Chapter 5
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Chapter 5


    “Luke? Luke, is Jess around?” Rory asked as she rushed into the diner. “Um, no he’s not Rory, he left about an hour ago, kind of in a hurry.” Said Luke “Oh.” Said Rory, dejectedly “Ok thanks anyway Luke” Rory turned around and exited again, leaving a truly bewildered Luke behind the counter. She stood outside the diner, having no idea where to start. She gazed around the town square and suddenly smiled to herself, she knew exactly where he was.

    Jess had been sitting on the bridge for almost an hour, and he was only 10 pages into his book. He just couldn’t stop thinking about her, about how it could have been, if he wasn’t such a coward. Most of the 45 minutes he had spent thinking about her had been used by listening to the argument currently going on between his head and his heart. His heart had been telling him how stupid he was not to follow his feelings, and that if he really loved her, as he obviously did, he would dive in head first without regard for the consequences. He had also been saying how love conquered all, so the love he had for her could rule the Roman Empire, it was that strong, and ignoring it could only lead to something worse then heartbreak, so to go find her right now and stop being such a coward. But his head made him stay, that this was the right thing. He was protecting himself from more pain. Jess again tried in vain to focus on his book, and he suddenly became aware of a soft pounding noise getting closer and closer, almost like footsteps. His curiosity finally got the better of him and he looked up, his whole body tensed up. He saw her running toward him, she slowed to a walk as she reached the edge of the bridge, but she kept on walking determinedly. He could feel his heart pounding again, and that familiar flutter in his stomach, his heart was screaming at him to do the right thing, and his head was yelling to run away. She had almost reached him when he tried to speak “Rory, I-“ but she cut him off as she laced her arms around his neck and pressed her lips onto his. Rory was kissing him passionately and with such powerful emotion, and Jess couldn’t believe what he was feeling. At first he was hesitant, but before he knew it the love in his heart was staging a mutiny and taking him over and he finally let it all out, and began to kiss her back. All of the walls he had built were falling down and all of this pent up emotion was pouring out, he was so happy and so scared at the same time, but felt safe with her, for some unexplainable reason he knew it would all turn out right. Then he tasted the salt, she was crying, but when she pulled away he realized some of those tears were his. And as soon as they parted did his head started yelling at him again, telling his to run. Rory just looked at him, ‘Wow, that was amazing’ she thought, it was by far the most passionate and meaningful kiss she had ever shared with anyone, but now he was just staring at her. “Tell me you don’t feel that” she said “Jess look me in the eyes and tell me that we are nothing, and that I am nothing more then a one time mistake to you.” She sounded almost desperate “Rory” he stammered, he was doing all he could to control the waver in his voice and the tears building up behind his eyes “I can’t….I-“ he said but before he could finish Rory cut him off  “Jess yes you can! Yes we can! You know its there, you know you feel it to, God I even felt it in you in that kiss” She cried staring into his deep eyes, she could see all of the pain and raw emotion, but suddenly he became serious, “Rory, do you have any idea what its like to finally kiss the one person you have ever really loved, and then just have her run away without even a goodbye? Like it was a mistake or something? I mean Jesus Rory, I wasn’t expecting a skywriter, but a letter or a phone call, God even morse code, something to tell me you felt the same way to, that you cared the was I did. My heart broke when I found out you had left without goodbye, and it broke again every day that went by without a word from you.” He said, the tears that had been behind his eyes were threatening to come spilling out now. She just looked into his eyes again, searching for words, there was a silence and then the most obvious answer came to her head. “No, Jess, I don’t” she said quietly “But I imagine its something like finally kissing the one person you have ever really loved, and then running away because you are scared and have no idea how to deal with the waves of emotion now flowing over you. And starting countless letters and phone calls to him, but not knowing what to say. Then returning home with the same love in your heart and working up the courage to talk to him, then have him tell you that it was nothing, that it was a mistake. I thought my world was crashing down on me and what you said hurt, it hurt so badly, like a knife cutting through my heart. The love I have for you isn’t even worth comparing with what I felt for Dean. The kind of love we had was safe and comfortable, knowing that if it ended then you would survive. But what I feel for you is borderline dangerous, deep and passionate. It’s a love so deep that I can’t stand not being with you. And when you said what you said I completely broke down and collapsed, my heart physically hurt.” She said quietly, looking right into his eyes the whole time. Jess shifted his eyes; he couldn’t hold her gaze knowing that he had caused the hurt in her eyes. He looked at their reflection in the lake and spoke even quieter then she had. “Rory, I am so sorry, I never wanted to hurt you. I only did it because I was trying to protect my heart from another beating, because Rory, if you ran away again I knew that my heart wouldn’t recover. To be with you is amazing and exhilarating, and exciting, but to be without you…I don’t know, I can’t even describe it. Everything was just a façade put up for self defense, I didn’t mean anything I said. The kiss at Sookie’s wedding meant more to me then any of the relationships I have ever had all put together.” He paused for a second and looked back into her eyes, and the second he did he felt this warmth spread throughout his body, because all he could see in her eyes was love, so he continued “I do want to be with you Rory, I always have. You are the only good thing about my life, the only reason I stayed in Stars Hollow. And now that I think about what I was going to do, I’m realizing how completely stupid I was.” He paused and took a deep breath, almost scared of the words he was about to say, but he swallowed the fear and looked at her, she was so beautiful “I love you Rory Gilmore” he finally said “I always have.” Rory smiled when he said this an she knew that what he was saying was true and spoken from the bottom of his heart. And as she said it to she knew that that was the exact spot from which she was speaking, “I love you to Jess” Jess felt the elation rising up in his body at hose words and it was all he could do to keep from screaming and jumping up and down because he had waited so long to hear that. So instead he bent his head down and kissed her again. Rory leaned into his body and felt his hands running down her sides to find hers, and when they met they clasped onto each other. Rory was so happy…she couldn’t even describe, this was what it was all about, all of the waiting and flirting building up to this moment, and it was perfect. Everything was wonderfully, blissfully perfect.

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