Honey is a Japanese song by Larc~en~ciel, and it is my best friend's favorite song! Every time we went to karaoke she would sing this at least two times -- one for singing the other for drooling about Hyde, the vocal!!! Anyway, characters in this fic are from Flame of Recca, who is written/drawn by Anzai Nobuyuki sensei.

Love Love Aishiteru,

Pink Yuki

Honey
by Pink Yuki

The same dream again. Men, shining earring, blood, neesan falling.

I watched it all the time
Far away, ever since I was young
Even now the faded scenery
Adorns my plain white wall

I was useless. I could not even protect the one I loved. In the same house I am living in right now, my sister fell in front of my very own eyes. Blood everywhere -- my hands, my breakfast, the wall -- I knew I would not be the same since the neesan handed me Ensui. I was useless, but I would not be anymore. I will be strong. Until I am strong enough to avenge you, neesan.

Entangled with the dry wind
It takes you away with it
Honey so sweet, grasping
At my boundless dream with both hands

The scenery in my dream changed. Ice skating rings, swimming pool, and amusement parks. Every place where we have shared such fond memories at were appearing in front of me. We were laughing so happily, but it would never happen again. I have lost you, forever. I will not smile or laugh anymore. Not until the day when you are properly avenged.

Rolling along on the road
I was just a little bit out of control
I can't take away the deep pain
But don't look so sad...

I can only see you in my dreams; I dread to wake up and loose sight of you. I know you would say I am crazy to practice so hard just to take revenge on the person who took you away from me. I cannot forgive though, no matter how hard I try. It is the meaning of my life to find this person and sliced him in half with Ensui. Are you watching me in heaven? I know I would not be in heaven if I kill, but it would be worth it, neesan. So don't be sad as we will never see each other again.

Entangled with the dry wind
It takes you away with it
Honey so sweet, I want you to believe
Even if this world is a lie 

This world is insane. Ura Buto Satsujin is just a formal way to let human instinct out -- the strong will kill the weak and survive. I survived. And I know who I should go for now. This world must be insane. The one who brought me up is the one responsible for your death, neesan. The man, whom I treated as my father, is the one where my vengeance lies. Amazed by my talent was not a compliment that can overcome my grief. To honor him for bring me up, I would kill him with a blade of my tears and blood. I will kill him. For you.

Anytime, all the time
I want to be melting in your sweet, sweet smile

Before I set off to see the man, let me look at your face once more. Before I kill him, let me see your smile once more. Then before I end my life, let me remember all the time we have spent together, the happy times that make my heart ache.

Destiny grabs me
"Here" is becoming blurred, but
Don't despair you can hear it
That place is calling

Adrenaline flows and ensui is fulfilling the the purpose of my life. No, he doesn't fight back; maybe due to guilt? He just stands there as I charge at him. Blood. I am cover in blood. How many times was I covered in blood before? I lose count. I laughed as I know the meaning of my life is now gone with the death of the man in front of me. No, I will not cry for him, even though he is the closet person in my life for the past 5 years. No, I will not cry for the one who killed you. Blood is dripping from my clothes, I will be in hell soon. I hope to see you if I happen to have a glance at heaven, neesan. 

Entangled in the dry wind
It takes you away with it
Honey so sweet, grasping
At my boundless dreams with both hands

 Ensui. The reason why you were taken away from me, the reason why I can become strong. Ensui and me, we were inseparable since the day you passed away. How ironic it is the one to take me away also? Sayonara, Yanagi, the girl I loved second best to you, neesan. Sayonara, Fuuko, the one who accepted me as a friend soon after knowing each other. Sayonara, Recca and Domon, even though we don't get along, we fought together. The dream of having friends is now broken, and I can go back to the dream of you holding me in you arms. I slide ensui into my left chest.

I want to fly, waiting for sunrise

Blood covering me. My own blood. Neesan, are you there? I am waiting, waiting for the time to come so that I could see you once again.

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