Hello, minna! After a long absence from this section of Fanfiction.net, I'm back again! Anyway. I have a very... strange Kurei fic, possibly disturbing, but I don't think so.

Disclaimer: *boredly* I don't own 'em, don't sue me, I'm broke, blah blah blah

Here we go...

I am the Darkness
by Lockheart

I am the darkness.

Encompassing, undeniably present.

Imponderable; only I can judge myself.

Mixed reactions. Hatred and love, defiance and absolute loyalty. Blended into a tumultous emulsion of what is known as life.

I have seen the light; I have seen the stars; I have seen the sun.

I am the darkness.

I am what light shields; what stars see; what the sun rules. I am the one remaining when the light disappears; I am the one that vanquishes the stars in all their brilliance; I am the one that surrounds the sun, envious yet afraid.

A void. An empty shell, finding, searching, killing. Clarity beyond confusion, empty understanding.

I am the darkness.

I have seen the light.

But what right does the darkness have to the light?

In the face of light all the darkness can do is ignominiously accommodate.

Longing, fear. Diabolical hope, leading, misleading, opium of the soul. Addictive, terrifyingly fatal.

I adopt a presence of honor, and yet I represent all that is despicable, hiding like a coward behind a façade, shining like the light, but where the light gives out life I give out death.

I am the darkness, standing proud and unafraid. And while the darkness savors the proximity of the light, it can never attain the light.

So close, yet so far.

Silken strands of hair, smiling eyes, sweet voice soothing as the wind. Wind whispering. Whispering in ears drunken with possibilities. Aim high, fall hard.

I am the darkness; I am the Grim Reaper; scythe raised, cloaked by skill, blade dripping blood as my hands do.

I am the darkness.

I am the crimson blood.

Bathed in crimson tears, swathed in crimson lies, stained in a crimson existence.

The sun shines, blinding in youth and vigor and innocence. Pure and untainted; cruel sin to contaminate.

Merciless. Poison, kill. Blood on hands transferred onto infinitely innocuous hearts. Result of death. Confusion. Blame. Regrets coming far too late; damage done; love lost; heart dead.

I stand for all that the light loathes; I am what the light loved; I am why the light disappeared.

A lone rose, wilting. A body falling, hitting ground, breath cut off, skin cold, eyes wide open in shock, silent acceptance, wistful smile in radiated poignance. Hopes gone. Reaching for utopia; abrupt entry into a world worse than hell, worse than dystopia.]

I know pain. I am pain.

And I know what is beyond that pain.

I am the darkness; the light is all that I may never understand. Cursed with guilt. Love does not need complete understanding. Love is heart-wrenching; sweet while it lasts; shattering when it is gone.

And yet, when the sun is gone…

Memories stay.

I wanted to be with you… forever…

Oh yes, memories stay. They stay, solidifying into bittersweet reminders.

So close, so far.

In life, and in death.

Aishiteru… Kurei…

Hai, Kurenai.

In life, and in death…

I am the darkness.

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