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Shaber Wimberly
Death Row, Z-642
Holman 3700, 5-U-2
Atmore, AL 36503
USA



Titles

  • Another Day
  • A-Friend
  • On the Row
  • You
  • Mistakes
  • Love
  • About Shaber
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  • Another Day

    As I sit here on (Death Row) at the age of 23 years old, I never got to see my 18th, 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd birthday in the free world with my family or friends at all. I never thought and it never crossed my mind, that I would ever end up on death row or spend the rest of my life behind steel doors, walls that don't talk back or even taking a shower on someone elses time.

    Sitting here everyday, missing all my friends and family, missing all the things I use to do and the fun that I use to have. My friends, I don't get to see, unless they come see me, and my family come when they can and there is no more fun to ever be had. All the nights that I have cried, hoping that the next day, they roll my door and say "Wimberly, get your stuff, you're going all the way!"

    It still hasn't happened yet and it may never happen. I never thought it could be me, me out of all people. At the wrong place at the wrong time, now I've got myself in a situation, where if I’m lucky enough not to be executed, I could spend the rest of my life in prison. Missing and wanting momma, sisters and brothers, but none of them can help me at all, bad as they want to, they can't. Never thinking it could be me.

    Even when I wasn't going to school cause I didn’t want to or hanging with the one's I "thought" were my friends. Staying out all night, wanting to be my own man, when I should have been at home, safe and sound. It never crossed my mind, that this would be where I would spend and live the rest of my 1ife time.

    All the people I use to laugh and joke with. Who I "thought"' were my friends to find out the hard way that they wanted what I had to give, that day. The don’t even write to see I'm doing or come to see me on visiting day, not even a birthday card to say "Hey". During all that time I was with them, the ones I called "friends" it never crossed my mind, that they would forget all about me, doing these hard times.

    Now, I worry if I will live or die, when will I go home, worried if I will ever sleep in my own bed, If I will ever go outside on my time and, if I'll get to live in another place that's really mine...

    I never thought...



    A-Friend

    Friend, what a powerful word, even if it’s whispered it still get's heard. Maybe it's the things you do or it’s the things we have learned, from experience, the things we have been through.

    It’s the emotions we have and do share when we're together and me knowing that I can count on you in stormy weather. My friend is there if I'm up or if I'm down, because a true friend is always around. Your make me feel ten feet tall and that's why it's not hard to love you at all. My friend is the best from coast to coast, and since I've been away, it's you, I miss the most.

    Life has given me many hard times, but I've gotten through, but I know I'll always succeed, because I have you. If I could create the world over again, the first thing I'll do is recreate my special friend, though this poem is about to come to an end, let me give thanks to you for being my special friend. Your the only true friend that I have ever had in my life and many sleepless nights, I wonder how it would have been, if I would have made you my wife…

    A-FRIEND

    Shaber Wimberly



    On the Row

    As I wake up to start my day, still hare on the row, which I hate to even say. Here on the row our days are a lot different from others in the free world. Our days, months and years are all the same, day after day, in this same place.

    As I brush my teeth and wash my face, another day on the row, is about to take place. Looking through a little hole in my door, I can see the sun is out, but I'll only get one hour of it and that's something to think about. Here on the row we only get 60 minutes outside a day and the years I’ve been here its always been the same way.

    Standing outside by a fence, that's letting us know that, that's as far as we can go, as I take a look around at some of the others on the row, it seems that everything and everyone is moving so fast. But yet, so slow. It’s hard for us on the row to adjust or be at ease in these surroundings, even though you may know one another, there are still boundaries.

    Five minutes from now, before everyone is headed back inside, to a place that everyone in their own way, have put out many tears and cried. Headed back to my cell and all I hear is the steel doors opening and closing, and in my cell it echoes like loud bells. I take a look around and this is not where I want to be, and I think I can speak for everyone else on that and not just me.

    Looking around my small, unpainted cell, everything is still the same, steel bars four white walls and a concrete floor, it never changes. On the row our cells are not big at all, in reality these cells are so very, very small. It's where I got to live, where I got to stay and the only thing I have to come to each and every day.

    As I wash my hands, getting ready to eat, thinking about home and how things use to be. The food here, it never change, every single day it's seems like the same old thing. We can't argue or fuss, even if we do try, it's still going to be the same old stuff.

    Dinner will be coming soon, I'll still be In this room, daydreaming of happier times, hoping that they arrive soon. Dinner has come and gone and now the lights are on, a guard holla shower time and doors start to roll. They start in the back so neither door is mine, and finally my door opens, and it's my time.

    It's only going to take 10 minutes off the hour, tighten up Wimberly one guard hollers, while another person is waiting for his turn in taka a shower. On the row it's always this way, on their time, their schedule, no matter what we say.

    Laying in my bed looking up at the ceiling, fighting myself with all these lonely, sad and depressing feelings. It's very hard on the row, a lot of people just don’t know, every day it's the same thing with no where to do. As I pray for a better day for everyone on death row, I slide under the covers, close my eyes, knowing another day like this is on the rise.

    On The Row…

    Shaber Wimberly

    Written July, 2002



    Mistakes

    Mistakes, that's what I've made, over and over again and it's not hard foe me to say that I'm sorry again.

    Sometimes things come out, not what I mean, even though I say it, it's not what it may seem and it's not what you heard, but it's not me being mean. I've said things I shouldn't have and did things that was wrong, but I know that I won' t do anything knowingly to damage our, unexplainable and indescribable bond.

    What you bring to my life is more than I can find words to say, how you make me feel can’t be described or said on paper in any way. The way you make me feel when I'm next to you, is something that only you can do. When I hear your soft, sweet, mesmerizing voice, it's like a Clash of all the things we use to do, as time passed and all the small things that's made what we have last.

    If it was day or night, night or day, through rain, sleet, hail, or snow, you have always been there for me with an open door. I know actions speak louder than words and that I would love more than anything to show, especially being I've been stupid and said things I know I shouldn't have to you.

    Sometimes my emotions get the best of me, knowing how bad I hurt you boo; leaves an emptiness in my heart that aches only for you. I’m sorry - precious , that's what I'm trying to say, I made another stupid mistake and my emotions got the best of me that day.

    I know that I've put you through a lot and even more since the situation at hand and that shines light on you're the only woman for me, that I want in my life, then, now and until the end. I know what I said, hurt you and I admit I made another big mistake boo. But know the love I have is only a table for 2 and that will be me and you.

    Shaber wimberly



    You

    As I sit here wondering are you okay, are you happy and how was your day. Hoping one of your thoughts is of me, knowing I have many of you, day in and day out.

    You're like the ocean, that will always stay beautiful, like the perfect flowers , that gives you a warm feeling for unaccountable amount of hours, you're like rain on a very hot day, it's always good to hear, speak or see you. Which ever way. Your love is like a water fall that continues to flow, your scent is indescribable, it's as if I smell you every time the wind blows, your eyes are like diamonds, I look in them forever and your smile is like the sun, brightens up my day in every way.

    You’re like that one movie that I can't get enough of, you’re like that first car that one will always love, your so beautiful , I wonder if you was sent from above, If I could find one word to describe you, I would be lying, cause words can't complete anything, in any way, about you...

    Shaber Wimberly




    Love

    Why do we wonder why!

    People are going to say, people are going to do, whatever it takes to hold on to the ones they love, me being loving you. Sometimes I wonder why things got the way they do and many heart breaking things happen between me and you.

    I know I have did things in the past to make you wanna say things and do things to protect your emotions and feelings, but my love will never allow me to hurt you boo. It's just so overwhelming to have love like I do for you, it's not something I’m not use to, but the way it makes me feel, I have no problem with it, cause it's love for you.

    Love, what a powerful word, even if it's all whispered, it still gets heard. Maybe it's the things you do or it's all the rough times we have been through, that has made me love you the way that I do. Mayba it's the emotions that we share, from being together or me knowing I can count on you any day or night , even in stormy weather.

    My Love, if I'm up or down, I feel you near me mentally and emotionally as if physically your around. You make me feel 10 feet tall and that's only one reason why it's not hard to care, love and want you at all. I've been places and I’ve seen things, but nothing or no-one has ever made me feel the way that you do and that's one of the uncountable reasons why I love and miss you boo.

    Life has thrown another hard time my way, but knowing my love for you runs deep as the ocean; provides for me to make it day after day. If I had special or magical powers to do anything I wanted to, there would be one thing I sure wouldn't do and that is, I wouldn't change one thing about you. Oh, how weak you make me feel, when I'm near or even think of the love I have for you.

    Shaber Wimberly



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