Update
Mood:  happy
I know I need to update. Things have been hectic around here. It is also hard to find the time to update when you have a little one who wants to help you. Brooke wants to press every button she finds on the computer.
Brooke is finally over her sickness. She is eating and feeling much better. She still don't sleep very well. After my last post I was able to get two good nights of rest. I guess God saw I really needed my energy back. I got enough energy to help me be able to go. Some nights I feel like I have no energy left to go. Many nights I end up sleeping in Courtney's bed with Brooke. It is terrible sleep. I am on a twin bed with a baby who wants to move all over the bed. She also like to hit me in the face. Imagine being asleep and waking up with something whamming you in the face. It is not fun. I hope soon she will sleep good again. A couple of nights Brooke has had night terrors. I am not for sure what she is dreaming. She will wake us up screaming. Her scream is terrible and pitiful. When I go to comfort her she is in a daze. She is looking around like she does not know where she is at. I will pick her up and hug her and tell her it is O.K. During times like that I pretty much have to hold her for awhile. She loves the comfort of mommy and does not want down.
Brooke is starting to be like Courtney was when she was a baby. When I rock her to sleep she likes to play with my shirt. The other night I put one of my shirts in her bed hoping that would help her sleep better. I know it is going to take time.
During the day Brooke is the sweetest happiest baby you can find. She is in to everything. She still is not walking. She is trying very hard though. She thinks of it as a game. She will take three steps and then fall to the floor and smile.
Yesterday my wonderful guide XiXi sent me a couple of pictures. They are pictures I will treasure. My guide paid the orphanage to take pictures of Brooke's finding spot. They was able to take 9 families pictures. XiXi picked the prints up and emailed them to me. The place was not as bad as I had pictured. Actually the area around her finding spot was beautiful. It looked like a park. I felt sad as I looked at the pictures and thought about things. Brooke was left in the winter time. I know it was cold. I can't help but smile and think about God's angels right there on each side of Brooke. I know God had His hand on my little girl. God took care of her and placed her in our hearts and home. We love her so much. She is a wonderful blessing to our family.
I don't want to leave my sweet Courtney out. Courtney is also a blessing from God. I know we could have lost Courtney, but God chose to let us keep her. I can never thank God enough for his wonderful blessings to us.
Denna