I'll Tell You a Secret

Alright. I actually like this fic. Tell me what you think, okay.

Title: I'll Tell You a Secret
Author: Aoko
Email: aoko@lycos.com
Part: 1/1
Pairings: 5xSally, 2x1, 4x3
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: shounen-ai, and if you look really hard, a hint of yuri,
um... implied rape... i guess that's it
Feedback: Hit me with it.
Notes: I liked writing this pairing, and I think it's the best so
far. This takes place after EW. I'm not sure how the conversation
went with Sally and Wufei at the end. I didn't get my tape and make
sure because I'm lazy. I think that's how it went. If not something
close to it. *pulls out creative license* Please forgive all mistakes-
--spelling, grammar, and/or otherwise. Oh, one more thing. The POV
switches, but I'm sure you won't get confused.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything.

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Duo poured everyone another shot of Royal Crown. Though they were not
drunk, everyone was slightly buzzed. "Man," Duo said, kicking his
feet up on the coffee table, "I can't believe it. You and Sally are
going to have your first kid."

Wufei nodded, lost in the memories of yesteryear. "Yeah."

Heero pulled Duo closer to him on the white couch. "That's really
something, though I can't really imagine you as father."

"Neither can I," Wufei laughed, shaking his head, "Nor can Sally."

Seated next to Duo was Quatre and Trowa, all snuggled up next to each
other. Trowa was gently stroking Quatre's golden hair, pleasure
apparent in his eyes. "I wonder whose the baby is going to after the
most."

"A justice ranting kid with Sally's desire for adventure and danger,"
Quatre said, giggling at the thought, "I think Wufei is going to be
the first of us to get gray hairs."

Zechs, sitting in the reclining chair next to Wufei, sighed. "I sort
of always figured you two would eventually settle down and have kids."

Wufei smiled. "It was sort of obvious, wasn't it?"

"Heck no!" Howard shouted from the kitchen, "From the way you talked
about women, I thought perhaps you preferred guys over girls! There
was bet going round the Peacemillion that you'd hook up with either
Heero and Duo after the war."

Wufei turned red in the face. "If you weren't such a big help during
the war, you'd be dead, Howard!"

Duo sighed contentedly as Heero placed a small kiss on his head. "How
did you Sally actually hook up?"

"That's none of our business," Heero admonished.

"True," Quatre said, "But I'm curious myself."

"We were all happy to hear of you two finally start a relationship,
that nobody even bothered to find out how it all happened," Zechs
added.

Wufei looked at everyone and sighed. "I suppose I can tell you guys."

"I can hear fine in here!" Howard shouted, "Don't either of you ever
go grocery shopping?"

Wufei smirked. "I knew there was something I forgot to do."

"On with the story," Trowa urged.

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"Oh wow," Relena said. She sat next to Sally on the pink couch, mirth
shining in her violet eyes. "You're really having a baby. I'm so
happy for you and Wufei."

"Thanks," Sally replied.

"Can you imagine Mr. I-Can-Do-It-By-Myself as a father?" Noin asked.
She shifted slightly in the loveseat in Relena's living room.

Lady Une moved a little so Noin could get more comfortable. "I can
barely imagine him as husband material," Une said.

"Sally must be more persistent than Relena if she caught Wufei,"
Dorothy laughed. She was sitting on the floor, her head resting on
Relena's knee.

"Come on," Hilde said as she entered the room with a tray of
cookies, "Tell us the secret. How'd you snatch such a stubborn, pig-
headed guy?"

"Yeah," Catherine added, carrying a tray of soup, "I wanna know how
it all happened."

Sally smiled wistfully as she thought back to the moments of
yesteryear. She rubbed her stomach, her maternal instinct growing
stronger each day as thought about the innocent, beautiful baby
growing inside her. "Okay," she agreed.

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There. It was done. I'd destroyed my Gundam. It didn't hurt as much
as I expected. In fact, I felt a sense of relief flood my soul as I
watch the nearly indestructible metal turn white hot. The explosion
was loud and rang in my ears. A slight smirk was on my face. For so
long, I'd lived as warrior. And then the war was over and there was
no need for me. I was just forgotten about, tossed to the side like a
useless toy. I did not see the justice in that. No, I did see the
justice. I just didn't want to acknowledge it. And then, Treize's
daughter came along. How could I deny that girl when it was I who
killed her father.

I never knew Treize Khushrenada had a daughter. If Treize had lived,
what would have become of Mariemaia? Would she still crave power and
war? Or would she be a normal seven year old playing with dolls and
watching Saturday cartoons? I don't know. I'd robbed her of
something... so when she came to me, I could not deny her. I owed
her, and I intended to pay my debt. The whole "we need war to
survive" bit was just a front to hide my true feelings. I suddenly
felt ashamed.

"Hey, Wufei, why don't you come and work with me?" a voice called out.

I had not even heard the woman approach. Being lost in my own
thoughts, and plus the explosion from Nataku would explain why I
hadn't heard the woman approach me. "You mean join the Preventers?" I
asked. I didn't bother turning around to look at her.

"Sure. Why not?"

"Hmm," I replied thoughtfully. It's not like I had anything else
planned to do with my life. "Why not?" Taking one, long, good look at
the former instrument of my justice, I bide Nataku farewell, and
left for a new life.

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"Everything seems normal in this sector, Sally," Wufei stated, his
fingers moving quickly and accurately across the computer console.

I glanced over my shoulder at him. I don't think Wufei ever realized
how drop-dead gorgeous he really is. "Good. I just got a mail from
Une. She's got an assignment for us. Apparently, there's a rumor of
some visionary restarting one of the abandon mobile suits bases on
the moon. We'll be heading there in two days to check it out. I wish
it was sooner, but you know, red tape and all."

Wufei nodded. He seemed so happy. I think asking him to join the
Preventers was the best thing I could have done for him. He seems so
happy... so in place here. I know that he use to be a scholar, but I
suppose war changes everyone. But for the better or for the worse, I
couldn't tell you.

I smirked as an evil thought passed my mind. It was so easy to
embarrassed Wufei, but I decided to take pity on the boy.

"I'm hungry, Sally. Let's grab something to eat after we finish up
here."

"Sounds like a good idea to me."

I heard Wufei sigh softly, and wondered what was going inside that
brain of his. "Penny for your thoughts."

"It's nothing a *woman* could help me with."

"What is that I wouldn't understand?" I asked, carefully concealing
distaste for the way he said 'woman.' Really, did he have to say it
as if it was poison to his tongue?

"Women. Every last one of them nosy."

I glared at Wufei. "Are you saying I'm being nosy?"

"You said it. Not me," Wufei snorted.

"I'll have you know, Chang Wufei, that I was not being nosy. I was
merely expressing my concern for a friend."

"Convenient excuse," I heard him mumble.

My face was red with anger. "Listen, Wufei," I snapped, my tone
deadly and serious, "I was merely acting out of kindness. After all
we've been through---I've been through---one would think you'd a bit
more respect for me."

Wufei laughed, which only made me angrier. "Of course I have respect
for you," he said, "But that doesn't change the fact that you're a
woman. And it just so happens that some things will always apply to
all women."

Oh, I could have strangled him.

"For instance," Wufei continued, oblivious to my anger, "Women are
known for trying and wearing the weirdest hairstyles. You are the
perfect example. Twisted pigtails. If you wanted pigtails, why not
plait them? Or perhaps, just let your hair hang down, like Une does
now. You get even get a hairstyle like Noin. I know, it resembles
Trowa hairstyle, but Trowa's hair covers his face, while Noin has
hers swiped to the side."

Un-fucking-believable. This guy has got some real nerves.

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"For instance," I continued, oblivious to my anger, "Women are known
for trying and wearing the weirdest hairstyles. You are the perfect
example. Twisted pigtails. If you wanted pigtails, why not plait
them? Or perhaps, just let your hair hang down, like Une does now.
You get even get a hairstyle like Noin. I know, it resembles Trowa
hairstyle, but Trowa's hair covers his face, while Noin has hers
swiped to the side."

"Wufei!" Sally snapped, her sapphire eyes glaring murderously at
Wufei, "I love my hair! I think it's beautiful, and that's all that
counts! And if you have such a big problem with my hair, then get a
new partner you insensitive jerk!"

I smiled slyly. I admire her wrath. Sally is a fighter... strong and
beautiful. She'd walk straight into the arms of Death (and I don't
mean Duo Maxwell) with a smile. Huh? A noise... is she crying?

"Sally?" I called out, stopping my work to look at her.

"That was mean, Wufei! Absolutely mean!" She sniffed, wiping her eyes
with the sleeve of her olive-colored, Preventers' jacket. "It reminds
me of China. I never really had any true friends. They all teased me
because I have blonde hair and blue eyes. The older women would frown
distastefully at me, as if I was some sort of annoying mistake
instead of a Chinese girl. I was always treated differently... a
little bit crueler because I looked different! So, just shut-up!"

I gasped slightly. Sally Po was wiping the tears away. The very same
woman I'd seen walk towards a mobile suit prepared to face death was
crying over being teased about her hair. Amazing things that women
are. Really.

"I didn't know you felt so strongly about your hair," I say. I really
didn't know what else to say. An apology would not have made a bit of
difference.

Sally remained quiet for a few minutes, but she finally spoke. "Don't
tell anybody."

"You have my word."

Again, the silence passed between us. I could not believe what I
heard. Sally Po was the best fighter I'd known. She could do anything
she wanted. It was pretty shocking to see her in a moment of
weakness.

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We landed at Colony L2. After going over all the paperwork and such
stuff, Wufei and I headed off to a small diner. Wufei called Duo up
and asked for a good place to eat out here.

It's quite amusing actually. Even though Wufei and Duo argue most of
the time, they're really close friends. All the Gundam pilots are
close actually. But some bonds seem stronger than others. My bond
with Wufei isn't that strong. I'm glad though. There's no way I'd
want to fall in love with that stubborn, pig-headed, self-righteous,
overbearing, sexist jerk! Okay, too late for that. I'm already in
love with him.

But, I suppose I should keep my secret a secret. I know that every
time Wufei touches me, I'll be taken back to a time when I was 12
years old. I will still feel my father's best friend touch me with
his moist hands. I will still those dark, cold eyes. I will still
feel that same disgust. And when I push Wufei away, I will see the
exact same thing I saw in my father's eyes. Disgust. I will hear my
father's hateful words. I will the sting of his hand against my
cheek. My mother will not look at me. My sisters will claim not to
know me. Of course, the memory of my brother holding and whispering
comforting words in my ear will bring some solace, it will not
overshadow the dark memories of my past.

I'd rather not think of the past.

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Sally looked troubled. I told her stay at the hotel room, and I would
go and get the food. When I came back, her hair was taken down out of
those ridiculous, yet somehow cute, twists. Her blonde was as long as
Lady Une's hair. For a brief moment, I wanted to run my fingers
through the silky strands of her hair. She had taken her shoes off
and was wearing purple colored socks, which somehow seemed to amuse
me. Sally seemed a bit shorter with her shoes off, or perhaps I had
grown some. Still, she was good two inches taller than me. It didn't
matter though.

Sally was looking out the window, staring down into the streets. I
sat the food down on the bed and crept towards her. Obviously, she
was lost in thought. She didn't even her me approach her. I gently
placed my hand on her shoulder and she jumped. Her blue eyes were
wide with fear.

"Wufei!" she gasped, calming her self down, "Don't scare me like
that."

She shrugged my hand off her shoulder. I was staring at her hair. It
was so beautiful. I guess she noticed because suddenly she
blushed. "You see why I keep them in the twists, huh?"

I shook my head. "No. I don't see why. Your hair is beautiful."

She turned even redder. She pushed passed me and walked towards the
bed. "Hamburgers and fries are getting cold. I hate cold fries."

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I walked towards the bed, and opened the bag. I could still feel
Wufei staring at me. Why was he staring me? Oh no! He must see my
ugliness. My mother always told me I was ugly. Somehow, the ugliness
worked its from inside to out. Beautiful, yet ugly. What a curse to
have.

I realized I opened the bag, but hadn't reached in to grab the food.
Alright. I could take it no longer. I turned around and
smiled. "Wufei, what's the matter? Never seen a girl with her hair
down?"

"Can I tell you a secret?" he asked.

I gasped slightly. Wufei wanted to me a secret? Wufei, the lone wolf?
Wufei, the independent guy? Wufei, the guy who felt that his troubles
were his alone? Mr. I-Don't-Need-A-Woman's-Help wanted to tell me a
secret? Surely, this is a sign of the apocalypse.

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"Can I tell you a secret?" I asked. Heero Yuy always said to follow
your emotions. I admired the guy. He was strong, independent,
determined. And no matter, he would always survive. Once he had his
objectives, not even the hounds of hell could stop him. Heero was
everything I longed to be. In fact, you might say I even had a small
crush on the boy.

My own thoughts are broken as I hear Sally's lovely, sassy
voice. "Sure."

Sally was pretty shocked when I asked if I could tell her secret. She
had good reason to be. After all, everything that goes inside my head
is for me to deal with and nobody else. It wouldn't be right to push
my problems onto others. Yet, my problem was her. The fact this
strong woman was indeed vulnerable moved something inside of me. I
felt a need to protect her... to comfort her from whatever demon
still haunted her.

I didn't say anything. I only moved closer to her until my face was
mere inches from her lips. "You're strong, beautiful, full of
passion. And somehow, I've fallen for you," I whispered.

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He didn't say anything. He only moved closer to me until his face was
mere inches from my lips. "You're strong, beautiful, full of passion.
And somehow, I've fallen for you," Wufei whispered.

All I could say was his name. I could his feel warm breath... see the
dark fire burning in his sloe eyes. I brought his hand to face and
stroked my cheek gently. He held my hair in his hands, looking at it
almost as if he was hypnotized by the feel of it in his hands. I
could feel his other wrap around my waist and pull me closer to him.

And then it happened. All time stopped. Logic and reason left me as
Wufei pressed his thin, soft lips against mine. His tongue swiping my
lips, begging for entry. My eyes closed and I obediently opened my
mouth, allowing his tongue entry. I moaned into his mouth, kissing
him back a with a passion I didn't even know existed within me. It
seemed as if I'd stared Death in the face---robbed him of the
pleasure of taking my soul---for all these years only to live for
this moment. And if I'd died the next instant, I would have died
happy. That's the only way to describe having the guy I'd fallen for
kissing me passionately with his strong arms wrapped on me.

I never wanted that moment to end, but I had to break the kiss when I
realized I wasn't breathing.

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Sally broke the kiss for good reason. It would be a shame to pass out
from lack of oxygen just when things were starting to get good. I
took a deep breath and opened my eyes.

Sally was staring at me with a look of disbelief and shame. I did not
understand the shame in her eyes. She raised her hand to her lips,
tears starting form in those beautiful, crystal blue eyes of hers.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Oh, Wufei," she said, falling to her knees. "I'm not as strong as
you think."

I smiled, kneeling in front of her. I raised her head so she could
see into my eyes the feelings I had for her. "I've taken a chance and
risked our friendship for these feelings I have for you. I've told
you my secret... one that I would have rather kept locked up inside
my heart. Now tell me yours."

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Wufei raised my head so I could see into his eyes the feelings he had
for me. "I've taken a chance and risked our friendship for these
feelings I have for you. I've told you my secret... one that I would
have rather kept locked up inside my heart. Now tell me yours."

I shook my head. I silently cursed myself for the tear that fell free
of its confines.

"Tell me, Sally," Wufei insisted.

"I love you, Wufei," I said, "But I'm scared... of disappointing you.
Like I disappointed my family."

There. I said it. The only thing left was for to wrap myself around
Wufei, and cry my heart out. And tell him my endless secrets.

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Despite my feelings for Sally, I couldn't help but feel a sense of
guilt. My dead wife, Meiran, came to mine. At that moment I felt like
pushing Sally away from me. I felt as though as betraying Meiran
somehow. Though what we had was not love, I can still feel her
presence near. I closed my eyes, silently sending a prayer up to her
for guidance. Normally, one would send prayers to God. However, my
faith in such a being was destroyed when everyone I cared about died.
What kind of God would rob a boy of happiness? So instead, I pray to
Meiran. She was most certainly pure enough to be divine entity from
above, and most definitely worthy enough of an altar for all to
worship.

"I love you, Wufei," I heard Sally say, "But I'm scared... of
disappointing you. Like I disappointed my family."

I said nothing; I only pulled her closer and ask Meiran for
forgiveness. I could swear to this day that I heard her sweet,
confident voice. "Chang Wufei," I heard Meiran whisper, "I was once
like a firefly to you, lighting the path of justice for you to
follow. Now, it's her turn to be your firefly. She will light your
dark path."

It felt right so right holding Sally in arms. All these years I've
cheated death---robbed him of the opportunity to carry my soul down
to Hell---only to live for this moment. Smiling, I held Sally all
night as she cried years of hurt and pain away. I held her, listening
attentively to all her secrets. Now was the time for comforting
Sally, for reassuring that in the end, it'll be alright. My time
would come soon, and this angel would cleanse my soul of every foul
secret locked inside me.

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"And things just went from there," Wufei finished.

A thoughtful silence passed throughout the room. Howard, who at some
re-entered with a ham sandwich, was shaking his head. "You're lucky,
man," he said, "Stuff like that doesn't happen to everybody."

"You mean it doesn't happen to old geezers like yourself," Duo teased.

"I don't know," Quatre said, "Maybe it was one of those things that
was meant to be no matter what."

"I like to think of it as my reward," Wufei responded.

"Huh?" Zechs and Heero asked.

"I've been denied happiness for so long, that I think finally, this
is my reward in life for hanging on."

"Yeah," Trowa said, "It's a reward you've definitely earned."

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"And things just went from there," Sally said.

"Wow," Relena said, looking starry-eyed.

"So, love at first sight," Hilde added, looking just as starry-eyed
as Relena.

Noin grinned happily at Sally. "You're lucky, Sally. Stuff like that
doesn't happen everyday."

"I don't know," Dorothy mused, "It could be one of those things that
are meant to be no matter what."

Sally tilted her head thoughtfully. "Actually, I think it's a reward
of some kind."

"Huh?" Relena and Hilde asked.

"Well," Sally started, shifting on the couch, "I've fought so hard,
been through so much... that I think this is my reward for hanging on
when I felt like letting go."

"Yeah," Catherine said. She paused a minute, wondering what her
brother, Trowa, would say. Not really realizing it, she added, "It's
a reward you've definitely earned."

~Owari~

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Okay, I tried to think of something mean for Wufei to say to Sally,
but I'm not mean person so I couldn't think of anything. Anyway, C&C
keeps me happy.

Aoko