Unpretty, by Aquarian Phoenix

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Unpretty, by Aquarian Phoenix Unpretty
Aquarian Phoenix

//I wish could tie you up in my shoes
make you feel unpretty too//

Heero, do you think it's easy being responsible for the peace of the world? Everyone, these horrid politicians, looks at me like I'm a foolish child; they wait for me to fail, watching like vultures. There is no feeling more hideous in this world than that you have failed the innocents. You understand that.

//I was told I was beautiful
but what does that mean to you//

I've always been told I was beautiful, by my father and my friends. But you didn't care. Was it that it honestly didn't matter? That I didn't matter? Or was it simply that that beauty was only skin deep, and no one thought my soul was beautiful? That is why I followed you, you were strong enough not to look for the outer beauty of life; you fought for the inner beauty. I'm not some lovesick fool; I was looking for an answer in you, maybe I had it all along.

//look into the mirror who's inside there
the one with the long hair
same old me again today yeah//

Staring into that frozen lake of silver, my mirror, a child is all I see; blonde hair and blue eyes, but that is only a reflection. I see Relena Peacecraft, a young woman with no story yet. It'll all be written down and distorted when I'm dead anyway.

//my outsides look cool
my insides are blue
every time I think I'm through
it's because of you
I've tried different ways
but it's all the same
at the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'//

I'm sorry; I expected you to be strong for me. I guess I thought then I wouldn't have to. I realize to obtain that strength, which I so need, I must stand on my own. Knowledge of myself is the only way I can continue. It wasn't your eyes I was looking into, when I saw the strength, it was a mirror of my soul. You understood me then. I found myself in a reflection of you. "I feel your love's reflection."

//you can buy your hair if it won't grow
you can fix your nose if he says so
you can buy all the make up
that man can make
but if you can't look inside you
find out who am I too
be in the position to make me feel
so damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too//

I can't change who I am, and I can't change how you feel. "Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want, doesn't mean they don't love you with everything they are." You don't love me the way I wanted, but the love you gave me as a friend was the greatest gift I could ever have received. Tough love; well, sometimes love hurts.

//never insecure until I met you
now I'm bein' stupid//

You made me doubt myself; knocked me off that ivory pedestal and made me really think.

//I used to be so cute to me
just a little bit skinny
why do I look to all these things
to keep you happy
maybe get rid of you
and then I'll get back to me hey//

Heero, I see all too clearly now that I don't love you. Reality is oft a bitter pill to swallow; you were never meant for me. Neither of us would've been happy together; I want you to be happy, but I need to be happy too. Go, live your life. I promise, I'll never hold you back again. Someday, I'll find someone to love me, after I learn to love myself.

I want to say Thank You for making me feel unpretty, so that one day I might feel Beautiful.

::Notes::
I don't own TLC, Unpretty is their song. I don't own GW, Relena belongs to whoever owns it in most cases they can keep her, I just needed a girl POV. ::sob:: who am I kidding? I'm going soft! I'm being nice to the pink blob! Oh well, How 'bout a Duo POV angst fic to make up for it? This storyline is mine, please don't copy my idea, if you want to write a sidefic or something or want to archive this somewhere, YAY! Cool! Just let me know about it, okay! ^_^ Thanks for reading! Comments & Criticism, please?