Tell me how have we grown so far apart in the
years? We shared the same wound for nine months and slowly we grew so far
apart over the years.
We shared the same crib and bed wrapped in our
separate blankets. In the night we would end up unwrapped with
our arm around each other.
The adults in our lives slowly pushed us apart by
comparing us with each other. I felt a distance beginning when I
failed a grade and then our father made it loud and clear that
you were more intelligent.
I failed a grade because I could not see the
blackboard or read and needed glasses so very badly.
As the years went by the competition was so
overwelming to me. Trying to be like you so that our parents
would be proud of me also however the more I tried, the more I
failed to meet their expectation.
Even as an adult when I accomplished getting
certificates from college and award from school it was not
important cause in their eyes you accomplish more.
You were not responsible for the distance we
had as children but as adult you chose not to have anything to do
with me.
One day over fifteen years ago you told me
"never to phone you again if all I could do was to talk
about the past".
I needed validation and information from you
but instead you closed the door and have not heard from each
other in years.
Just because I let out the shameful secret.
More than 15 years later we meet again and still you do not want
to hear my cry and you want to sweep everything under the rug.
I need to be heard by my twin and yet the
denial stand in the way of us being close.
Have we grown so far apart in distance and in
our heart because I feel unheard by my twin sister?
I suffer chronic pain in silence and can not
reach out to my twin sister because I know from trying in the
past that she is not able to hear my cry.
