yes, why did I still hang onto my shackles? Was I just being a
martyr? No… But still…
I kissed him again, desperately, but I knew
I wouldn't do it, even now: I still clung to that mockery of loyalty. I
shook my head as I pulled away, kneeling up and pulling my shirt back on,
fastening a button to keep it in place.
His eyes flashed with
something, and I felt a sharp pang…
"Please Heero…" Wheedling…
I shook my head again, hating myself.
"Please…" My eyes
followed inevitably as his own hand trailed down…
I felt a sharp,
shocking spear of desire as he touched himself, his eyes half-lidded for a
moment before he looked back at me.
"Heero…"
He was
electricity, I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end.
So hot where our bodies touched.
"God, Heero, I've wanted you for
so long…"
I knew it, I knew it, and I knew I'd wanted him so much
too… I watched him, mesmerised; nothing else existed for me in that moment
besides him and me. He seemed content for me to watch, and I was happy to;
my gaze lingered on his stroking hand for several moments before I looked
up, to his face… Our eyes met and when he smiled I felt a shiver run up my
spine: I was certain I was only resisting because I was frozen in place.
He was the most sensual thing I had ever seen in my life, and my breath
caught in my throat.
His hand moved faster. My eyes flicked back
to watch. It was new to me, seeing another man like this… but it was like
looking in a mirror and seeing what I felt reflected back at me. And he
was beautiful, in a way I had never even thought of before I'd met him.
Somehow, I thought, and not for the first time, Duo had shown me things
inside myself that it had never occurred to me to look for.
I
touched his bare chest, just lightly, tasting his skin through my own. I
ran my finger down his side and he moaned in pleasure: it was my name, and
I was burning up in him.
I put my other hand to his other side,
feeling him tremble just a little under my touch. He felt hot, even with
his skin exposed… I could sense him getting closer. Suddenly he grabbed my
hand with his free one, lacing our fingers together: a simple gesture but
I felt the link between us just that bit more. I heard my name from his
lips again; my hand reached his hip; and then his body shuddered as he
climaxed in his hand and onto his stomach, his other hand gripping mine so
hard his nails dug into my skin.
I could practically feel what he
was feeling as his breathing began to slow again and his body calmed. We
looked at each other; I was still caught up in him. He smiled at me, and
squeezed my hand, and I slowly moved to lie down next to him on my side.
He turned his upper body, leaned in and kissed me softly on the
mouth. "I'm sorry."
I shook my head briefly against the pillow,
and kissed him again, a little more fiercely, in reply.
He seemed
to understand that he didn't need to apologise to me for anything, and
grinned at me, surreptitiously slipping his hand from where it was still
linked with mine and lightly stroking me with it… I closed my eyes briefly
in pleasure, and when I reopened them he was still smiling broadly at me.
"What about you?" He squeezed me just slightly through my clothes.
I reached down and stopped his hand, wrapping it in mine again.
"Don't worry about it." I was satisfied watching him.
He looked
surprised, but only kissed me lightly in response. "Well, if you're sure."
We were quiet for a few moments before he chuckled. "I do feel like I
could go to sleep now. But" he sighed "now I need to get washed." He
shifted beside me and I sat up, still holding his hand.
"Do me a
favour and pass me a tissue, would you?"
I snorted and reached for
the box on my side of the bed, passing him it.
There seemed to be
no need to discuss what had just happened between us – it seemed pointless
to dissect something that felt so… natural; and I think my feelings were
as clear to Duo as his were to me. There was no need for either of us to
jar the atmosphere between us.
But, of course… "I should go, I
suppose."
Duo nodded. "I guess." He finished cleaning himself up
and followed me as I stood. "Is Miss Peacecraft back yet?"
It took
me a moment to get back into that frame of mine. Being with Duo had even
more than usual distracted me, predictably enough. "I don't know."
Duo put his arms around my waist from the side. "You'd better go
find out." He kissed my neck. "I'll see you soon." He grinned. "It's good
to know you're just down the hall if I need you." He gave me one last kiss
to the mouth, lingering and sweet, then pulled away. "Get some rest.
That's what I'm gonna do, and then maybe I'll come and find you." He
smiled at me and I nodded, leaving the room as he headed for the bathroom
of the suite.
I was almost surprised to see everything the same as
when I had last seen it, and when I looked out of the window, I could see
Relena's car in the drive… That answered Duo's question. I half-wondered
how long she'd been back, whether it had been an actual possibility that
Relena could have walked in and caught us…
I wondered about that.
I knew the thought should make me feel *something*, guilt, nervousness,
whatever… but far from that, I actually felt a flicker of excitement. It
was wrong of me, I knew in my head… but I couldn't help myself. If she did
find us together, it occurred to me, it might solve a lot of problems… I
felt so callous: I claimed to not want to betray my wife, but how could I
claim I didn't want to hurt her, if I almost wanted her to find out my
secret just so I didn't have to take the initiative… I couldn't imagine
how she would react – I didn't want to. But still… I realised, with a cold
feeling inside, that even if she found out… I still couldn't leave her…
The thought left a bitter taste. How could I use Duo like this? My escape
from the real world, my real life, my very real wife and job… It was
unfair: how long could I expect him to wait? But… Duo had said he wasn't
giving up. I knew he meant it. So… for now, I just had to walk a fine
line; until Relena realised that she didn't need me like she thought she
did after all.
I could only hope she would.
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