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loudHowdy All!!!
Crazy Day yesterday! I got in my shipment of Sam's AIO (all in one) cloth diapers...I was SO excited to start using them...So, I decided I was going to start yesterday morning...What a disaster! LOL...he completely soaked through at church and that started Mama down a path of crankiness that the 95* wheather & 5 rides on the tilt a whirl & Jonah in vapor lock wouldn't be able to bring me out of! I felt like running away! But, a good night's sleep, diapers in the washer (I soaked them in HOT water last night, they felt "stiff", so they needed to be "broken in", I'm sure...this is gonna work...
I am new to cloth diapering. Part of me has always wanted to CD, I was just very put off by the extra laundry (WHO on earth would want to add to their laundry?!?!) But, knowing full well that I have at least another 1 1/2 - 2 years of diapering left in my mama career, its not too late. Cloth diapering is much more economical (I am not even going to calculate the amount of money I've (pun intentionally not added) errrr....spent in the last 6 years on disposables). Eco-disposables are expensive, there are cheaper options. The laundry, at this point in my life, doesn't scare me. I'd just like to stop buying diapers! SO...to that end, I just kind of decided one day that enough was enough and did a barter for the dipes...I got a very good deal on a lot of new dipes, in addition to 2 gently used ones... I spent $20 in cash in addition to many items that I was bartering for 12 dipes. These dipes, if bought outright with cash, would have cost me $180 (plus tax & shipping), so always the bargain hunter, I had to work it into the budget, but that $20 was well spent. (Plus, I got to pass along some great items that needed new homes!) So, once these are out of the dryer, we can try this again! I'm sure this washing/soaking process will solve the problem...these were new dipes and they were "stiff", so I'm sure the fabric needed to be relaxed...as my litte "wee" (sorry, I had to" one's wetness just came out the sides, it didn't absorb at all...So, hopefully problem solved.
Most of the time, I generally let things slide. If it's something important, I will take a stand... but usually, as long as no one is getting injured or damaged in any way...I let things go as long as its not too annoying to my spirit. Yesterday, I just couldn't let anything go. That bothers me a whole lot...I deeply dislike holding onto "stuff" that just hangs out in my heart & head and just takes up space. It's something I have committed to working on and just wanted to throw it out there... if we allow "things" to cloud our emotions & actions, we are slaves to our own negativity. I became aware of this in myself a long time ago, but hadn't done anything to change it. I made the decision to change it a while back and have been making baby steps in order to change these negative behaviors. We feel how we feel...we can't change that. But, we can control how we react to our feelings. Just putting it out there. If someone does something that angers me...I can choose to hold onto that anger until it eats me alive...speaking from experience...I've done that SO many times I've lost count, and it's rotten. Why on earth, I finally concluded, would I allow someone's stupidity (ignorance, insensitivity, whatever) cloud my actions? It was a revelation, to be certain, but changing our actions is difficult. So, I am continuing to take baby steps in this area of my life, hoping to improve on this. It hurts only me & my family when I react to others in this way...My intention is clearly not intentional to hurt my family (if I get worked up and aggitated, the kids can feel it, my husband can feel it, friends can sense tension) and I don't intend to hurt myself...but these are the end results and why I've decided that while no person is an island, we can still make the choice to feel our own emotions and react to the actions of others in a way that is healthy for us and beneficial to those closest to us.