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Usagi, Makenai!
Part 2
By Usa and Emiri
Disclaimers in Part 1
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Two days later and nothing has changed. Not that I expected it to so fast. I am so depressed! Nothing is going my way. I haven't been doing any homework, I haven't been going to any Senshi meetings, I haven't been shopping or to the arcade. I go there and I feel like people are talking about me. Saying how untalented I am... How much of a ditz or a crybaby I am. It hurts so much. 

I haven't spoken much to my parents. To tell you the truth, I haven't spoken to anyone really. And no one seems to want to check on me... Is it worth it? Is it worth not feeling wanted, needed? Can I ever feel special? Everyone else does... 

What's the point? Maybe I should... I should just end it here and now. I can't stand sitting around and just waiting for my life to get any better. As far as I know... it might not. 

I look over on my desk and see my star locket. I received it from Endymion so long ago and then again from Tuxedo Kamen, Mamo-chan. I loved the song it played... now I hate it. I hate what Mamo-chan is doing to me. He was the one force I couldn't be away from. The one person who understood the inner workings of my mind. He didn't care that I was a ditz or a crybaby. I was just... Usako. 

Now it doesn't seem to matter to him whether I'm dead or alive. Well, maybe it does, in some way. He still protects Sailor Moon. 

I shove the locket into my dresser drawer and eye a pair of scissors I see in there. I think about it for a minute, but something tells me... not yet. 

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I was walking home from school when I heard my name being called. It was Ami-chan. "Konichiwa," I said. I'm sure my sadden features could be seen. I don't even look like myself anymore with the odangos falling out a bit. 

"Usagi-chan, what's wrong? You haven't been yourself lately?" 

"I'm fine, really," I told her, waving her question off. "I've been busy." 

"With what?" 

I should have known she'd ask me that! "Uh, family stuff..." I lied. 

"Is everything alright at home? You've been so pensive and withdrawn latey..." 

"Everything's fine. We've just been busy, that's all." I had to get out of this line of questioning... "Ne, I have to get to the store for Mama... Ja ne!" 

"Usagi, matte!" 

I looked at Ami and realized what she saw. I had waved to her... The cut on my wrist. I cut myself a bit on purpose last night. It made my emotional pain go away for a while... "Nani?" 

"What did you do to your wrist?" Ami's eyes narrowed. "You cut yourself on purpose, didn't you!" 

"Nani yo?" I exclaimed. "Why would I do that?? You know how much of klutz I am, Ami-chan." 

"Usagi-chan, I know something's wrong. You've gotta tell me, I'm your friend and I want to help you." 

I smiled at her, probably unconvincingly. "If I wasn't all right, I'd tell you. I gotta go now. 

"Usagi-chan, onegai...we want to help you if something's wrong." 

"Nothing is wrong!" I ran off before she could say anything more.