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The nights are too hard.
Me: kill me now
Her: why?
Me: it's all too much
Her: life?
Me: yeas
Me: that and school
Me: one or the other, i could do, but not this much, not now
Her: i agree
Me: kill me now
Her: no
Me: why not?
Her: id have no one to answer my questions
Me: oh, good enough
Her: plus if anyone was gonna die itd be me..you can get through this..i cant
im not strong enough
Me: neither was i
Me: get what i'm saying?
Her: yeah
Me: i've found it's not that anyone is "strong enough"
Me: it's that time passes, whether we like it or not
Her: so im being dragged along and theres nothing i cant do about it?
Me: that's right
Me: supposedly, where you're being dragged is worth the trip
Me: i have my doubts
Her: worth the trip? nothing is worth this hell
Me: somethings, like love, and seeing the light
Me: put it this way: as hard as this is, would you go back to being one of "them"
Me: ?
Her: i guess not
Her: I dont know. they seem pretty happy...
Me: trust me, it's worth it
Her: alright ill hold you to that
Me: you do that
Her: i broke my ass
Me: how?
Her: hockey
Me: how broken?
Her: im not sitting right now it hurts to much
Me: does this mean that you can't play hockey?
Her: no it means I cant sit down
Me: huh
Her: mhmm
Me: not even on an ass pillow
Her: nope..it kills
Me: rough
Her: yeah..im gonna use it as an excuse not to go to school tomorrow
Me: nice
Her: but ill end up going...because i always do
Me: NO don't go
Her: i dont have a choice
Me: says who?
Her: everyone
Me: fuck them
Her: ill get no grade
Her: ive already cut like 5 times
Me: oh
Me: then go, and sleep through class
Her: i do that anyways...but its almost not worth it...its not real sleep..its
like the kind where you fall asleep and then like you franticlly wake up and
wonder where you are
Me: i hate that
Her: well i dont remember what its like to reallly sweet
Her: *sleep
Me: i used to take tranqualizers for that
Her: i take 2 benadryls and 2 tylanol PMs and then im usually good
Me: damn
Me: why not take simply sleep?
Her: i dont know....this is good
Me: okay
Me: by the way, your profile a few days ago about "a persian bazzar of
self help"....nice.
Her: ive been pukeing everyday for the last week and im trying to figure it
all out
Her: tuesdays with morrie
Me: is it? huh
Her: yep
Me: you remind me of a young me
Me: that is a compliment i have never given before
Her: well..thanks
Her: so you've been here before then, tell me how to get through another day
Me: shit, that's a tough question.....
Me: can you dull yourself to the pain?
Her: i dont know...i cant really tell what i feel
Me: get through another day any way it looks like you can, like, sleep in class,
and when you're not sleeping, read a book, and when you're not doing that get
a pass to the can and wander the halls
Me: that's the best i can do for right now
Me: i'll probly be back later
Her: k thanks
Me: bye