HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVEY
My Dear Destiny today you turn 5, mommy has brought you some yellow roses I left a few at your condo site and pray the ground crews do not move them.

You are in every breathe I take and everything I do I know you are with me. It is going on the six months since of you left this earthly shell and I want you to know there is not a moment I do not miss you.

At times my still weep and pray hard for the strenght daily to move forward because of you I am able to help other families and wanting to help other kids with medical needs. You gave me a compassion to share with others and help them know they are not alone most importantly to help the parents so they can move onto the next day.
Providing mommy this insight I only pray to use this blesses in everyday.

- LOVEY-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY what a better why to have a party in heaven with JESUS and the rest of the family members.
love,
mommy

I have had problems with webpage-
All is going well, I am painting different walls in the house I was able to put my living room and dining room curtains.

I've been very blessed to have this house, the peace I am given knowing the work going into the house is becoming a home. No pictures on the walls yet to many walls to decide on all the photos I have.

Destiny's birthday is coming up on October 17th, next sunday, the week after I am going to have my housewarming party and a cake for Destiny.

Still having trouble with my phone off and on working on it my cell is the best to leave messages.

Wanting to let you know my heart is here and I am able to check my email at mom and dad's on sundays so if I do not return your answer right away know sunday is when I check it.

Our friend Brooke is going home soon after spending 3 months at the hospital.

Our little buddy Landon is up to 16 pounds he looks like a different kid all together. GREAT JOB-
Landon's grandpa passed away last week and our prayers go out to the family.

A close friend of the families Sarah is going in for a triple bypass surgery on 10/20/04
please keep her in your prayers along with her family. God willing I will go sit up at the hospital with her children and will post later on.

My cousin Edna went in for another knee surgery, lift her and the family in close prayer to comfort them.

GOD BLESS you all,
love
Ruth

Try this again
I have been unpacking and it feels like Christmas with all the items I am finding. My stuff has been in boxes for years.
Trying to paint room by room the laundry room, hallway is done my room is half way done.

Still having trouble with the phone line just try my cell 230-0495. It is incredible receiving mail at my new address.


Once the phone is working I will post from home MTA needs to come out AGAIN---

All my thanks and prayers go with you.

I bought me a Marlin
Well many days have changed since I last posted--
I did some heavy praying was able to get some final answers as of Friday August 13th I closed on the house it is offically MINE---- I moved my stuff today the only thing I need to move in is the refridgerator and extra freezer that I have in Cindy and Cliff's.
I put all the stuff in the garage until I am able to paint all the rooms and living space. I have asked a couple of the church members to come over and give the house a blessing. I am kind of wanting this to be done before I start unpacking.
I am house sitting for Cindy and Cliff for the next two weeks and I plan to -s l o w l y -- unpack my stuff.
I made a second run to the house to get all of my plants which filled the front and back seat of my car.
I am off next friday--for those who want to take a drive going northbound on the glenn highway take the north eagle river exit at the stop light turn left on the old glenn highway turn left on fire eagle way.

Thank you so much for the emails after I bought the house. It means so much to me, many blessing and alot of peace overall.
Love Ruth

I am going to walk away from the house- stay with me
I have prayed hard for this answer-
Around 4:30 the mortgage company called they have the packet from the contractor however they wanted to know about the cash deposits I made to my account for about $1500 that I made in three payments to my account I informed them it was birthday money.

Because I do not have a list of everyone who sent me cash for my birthday they can not accept my offer on the house here is why.
Any "gift" money's have to not only have a name but a printout from each person from there bank account for the last 30 days to show they had the funds in there account. Now those of you who sent checks for the most part you will notice I never cashed them. Now this gets better my Realtor is now on vacation for two weeks and the person who started all my paperwork at the mortgage company is on vacation as well.

Stay with me- I am going to walk away there is no way this house would close by tomorrow for the what they want. They want a family member to gift me now $5800, a 30 printout from there bank, a copy of the check they are giving me and the deposit showing it cleared there bank and the deposit into my account along with another 30 day printout.
So here is the plan I am going to set aside the money I would be paying for mortgage payments for the next 6 to 7 months in my savings account then be able to walk with with $7000 to $8000 and say this is what I want and this is my offer GOD has a plan for me to have something better and maybe bigger who knows its not for me to question I am going to follow it.
This means the person who buys my house must need this house really bad. They will have a great start and alot of blessings.
SO I am going to be paying off most of my debt over the next 6 months I actually feel good about not buying this house now here is something special for me it is a great feeling to know I was able to buy a house for $170,000.00 by myself with no help maybe once my debt is paid I can buy something for more. NOT that I need a bigger place just maybe a duplex or 4 plex like I always wanted to do.
I going to call MTA to keep my phone number and hook it up to voice mail only so when I do move out there I have a history with a company and not have to pay a deposit.
Alot of good can come out of all of this so now it means I must reorganize all the boxes I have and be ready when the time is right-
I will post more tonight

Title company had no paperwork
I did my walk through this morning marking the walls, countertops, and carpet with blue tape. The painters were starting to repaint the areas when I left.
I was headed back to town when my real estate agent called to tell me the title company does not have the paperwork, the mortgage company does not have the contractor's sign off papers. I provided the mortgage company with a current bank statement to show the amount for closing.
If this paperwork goes through and we close no later then thursday 8/5/04 I will still be able to buy the house I am just praying about it.
I will let you know as I know.


PS-
Did I tell you I call MTA to get my phone hooked up the lady I spoke with was Destiny--was that GOD or what?
Once this is final I will let you know the number.
Ruth

Being at the right place at the right time
I went to church this morning and was filled with the spirit. AWESOME.


Afterwards I stopped by the hospital to see Beth, Bob and Landon he was all smiles. I took in the CD of photos I copied for Beth I need to take her some photo paper. If all is correct Landon should be going home this week. They have the fever and infection under control the doctors will retest his labs during the week.
While walking around I was able to meet two of the mothers who children are in ICU critical. What a blessing to me. Both Beth and I gave her a hug and offered support. To do God's work I was really touched and realized how much I miss being a part of the hospital.
I ask all of you to pray for all of these families at the hospital to trust GOD and allow them to see in the hearts of there children the work that is to be done daily.
As for myself I trust the LORD with all my heart and if I am meant to close on tuesday then that is what to happen if not it means I am to wait. I enjoyed church so much today my cup is overflowing.
I have asked for tuesday 8/3/04 and thursday 8/5/04 off from work to be able to do the walk through and close on tuesday and on thursday to start moving, then come friday and saturday I can start unpacking to call my house a home. Even though I can call my house a home anywhere my heart is.
I plan to copy Destiny's feetprints/handprints
the feetprints on the steps going into the house and the handprints will be paints in the hallcloset to put coat racks in them.

I would like to address some of the emails lately- some have asked what is needed for the house I will not ask I will just say what is in your heart.
I have been blessed in so many ways just having all of you a part of my lives. Many of you have given and made me cry the thoughtfullness is overwhelming. I have always been the one to take care of others and would give the shirt off my back to those who ask but I seem to have a hard time when others do for me all I can say is THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.

I have put in for my phone to be hooked up 8/6/04. Once the papers are signed and recorded I will prove my address and phone number by a email to all.

After being a the hospital with Beth and Landon just confirms how much I want to help others. I want to be able to share Destiny's story.
I want to help other families know they are not alone.

Our little buddy is in the hospital
Landon is back in the hospital he arrived with his mom on 7/28/04 by flight. I was visiting yesterday and had taken Landon's mom Beth out to see my house in Eagle River while Landon was napping he spiked a fever to 105.3 the staff quickly called us on the cell phone and we were 15 minutes from the hospital we were headed back already to be back by 2pm when we got behind this person in a turn lane with her blinker on not to mention the third car back but she just stayed and would not move finally Beth yelled out the window to move as we drove by this woman gave me the middle finger I waved back and said have a nice day as we drove by. It is times like that I wish my car horn was still working it wouldn't have done anygood but since I honked at everything the horn no longer makes a sound.

There are a some very seriouly hurt children in the hospital right now please lift these families up in your prayers this were 8 kids. Please also pray for the nurses who are taking care of these children for the strenght and courage they need facing these families daily with hard times yet unknown.

As I said upon going to the house on wednesday the carpet padding was put in for the carpets to be done on thursday all the sinks, toilets were put in on thursday as well. Even the stove and dishwasher are in place as I was leaving friday one of the painters was there doing the touchup on all the areas marked with blue tape. The house look wonderful I also do not want to unpack. The plan is to sign on Tuesday, the house will record on wednesday. I am not counting my chickens just yet just wanting to let all of you know the progress. The contractor just needs the cleaning crew to come in for the details.

Today is kind of overcast I am looking out the windows and noticing the leaves are changing color already. BUMMER-

One of the neighborhood kids was here last night playing with my nephew when all of a sudden he asked Jordan why I had a car seat in my car -
Jordan says its was Destiny's and she went to heaven this little boy said where's that Jordan said its in TEXAS.
That gave me such a chuckle to hear the kids talk like this. Also sad to know this little boy did not know heaven.

I am going to close for now- GOD Bless you all for being a part of our lives.
Ruth

Destiny jumping in every puddle in heaven
I think she is restless to have it rain two days in a row, I pulled into the driveway tonight and almost splashed in the puddle just because I believe Destiny was seeing if I was going too since she is.

Knowing I can not save all the little kids in the world I can show them GOD's love and help one child at a time to give the Love they deserve and need.
I can be the person who can raise the voice for a child who can not. I went to class tonight I know GOD will show me the way.

As far as the house, the program FHA first time home owner is concerned that that I have missed anywhere from 5 to 6 months of work for the last three years ( they know about Destiny)
the difference to what I make hourly is nothing close to what I should be making.
So now they want to know see 3 months of payment and my downpayment in my account. I have faxed over my 401K information to show them money in reserves. I am not going to fret over this GOD will see me through - yes I would love to have this house but if GOD is wanting me to wait then I will wait. The mortgage company is sending over the paperwork to the title company but they are now projecting walk through and closing date 8/3/04.
If I am unable to close by this date I will not be able to buy this house I will need to pay another months worth of interest at this time if we close on the 3rd they will roll back the interest to the end of July.
I am not worried I am just trusting.
I plan to check on the house tomorrow as of last week they needed to put in my flooring, carpet, toilets, sinks, dishwasher, and stove and hood.

My walk in closet was framed wrong instead of having sliding double doors it now has a single door entrance that looks tacky they had to frame in the one side, tape, mud and paint- at least I know there are not alot of studs behind the wall to tear out later.

-not about the house
My sister came home from work today I am on the verge of crying.
She had a lady came into the the office with a five month old and pregnant again she is not from america and is marked as of monday July 26, 2004 this woman will be sent back to El Salvador.
This young woman is under the age of 18 and was actually considering leaving her 5 month old with a friend of here who just had a baby herself so that the baby would have a chance in the US.
Now that is a hard choice to make not knowing this woman or what is put in her path and I thought the worries of a new constructed home was alot.

I am not going to worry about this house it is my hearts desire to have my own home I am to have faith-
I would cry just as hard as when Destiny's earthly shell was taken from the hospital by the memorial chapel. I am at a place in my life to begin a new chapter of life (a chance to move out of mom and dad's basement now don't get me wrong I love my parents its just time to grow up.)