Warnings: Angst, yaoi, some language
Disclaimer: not mine. theirs. if you sue, all you'll get are my penguins that do cartwheels behind my back. *clutches hands to chest* and you can't have em! they're mine!
'Lust. That's all this relationship is. If you can even call it that. All this is, it's being fuck buddies, as Duo likes to put it anyway. He'll never understand how I feel about him. Or if he did understand, he would walk right out that door, and never come back. From what I've gathered, he just isn't into that sort of relationship. He'll never understand. I was crazy to get into this relationship. Of course, I'm crazy for him. But he'll never know. I'll never let him know...'
Wufei stared at his sleeping lover degectedly, his heart thumping painfully in his chest. He closed his eyes, remembering all the sutble hints he had left for Duo, saying he was ready for a deeper relationship, that he *wanted* a deeper relationship. Duo hadn't replied to not one of them. It was getting to be very depressing for Wufei.
Finally, the Chinese boy felt his eyes begin to shut, and he laid down his head on Duo's shoulder. In the comfort of the darkness, he let his eyes drift shut as two identical tears fell from each eye, as he fell into a light sleep. After all, he would need his rest for what he planned to do tomorow.
He was leaving.
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Duo waited until he felt Wufei's rythmic breathing on his shoulder, signaling that his Chinese lover was finally asleep. He had been faking sleep for the last hour, trying to make his koi get rest. Wufei hadn't been sleeping very well for the last couple of weeks. In fact, along with the lack of sleep, Wufei had been acting very strangely. There was always this look of sadness and longing in his eyes that made Duo's heart ache. All he wanted to do was to hold Wufei in his arms and never let go, but of course, he could never tell Wufei that. He would run out the door and never come back.
Shutting his eyes, he thought of how he wanted to tell the Chinese boy how he really felt about him, but then berated himself as he fell asleep, telling his mind that Wufei would never understand. That telling him was absolutely crazy...
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Around 3 am, Wufei stood at the door to Duo and his room. Their former room. Blowing a kiss to the air, and dropping the note on the desk by the door, Wufei turned and left.
The next time Duo would see him, it would be in over 6 months.
Of course, if Wufei had his way, Duo would never see him again.
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