I straightened the pleats on the skirt I borrowed from Mimi as I waited at Taichi's doorstep, my fingers nervously playing with the too-short hem. I didn't even know why I chose to wear a skirt, or even borrow a skirt from Mimi - I had seen her wardrobe way too many times to know that she wasn't the most conservative dresser in the world. I knew the skirt was going to tip Tai off that I was planning something, and I wanted the element of surprise on my side, even though Matt probably broke that ice last night.
I didn't want to wear the skirt, but if it was going to help me win this Contest, I'd wear translucent Saran Wrap.
Matt, Izzy and I met that morning to talk about Matt's "progress" with Tai the night before. He wasn't talking. He wants us to think that he's already won, but I think he's just playing mind games with us.
Tai wouldn't want Matt. Tai couldn't want him. He can't.
The smile on my face felt plastic as the door opened, revealing the object of so many years of torture, pain, love, and desire.
He smelled of his father's cologne, and I think he actually combed his hair.
It looked like I wasn't the only one expecting something to happen tonight.
"Hi, Sora," he said grinning, stepping aside to let me inside.
"You combed your hair," I said out of shock as I passed him into the livingroom. Immediately, I mentally kicked myself. Why did I sound like such an idiot? Hadn't I spoken to Tai as a normal person millions of times before?
My mind immediately answered back.
But before, you weren't trying to get into his pants.
I blushed.
"So, do you want something to drink?" Tai said, opening the refrigerator door, his eyes clearly trained on my bare legs and not on the contents of the refrigerator.
I shook my head. "Hey, where is everyone?" I asked, looking around. It sounded a little too quiet for a small apartment occupied by four people. "Where's Kari?"
"Kari's at a friend's house," he said, closing the refrigerator door and walking towards me. He never took his eyes off me, and I never took my eyes off him.
"And your parents?" He smirked, and only later did I find out he had persuaded his entire family to leave the apartment for the night, just so we could be alone until the morning.
"Well, they're...somewhere else." He brushed the back of my hand with his fingertips, and I was nearly bowled over with enjoyment. He knew what he was doing to me, and I loved it.
"What do you want to do, then?" I asked coyly, taking his hand into my own, entwining my fingers with his.
Tai pressed his free hand on my right cheek, and softly brushed his lips against the left. I was in complete heaven; if the Earth had stopped rotating and we had been sucked into yet another parallel dimension, I don't think I would have noticed.
But when he whispered those words in my ear, my perfect little world caved in on itself.
"Sora...I know."
My eyes nearly popped out of my head at the thought of the possibilities of what Taichi was talking about.
"Know...know what, Tai?" I asked innocently. He raised my head slightly, looking me straight in the eye.
"I know...about everything. I know about you, and Matt, and Izzy. Matt told me everything."
My eyes blazed with hatred, and I could feel the anger flowing through my veins. How could he? Matt wasn't supposed to say anything...this was supposed to be kept a secret from Tai until we had to leave for the Digiworld. What the hell did the think he was doing? Don't tell me he thinks that this Contest is already over...
"He did?" I squeaked. More than anger, really, embarrassment and shame passed through my mind. Tai already knew my motive when I rang his doorbell and walked through the door; he was expecting me to come on to him. I was exposed, and I wasn't prepared for it at all. I felt naked near Taichi now, and it had nothing to do with the skirt.
Tai nodded his head slightly.
"I...I don't understand," I said, averting his gaze. I just didn't feel like I could look at Tai then... "Why would Matt tell you everything? We had a deal..."
"A deal?" Tai said quizzically.
"The Contest!" I said. Didn't Tai know that all this was supposed to be a secret kept far away from him? "He wasn't supposed to tell you; you weren't supposed to know, until..."
"Until when?"
"Until we went into the Digiworld..." I said warily. If Tai knew everything about the Contest from Matt, then why didn't he know these details? "Then we were going to ask you to choose..."
"...between you, Izzy, and Matt." Tai sounded shocked at this information. I nodded cautiously, still too angry and humiliated to think rationally and see how surprised Tai was to all this new information about the Contest. If I was in my right mind, I might've noticed that Tai didn't act like he knew what was going on at all...
I should've kept my mouth shut, but I knew I would've done anything to please Taichi.
Well, that was it. I thought I had my foot in the door, so to speak, and I thought I had the edge to win this Contest. But from the shocked look on Tai's face, I knew I was never going to get into this boy's heart.
I looked down at my shoes, shutting my eyes tight so Tai couldn't see me cry. "I guess I'll just...leave now..." I mumbled, making my way towards the door.
A slim forearm shot out in front of me, and my gaze moved up to Taichi's pleading eyes.
"Don't go," he whispered, his lips inching closer to mine.
I looked deep into his caramel eyes, and it was then I knew he would never choose Matt or Izzy over me. He held his arms out to me, and I all but melted into his embrace.
"Besides," he said, his hot breath tickling my neck. "Don't you want to win the Contest?"
I smiled, and even though I knew I was blushing as Taichi led me into his parents' bedroom, I was more confident and sure of myself and what I was doing since I stepped through the Kamiyas' doorstep.
If Matt believed that he was going to win this, he was dead wrong.
This Contest isn't over. It's just beginning.
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Tai left a trail of kisses down the middle of my naked chest as I sighed with contentment. This was much better than I had ever expected.
"Sora," he said, his deep brown eyes staring straight into mine. "I want you to know right now that I love you, and I would never hurt you."
I nodded, biting my lip slightly, feeling his hard erection against my stomach, surprising me and exciting me at the same time.
"I would never hurt you," he said again, "but I want to be with you. And I want you to let me in, so badly..."
"What are you saying?" I asked, already knowing what he was getting to.
Propping himself up on his right elbow, his left hand resting on my breast, kneading gently, Tai trapped my eyes in his. "I want to make love to you, Sora."
I gasped slightly. My eyes widened, and I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to go that far...I was skeptical about this from the beginning, from the moment Matt brought it up at the Burger Barn to the Kamiya's doorstep, and I wasn't sure I was all that confident about it even when I was right there, lying beneath the love of my life on his parents' bed. Even so, I didn't want to disappoint Tai, and after all, I did want to win the Contest.
Before I could say anything, I felt the crown of Tai's dick slip between my thighs, and my mood instantly changed.
I might have said yes to Tai before, and spread my legs and let him do with me what he will - hell, I was almost sure to do that - but if he can't wait for me to say yes, he's never going to see my cunt again.
"Tai," I said loudly, pushing his chest away at arm's length, his hips still uncomfortably pushed against mine. "Stop it."
"But Sora," he said, raising one hand to stroke my hair and lowering the other to stroke my slit, "I thought this was what you wanted..."
"Get off me. Now." I turned my head to the side, my expression surely made of ice but my heart feeling confused and uncertain. I had wanted this...I always wanted Tai to be my first ever since I met him all those years ago...but not this way. Not before the battle that could make or break us. Not because I'm in some stupid bet. Not if I wasn't ready.
I had let my guard down once with Taichi that night. I had never known I had let it down twice.
In the split second it took for me to understand what was going on, Tai grabbed hold of my wrists and pulled my arms up over my head none too gently. My head shot up, my eyes full of hurt and misunderstanding.
I looked into Tai's eyes. They were hard, and cold. Unfeeling. Relentless.
"Sora, don't make this hard on yourself."
He bent down to kiss me on the forehead, despite my desperate attempts to get away from him and free myself. All I wanted was to get out of there - I didn't know what he was going to do, but I had a pretty good idea of what he wanted from me.
I thrashed around on the bed, trying futily to break free, but Tai was much stronger than me and I had no chance of escape.
No chance of escape...
I screamed as he entered me. It hurt so much...
But the pain in my heart felt far worse than the pain between my legs.
I had loved him. I thought I had loved him... I didn't know someone I thought so much of, someone I had put all my hopes and dreams into, could hurt me so much. It was like he didn't even care about me...and I thought he had loved me, too...
Tai's breathing quickened, and I felt him move faster inside me. I shut my eyes as tightly as I could and tried to block out the pain, but to no avail. Tears instinctively ran down my cheeks as he groped at me his one palm still clutching both my small wrists.
I wanted to die. Oh, God, how I wanted to die.
I let out a muted sob as Tai cried out my name in orgasm, his dick jerking inside me, his milky cum filling me up with hopelessness and despair.
He stroked my hair and said he still loved me. I merely cried in response.
And as I stumbled slowly back to my own apartment, sobbing uncontrollably in the shower trying to wash away the hurt that would never go away, I remember the last words Taichi said to me:
"Sora, please don't tell anyone about this. Especially Matt and Izzy. Can you do that for me?"
I gave no answer then, and I would give no answer now.
No one was to know about this. No one was ever going to know this shame of mine, for letting down my defenses and allowing him to do that to me.
I didn't care about the Contest anymore. I just wanted my life back.
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