Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon. It belongs to Naoko Takeuchi, Mixx, DiC, and some other companies. However, the story does belong to me so Don't take it without my permission. This part is in a person's point of view. I plan to jump back and forth between the characters' POV. I will probably have narration in one chapter/part and then POV in another so bare with me, here. I swear it is necessary. Don't Go...I Need You Part Three: Scattered Thoughts By: Silver Star Six years has passed already. She left six years ago because of our rejection, because of what I said to her in a fit of rage and jealousy. I never should have done that. She used to be like a little sister to me. But I broken that trust, that love, we had between us in just five minutes. Yes, I admit now that I was jealousy of her. She has everything. She has a good family that loves her. She have the beauty that not even clumsiness can hide. She's the leader of the Sailor Scouts. She's the princess of The Moon Kingdom. She's destined to be happy forever with the man she loves. And that man loves her back. And she also has our friendship. No matter how I prove myself, I will always be that hot-tempered temple priestess. I know I'm beautiful but because of my hot temper and that I was a priestess, all the boys are afraid of me. Ever since the time when we became friends, I no longer trust any boy. Why? Because every boy that dated me only wanted to meet HER. It's always HER that every boy wanted to go out with. They all used me to get near HER. Nobody ever really liked me. But I concealed that jealousy inside me. And that day, it exploded. I couldn't conceal it anymore. It's just too much. Every time I say something about her, Lita would be there to defend her. Nobody really stood on my side because I'm just one of HER subject. Although I am also a princess, I can never compare with her. I am only her subject. I just couldn't conceal it anymore. I am a human being, too! It hurts to know that she doesn't have to do anything and she still gets the best. I worked day and night but I still don't get anything. Everybody says that she's strong. Does that mean I'm weak? Is that why my father left me with Grandpa? Because I'm weak? Because I can't do anything right? To everyone, I'm just a hot-tempered brat who doesn't even have a heart. But I'm not. I suffer much more than SHE does. I don't even have a family!!! I'm lucky that I even have a Grandpa. And SHE has a family. She doesn't treasure them. She has everything and I have nothing! NOTHING!! <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> Raye throws down the pen in her hand and buried her face in her pillow. Tears stream out her eyes and were soaked by her pillow. "Raye, are you alright?" A soft voice asked. Raye held her breath so that Chad won't know she's crying and nodded. There was a ruffling sound and then silence. Without turning, Raye knew that Chad's gone. It's been like this for the past 6 years. She would cry and Chad will ask her is she's alright. Then, he will be gone. Chad is a very nice young man but he's not for her. 3 years ago, he stopped pursuing and started to date a pretty young girl named Cordelia. She's nice and pretty and Raye liked her a lot. She expected to be jealous of Cordelia but she isn't. Instead, she felt happy. She's happy for Chad because he finally realizes that he can't find true love from her and gave her up. She's happy for Cordelia because she found her soul mate. Perhaps one day, she thought, they'll be happy for me... <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> Six years went by already. It's funny how time goes by so fast and you didn't realize it, I thought as I shook my head and chuckled at the irony of everything. I silently stirred my coffee as I reflected on the past years. It's been six years since the day that I took Rena in, I thought. I don't know why I did it. It's just this sudden urge that it's what I should do. I would never have dreamed that Rena could be a super hero, either. If she hadn't transform before me, I would never have guessed. I suddenly laughed again. She's full of surprises. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> It's been so long since I've last saw you. It didn't help that I was one of the reasons that you've fled. I wonder how you are. Are you cold? Are you hungry? Or are you happy in another man's arms? The last thought was the most painful. After all, I'm not your boyfriend anymore. You have every right to date another man, or maybe even get married. There was once where I dreamed of the family that we would make. But now, I've broken it. I've thrown it away like a piece of garbage. But I have no choice. You would be in danger if I don't leave you. I could never live with myself if you ever get hurt. But I swear this to you, Serena, if there could be a second chance for me to undo my errors, I would take it gladly...no matter how much it will cost. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> Six years since the last time I've seen you. I wonder how you are. Are you married? Do you have kids? After all, you are 25 now. You can't stay single forever. I really miss you, you know. I thought I could forget you, and all my past life. But I can't. The memories stayed with me for the past six years. This is nuts. There are million miles of water between us. Why do I still love you? Why? Why can't I just forget you once and for all and go on? But I couldn't hate you. This is crazy, but I actually wanted myself to hate you. That way, it'll be easier for me to blame you for all this and I can go on. But I can't. I can never hate you. I love you. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> It's been six years now, Serena. I've betrayed you. I'm supposed to be you friend. I'm supposed to be trusted by you. But I've betrayed you. I don't deserve your trust. You probably hated me for the betrayal. I wonder where you are. Are you hungry? I wonder if you still love my food. I've opened my own restaurant already! Isn't it great? I wish you had seen the opening day! There were so many people and they loved my food! Just like you did. Someday, I'll cook you the best food you've ever tasted. I promise. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> Six years. It's funny how time flies sometimes. I've never realized that six years has already gone by. I've finally achieved my dream! I'm a doctor now! I'm the youngest doctor in Tokyo Hospital since I'm only 21 but my skills are almost as good as the oldest doctor in here! Isn't it great? I wish you can share the joy with me. Life seemed to so empty now. The Scouts aren't that close anymore. We only meet when there was an attack or a Scout meeting. Other than that, we stayed away from each other. It's almost as if we are all strangers, now that you are gone. It's like other people say 'you never realize that it's so important until it's gone.' We need you, Serena. We really do. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> Six years since the last time that I saw you. I've lost you when I was supposed to protect you. Queen Serenity gave me an important job and I've failed her. I wish I could get a chance to tell you how sorry I am. Did you know that you are actually very brave? All those time I criticized you, I was only trying to make you determined. Instead, I drove you away. I'm a lousy protector. Ever since you left, the Sailor Scouts were separated. Darien seemed to be so lost and more than once, I found him wandering aimlessly through the park as if looking for something...or someone. Amy became a doctor now but she doesn't have any friends anymore. Lita became the best chef in Tokyo and she had opened a string of restaurants here. Mina, well, nobody offered to be her friend, like the way you did, and soon, she became Sailor V again and worked alone but she still comes to the Scout meetings. Raye...she's probably the farthest away from us. She took the new of your disappearance the hardest and she blamed herself for everything. She never talked with the rest of us anymore beside in the Scout meetings. We don't even have the meetings in the temple anymore, we've moved to Lita's place since she's living alone and because her house, she bought a house, is the farthest from everything. More than once, I walked in on Raye crying. I never would've dreamed that the Sailor Scouts would became this. We need you, Serena. We really do. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> Six years. I've been alone for six long years. My only companion is Artemis although the only thing that he talks is Negaverse, Negaverse, and more Negaverse, oh, and how to destroy Negaverse. Then, it's Black Moon, Black Moon, and more Black Moon, and of course, how to destroy the Black Moon Family. God, it's so tiring!! Luna visits me every week but it's not helping. Every time she comes here, she'll be talking to Artemis about the latest attack or how to destroy our enemies and that kind of stuff that I just want to scream or maybe even kicking them out! I can't really believe that before you were gone, nothing was like this. I just couldn't imagine them a lively group now that they are so sad and gloomy. Every time I thought of them, it'll be an image of three sad girl plus one sad black cat. I have no friends. Sure, I could make friends in school but the friendship can never last. Every time there's an attack, I have to make an excuse and leave them. Six years and the excuses are more than tiring. Heck, I don't even have to make any excuse anymore! Even if I do have a steady friendship with someone, I could never really tell her my worries. I couldn't exactly just burst out that I am Sailor Venus. They'll never believe me, and it'll just result in empty friendship. I never knew you, and yet, we are seemed to be very close. Maybe it's the resemblance between us that's making me think we are alike. I don't know and I don't want to know. I just want you back. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> I can't believe myself that I actually miss you. I NEVER thought I could miss The Tokyo Tornado...but I do. I never realize that you are so precious to me until you are gone to who-knows-where. I'm 12 now. I can even help mom and dad around the house like washing laundry and dishes and cleaning out my room, although the last was the least thing I would want to do. I wonder how you are. Do you have to clean your room? Do you have a job? Did you finish school? I wouldn't be surprised if you failed but I will be happy if you got a great job. I hope you miss me, big sister. 'Cause I miss you. <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> <<< * >>> >>*<>*<< So...what do you think about this part? Good? Bad? Okay? Suggestions? Questions? Comments? Anything BUT flames!! Please tell me what you think at bailuli@hotmail.com I want to know what you think of it. ^_^ http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Palace/4709/