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This page is dedicated to Dad. With the holidays around the corner emotions run high with me. I'm to emotional...I know, I know! Here are a few tidbits of laughs, memories and family sharing. Hope you enjoy...
My vivid most fondest memory was when I first was diagnosed with Lupus. I remember Dad at the foot of the bed and praying to God to heal me, to give him the pain and make me well. He prayed to God rubbing my legs and crying. Dad thought I was sleeping, he cried and cried. Everytime I think of that time.......I'm speechless. No words could ever describe what took place that moment in my heart or in my memory. No words....----Belinda (Billy)
What I remember about Tio George was on Christmas day. We had got a present for my Dad which was a toolbox and Tio George had said to me,"is that my present" and we laughed but that day I will always remember it. The last words that he told me was I love you and take care. It really meant alot to me.....Michael Rivas--Great Nephew
AUSTIN SAYS: "RIGHT MOM, MY NAME HAS GRANDPA G. IN IT?".......GRANDSON AUSTIN GEORGE WADKINS WHO WAS BORN 10 DAYS AFTER HIS GRANDPA'S PASSING...
TYLER SAYS THAT HE REMEMBERS GRANDPA'S BIG TRUCK WITH ALL THE CANDY AND GRANDPA GIVING HIM AND GENA OREO COOKIES, EVERYDAY WHEN HE CAME HOME....(WHICH WERE LANCE CHOCO-LUNCH THAT LOOKED LIKE OREO'S.) ---Tyler---First born Grandson
OKAY, THIS MAY SOUND CHEESY, BUT HERE IT GOES. EVERYONE HAS SEEN THE MOVIE A CHRISTMAS STORY, RIGHT? (RALPHIE, YOU'LL SHOOT YOUR EYE OUT). WELL THERE IS A SAYING IN THE MOVIE THAT THE LITTLE BOY SAYS THAT HAS ALWAYS STUCK WITH ME. HE WOULD SAY, "AND ALL IS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD." GROWING UP EVERYTHING WAS ALWAYS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD. EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT. I REMEMBER GOING TO THE COAST WITH ALL THE FAMILY, DAD, STEPHANIE, AND ME WITH SPARKLERS ON CHRISTMAS OR NEW YEAR'S, DAD AND ME PLAYING JEOPARDY EVERY NIGHT WHILE WE ATE DINNER IN THE DEN AND HIM SAYING THAT ALL THE OTHER QUESTIONS DIDN'T COUNT, IT WAS ONLY FINAL JEOPARDY THAT MATTERED (OF COURSE CAUSE I WAS WINNING), ALL OF US PUTTING UP THE CHRISTMAS TREE TOGETHER AND MOM AND DAD FIGHTING BECAUSE HE COULDN'T GET THE TREE STRAIGHT, GETTING UP ON SATURDAY MORNINGS AND GOING TO WORK WITH DAD (AFTER EATING TACOS OF COURSE)AND HIM WHEELING ME THROUGH HANDY ANDY ON A DOLLY, AND THEN THE LOOK OF HAPPINESS ON HIS FACE WHEN JOE ASKED HIM IF HE COULD MARRY ME. OF COURSE EVERYONE COULD PROBABLY WRITE A BOOK FILLED WITH ALL THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF DAD. DAD ALWAYS MADE EVERYTHING RIGHT WITH THE WORLD. IN THE MOVIE THE LITTLE BOY ALSO SAYS, "JUST WHEN EVERYTHING IS MOST RIGHT WITH THE WORLD SOMETHING DISASTEROUS HAPPENS". AND SOMETHING DID. THE LAST TIME I SAW DAD WAS DECEMBER 26. IT WAS LATE AT NIGHT AND I WAS STILL UP WATCHING TV. HE GOT UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM, LIKE HE ALWAYS DID, AND ON HIS WAY BACK TO BED HE PEEKED HIS HEAD INTO THE DEN AND TOLD ME TO GO TO BED. BUT THE WAY HE SAID I WILL NEVER FORGET. IT WAS SO LIGHTHEARTED AND DELICATE, IF THAT MAKES SENSE. THEN HE WENT TO BED, AND THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I SAW HIM. THEY SAY TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS, BUT I DON'T THINK IT DOES. IT HURTS AS MUCH TODAY AS IT DID 6 YEARS AGO. AND I DON'T THINK THINGS WILL EVER BE RIGHT WITH THE WORLD AGAIN BECAUSE A PIECE OF MY WORLD IS MISSING. MY COLLEGE GRADUATION, MY WEDDING, YES THEY WERE WONDERFUL DAYS, BUT SOMETHING WAS WRONG. MY FATHER WAS NOT THERE. IF I EVER HAVE CHILDREN, IT PAINS ME TO KNOW THAT THEY WILL GROW UP NOT EVER KNOWING WHAT A WONDERFUL GRANDFATHER AND FATHER HE WAS. I GUESS WE WILL ALL HAVE TO LET THEM KNOW. WITH THE HOLIDAYS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER AND THE ANNIVERSARY OF HIS DEATH COMING UP, OF COURSE IT HAS BEEN HARD. BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER KNOWING THAT WE ALL HAVE A GUARDIAN ANGEL WATCHING OVER US NAMED GEORGE. I LOVE YOU DAD..... Bernice Gutierrez-Saenz--Daughter
TRYING TO SIT DOWN AND WRITE MY FEELINGS HAVE BEEN REALLY HARD FOR ME. I HAVEN'T REALLY SPOKEN ABOUT MY GRANDFATHER BECAUSE IT HURTS SO BADLY JUST TO REMEMBER. LOOKING AT BILLY'S WEBSITE HAS BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES I THINK ABOUT AT LEAST ONCE A DAY. AS I SIT HERE NOW TEARS ROLL DOWN MY FACE TRYING TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS IN WORDS RATHER THEN WITH ACTIONS. NOT HAVING A DAD CAN REALLY AFFECT A CHILD'S LIFE, BUT NOT ME ! MY GRANDFATHER WAS MY DAD, HE TAUGHT ME WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO BE CHERISHED AND LOVED. YET I CAN'T RECALL WHETHER I EVER EXPRESSED THE SAME FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS TOWARD HIM AND I AM SORRY. I NEVER IMAGINED YOU WOULD BE GONE AND I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I APPRECIATED HAVING YOU IN MY LIFE. I CAN REMEMBER PLAYING SOLITAIRE AT BILLY'S HOUSE WHEN I ANSWERED THE PHONE CALL FROM GRANDMA AND HEARING HER PAINFUL VOICE. I REMEMBER MY DAD TELLING ME THAT YOU WERE IN THE HOSPITAL AND NOT TO WORRY BECAUSE EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE. YET I KNEW EVERYTHING WASN'T FINE. REMEMBERING THE CAR RIDE DOWN TO THE HOSPITAL IS ALL A BLUR, ALL I CAN REMEMBER IS THE RIDE TOOK FOREVER. AS I SAT IN THE WAITING ROOM ALL I COULD FEEL WAS PAIN, I HADN'T EVEN SEEN YOU YET BUT I KNEW IT WASN'T OKAY. AS I WALKED IN TO THAT ROOM AND SAW YOU LYING THERE ALL I COULD DO WAS CRY AND AS I TRIED TO TALK TO YOU, I JUST WISHED AND PRAYED SO BADLY FOR YOU TO WAKE UP AND TELL ME EVERYTHING WAS OKAY. BUT MY WISH NEVER CAME TRUE. AS WE ALL PRAYED AROUND YOUR BED THE DAY YOU LEFT, THE SUN SHINED STRAIGHT INTO THE ROOM AND I KNEW YOU WERE IN GODS HANDS. I ONLY WISH YOU COULD BE HERE NOW. SO MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED AND I WISH YOU WERE HERE JUST TO SAY ANYTHING.... I NEVER KNEW THAT ONE PERSON COULD BE THE FOUNDATION FOR A ENTIRE FAMILY BUT NOW I KNOW THAT YOU WERE OURS! ITS BEEN LONELY WITHOUT YOU HERE. NO ONE THAT CAN HOLD ME OR KISS ME THE WAY WAY YOU DID. THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES YOU HAVE LEFT FOR ME AND ALL OF THE FAMILY. I LOVE YOU GRANDPA -SITO -----LOVE ALWAYS YOUR REINA
A couple days ago my mom told me to say a little something on my Tio George. I thought right away about all the people that said lot of good things about him. Tio (Fito)said all the stuff he learned was from him, people such as my grandma (Chita) said as they grew up with each other thay played with dolls and they never fought . My mom always said that she, Billy ,Birdy, Bernice, Grandpa and my Grandma would all go fishing under the bridge in Corpus.I've heard lots of other stuff like he was very smart, nice and always heard about his funny jokes. I've seen the Christmas of 96' about twenty times ,but every time I see it, it puts a tear in my eye. I enjoy hearing his voice,and seeing his face.But all I can say is I loved him alot,I didn't know him long but he was a very respectful person. Sometimes I would go in to my room and think about the great times we had together, not just me and him ,but as a family. I regret not getting to know him better. I also remember when I would be at his house and I could hear the big LANCE truck driving up the driveway. As he would give me candy I would say thank you and run back into the house with happiness. Running into the house realizing he wasn't coming in. Sprinting back outside only to find him still in his truck counting out his money. I still have his birthday in my heart, seeing his face smiling as my cousin would sing with her beautiful voice. At the time hearing he died I was sad but through the years it would get more emotional and would cause me to realize how great of a man I never got to know. Still to this day I think if he was still here what other accomplishments and what other stories I would hear. The Greatest Man........ The greatest man I've ever heard of .---Christopher Garcia, Great Nephew
I WON'T FORGET THAT DAY AT THE HOSPITAL WHEN THEY TOOK MY TIO GEORGE TO HAVE A SCAN OF SOME SORT AND I REMEMBER AND NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS (THE DOC'S) I SAW IT THEY WHEELED HIM OUT OF THAT SIDE DOOR TO THE ELEVATOR AND I WAS ON THE PHONE WITH CHRIS AND MY TIO LOOKED AT ME HIS EYES WERE OPEN AND HE WAS AWAKE AND HE LOOKED AT ME AND WAVED IN HIS FACE HE HAD THE LOOK OF PEACE BUT SMILING AT ME LIKE HERE I GO FOR ANOTHER TEST. LITTLE DID I KNOW IT WAS THE LAST TIME MY TIO WOULD WAVE AT ME AND SMILE. I OFTEN WONDER IF HE WAS SMILING AND SAYING GOODBYE TO ME. THE LOSS OF MY TIO GEORGE IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE FOUND VERY DIFFICULT TO FORGET. JUST LIKE YOU SAY BIL NO WORDS WERE EVER SPOKEN AND NO GOODBYE'S WERE EVER SAID BUT OUR LOSS WE WILL FEEL FOREVER I REMEMBER HIM AT THE COAST I REMEMBER HIM AT HEB WHEN I PASS BY THE LANCE CRACKERS I REMEMBER GYRO'S, I REMEMBER AQUARINA SPRINGS, HE GAVE ME, ME ALONE SO MANY MEMORIES. ALL MY LIFE GROWING UP I HAD TWO DADS MY REAL DAD AND MY TIO GEORGE. I KNOW HE IS WATCHING OVER US ALWAYS. REMEMBER WHEN YOU SEE A FEATHER POP UP IN THE STRANGEST PLACE THAT IS HIM LETTING YOU KNOW HE IS THERE WITH YOU THATS HOW I KNOW HE IS WITH ME! --Niece MaryAnn Rivas-Garcia
I ALWAYS REMEMBER TIO GEORGE SAYING TO ME "THE ROCK" "KOREA THE ROCK". Chris Garcia--Nephew (husband to MaryAnn)
BILLY, I WAS THINKING THE OTHER DAY AND SOMETHING THAT STILL IS FUNNY TO ME TODAY IS YOUR DAD TELLLING A JOKE IN SPANISH TO ALL THE FAMILIA AND THEN HAVING TO RETELL IT TO ME IN ENGLISH . I'M LOOKING AT HIM GOING "OK, THAT WASN’T VERY FUNNY" AND OF COURSE I WOULD GET THE EXPLANATION THAT THE JOKE DID NOT TRASLATE TO ENGLISH VERY WELL. ONE MORE THING, I REMEMBER BIRD TELLING ME ON THE WAY OVER TO DAD'S HOUSE "IF MY DAD TELLS YOU A JOKE HE'S ALREADY TOLD YOU....PLEASE ROLL AROUND LAUGHING LIKE IT WAS THE FIRST TIME YOU HEARD IT" AND I WOULD EVEN THOUGH HE HAD ALREADY TOLD ME THE SAME JOKE ABOUT 5 DIFFERENT TIMES...-----LOVE GARY
WHEN DAD WOULD HUG ME, HE WOULD GET CLOSE TO MY EAR AND JUST SMELL ME....I COULD FEEL THE AIR COME FROM HIS NOSE... IN MY EAR. I DO THAT TO MY KIDS AND SMELL THEM.... IT'S JUST A SMELL YOU CANT GET ENOUGH OF.... I REMEMBER HIM WHEN I DO THAT----BIRD
I remember when Grandpa came home to Grandma-la’s house he said to Tyler, and me “look in my pocket” and we found M&M candies. Tyler and me would call them honey, honeys. We would yell, “Grandpa, thank you!!!” I wish Grandpa was still here, but I know he is in my heart. We were 3 years old. I also remember Grandpa had no hair!----GrandDaughter Genevie Lopez
ONE YEAR AFTER DAD DIED THIS IS WHAT I WROTE:
DEAR DAD,
FOR THE PAST YEAR I HAVE WANTED TO WRITE TO TELL OF YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. THOUGHTS OF WHEN WE WERE LITTLE ENTER MY MIND, LIKE WHEN WE WERE GETTING READY TO GO TO THE COAST, YOU WOULD COME HOME AND AFTER DINNER YOU WOULD SIT OUT ON THE PICNIC TABLE AND FIX THE FISHING RODS FOR US TO HAVE READY TO GO FISHING WHEN WE GOT THERE OR WHEN YOU WOULD CATCH A FISH AND LET US REEL IT IN LIKE WE HAD CAUGHT IT. YOU KNOW I DONT THINK THAT THERE IS NOT A SPOT IN PADRE ISLAND, PORT ARANSAS, OR CORPUS CHRISTI THAT WE DIDN'T FISH AT. BOB HALL PIER WAS BOB HOPE PIER AND THE JETTIES WERE LAS PIEDRAS.. WHEN BILLY AND ME WERE LITTLE BEFORE YOU LEFT TO WORK IN THE MORNING YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT KISSING US GOODBYE AND I REMEMBER AFTER YOU LEFT THE SMELL OF YOUR COLOGNE WOULD STAY ON US.
GOING EVERYDAY IN THE STATIONWAGON WITH TINY TO GO PICK YOU UP AT R.C. MEETING YOU AT GIBSON'S OR SHOPPERS WORLD WHEN YOUR STORE WOULD BE HAVING A BIG SALE, THE TOURS IN THE R.C. PLANT AND THE COOLEST THING WAS WHEN YOU WOULD TAKE US IN TO WHERE THEY WERE CAPPING THE 16 OZ. BOTTLES OF SODA AND YOU WOULD REACH UP AND GRAB A BOTTLE FOR ME AND BILLY. DURING CHRISTMAS YOU WOULD TAKE US DOWNTOWN TO TOUDOUZE AND WOULD DRIVE SLOW FOR US TO SEE ALL THE TOYS BEHIND THE WINDOW. I REMEMBER MR. BROWN ON THE WESTSIDE THAT HAD THAT LITTLE FRUITSTAND YOU WOULD TAKE US TO VISIT. EASTER WAS JUST LIKE CHRISTMAS WE WOULD ALWAYS GET SOMETHING BIG. VALENTINES DAY-MOM GOT HE BIG HEART AND ME AND BILLY GOT TWO SMALL ONES, NOT UNTIL WE GOT OLDER YOU WAITED FOR THE 50% OFF SALE AND WE GOT OUR STUFF THE NEXT DAY.
YOU KNOW DAD, I KNOW THAT YOU KNEW THAT YOU WERE LOVED BUT YOU JUST DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WERE LOVED, THE SADDEST THING TO ME IS THAT I CANT REMEMBER TELLING YOU TO YOUR FACE OR YOU TELLING ME THAT YOU LOVED ME, UNTIL YOU WERE ALREADY LYING IN THAT HOSPITAL BED AND DAD WHEN I SPOKE TO YOU I KNOW YOU COULD HEAR ME WHEN I SAID I LOVED YOU, I KNOW YOU HEARD ME WHEN YOU TRIED TO BLINK YOUR EYES. I WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT, THAT WAS YOUR SIGN OF TELLING EVERYONE YOU LOVED US.
DURING YOUR EULOGY DEACON ZAPATA SAID THAT IF ONLY ONE PERSON COULD LEARN SOMETHING FROM YOUR DEATH, THEN IT WOULD'NT ALL BE FOR NOTHING. DAD I HAVE LEARNED THAT I WOULD LIKE TO BE JUST HALF THE PERSON YOU WERE AND LOVE MY KIDS THE WAY I KNEW YOU LOVED ME AND TRY TO TELL THEM EVERYDAY JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM.
DAD UNTIL WE LOOK INTO EACH OTHER’S EYES AGAIN, THE FIRST THING I'LL SAY IS I LOVE YOU AND PLEESSEEE TELL ME ONE OF YOUR CORNIEST JOKES..........
LOVE YOU
OWLY OWL,
BIRD
My uncle, George Gutierrez One memory that stands out the most was the Christmas before my Uncle died. That Xmas, as we gathered at Tia Hopes house, as usual, Tio and I sat on the blue sofas, and we were playing with a plastic baseball bat that one of the kids had left on the table. We were trying to find each other’s reflexes on our knees. Well, We COULD NOT! It was too funny. We tried and laughed. At the time, I was in Mortuary School and working in the funeral business. As we sat there, he said to me, as he always did when we talked about my line of work (that sounds like I am a hooker right??) Anyway, he says to me "So how's work Mija? Dead?" Hahaha, we always laughed. Then I said, "Yea, Tio, people are just DYING to see me!!" It was just soo weird for him, he told me, "Aye, Mija, I don't see how you do, day in and day out, working on dead people, aye, don't you get scared?" My answer (the same to this question every time I was asked) was "Don't be afraid of the dead. Be afraid of the living-the dead can't hurt you". Little did I know that three days later, my dear uncle would no longer be alive. I think to myself, and I thought it time and again "how could I have talked so much about death to him? What the hell is wrong with me? How morbid could I possibly get?" But He asked me the questions, he always wanted to know, always was curious. While in school, the subject of life after death was always discussed. What happens after you die? Reincarnation? Stress-free, disease free, pain free heaven? Angels walking among the living? Watching the movie "city of angels" would best describe many of the notions...Anyhow, After my Tio died, I truly feel that that movie hits the nail right on the head. Not that our guardian angel isn't always watching over us, but that all angels of our loved ones are watching. After his death, I truly felt that there was a life after death. I know that he is watching us today, watching his grand children grow up, seeing them playing, fighting, loving each other, as his own daughters are. Seeing us, Me Mary Ann and Fido, seeing everyone. Smiling down on us and me truly feeling this in my heart, makes me feel that things can't be that bad. I have a wonderful, beautiful angel looking down on me every day and I feel that he is taking care of me. Like, whenever something stupid happens to me, like if I trip and fall and I am all alone, I know that he is laughing at me...which is what he would be doing if he was here now. My Tio was there, all the time, smiling, joking, having a good time, asking for a glass of water, calling out to me TEPPY, Peppy, whatever his heart desired. I truly feel, in my heart of hearts, that he is and will be the best man I have ever met and known. He truly is the definition of a GREAT MAN, FATHER, HUSBAND, UNCLE, BROTHER. To me, he was more than my uncle he was like my dad. It's him I remember in our Corpus trips, it's him I remember joking with, it’s him. I just hope that I have made him proud of me and continue to do so. One day, that is all I can wait for, is that one-day where I can finally meet him and meet up with Tio again, to hear him yell out to me Teppy!!! Niece—Stephanie Marie Rivas
I have read your tributes to George Gutierrez and I agree that your emotions have a tendency to flow. George Gutierrez, without any doubt in my mind, was as fine a man as any one individual can expect to be. I know that I was always impressed with his keen sense of humor; for he always had a joke for all at the tip of his tongue. I was also impressed with his ability to work numbers by memory. George was a human calculator. I would throw numbers at him and he could calculate the correct answer for me every time; no pencil & paper, no calculator! I also know, for a fact, that his immediate family was the most important factor weighing in his life. He, as any father would, would be willing to sacrifice himself in place of his children and wife. I am just like everyone else, in this respect; I miss George very much, I miss his smile, I miss his sense of humor, I miss his jokes, I miss his friendship! Marty and I decided that we were going to renovate our house, in Mart, with the understanding that it would increase the value of the house, once we were ready to sell and move to San Antonio. I went to the bank and took out a loan for x thousands of dollars with "renovation" as the purpose of the loan. I looked in the Waco Tribune and found a person named "Mr. Reak" under house remodeling. I called his number and made an appointment with him to come and look at the house, give us some estimates. Mr. Reak assured me that he and his crew could fix our house to our liking. In fact, he stated that our house would look like a "Doll House" by the time that they were through with it. Little did I realize it at the time, but more appropriate wording would have been, our house would look like a "Dog House" by the time that they were through with it. Suffice to say that Mr. Reak was the classic "Rogue, Con Artist." Of course, I believed this smooth talker and I agreed to let him work on my house. The day came that they were to start working on our house. Nothing that they worked on ended well. The brick was leaning away from the house, they didn't level the house properly, and their concrete work was horrendous! To add insult to injury, Mr. Reak could not, for whatever reason, remember that I was Mr. DeLuna. He constantly called me Mr. Lummus. He constantly made excuses for his poor workmanship and when I pointed out this fact, he would tell me, "Don't get nervous Mr. Lummus, don't get nervous!" I told George this story and he laughed so hard that he actually cried tears. Hope scolded him for laughing and I will always remember him saying, "But, honey, listen to the way that Carlos is telling the story. I'm laughing at the way that Carlos is telling me the story, especially the part about, Don't get nervous Lummus, you done got nervous on me Lummus!" Of course, at that particular time, only George could see the humor among all of this situation. George had that magical touch with words; he could talk to you, one on one, and make you feel as though you were the only person worthy of being on top of the pedestal. He had that mystical power about him that could put smiles upon faces, no matter what the circumstances where! I feel because of George's unique persona, the Angels in Heaven carry him upon their shoulders/wings! I hope and pray that he knows how much I miss him and that he knows that I thought of him as a tremendous personality! The World was definitely a better place with George present......... Brother-in-law---Carlos Deluna
