By Lady_Allure
A Gundam Wing and Sailor Moon Crossover.
I don't own Gundam Wing or Sailor Moon, but the fic is mine! Enjoy!
Note: I've been get so many requests to write a Hiiro and Usagi fic, and how can I refuese , here it is!
Prologue
You don't know a good thing
till you lose it
And you won't realize
till it's gone
"Good Thing" Changing Faces
The memory of seeing Duo kiss Usagi during their wedding was unforgettable. She looked so beautiful that day, a precious moment indeed. Their kiss sealed their marriage and fidelity to one another. That was two years ago, so why did regret and melancholy consume the perfect soldier, wasn't he trained to forget all his humanity from the beginning. True, he was, but then why did his heart ache so much?
Was it because he denied ever-loving Usagi in the first place, casting her away without a second thought? He had no idea, maybe it was both, and all he knew was that he had lost her permanently now.
Sighing, Hiiro Yuy folded his arms, and stared blankly out at a nighttime city, relieving his past. A small breeze blew a few strands of brown hair into his face and cut right through his thin jacket, but he ignored it. All that was on his mind were his remorse memories, and an unbearable pain in his heart.
No matter how hard he tried convincing himself that he didn't care, she was all he could think about, ever since they first met, her smile, her gentles, sweetness, compassion, and beauty. How could he just let all that slip right through his fingers?
Her wedding had been absolutely perfect, dream like. At first, he told himself he wouldn't go, but changed his mind, and watched from a distance. It was an out door event, and was held right on the beach. All her friends and his were present.
Duo had asked him to be his best man, since they were best friends, but he declined. Speaking of Duo, the braided pilot had always loved her, even if it was a one-sided love at the time, since Usagi's heart belonged to a certain Japanese pilot. That was even further back, when she was sixteen, now she was twenty-two, a year younger than him.
One single memory was the source of his misery, and that was the moment he let her go, the biggest mistake he ever made. Closing his eyes, Hiiro allowed himself to retreat within himself and replay that memory.
Usagi stood behind him, with her arms wrapped around his waist, resting her cheek on his shoulder. They stood on top of the skyscraper, watching the sunrise. It was peaceful and relaxing, yet she seemed to notice there was something different about him. His hands weren't placed on hers, and he seemed to be deep in thought, not paying much attention to her.
"Hiiro-kun?" Her voice seemed distant to him, but he heard it anyway. With a serious expression, he turned and faced her, not saying anything, making eye contact. She stared at him innocently, with questioning eyes. "What is it?"
He didn't speak for a moment, only gazed at her intently, as if remembering her every feature. Then he pulled her close, pressing his lips to hers in a breath-taking kiss. The gentle smile she gave him made it harder to say what he had to, once he pulled away, running his fingers along the side of her cheek. "Usagi....." His voice trailed off, his eyes emotionless, hiding his true feelings. At the mention of her real name and not Usa-chan, her smile faded, replaced by a look of confusion. "I'm not the one for you." There, he said it.
"Nani?" She whispered, her voice barely audible as she stared up at him, panic stricken.
"I don't deserve your love. You're wasting it on me."
Usagi backed away, her eyes misty with tears, shaking her head. "You can't mean that Hiiro." She denied, her voice shaky.
Hiiro looked away, crossing his arms over his chest, closing his eyes so he wouldn't have to see her heartbroken expressive face. "You heard me." He confirmed, his tone empty.
Her tears flowed freely then, shinny with the raising sunlight. "Why?" She demanded, her eyes pleading.
"Because I can't love you the way you should be loved."
Usagi's face fell even more, refusing to believe what he was saying. "Are you telling me I mean nothing to you?" She asked in an unsteady voice. Heero didn't answer, turning his back on her instead. "It's Relena isn't it, it's her you love."
"Iie." He answered quietly. "She love's Mamoru."
Usagi frowned at him, clenching her fists in anger at the mention of that name. "Isn't that why he left me in the first place, to be with her? You're just like him. You really know how to break a girl's heart." Again Hiiro said nothing, taking in her words. "Bakayaro!" Usagi said in a more clam yet harsh tone, before turning, and running away, crying softly.
Hiiro turned then, watching her leave, his eyes glistening with tears that would not fall. "Usa-chan....."
That was the day he turned his back on the only girl he would eve love. How foolish of him. She would never come back to him now, not ever. Her heart belonged to Duo. And he had nobody to blame but himself.
Usagi Tsukino, or rather, Usagi Maxwell, was eight months pregnant with Duo's child, a child that should have been his. Hiiro knew she would go to him, which she did, that same day he drove her away, telling himself it was the best thing for her, to be with someone who could really love her.
The only thing was, he loved her, with all his heart. He just wouldn't admit it to her or to himself. And now it was too late. She had moved on, making a life for herself with Duo. She was happy, and who was he to interfere. He had his chance. But missed it, by not going after her that day, telling her how he really felt, that she was the only one for him.
"I can not change what had already been done." He said to himself, opening his eyes, staring up at a night sky.
"You really love her don't you?" Said a voice.
Hiiro turned, narrowing his eyes on the feminine figure hidden in the shadows. "What does it matter, that is none of your business Setsuna."
Sailor Pluto chuckled lightly, not offended at all by his attitude, and took a step closer to him. "Stop denying it Hiiro-kun, you're only making yourself miserable."
"So what, I can't change the past, I can only ask what if."
Setsuna smiled faintly, and stood beside him. "You forget gundam pilot, I am the guardian of time, and I could make an exception in your case, seeing how you are in a state of suffering."
Hiiro didn't say anything, silently reflecting her words. "Setsuna don't, She has a life, and I have no right to change it."
"Duo?"
He nodded. "Duo is my best friend, and I don't want to ruin his life too, by taking her away from him. I had my chance with her, but that was then. Now I must live with it."
Setsuna stared at him, her red eyes flickering, the once soldier held much consideration for his closest friend and his once love. She had to give him credit for caring that much. Enough to want to keep things as they were, but if he continued to live his life feeling the way he was, it would soon be his downfall. "Hiiro."
"Hm?" He murmured, staring at the city lights.
"I could send your future memories to your past self, and it will be up to that Hiiro to decide if he will take a chance for once, and not deny his true feelings this time."
"But won't that change this future?"
She shook her head. "Not at all, it will create a parallel world, this one will stay the same, she will still be with Duo, the other, I can not be sure yet. Like I said, it is up to that Hiiro."
With much thought, Hiiro made his choice. "I accept your offer Setsuna-san."
"A wise decision." The senshi of time smiled.
