A page dedicated to poetry written
by me and whoever would like to have their work displayed here.
You're a king
And I'm your whithered queen
Forever I obey
And forever am unseen
Your home is a castle
And you are the master
Always unfeeling
You never hear me screaming
I can't make a sound
And my body is aching
You have an evil smile
While my heart you are breaking
This is gonna end
I hope you've had your fun
You gave me no mercy
So I am giving none
Your home is a castle
But you're no kind of master
I am unfeeling
You sowed and now I'm reaping.
Jillian Anderson
Something meant to last forever
Is destined for but a day
Something proposed eternal
Was never meant to stay
Everything is temporary
The blissfull things and wrong
As the melody of life goes on
The days sing a short song
Eternity is a short lived span
And forever is a lie
Always surely is not to be
And time is sure to die.
Jillian Anderson
I'll not change for you
You won't get the satisfaction
You're in the dark
You won't even get a reaction
You always treated me like a child
Never thought I'd understand
There are things you don't know, and things you can't see
I always had the upper hand
You try to correct me
But you only make a fool of yourself
You're crossing a line
And you need to get some help
I won't dignify your childish lies
With a response or a reply
You're not worth it, you never were
For that last time it's goodbye.
Jillian Anderson
Jump off that pedestal
You've put yourself upon
Get over yourself
Your not number one
This is the real world
And it may come as a surprise
But the earth doesn't spin
Around your pretty eyes
It's no surprise that the love of your life
You see every day in the mirror
And everyone thinks that your the greatest thing
Just wait until next year
C'mon darlin' we all see you're a knockout
But your time is coming
And you're headed right for a fallout
This is getting old and you've got to get a grip
And I don't give a crap about you
And your ego trip
Jillian Anderson
There is no pain
There is no grief
There is no hurt
Only relief
I have no regret
I will not change my mind
For they are now broken
Those ties that bind
But I will admit
At this moment I am sad
I still will look back fondly
On the good time that we had
But I cannot ignore
This feeling in my heart
The dark forboding fear
I didn't feel at the start
Now it's time to go
I hope you'll always be my friend.
I am sorry darling,
But it is now the end.
Jillian Anderson
There is a bond
That's never broken
Forever tried, forever tested
But never, ever broken
A loving bond between us two
Makes us closer every day
Two minds, nearly as one
Yet as different as black and white
To each other we give support, friendship,
Protection, and love
And damned be the one that comes between us
For our bond is never broken.
Jillian Anderson
You've always been the special one
You said to be who I wanted to be
Sometimes it seemed you were the only one
Who really cared for me
You were always there
You gave me love and friendship true
But what meant more to me
Was even when you had nothing to say
You were always there
I didn't always listen
Pride was often in my way
But when everyone else had given up
You were always there
You supported me throughout my life
And never let me fall
Of all the people in the world
I love you most of all
Not once have you complained
All those times I called your home
I've stalled your life so many times
You never seemed tro mind
You were always there
But now my friend it's your turn
Your sacrifice was not in vain
The time will come when you'll need a hand
My friend I'll be right there
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Life for her was good
Going just as she'd projected
Then he came and turned her life
Into something unexpected
She knew what she was doing
Had it all under control
Then he showed her how life could be
And gave her a different goal
He opened a door
She didn't know she had
He opened a door
And taught her heart to be glad
He opened a door
So that she could be free
He opened a door
Because he was the key
She gave her heart to this man
And knew it had found it's place
Guarded with love forever
Wrapped in his warm embrace
Now they begin a new life
A journey lined with love
Giving to each other always
Heeding guidance from above
He opened a door
She didn't know she had
He opened a door
And taught her heart to be glad
He opened a door
So that she could be free
He opened a door
Because he was the key
Jillian Anderson
You Lie
I wanted you
To be my friend
I wanted you
To be my brother
I wanted you
I wanted you
But you could not see
I needed to hear
What you could not say
You told me things
Of friendship and trust
Knowing while you spoke these words
You lie
Knowing while you spoke these words
I wanted you
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
I am caught in the darkness
Of a feeling I can't define
What must I do
To change my state of mind?
This darkness... Enveloping
My soul is bleeding
This heart of mine
Is missing it's key
This is why I'm
Looking for me
Searching... Looking
Where am I?
Why is my place
So hard to find?
This empty darkness
I can run but I can never hide
Driving my heart
To search for my eye
This darkness... Lingering
My soul is crying
These eyes of mine
Can't seem to see
It's why I continue
Looking for me
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
My diary is full of dreams
of every like and kind.
Dreams that never will come true.
Except for in my mind.
Paper dreams and fantasies
And thoughts I think each day.
Written down wholeheartedly
As if I were to say,
"I'll make these dreams come true, I will
On more than just the page."
But then I fall back down to earth
And lock my dreams back in thier cage.
I'm giving up on paper dreams.
The world's now black and white.
How could I have given up
So easily and without a fight?
Jillian Nicole Anderson
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
I am the tears on your face
I am the pain in your life
I am the one that you can't live without
And you know it
I am the curl in your hair
I am the flame in your eyes
I am the one that has nothing to give
And you know it
You are the man in the moon
You are the salt on my lips
You are the one that I always have feared
And I know it.
You are the fruit of the vine
You are the storm in my eyes
You are my reason for living today
And I know it
And we know it
Jillian Nicole Anderson
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Are you a subject of Lord Fear?
His iron fist holds many in it's palm.
His command makes bold men shudder,
and little children weep.
His scepter is horror.
Anxiety and trepidation his vassals.
Is there any escape from Lord Fear?
Any way to elude his grasp?
Face Lord Fear.
Confront the haughty monarch.
Look into his eyes of onyx.
Rebel against his rule.
When Lord Fear becomes afraid
he is dethroned.
You are ruler now.
Jillian Nicole Anderson
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
By the light of three candles I lay
watching the darkness and light mingle.
It's songs of velvet and silk.
My mind wanders
and skips from thought to thought.
The world is dreaming now.
The night air caresses
with aromas of jasmine and musk.
Time passes slowly by.
The taste of sugar is on my tongue.
I wonder where it came from.
As three candles grow faint
and finally extinguish
my eyelids fall.
The lullabye goes on.
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Jillian Anderson
The Bright Night
The bright night
calls out to me
to join me in it's glow.
Drawn to it I am.
Into it's depths I travel.
Then it's lullabye entraps me
entreating me to lay.
The bed of lush moss beckoning,
"Recline and be content."
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Jillian Anderson
Enchanted
Those enchanted times were much too
hard to walk away from.
Those enchanted times were much too
hard to forget,
Those enchanted times were always
so often unfulfilled.
And when I wonder where they went
I never want to see,
the reason those enchanted times are gone
is all because of me.
I will never see the smiles
of all of my friends.
And we will never laugh again.
How the time now moves so slow.
Oh, I wish it wasn't so.
Those enchanted times of long ago.
Those enchanted times are gone
and now I don't know why,
I don't want to face the truth.
I've lost all my friends,
and those enchanted times
will never come again.
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Jillian Anderson
I'm only happy when I Dream
I don't want to wake up.
All is a world of reality.
Let me sleep, let me dream.
I'm only happy when I dream.
My trueness is in my mind.
There only am I whole.
I laugh, I sing,
I love.
No! Please!
Don't make me wake up.
Behind my eyelids I am alive.
When I wake up I'll again be forgotten,
pushed aside,
left behind once again.
I'm only happy when I'm dreaming.
No... Please...
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Jillian Anderson
Fake
What did you expect?
For once I made some noise.
For once I told you how I feel.
What did you expect?
Was I to keep it all inside?
Keep my real self so withdrawn?
What do you say?
Do you call me the fool?
Say that I'm childish and walk away?
What do I do now?
Say that I'm sorry a million times?
Continue pretending and forget myself?
What am I to feel?
Fear of letting myself be known?
Sorrow for not being able to be me?
What do you expect?
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Jillian Anderson
The Selfless and the Vain
In a crowded restaraunt a man sits thinking.
Head downturned, cigarette an hand.
He's got expensive clothes, a wad in his pocket.
Thinkin' 'bout his money
In a crowded restaraunt a woman sits thinking.
Head downturned, hands in her pockets.
She's got a pretty face, the body of an angel.
Thinkin' 'bout her beauty.
Silly people never win
On a street corner a man sits thinking.
Face to the sky, hands together folded.
He's an ordinary man.works hard to get by.
He's prayin' for his mama.
On a street corner a woman sits thinking
Face to the sky, hands 'round a bundle.
With tear stained cheeks, a knot in her throat,
she's prayin' for her baby.
The true ones always will.
The vain ones are the failures
The selfless are our heroes.
Jillian Anderson
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
What I'm Good At
What I'm good at
It was a fad,
I'm good with a yo-yo.
I'm not half bad.
What I'm good at
You may see,
I can make people laugh
when they're around me.
What I'm good at,
You may know,
I try to be good at a lot of things.
I try to make it show.
What I'm good at,
I do try
to get even better.
That isn't a lie.
Jordan Anderson
Throw Away Angel
I threw away my angel
My motivation, my mentor, my life
My angel is gone
Without a goodbye, I threw him away
I made a mistake
Letting him go
Without knowing the chance I took
My heart cries out
With pain, with sorrow, with guilt
I let my hero fade
My life he saved so many times
I, myself, to afraid to save him
So instead I let him go
My hero walked away alone
And I was to weak to bring him back
My hero, my angel, my love
Is gone
Jillian Nicole Anderson
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Unexpected
Something happened today.
Something unexpected.
I won't tell you what it was.
It happened to me and someone else.
I was alone with him,
he put his hand in mine.
Then it happened,
but I won't say what it was.
He looked at me,
I looked at him.
We held each other close.
Then it happened again.
It was unexpected,
and I won't say what it was.
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
Jillian Anderson
Sanctuary
In the midst of hate
We'll find refuge
Through persecution
We'll find a home
A place to lay
Somewhere to belong
A place to hide from worries.
Jillian Nicole Anderson
Copyright ©2001 Jillian Anderson
