Poems By Me And Friends
Forever-Goodbye
It hits me like a stone wall
A handful of razors will cure it all.
Worthless, pointless, useless is always me
Death, Red, Casket is all I wish to see.
Suicide seems so right, so confortable
The pain, the yelling is so unbearable.
Visions are blurry, happiness is impossible
The blade enters deep, the bloodflow is unstoppable.
I cannot speak, I cannot hear
The only excpectancy, is the lord of fear.
Death comes creeping in black and bone
Comes to take me to where I can be alone.
Alone in the darkness to think of nothing
For nothing to come, but the dead eyes staring.
Under my skin, my blood glides coldly
The ear piercing screams cry out so sharply.
I hate it all and I wish it would die
This worthless piece of flesh, am I.
My life, my world, all ends in a lie
This blade, be it my best friend, forever goodbye.
-Joe Sellers
Love Is Pain In A Life Of Nothing
I feel like I'm dead or dying
I am sick and tired of always crying
I hate my life and love this feeling
The feeling of blood simply running
Running down my slit wrist
And as I clutch to make a fist
The blood starts gushing
The blood is quickly rushing
The life is slowly leaving me
Enjoying the feeling of killing me
Loving the feeling of slowly dying
Hating the feeling of hardly living
This isn't the life anyone should live
So now I'm forced to give
All my life to just one
My love, my life, my only one
She is the reason that I live, but also the reason that dying
-Joe Sellers
Poem For The Undead
Crown Of Razor Blades
Jumpsuit Of Anger
Life Living Unlively
Kneeled At The Alter
Ask For Forgiveness
Lies In A Blanket Is The Only Shelter
Sitting Through The Anger
Doing Nothing About The Tears
Fight Through The Troubles
Suicide Is So Much Quicker
Fuck This And What It Represents
The Nothing About It Is Misrepresented
Balled Fists And Sharp Objects
A Glass Of Liquir And A Few Pills, Too
Under It All Nothing Is Forgotten
The Awkward Silence Seems So Loud
Staring Blankly At A...
Im The Odd One Out Of The Croud
Im Always Different
Yet Always The Same
Nothings Forgiven
A Trip Down Memory Lane
A Journey Of A Visual Echo
Its The Same As Yesterday
Lets Try Something New
Lets End It All Today
And Dance Like The Dead Do
At The Rotting Corpse Ball
In A Tux Of Dusted Cotton
And A Smile Of Nightfall.
-Joe Sellers
Plastic
Take the swiss army knife and let it slide
Remove your brain with a swiss army glide...
Reach within and abstract all you disown
All your memories now have been left to stone
Breach inside and paint the way
Re-invent yourself and sculpt today
The treadmill moves, will you jump on the wagon?
See yourself with a endless laggin.
Hollow as wood your chest starts to twitch
Carve away the thoughts that made you itch
Only one color in your eye remains.
Gazing at all, The blanch begins to remove all that stains
Goodbye is great, the burden is gone
Dust away all that made everything so fond.
-Stephen Gierke
Dont Do Drugs
Staring At Everything
Yet Seeing Nothing
Dead As A Doorknob
But Alive Spiritually
Haunting You Everywhere You Turn
This Body Floats Like Fire Without Burn
A Transparancy
Of A Man That Once Lived
The Man That Was Once Upon A Time
Forgotten To Everything
He Speaks Without A Voice
Screams Loudly In Your Nightmares
You Try To Run Away
You Try To Avoid
Like A Toxic Cell He Is Always There
You Cry And Cry
And Beg For Help
Six Months Later A Body Is Found
Of A Man So Frightened
He Died Without A Sound
Beside His Body Lies A Tube Of Drugs
A Meth Addicts Death Is Forgiven With Hugs
Hugs Of Relief, For A Man Who Is Gone
A Druggy Who Tripped Of Ghosts In His Head
Has Passed Away From A Man Who Is Dead
A Man Who Never Existed
And Is Seen Through Mistakes
A Bad Decision
Of One That Quakes
Two Simple Things
That Can Destroy It All
Two Simple Things Called
Meth And Alchohol
One Shot Up, One Found In Jugs
In A Final Few Words
Dont Do Drugs.
-Joe Sellers
Please Take Me Back?
Your Smile, Your Eyes
The Way You Kiss
It Shows No Lies
The Way You Hug
The Way You Speak My Name
The Way "Joe" Rolls Off Your Tongue
You Voice Drives Me Insane
Like A Drug I Need You
Like Money I Desire You
You Represent So Much
Your Like A Flower
So Delicate To The Touch
Mistakes Are Made
Mistakes Are Forgiven
So Karissa I Ask
My Angel From Heaven
Will You Grant Me
One Thing I Desire
Thats Another Chance
To Show You Im No Liar
I Like You So Much
I Cant Even Explain
I Cant Find Any Words
My Mind Cant Obtain
My Poems Where I Express
My Inner Most Feelings
Only Show A Sliver
Of Love And Its Meanings
A Cheater Is Gone
A Liar Is Banished
A New Guy Is Born
By One Who Has Wished
To Be That One Guy
Who Makes People Happy
I Only Ask For One Thing
And Ill Give Anything In Return
Please Take Me Back, ------
My Trust You Can Earn
So Ill Be Strait Up
And Quite Holding Back
Will You Go Out With Me
Please Take Me Back?
-Joe Sellers
The Love Of Death
by
Joseph Iverson
Ecstasy fills my thoughts,
and all my evils seem to be forgot.
For today I’m reborn and the anguish that consumed me is eternally forlorn.
Now I see the light again with wings of hope to forever float.
So through this pain came life anew,
so much greater then I could have ever knew.
So now I rest in ghostly form to you from above the human storm.
Typical Day
by
Joseph Iverson
Boredom is the life I live, being perfect at the things I do.
Play a game for an hour or two.
Reading a book or maybe just taking a look.
Then taking a little nap to get that energy back.
Now to work I go, too rip tickets ever so slow.
Now I drive home so I can finally get stoned.
Now I’m high but I don’t know why.
That’s my life, you want to take a try?
If You Could Only See
by
Joseph Iverson
Fire and pain fill my mind but yet all that see me think I’m fine.
But drowning am I in a sea hopelessness just wandering from heartache to heartache.
Getting closer and closer to the day I break.
So I sit in this dust left by hope for death to end this life that you so cruelly broke.
Cut Me
This feeling that I want this to be
I don’t want it to turn into
The thing that brings me down
Is all of this fear surrounding me
Slowly the ache brings it inside
But I will hold her..for now
NO..
I cant believe this is happening again
NO..
I just want her to myself
NO..
Oh I think its right
NO..
Don’t be nice just bring me down..
I am wrapped in all of the things
That I am suppose to be
Feelings that seem to come over me
Just cover me.
But I know one thing is for sure
I will have you by my side..watching..
NO..
I cant believe this is happening again
NO..
I just want her to myself
NO..
Oh I think its right
NO...
Don’t be nice just CUT ME DOWN
Help me understand it
I think I deserve it
I need to know it
I cant let it rule me
Lead me to the end where we seem to fail
Take me to the place where I need to miss
Understand I am not the one you came to feel
Succeed in my heart where I seem to fail...
NO..
I cant belive this is happening again
NO..
I just NEED her for myself
NO..
Oh I think its right
NO..
Don’t be nice ill cut myself.
-Joe Sellers
Wounds-(song)
"For two days I've felt the wounds opening up again
I've felt the pain again, and the blood has run again.
With you gone, I see that the pain returns, I see the
wounds open up when you're not here."
While you where gone
I felt the pain, I felt the blood
Falling like rain
While you where gone
It broke my heart, It made me numb
Tore me apart
While you where gone
I couldn't feel, I had no love
Was bent to kill
Just tell me now the wounds will heal
Come back real soon so I can't feel
The pain that I suffer from now
It feels just like it did before I fell in love
with you when you walked through that door
These wounds don't seem to heal
While you where gone
I couldn't cry, I felt the tears
But didn't die
While you where gone
I showed no care, I didn't love
Life's just not fair
While you where gone
I had the pain, of all the wounds
Its just the same
Will all these wounds
just go away, I can not stand
Come back to stay
I can't take it anymore
I can't take the pain thats sore
I can't feel my heart no more
I can't feel
I can't take
I can't feel (can't take)
It anymore
-Joe Sellers
Goodbye Life
For ones heart to be sick?
Green with pain
Pumping blood so slow
No longer sane
Like a demon from below
You cut yourself
To relieve the past
Live your life on a shelf
So people watch you die fast
Faster and faster
Your life trickles away
Master, oh, master
What more can I say?
I'm lost in life
And I don't know what to do
Nobody Cares
Dont you think, I should die too?
Am I the only one
Who thinks such things?
Because I dont have someone
To enlighten my dreams?
Nothing makes me happy
It only makes it worse
Life's so damn crappy
It's a 80 year curse.
No one seems to care
They only make it hell
No one fucking understands
My soul I want to sell
I wanna die quick
And never see anyone again
Life makes me so sick
My entire being is a sin.
I dont think I deserve
Such a shitty life
You, my lord, I'm willing to serve.
With the help of this knife
So now I'm going to leave
And forget I was ever here
My life is just deseave
Goodbye forever, dear.
-Joe Sellers
Have You Ever?
Have you ever had to do something you didn't want to?
Break the same heart
For the 5th time, into two?
She's my one, my only, my life
Ruining this feels
As a sharp tipped knife
Brittney and Justin - would be their names
She is afriad this won't happen,
So she claims.
But fear not my love,
I will come back
Just give it time,
Love is a Lilac,
Start as a bud
Bloom to perfection
But soon it starts to die
Stop the blame and suspection
I will not lie, neither should you
I need you to know
Drinking is not for you.
I love you Stephy, wait for me
I'll fix your heart, make it grow-times 3
Have you ever had to do something you didn't want?
Break the same heart
For the 5th time, into two.
-Joe Sellers
To Rae Rae
to my rae, my wonderful friend
i hope we will be -- until the end
and beyond forever, till the end of time
i know im yours, and you are mine
and as my friend, ill ask you this
without you, ill surely miss
your laugh, your love, your smile
i couldnt lose you as a friend, not even for a while
you are so great, and so good to me
so good in fat, even simon can see!
he sometimes worrys, that you may like
me for some reason, though we are alike
in many ways, but one for sure
we like to write, and we open the door
the door in our minds, and rhyme our words
then scratch it on paper, then read in melody chords
we share our thoughts, me and you
through our writings, and conversations, too
well i must go, and read my book
and wait for you to take a look
and evaluate my peice of rhyme
and wait another hour or so of time
and get this back and think again
i love you raelyn, thank you for being my friend.
-Joe Sellers
Why
Why i cut, i wish i knew
emotional pain, is the worst for who
has expected too much in life
who already had plans, for his wife
the physical kind, is easier to deal with
this pain is real, but goes away quick
not so quick, that i can smile again
but quick enough, but its still a sin
forgive me lord, i really regret
but i know no other way, to make me forget
I miss being happy, i miss what she said
now she says she hates me... FUCK I WANNA BE DEAD!
but i want to live, to see her face
to take me back, to that place
where a smile always shown
and her love was home-grown
when my lips grazed hers so soft
and her and i, in time, were lost
the way she said "i love you joe"
and the way i was happy, and everything else was low
and we were so tall, on top of the world
and there was only her and i, my heart i sold
i sold to her, in exchange for hers
when me and her alone, she whispers
i miss her love, i mis her smile
i hope im happy, for atleasy a while.
-Joe Sellers
Vacation Hell
Sliced, cut, torn and worn
penetraited in the chest so gracefully by satan's horn
breath, bleed, cry and die
in your dreams in which i fly
the dark lord's angel is what i am
i fill your lungs with charcoaled sand
i creep and sweep you lifeless, child
beware of the boogyman with his nails so filed
filed to a point to open your chest with
and look for you soul and leave you breathless
eternal sleep, i grant you this
destroy your every love and bliss.
your time has come, you unknown being
my eyes so black, always blind, but seeing
ill take you to damnation, torture, its hell!
eternity of torture and pain in your cell
behind these cursed bars, be eternally grateful
becuase this is what you wanted right? since your life's so sinful?
your family has forgotten, this peice of flesh
now im your dark god, do as i wish
a threat to many, a master to all
trapped in hell and chained to a wall
my demons whip crack your shell
youll be here for a long time, chilkd, at VACATION HELL!!
-Joe Sellers
Someday...Someday
forever yours, but never again
a lie's a lie, a sin's a sin.
I love you dearly, you broke my heart
that horrible news tore us apart.
not forever, but for a while
I love you baby, I'll never live in denial.
but why, oh, why did you lie to me
to tell the truth helps more, you see.
if you lie to the one you love
it breaks one's soul, and kills the dove.
the dove that represented me and you
now i'm just me, and you're just you.
I'll miss you untill the day I die
I hope the angel of J&S spreads her wings and flies.
I hope she flys and never stops
her gracious wings will graze the crops.
the crops in which we grew out hearts
and shared them with each other, until you and me, apart.
we broke apart because you wanted it to happen
because you were drunk, and wanted to fuck him.
my love for you is truely true
I hope one day, you'll prove it too.
I'll read the notes. I'll hear the stories
but i want you to please inform me
tell me the truth, and it will go away
then it will be me and you again... someday... someday
-Joe Sellers
Drip, Drip, Drip-(song)
VERSE 1:
Numeres times we've spilled like this,
Dangled from a hook, draining our bliss,
The pool is refilled by slitting a happy wrist,
Then this warms up and is spread in our own mist,
We spreaded dread now we'll keep it for our SELVES,
Let you take the rest,
WE"LL stay DRY, and MOPE,
You have the BEST while we try to COPE,
CHORUS:
Our lifeforce is sampled to those who need it,
The reason we care is the reason we freed it,
Now we feel what we had slain, REMORSELESS, ENDLESS, PAIN
We shall take the blame, it is whats left of our name,
DRIPPING
VERSE 2:
COUNTLESS sins we've added to our list,
WE signed with EVIL, We soughted with a FIST,
Hanging here would be something we can never miss,
Hurting this way will punish us for the awefull things we'd KISSED,
We shedded the DEAD, time to pick it up our SELVES,
Aint how you be dressed,
WE'LL stay COATED, and MELT,
You stay cold and it wont be corpse you felt,
CHORUS:
Our lifeforce is sampled to those who need it,
The reason we care is the reason we freed it,
Now we feel what we had slain, REMORSELESS, ENDLESS, PAIN
We shall take the blame, it is whats left of our name,
Dripping
Drip,
Drip,
Drip,
PSYCHO VERSE THINGAMOBOBA:
RIPPLES WE CAN NOT CATCH,
WE TOUCHED, THEY SPLASHED,
SPIT OF LOVE WE CANT COMPREHEND,
SHATTERS OVER THE GROUND,
BRINGS PEOPLE A MEND,
FOR US THERE IS NO SOUND,
THERE IS NO LIFE WHICH IS FOUND,
SWAPPED FOR OTHERS, WE FELT PITY,
NOW WE FEEL THS WAY, LIVING SHITTY,
CHORUS:
Our lifeforce is sampled to those who need it,
The reason we care is the reason we freed it,
Now we feel what we had slain, REMORSELESS, ENDLESS, PAIN
We shall take the blame, it is whats left of our name,
DRIP,DRIP,DRIP...
-Joe Sellers
