I'm NORMAL, Who'da thunk it?
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Printers and fax machines
Shhhh I'm at work right now. I had my Doctor's appointment this morning, and after some initial drama (the lab lost my labwork!), I am happy to report that I am 100% normal. Chemically anyway...

Oh hey! I also went to Weight Watchers Monday. Four more pounds lost! 35 total!! I met my first goal!

Has anyone seen Batman Begins yet? I can't wait! What about Mr. And Mrs. Smith? I can't decide which I want to see first. I'll just have to see both the same day...

The single scariest one second of my life!
Mood:  down
It's been too long since I've been here to post anything. I never thought I'd get so busy.

OK, to the most important, worst, and scariest news of late.

I was in a car accident Wednesday.

I HAVE NEVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE BEEN SO SCARED!!!

It was raining very hard while I was on the way home from work, so I was driving along slower, 55 in a 70. Not slow enough. In 5 o'clock traffic on a busy four lane highway I hydroplaned across two lanes, fishtailed off the road, and took out a speed limit sign. I'm fine, but my car is totalled, leaving our family with only one car. And it sucks! I also got ticketed for it! It was totally beyond my control, but since I took out a sign I got a ticket. Which means I get to appear in court for the 4th time! I don't even want to think how many points are on my liscence.

Setting that aside, there was good stuff that happened this week. I've lost 35 pounds! Um... well, ok that's the only good thing. Everything else is just everyday stuff, not good, not bad. More or less just existing.

I know I sound really unhappy. It's stress. Before this whole car accident thing I was actually thinking things were going really well and I was happy. And the car is really only an inconvenience, not a disaster. It was about to kick the bucket anyway. Maybe I'm just in a mood tonight. I really would consider myself a happy person, just not tonight.

Maybe I should just go to bed, sleep in, and then go shopping tomorrow. If that doesn't cheer me up nothing will!

Drive yourself insane tonight
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: Mercy Me- Alkaline Trio
I got Crimson today!!! It's awesome, I'm listening to it nonstop.

Skyler is spending the night tonight. He and Jordan came to see me at work today. He was such a hit. He's so adorable everyone gushed over him.

Has anyone else seen the end of the special edition dvd of The Return of The Jedi? At the end when Anakin's "ghost" materializes, it's Hayden Christensen! Why did they do that?! It doesn't make sense to me.... I'll never understand George Lucas.

This is your brain on drugs.... Any questions?
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Say 18- The Matches
I bought the Star Wars Trilogy on DVD today. It's pretty cool. I wish it was the origional version though and not that stupid FX'd out whatever that came out. Just because you can add cutting edge special effects to something doesn't mean you have too. Lucas messed with a good thing and he didn't need to, it needed no improvement.

I also got the Cowboy Bebop movie. It rocks.

Crimson comes out tomorrow!! Jordan is getting it, I'll probably have to wait til Friday. Can't wait!

Weight Watchers meeting was today. That's the reason for the little blue guy up there. I've gained weight 2 weeks in a row. I promised myself I'd never do that. I was so frustrated and angry with myself (and desparate to regain control- gotta be honest) that I cried all through the meeting. They're so great there though, they tried their hardest to help me out, and they did. I've just lost my discipline and motivation. It used to be so easy to lose when I first started. Now I guess the newness has worn off and it's actually gonna take work. I'll get there though. I'm not quitting, I haven't failed until I've quit, and I'm nowhere near that. I'm just gonna start over and pretend like it's my first week.

A long time ago in a galaxy... well you know
Mood:  hungry
GO SEE STAR WARS!!! IT'S AMAZING!!!!

Possibly the best of the six, Lucas has definitly redeemed himself for the joke that "Attack of the Clones" turned out to be. Go see it.

Next he intends to release all six movies in Theaters converted into 3-D! I'd see it.

Gimme your best shot
I'm not gonna whine, but this day has stunk. Nothing particularly BAD happened (although I did gain a pound this week at WW), and some good things even happened. I gave Mom a really nice copy of her favorite book, Little Women, she loved it. No, this has been a bad day cause I've been in a bad mood all day. I haven't been feeling well, and I'm constantly exhausted. Mom is going to get me into the Doctor sometime this week or next. She suspects (and I do too) that the both of us have abnormally low thyroids. That would explain why I've been so tired, not just tired, 24/7 exhaustion is more like it. I'm fighting sleep at my desk, I'm afraid driving home because I'm afraid I'll nod off. I get home, lie down and sleep till 10:00 or so, get up for a couple hours, then fall asleep again and drag myself out of bed the next morning after squeezing every last second of sleep I can in. My skin is dry, my hair is dry and brittle and falls out, my joints ache.... It's either hormones gone awry or stress, either way, I can't function 'till I've had some help.

I thought I said I wasn't gonna whine?

OK, this is gonna sound weird but....
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Chain Me Free- The Matches
***Warning- I'm about to go into a very 13 year-old-esque editorial. I know it's a weird topic, but it's been on my mind for days now.***

Does anyone else just absolutly LOVE a guy in makeup?! Wait a minute, I'm not talking full on Boy George face paint. I'm talking just eye makeup mainly. I can't help but love a guy who's man enough to wear eyeliner! It's just sexy! Alkaline Trio was on FUSE the other night playing some songs from thier new album and I couldn't help just staring at Matt Skiba and his dolled up eyes. He had eyeliner and shadow on, I know what you're thinking but it looked GOOD! And not just Alk3. Burt McCracken (The Used), Brandon Flowers (The Killers), Gerard Way (My Chemical Romance), Davey Havok (AFI)... I could go all night guys. I'm so used to seeing these people in makeup that it'd be weird to see them cleanfaced. Granted, it's slightly effeminate, and not everyone can get away with it. It would be weird to see someone HERE made up. Then again, a walk downtown on a Friday night and eye makeup may be the most normal thing you see.

fin

"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today"
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Vampires Will Never Get You- MCR
Hey I finally got some new stuff up! First of all, all of the site contents are in one column finally. I couldn't for the life of me figure out how to do it and it was so easy I feel like a dope now. I also wrote an all new and utterly boring Autobiography to enjoy. I've also done somewhat of a tribute page to a couple of my favorite classic Movie Stars. James Dean and Marilyn Monroe. Cliche I know but why not? The Marylin page is still a work in progress but feel free to see what's there so far. Maybe this'll be an ever-changing thing. This month Dean and Monroe, how about next month Errol Flynn and Olivia De Havilland? Might not be bad...

And yes I changed the layout again... I still havent found one that I'm totally satisfied with, we'll see how this one goes.

12:30 AM
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Fire at Will- My Chemical Romance
Ok I was gonna unveil a couple new pages tonight but it's takes too long to build a page from scratch and I'm tired. So they'll be up tomorrow.

Nightie Night!

Beware of my exploding head
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: Time to Waste- Alkaline Trio
(For those of you that are tired of me talking about Alkaline Trio, too bad) I couldn't wait. Alk3's album comes out the 24th, but I had to hear it sooner. But the best I could do was get the single at Hot Topic. I'm already hooked and it's only one song! The b-side is an unreleased track that is awesome too.

I'm trying to find a USB cable for my printer. Anyone know where to find a deal? Stupid me didn't think to buy one when I got the computer so I have to copy and paste whatever I want to print into an email so I can get it to the computer with a printer. Call me cheap but I hate to pay $30 for a cable to go with a printer that was free.

I love spring. The warmth, the birds, the sunshine, the pollen- ok that not so much. I'm in the middle of a major allergy attack. This is the first year it's ever really bothered me, but it's enough. Like I'm not emotional enough, now my eyes water so much I look like a basket case.

Hey I found a printer cable for five bucks. Gotta love WalMart!

Despite how miserable as allergies make me, I had a pretty good day. I worked for the morning (yawn), then I went shopping. Now I'm broke but now I look good. I got some jeans that actually fit. My others were literally falling off- it wasn't pretty. My new ones are three sizes smaller! And the tops I got were four sizes smaller!

I also got Jordan a present. It came with a test though. His tax returns finally came in and I posed the question to him, What is more important, hundreds of dollars from the govornment or $20 of your sister's love? The sweetie chose his sister's love! I got him a T-shirt, a white one. I forgot that he doesn't wear white t-shirts.

I'll be back, I'm gonna work on the rest of the site some.